Wired Differently: A psychological profile written by its subject

by Anonymous

This book isn’t a confession or a cry for help. It’s an inside look at how someone with Antisocial Personality Disorder sees and understands the world. Not the version you find in textbooks or movies, but the real one. Thoughts, impulses, love, control, morality, all stripped down to what they actually feel like from the inside.

You’ll see how I was wired, how I learned, how I loved, and what I believe. But along the way, you’ll start noticing your own patterns reflected back at you.

By the time you reach the end, you won’t just understand me, you’ll understand the version of you that built me while reading.

Genres: Psychology, Nonfiction, Thriller, Psychological, Philosophy, Memoir, Mental Health

64 pages, Kindle Edition

Published October 28, 2025

About the author

Books can be attributed to "Anonymous" for several reasons:

* They are officially published under that name
* They are traditional stories not attributed to a specific author
* They are religious texts not generally attributed to a specific author

Books whose authorship is merely uncertain should be attributed to Unknown.

See also: Anonymous

Reviews

[Maximoo]

I loved this, and honestly this person had so many valid points and such an interesting perspective. What a way to close off my reading goal.

[Malak♡]

Pre-read
I saw someone post about this a while ago and I kinda wanna read it, it sounds interesting

[Ashley Shane]

Bro I'm having a terrible crush on this dude wtf

[Dahlia]

𓏲 ๋࣭  ࣪ 5🌟
Just to be clear this rating isnt based on the content of the book or its ideas but more on my level of enjoyment (which is clear lol)

Okeyyy so finally done with this one , and am proud to say i took all the time on earth to finish this 50 pages book.

This one was really interesting, you dont really know what your reading about, an anonymous person who writes about their morals , values and flaws and what they believe , reading about his perspective was truly interesting.
From the reviews I've seen you either enjoy this book or hate or , you either see the author as an anonymous person with a disorder who explains how he reacts and how he thinks or an egocentric self absorbed narrator, both points are valid to be honest.

The author takes us through different stages of his life , his childhood how they use their logic to interact with people and analyse what best behavior compliments the situation or the person , then his adolescence where he discovers that there are no real morals, nothing thst separated good from bad , but more of a flexible belief they had that benefited them and their convenience "instinct vs intension".
To then go to emotions and how he differed in them , some he felt at normal levels , some he didnt feel at all .
Later on he talks about love and three relationship that marked him (oh how he pissed me in in this chapter ) , the author treated his relationships as experiences to see if he could stay faithfull , how long, and how . Or if he could handle comitement since he had that desire to become a father .
His acts were understandable, even if i didnt really agree with him.

And finally, he talks on the difference between good and bad , what defines something as good ir bad, are they just terms we set or laws he have to follow because of rules or religion etc .
He then made it clear he was going to say something most people would agree onom religion , and says that religion makes you obedient, and obedience isnt morality etc.

As I said before and will say again , I didnt agree with all his points but I respected them . In the end you realise that you weren't actually reading about him , but more of a reflection of yourself , how you reacted, agreed or disagreed .
Each readers experience is different, based on what you agree on , dont agree on etc , which made it more interesting and felt like actually reading about you and your morals .


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This one seems really interesting plus its short so whats better than a short psychological reflection book 🤷‍♀️

[Lynx Point Reads]

This book is a little different than what I normally read. It’s not a fiction novel, nor is it even a proper story. “It’s more like a diary, fragments of thought, memory, and observation,” as the author so perfectly explains.

Part of what drew me in and led me to start reading this autobiography is the way the author bears their soul for us to see. Giving us a first hand insight into their life to maybe help us understand a group of people that are generally only portrayed in an educational or negative setting, if they’re acknowledged at all. I tend to enjoy psychological novels and learning about psychology in general. Since I haven’t seen many (if any) published first hand accounts of someone who’s aware they function a bit differently, this book intrigued me greatly.

My chapter summaries normally contain spoilers. For this review, they do not. I felt that doing so would minimize the experience I might convey to everyone. (Some things might be taken as spoilers. I tried to make them more like bullets or book blurbs. You know the gist of what you’re gonna read, but the rest of the text is still a surprise.) It’s important to note that I wrote each one as I finished the chapter, not all at the end.

