“Gracefully dances time backwards... Gorelick’s love, wit and wisdom ripple through time, page after page.” Heather Harpham, author of the Reese Witherspoon book club memoir, Happiness: The Crooked Little Road to Semi-Ever After
After losing her mother at eight, Gorelick spends her childhood shuffling from one temporary home to the next, seeking belonging. In her twenties, she falls in love, marries, and has a baby—finally finding a glimpse of stability. But everything changes on a day that begins in sunshine and ends in a frantic 911 call when Jacque’s husband collapses in front of her on a jogging trail.
What follows is a harrowing stretch in an ICU waiting room, where she must advocate for her comatose husband's life while caring for their newborn, navigating tenuous family dynamics, and confronting the ghosts of her past.
Map of a Heart is a deeply personal look at what it means to build a life when the foundation was fractured from the start. For readers who’ve ever asked, What makes a family?, this book offers an answer rooted in resilience, hope, and unconditional love.
Jacque’s essays about family, motherhood, estrangement, education, and health have appeared or are forthcoming in The New York Times, Salon, Los Angeles Review of Books, The Kenyon Review, Pithead Chapel, X-R-A-Y, Healthy Women, The Washington Post, HuffPost and more.
After spending her fractured childhood in search of home and belonging, Jacque spent her adult life working with children and families. She has a degree in psychology and a graduate degree in education with an emphasis in early childhood development. She has always been fascinated with how family shapes and defines us, and how we ultimately choose to define it for ourselves.
A California native, Jacque has lived all over the West Coast from Santa Barbara to Alaska. Now firmly rooted in the San Francisco Bay Area, she lives beside a creek under redwood trees with her husband, two boys, and a mélange of rescues. To find out more about Jacque and her work visit her website at www.jacquegorelick.com.
Map of a Heart is a riveting and vivid story of a new mom who suddenly finds herself in an impossible situation. It is an engrossing testament to the marvels of modern medicine and also the power of community to get us through the most terrifying emergencies. In these pages, Jacque Gorelick reminds us that life is precarious…but with a little luck and a lot of love, we, like her, just might be able to find our way.
This is a story of survival, resilience, hope, and gratitude.
Jacques loses her mother at a young age, her center and sense of stability gone. Her father moves her through several girlfriends’ homes before leaving her to be raised by his ex-wife, whom she comes to call Mom.
As an adult, she marries Ed. Between meddling in-laws and an estranged (step)mom, she often feels alone. Still, she finds the family she’s always needed in a circle of loyal, loving friends.
When Ed goes into cardiac arrest at just 33, it’s this chosen family who surrounds Jacques and her newborn with care, proving that even in life’s darkest moments, love shows up and holds you together.
A tenderhearted memoir about one woman’s journey through her husband’s health crisis and subsequent reflection on life, motherhood, and love.
In February 1997, Jacque Gorelick and her husband, Ed, are enjoying the newfound bliss of parenthood with their almost-three-month-old son, Elliot. During a short outdoor excursion on a nearby California trail, Ed collapses from sudden cardiac arrest. He is just thirty-three; Gorelick is twenty-eight. This moment upends their lives. Gorelick’s riveting memoir Map of a Heart is a vulnerable and heart-wrenching unfolding of the early hours after this fateful event. It pulls on heartstrings as updates on Ed’s health are covered alongside reminiscences of Gorelick’s youth and early relationship with her husband are revealed.
Succinct anecdotal narration is coupled with nimble and illuminating flashbacks in time. Vivid first-hand accounts are rendered in earnest detail. From the opening, terrifying scene on the trail to quiet moments breastfeeding her son in the ICU’s waiting room or notable memories with her mother, father, and stepmother, a meditative sentimentality is pervasive.