Author, if you somehow stumble upon this, I hope my take is interesting.

Wired Differently
The author introduces themselves as someone who’s never truly been seen. Each person in their life sees a different them. The them that person wants. No matter how ‘close’ someone is to the author, they’ll only ever see a carefully curated mask. But not us.

We’re urged to mentally create a face for the author. To build and modify it as we read and learn more about them. I’ll add my mental description like this.

Blueprints.
Our first chapter is about the author’s childhood. How they viewed the world. How they learned the environment. How they came to understand others.

We’re shown how the author applies logic and sorts the world around them when they’re not yet aware that’s what they’re doing. How they learn not everyone sees life the same way they do. How contradictory and hypocritical some people are.

They describe how they naturally compliment (compliment may not be the best word) whoever they’re interacting with. Subtly becoming whatever will help them observe and influence the person best. Masking. Some of the behavior described would be a trauma response for most people. For the author, it’s just how they function.

The author starts out as a little boy to me. A child who’s just old enough to be trusted out in the backyard by himself. Bright eyed and fluffy, brown hair that needs to be trimmed. Can’t really be described as a happy, bubbly kid, but he’s nearly always content. I imagine he’s never without some kind of dirt from his explorations. Constantly fidgeting with whatever is in his vicinity as he learns and experiments.

As it’s implied the author ages, they turn almost genderfluid in my mind. On their own, they just are. The shift in perspective happens when they interact with others. Mostly a boy, but sometimes a girl. Instead of a mask, it’s an entire costume. I’m unsure why I mentally shift them. Not a single interaction described points to any gender.

Inside the Wires.
The author starts by explaining different sections of the brain. How they’re supposed to function, and then how they function for the author. Not how they don’t function, because they do, just not at the typical level. The author gives us general examples of how the functions would normally help or hinder someone. They explain how their interactions are objectively better without them.

When morality is brought up, we’re asked “instinct vs intention?” I read it as a hypothetical question, because that’s what’s easiest for me. I took a moment to think about which I’d prefer, then proceeded to go back and forth so much, I stopped for fear of blue screening myself.

Next, we dive into emotion. Anger, sadness, happiness, guilt, empathy, etc. The author experiences some emotions at a normal level. Some are muted, but present. Some are there, but different. Some don’t really show up at all. To me, the differentiating factor seems to be reliance on supposed morals or other feelings (sadness, guilt, empathy) vs pure emotion or situational reactions (anger, happiness, excitement). However, this isn’t a rule. It’s just the box I put things in to perhaps better understand the author. They might think my box is completely incorrect. Even I couldn’t perfectly fit everything they described into it.

In this chapter, I started to view the author as a young man. Still genderless during their explanations, but a man during their anecdotes. Someone in their late teens or early twenties. Not necessarily turning heads, but easy on the eyes. A mess of still fluffy hair with (when they can finally grow it) some short, well-kept facial hair.

Law of attraction.
The author now switches gears and talks about love. How he views romantic love not as a feeling, but as a challenge. A goal. A prize. Something that loses its sparkle once obtained.

The way the author treats romantic relationships, quite frankly, pisses me off. He behaves in a way that is sure to leave the other person feeling like shit. That said, this is my opinion. My morals. This far into the book, we’ve already learned that the author doesn’t subscribe to typical morals. He’s simply explaining, not asking for our opinions or for us to agree with him.

Once I got over my initial reaction, I quite enjoyed the anecdotes shared with us. I was honestly surprised by some of them. The way the author reacted to certain scenarios was wildly different than I originally expected. I thought I had a handle on how the author thinks, but all I had was a small piece.

I’m now only imagining the author as a man. The way he describes himself at this point (as wanting to be a father) makes it hard to see him as anything but. Same visuals as before.

Layers of belief
For our final chapter, the author talks about good and bad. Religion and ego. What, and who, defines good and bad? Will you still label an act bad when it’s you who’s forced to commit it?

Surprisingly, I agreed with nearly all that was said here. I may not follow everything in practice, but I definitely share similar sentiments.

Once more, my visualisation hasn’t changed much. Though, perhaps, the author now seems more like someone I would be around. I’d like to see him theorize or have a philosophical debate with someone.

Side note: Seeing “good” and “bad” so many times in the beginning got The One From Dark by Midnight Tyrannosaurus stuck in my head.

I was. (Epilogue)
We’re left with a goodbye. A reflection. A name.

I really enjoyed reading this book. A major part of me is my joy for learning. Figuring things out. This perspective provided that. Not a complete guide, but a better understanding.

[Roxy☁️]

Ok mijo

[Wes]

It feels wrong to “rate” something so personal and transparent but this was such an interesting and insightful read! I found myself smiling and agreeing with so many points.

[Emilie Fletcher]

What drew me in and led me to read this autobiography is the way the author bares their soul for us to interpret and understand. He gives us a first hand insight into his life to try and help us understand him, and others like him, who are usually portrayed in a very negative way.

I did enjoy this and found that he had a lot of valid points and a very interesting perspective. What made it more engaging was that he did not present himself through the typical violent characterisation of a psychopath that the media often relies on. Instead, he shows a much more calculated version of himself and how he uses that throughout his life, from his teenage years into adulthood.

At times, it did become repetitive. He tends to over analyse everything and frequently refers to studies and definitions to compare his perspective with that of a “normal” person, which happens quite often throughout the book. While I did agree with a number of his thoughts and views on life, whether that be religion or human behaviour in general, it sometimes felt like too much.

In the end, I think the title is what drew me in the most, but it did not fully live up to the expectation I had going into it. It felt more like an extended information dump from the perspective of someone with ASPD. I can understand why many readers may sympathise with the author, but for me it did not fully land, and I was left feeling more irritated than impacted.

[Angel]

Just a quick note for those who’ve read it or are about to. It’s a good read, and the new perspective is genuinely valuable. That said, let’s not forget that people with ASPD are often skilled liars, something he openly admits. I’m not claiming the book is pure fiction, but stretching, shaping, or selectively revealing truths to serve his goals seems entirely plausible.

The real question is: is he showing us who he actually is, or who he wants us to see? Starting an active Instagram account right after publishing an anonymous book isn’t insignificant. Curiosity is human, and he clearly knows how to feed it. Set your emotions aside for a moment. Don’t project the version of him you’d like to see. Form your own opinion.

In any case, this experience if we can call it this way seems to be a great way to fight boredom, given how you keep fueling it. It’s easy to spot the performance tho. I see your design, but it’s a bit too classic to work. Even so, it’s a good book. So are we your entertainment, or are you ours?

[✼ Hollie ✼]

Part of me felt like I was getting a stern talking-to whilst reading this, and the other part of me felt vaguely intrigued. Although I did find the writing pretentious and repetitive more often than not - frequently focusing on one point and ‘expanding’ upon it more and more until the same point had been made numerous times across multiple pages without so much as a change in wording - I’d swiftly remind myself who wrote this book and it’d all make sense again. Pop off.

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“Maybe some people never meet themselves. Or maybe meeting yourself is the one thing you can’t do while you’re still busy being everyone else.”

[Scott Thomas Myatt]

An interesting read to say the least. I can identify and relate to a lot of the viewpoints of the author on a personal level. However most of the book just feels like self-serving boasting and doesn't really feel genuine at all.

I would expect someone with this type of disorder to explore more about their darker thoughts if they really were "baring it all". I can't claim to have stood in the authors shoes, but I know with my own struggles with my brain its nowhere near as fancifically structured and as "clean" as its written in this book.

[vintelia]

This was a really interesting read.