Indeed, this powerful memoir draws energy from its strong prose. Set against the sterility and empty isolation of hospital walls, tidal waves of worry and fear are mixed with lucid appreciation for her present life. Poetic details of place inspire glimpses of hope, as with colors of “buttery yellow” or “seafoam green.” Awaiting progress updates on Ed, windows show “white popcorn blooms” on nearby “flowering pear trees” that stand “against a fiery pink sunset.” There is an endearing balance, too, between ruminations on Gorelick’s sometimes turbulent childhood with the steady, sweet presence of Elliot who manages the change in feeding and sleeping location with a calm and innocent acceptance.
Gorelick is a humble and genuine narrator, probing deep to expose honest emotion. The language is rich—across time, place, and emotional state of mind—and renders real the angst, anxiety, and ambiguity anyone might feel in such a situation. Internal turmoil is given much weight, such as the rollercoaster bond with her stepmother, which is sometimes repetitive. Still, when the text detours to childhood and difficult relationships, the introspection is transparent and reveals personal growth. For instance, in noting Gorelick’s chosen career to work with children despite a disjointed upbringing, she acknowledges seeing “normal childhoods play out in front of my eyes” and how it provides “comfort.”
This enjoyable story encourages appreciation and gratitude affirming that even in times of heartache, optimism and strength are realized through intense love for family and loyal friends.
I received an advance review copy for free from BookSirens, and I am leaving this review voluntarily.
Map of a Heart is an immersive, captivating story of hope, resilience, and survival—of enduring that which you fear might break you. It begins at the shocking moment when the author’s world cracks; in the instant, she can’t know if it will mend or if the rupture is irreparable. On a jogging trail, her young husband collapses, unconscious, his heart barely beating. After an interminable, panic-drenched wait for help and a harrowing transport to the hospital, Jacque Gorelick is advised to prepare for the likelihood that nothing may ever be the same. For ten days, while her husband’s life—and her family’s future—lay in the balance, she wonders whether what’s on the other side will be grief and heartbreak or a return to her beautiful quotidian life, to everything that’s dear to her. It’s a reminder that life is fragile and nothing is promised. Woven into that narrative is a moving history of the author’s challenging upbringing and devastating early loss, her struggle to find belonging and acceptance, and her hard-won charmed life and the romance from which it bloomed. While the author writes about the kind of love that abides—for her husband, her baby, the friends who see her through—she also laments the one particular love that may be too fragile to last. Map of a Heart is beautifully written. Gorelick’s prose is elegant, her voice is magnetic, and her structure and pacing make this a book that’s truly difficult to put down.
"When I taught kindergarten, I had my students make a map of their hearts. [...] In each section, they drew something important to them, something they loved. I think maybe that's what I've been doing here in the ICU -- uncovering a map of my heart."
Before I describe what Map of a Heart is about, I want to tell you how it made me feel. Reading this story -- which takes place over a span of days in the ICU -- felt like being in a meadow filled with flowers with sunshine streaming down on my face. The prose felt like I was about to be embraced with a warm hug. This might seem surprising. How could a story set primarily in a cold, clinical hospital feel so bright and full of hope? That is the magic of this book.
This is not to say that Gorelick's writing is trite or sentimental. Far from it. But there is something about her ability to describe the hardest parts of life and loss. She does it in a way that taps into the ache that makes being a human so hard and beautiful.
This story is about family lost and found. It's about the harrowing experience of almost losing her husband to cardiac arrest when their newborn baby was just weeks old. It is singular, and yet, I found myself identifying with many parts of the narrative. This, too, speaks to the strength of this memoir. Gorelick has the gift of making the particular universal.
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Technically I don’t rate nonfiction memoirs. For the sake of ratings I post Five Stars. I will not rate an author’s life experience.
This is a memoir of the author’s walk through the first nine days of her husband in critical care intertwined with revisiting memories of death, divorce, moves and new life. As Jacque enters motherhood her memories that were once tucked away come forward. Flashing forward as an adult she’s learned NOT to ignore her emotions. My take away is that our lives are shaped by the love, attention and care of others that bury and intertwine into the reassesses of our ‘hearts.’ That when faced with trauma our ‘hearts’ remember and make sure we give love, attention and care to others that we would have wanted to be given as she has written, “loop back onto itself and produce a different outcome.” We are capable to expand our ‘hearts.’