[vanesa ୨ৎ˚⋆]

𝙸𝚝’𝚜 𝚚𝚞𝚒𝚝𝚎 𝚍𝚒𝚜𝚝𝚞𝚛𝚋𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚑𝚘𝚠 𝚖𝚞𝚌𝚑 𝚘𝚏 𝚢𝚘𝚞𝚛𝚜𝚎𝚕𝚏 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚏𝚒𝚗𝚍 𝚋𝚎𝚝𝚠𝚎𝚎𝚗 𝚒𝚝𝚜 𝚙𝚊𝚐𝚎𝚜. 𝙰𝚗𝚍 𝚒𝚝’𝚜 𝚎𝚟𝚎𝚗 𝚌𝚛𝚎𝚎𝚙𝚒𝚎𝚛, 𝚠𝚑𝚎𝚗 𝚒𝚝 𝚐𝚘𝚝 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚗𝚔𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚒𝚏 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚙𝚎𝚛𝚜𝚘𝚗 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚊𝚞𝚝𝚑𝚘𝚛 𝚠𝚊𝚜 𝚛𝚎𝚏𝚎𝚛𝚛𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚝𝚘, 𝚠𝚊𝚜 𝚖𝚘𝚜𝚝 𝚘𝚏 𝚝𝚑𝚎 𝚝𝚒𝚖𝚎 𝚈𝙾𝚄.

⊱❀⊰ 𝑇ℎ𝑒 𝑚𝑜𝑟𝑒 𝑣𝑒𝑟𝑠𝑖𝑜𝑛𝑠 𝑜𝑓 𝑚𝑦𝑠𝑒𝑙𝑓 𝐼 𝑐𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑡𝑒𝑑, 𝑡ℎ𝑒 ℎ𝑎𝑟𝑑𝑒𝑟 𝑖𝑡 𝑏𝑒𝑐𝑎𝑚𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑟𝑒𝑚𝑒𝑚𝑏𝑒𝑟 𝑤ℎ𝑖𝑐ℎ 𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑤𝑎𝑠 𝑡ℎ𝑒 “𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑙” 𝑜𝑛𝑒. ⊱❀⊰

⊱❀⊰ 𝐷𝑜 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑘𝑛𝑜𝑤 𝑤ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑎𝑟𝑒? ⊱❀⊰

⊱❀⊰ 𝑀𝑎𝑦𝑏𝑒 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑠𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑐ℎ 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑦𝑜𝑢𝑟𝑠𝑒𝑙𝑓 𝑖𝑠𝑛’𝑡 𝑎𝑏𝑜𝑢𝑡 𝑑𝑖𝑔𝑔𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑑𝑒𝑒𝑝 𝑢𝑛𝑡𝑖𝑙 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑓𝑖𝑛𝑑 𝑡ℎ𝑒 𝑐𝑜𝑟𝑒. 𝑀𝑎𝑦𝑏𝑒 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑑𝑖𝑔 𝑓𝑜𝑟𝑒𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑎𝑛𝑑 𝑑𝑖𝑠𝑐𝑜𝑣𝑒𝑟 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑒’𝑠 𝑛𝑜 𝑐𝑜𝑟𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑓𝑖𝑛𝑑. 𝐴𝑛𝑑 𝑖𝑓 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑒’𝑠 𝑛𝑜𝑡ℎ𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑟𝑒, 𝑖𝑠 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑎 𝑝𝑟𝑜𝑏𝑙𝑒𝑚? 𝑂𝑟 𝑖𝑠 𝑡ℎ𝑎𝑡 𝑓𝑟𝑒𝑒𝑑𝑜𝑚? ⊱❀⊰

[Eva S]

4,5⭐️
I feel… understood.
I really loved this book, just hope it was longer tho.

These quotes👌
“i didn't sit there plotting ways to challenge morality. I just noticed the pattern. The same adult who told me lying was wrong would turn around and tell me to say they weren't home when someone called. The same parent who told me to be polite would talk to a felon like they were dirt.”

“With some people, I was the quiet one. Eyes lowered, small smile, nodding just enough to seem attentive. With others, I was bold. Leaning forward, keeping eye contact until they were the ones to glance away. Sometimes I played the listener, letting people pour themselves into me like I was an empty glass.
Sometimes I was the talker, filling the space before they could.”

“I've been held at knife point more than once. And every time, the feeling that rose was more irritation than fear. Losing ten bucks for lunch or the phone in my pocket seemed like a bigger violation than the knife itself. Fight or flight never really kicked in. Compliance never crossed my mind. To me, the bigger threat was being submissive to someone who hadn't earned it.”

“I do not drown in someone else s emotions, but I can see them. If someone is sad, I may not feel the sadness bleeding into me as most people would, but I can recognize the signs, the shift in their voice, the drop in posture, the shortening of words and respond in a way that helps them. Not because my body forces me, but because my brain reads it.
Some people call that fake. I do not. Because in the end, whether the comfort comes from instinct or intention, the person still feels comforted. And that is the point.”

“I do care, but on my terms.
Conditional. Egoistic. The kind of love that says, "I'll give you everything, but it's because I want to, not because I'm built to.”

[princess]

the person who wrote this sees it as a game, i guarantee he stalks his book reviews regularly to identify who sees him for who he really is. after all, he wrote an entire book to allow people to look into his mind, why? for validation? for recognition? or to play with our heads by asking for people to create portraits of him, by attaching his instagram knowing many would be fascinated from how he thinks, by offering us little parts of himself..his name, his cat, his cds, it’s all a game to him. perhaps he wrote this as an attempt to understand himself, or seeking to be understood and accepted. overall i find this so very interesting, and i wonder what the author seeks

i see u put my review on your story. i think you check the reviews regularly to see everyone’s input, because you care about how people perceive you, but not in the way you’d think. you care about being seen, you care about the fascination others have over you along with the hatred people form for you from a few chapters of a book dedicated to the inside of your mind. you feed off of it. i think there’s a certain thing you wanted from publishing that book, recognition ofcourse, fame not so much. but i think the true purpose was to search for somebody who forms an understanding of who you are and desires to discover more. that book wasn’t enough, it’s like a little peek into a reality that exists for very little in this world. it’s intriguing and you should write another, if you haven’t started already?

[eden]

why would u pretend to be a psychopath ?

[Evy S]

How do you rate a book that promises to change the way you see the world, yourself or psychopaths, yet doesn’t shift your perspective at all?

It feels like this book is more for people who never really look inward, who don’t question society or reflect on how different people can be.

It wasn’t a bad book, not at all. It just wasn’t for me. It didn’t give me anything.

[Avy]

inside the thoughts of a psychopath that wants you to judge him and urself. got a bit repetitive towards the end

[R.]

I always say I’m never trusting booktok again and yet here I am.

[Odessa]

EDIT: for the people wondering about the car design he has on IG, it’s a Toyota Celica 7th gen from… 2004 if i’m not mistaken. you’re welcome <3 (gracias a los colombianos q me ayudaron)

This book felt almost as refreshing as being dragged to the restricted part on the top of a cruise ship just to be under the stars. That same person breaking the silence and saying “can i be honest?” then having the deepest and unforgettable conversation ever. So deep that you lose track of time, so unforgettable that you’ll crave to feel that sensation again. i say “almost” cause a moment like that is more appreciated where it’s raw and face-to-face.

When i saw the concept of the “mirror”, i couldn’t help but feel amused, cause of how true it was, and how certain you were of it. I’m as empathetic as the vast majority, but reading this and understanding it wasn’t me being empathetic. It was more like having my morality dug up and explained to me, making me face myself. Not only that, but facing the fact that i am bored to smithereens, but that’s on me. Watching society be so hyper-focused on being pretty and predictable makes me crave a more unsettling perspective, like mine. It’s more like daring fate to bring me something interesting, or someone, i don’t know yet.

I’ve loved humanity in an anthropocentric kind of way (it wasn’t always like that). Which made me devoted to psychology, reading this only amplified that. But yeah, i’ll give an example. Cocoa, we all know that it tastes better when sweetened, but what if you take away the sugar? yeah, it tastes bitter, but there are people that still like it, yeah it’s only a few people but it doesn’t change the fact that it’s still cocoa. That’s how i view humanity. We all bleed the same color, so why are people so quick to demonize? It’s a naive view but i’m just being honest here. I’ve tested that belief many times to see if it faltered, and it has, i wasn’t shocked though, just made me face that i’m human, but it also made me question it over and over. why am i scared of my own species? why can’t i control my emotions? it made me a total control freak just to dodge cognitive dissonance.