♥️Heart Mapping: Similar to this author, I am a teacher of young children. She describes a group assignment I have also utilized: make a map of their heart. Think of an adult vision board but now cut out a heart and add all your favorite and important things you love. We shared these magazine cut outs, drawings, and words on Valentine’s Day with parents.
Thank you @JacGorelick and Vine Leaves Press @Vine_Leaves_Press for an early copy to read before this book release.
I received an advance reader copy of this book from the author
I loved this memoir because aside from being an extraordinary and well-written story, it invited me to step off my path of go-go-go and think deeply about motherhood, chosen family, and gratitude. And–of course–CPR!
A memoir of how random life is both in its devastations and miracles, A Map of a Heart has an alternating, dual timeline structure that kept me rapt. Not only was I completely invested in wanting to know if Gorelick's husband would recover, I also needed to understand all the details of her unconventional family upbringing. Gorelick does a wonderful job of lacing the past together with the present. As I reluctantly turned the final page of this book, I had a clear view of the terrain of her heart and was grateful to be pointed in the right direction with respect to my own. (Not to mention the hearts inside the bodies of my loved ones... I'm getting my CPR training ASAP!)
It was an absolute pleasure to read Map of a Heart. I'm grateful to the author for sharing her story and for the reminder of how important is the care of my own heart map.
Jacque Gorelick’s Map of a Heart is a poignant atlas of her own. As a new mom in crisis on the brink of the unthinkable, the author peels back every atrium, ventricle, and valve to reveal the unique pain of growing up in a splintered family, as well as her deep love for her chosen relatives: her husband, newborn son, and devoted friends. Through gorgeous and charming prose, this tender memoir explores the contours and complexities of motherhood, and captures scenes and interactions in such exquisite and relatable detail that you feel you are right there with her. This book will appeal to anyone wanting to lose themselves in a heartfelt read, especially those who have suffered a sense of displacement or shame regarding their upbringing.
Map of a Heart is a beautifully written memoir about loss, motherhood, and the complexities of family. Jacque Gorelick’s vulnerable account of her husband’s shocking cardiac arrest and the uncertainty of his recovery and their future together with their baby is told alongside the story of her unconventional upbringing trying to figure out the definition of family. Gorelick’s vivid prose had me turning the pages, her honesty reminding me how precious life and love are. I highly recommend this memoir!
A tender and beautiful memoir, Map of a Heart starts when the narrator's husband experiences sudden cardiac arrest at the age of 33 and an otherwise ordinary day is catapulted into devastating, edge-of-your-seat drama.
In nested-dolls fashion, the moment-by-moment medical emergency becomes the foreground from which the narrator explores her repeated experiences of loss and displacement in childhood.
The author elegantly weaves the past into the present, the recovery of her husband's heart mirroring the healing of her own buried and layered emotions.
As a memoir author, I found this literary memoir a highly satisfying read.
One of those books that tears you to pieces and puts you back together again. Months after the birth of their first child, Jacque's 32-year-old husband goes into cardiac arrest on a family hike. In the harrowing hours and days that follow, Gorelick takes us back in time to other iterations of fragile family bonds that she has lost, gained, and lost again, and to the slow, careful way she built the little family that now teeters on the brink of yet another tragic loss. MAP OF A HEART is at once the captivating story of survival and a moving meditation on family, friendship, and love.
This memoir has stuck with me like none I’ve read before. The prose is exquisite and the story—both past and present tense—is gripping. What I loved most of all is how reading the author’s very personal account as mother, daughter, sister, and wife caused intense ripples of reflection about the concept of family and friendship in my own life. I was sucked in to this story because of the beautiful writing. But I turned the last page having gazed in a mirror. All in all, an unforgettable read and literary work of art.
Map of a Heart is such a finely wrought testament to author Jacque Gorelick’s own heart, and all the ways life tests it. Weaving through time, terror, and memory, the work is told in chapters that alternate between the ordinary day her husband’s heart stopped, the growth of their relationship, and life in the ICU. This beautifully written narrative brings together love and life, and how we move forward through both.