Okay, last one. Third and Fourth chapter made me really face myself. The boredom and Agnosticism. I’ve buried my morality just to blend in, even if i couldn’t make total sense of it, instead, i became a person of integrity and somewhat purity. I’m a stickler when it comes to substances and messy behavior, i got use to calling people out on their impulses, knowing damn well that if let myself go i wouldn’t be any better. The point is, i’ve gotten picky with the whole concept of dating, “if you want me to take you seriously, make me”, something like that. Falling in love fast? boring. A healthy relationship? boring. familiarity? boring. No complexity? boring. Not able to think deep or handle me? ugh, don’t get me started. I get it, i’m picky, but i’d rather have a person that makes me rethink things and finally take a risk than “i love you for who you are”. Make me change my mind. Make me think that you are worth my time, make me sacrifice it. And if you can do that, as the writer said, “make me sharper”. Make me live and not regret it.
Anyway, and as much as i get pushed into religion, i just don’t get it. Jeez, if i even try i always end up talking myself out of it somehow.

side note: As cold as this book seemed, reading it felt warm. Still trying to make sense of that.

All the yap aside, great book, great writer, highly recommend <3

[Anya]

This book felt like I was listening to this persons own internal monologue: intriguing and disturbing all at once. It constantly reminds you that what you are reading is through a tinted lens, with reality being slightly distorted, leaving your imagination to fill in the gaps. Even after, I am haunted by the question of if society can ever truly be objective.

[Jill]

Dit was niet echt een boek maar meer korte fragmenten uit iemands leven en gedachten over bepaalde onderwerpen als iemand met ASPD. Vond t wel erg interessant tho, zaten ook veel goede punten in

[Jaya Jadoenath]

4.5

[Sneha]

AI slop. The author did not say anything unique, special, or even a fresh take on anything.

[Kim]

I’m not rating this book with a score. It feels (ironic word to use) wrong to give a person a score based on their personality. Because that’s this book, someone’s deep dive into their own personality and how they perceive life with having anti social personality disorder.
So I’m keeping this rating blank.
I do have to say I didn’t find it as shocking as tiktok made it out to be.

He asks people who can draw to sketch his face. Which I flat out refuse to do bc after seeing other peoples sketches (you can find them on his instagram “subject064”) they really turned him into a tumblr sexy man?? Not my style. And I don’t want to add to that equation or stand out amongst the crowd.

[Inej]

"Every word you’ve read, every thought you’ve agreed or disagreed with, every judgment you’ve made about me, that’s more your reflection than mine. You haven’t just been watching me come to life. You’ve also been building yourself in the process."

"We’re so busy worrying about whether something is “good” or “bad” that we never stop to ask: according to who?"

"It’s easy to point at others and label their actions as evil, selfish, or cruel. It’s harder to admit that under the right pressure, you’d do the same thing. So, do you believe in good and bad, or do you believe in convenience dressed up as morality?"

[Colleen Smith]

The person who wrote this is clearly very young (he had instagram when he was 15?!?!). I’m not a doctor so I can’t really speak on a diagnosis but this just seems like the diary of a young, emotionally underdeveloped, and slightly narcissistic guy who wants to feel seen and understood. Although he describes engaging in some very soft thrill seeking behaviors, there is no real aggression or severe manipulation discussed that usually meets criteria for ASPD. I don’t know why I kept reading until the end. Would be nice if he shared more in detail about his family dynamics and childhood.

[Ebba]

I love being surprised and pointed out by my own view of things I experience. The brutality, the analyticalness and a certain devotion. I felt very at home in this book, but at the same time I can appreciate our differences. I can't give this anything other than 5/5, mostly for the gratitude that it is allowed to exist but also because I felt a little understood by myself. It didn't change my view of anything but was that really the purpose? I didn't experience it that way

[Charles Smith]

The tagline was more provocative than the actual book itself. While an entertaining read, it felt more like someone's idea of a psychopath as opposed to being written by an actual psychopath. I appreciated the "author" not going with the violent typical characterization of a psychopath that media tends to go with. Overall not a bad quick read.

[maria araujo]

ok bill 👌