Map of a Heart hit a nerve for me, given my husband passed away four years ago from a very similar scenario. Although it was a tough read for me, Jacque’s writing is so raw and emotional that I found myself cheering for the outcome that I never had. I love how vulnerable Jacque is throughout the book. By the end, I was crying both tears of sadness for people lost and tears of joy for recovery and renewal. If you love a book that tugs at your heartstrings (no pun intended), this is a must read.
Page-turning memoir. Gorelick does an outstanding job weaving her story from different timelines. This must have been such a difficult series of events to retell, and it's done in such a beautiful way. Bravo and many thanks to the author for sharing her story.
I received an advance review copy for free, and am leaving this view voluntarily.
Map of a Heart is a beautifully written memoir that blends suspense, humor, and soul. Through a gripping medical crisis and reflections across different stages her unconventional childhood, the author explores what truly makes a family. Moving and memorable, this book stayed with me and made me appreciate the people I love.
Jacque's story is so complex and at times, unbelievable. I shed many tears just imagining being in her shoes, and who doesn't love a book that can deliver a good cry? Her writing transports you right into her past, with each moment feeling like one of your own. Get ready to gain a whole new perspective on life and time with your loved ones. ❤️
I absolutely loved this book and couldn’t put it down. Map of a Heart is deeply moving, beautifully written, and genuinely touching. Jacque Gorelick just has a way of writing that resonates with the heart.
I was capitvated from the get go reading Map of a Heart and couldn't wait to find out what happens next. Jacque takes the reader along in her quest to define family. It is heartbreaking and heartwarming. I highly recommend Map of a Heart: A Memoir of Love, Loss and Finding the Way Home.
Map of a Heart by Jacque Gorelick is a very honest, raw and vulnerable memoir about family, a sudden medical emergency, and navigating very complicated relationships.
Because this book is so raw and emotional, I had to put it down several times. However, it was worth it, because what I appreciate most in a memoir is authenticity. Having more experience than I would like with hospitals and waiting rooms, I can say this is a very accurate portrayal of what it feels like to sit in anticipation of news that could change your entire life.
At the beginning of the book, the author describes a normal day with her husband and new baby, when suddenly a beautiful day and a run turns into a medical emergency that upends her entire life and brings about a crisis that tests the resilience of her family bonds, juggling being a new mother, and navigating the tenuous relationship with the person she calls Mom.
What I really loved about this book was how honest and raw it was. It really felt like the author was showing us her heart as the reader went through the ups and downs of the harrowing experience with her. The anxious waiting, the uncertainty and all the new and very stressful situations that needed to be navigated all with a new baby would test the resolve of anyone. What truly stood out about this book was that she did not try to sugarcoat anything to make herself better. It felt like the reader was privy to everything, warts and all.
I really recommend this book to anyone who appreciates an honest memoir about family and the ties that keep us together and break us apart. Thank you to Jacque Gorelick for writing with such authenticity and truth. Thank you to the publisher, Vine Leaves Press as well for allowing me to read and review an advance reader copy of this book via BookSirens. I am leaving this review voluntarily and all opinions are my own.
This book is incredibly moving and exactly what the world needs right now. Gorelick's writing is not only wonderfully engaging and smooth but real and relatable. This book is a must read!
Jacque’s ability to describe the most vulnerable moments of her life in vivid detail gripped me from the very first paragraph. So breathtaking in its honesty and beautiful, lyrical prose... I absolutely loved it and could not put this book down. Map of a Heart squeezed MY heart and will stay with me for a long, long time.
A deeply emotional memoir told in two timelines, both of which provide compelling insights into a life filled with love and turbulence, often simultaneously. I found it difficult to put down as each chapter ended in a place where I NEEDED to know what happened next. The growth, reflection, and soul-baring revelations were humbling and cathartic. Jacque's journey from childhood to adulthood was nothing short of fascinating. It reminds the reader that the past does not always remain in the past, and the future is not always guaranteed.