I open my eyes and immediately close them back shut at the blinding light that radiates in front me.
"Sasha? Sasha?!?"
Shouting involving my name continues as I groan while slowly opening up my eyes to adjust to the lighting once again. I turn my head to the left and see a man sitting next to me, his face etched in what looks like pain, but also relief. Dark black hair, bright green eyes, deeply creased black t-shirt, and tattoos that spread from his neck, down to his forearms, and down to his hands…..hands which are currently holding on my left hand.
I look back up and panic shoots throughout my body at the fact that I have no idea who he is nor why he is this close to me. In fact, I have no idea why this stranger is even holding my hand. My face begins to pale as I begin realize that I have no idea where I am either.
"Sasha, can you hear me?!?"
I hastily pull my hand away from his and push myself up in bed. - pushing as far into the headboard of the current bed I am in to try and put space between us. Unfortunately, pushing myself up was definitely a huge mistake as my head currently feels like it weighs a hundred pounds and a strong throbbing sensation is beginning to start which was not there just a few seconds ago. I groan once more while rubbing a few circles at both my temples to try and ease at least some of the pain and pressure. This has got to be either the worst nap I've ever had in my life or the worst night of sleep I've ever had - I don't even think I've EVER felt this terrible before.
I look back over to the strange man and find that he seems to have gotten up from the chair he was in before and is now standing wide eyed with a woman in a white lab coat right beside him.
"Wha….What t-time is it?" I ask in a deep raspy voice.
"It's currently 9:52 AM.", the woman in the white coat responds, "Do you know who you are?"
"Yes", I scoff while taking in my surroundings. "Do you know who YOU are?"
The strange man from before smirks and lets out a light chuckle.
"There she is."
The woman in the white coat rolls her eyes as she asks, "And do you know where you are?"
I look around me and frown, as I have no freaking clue where I am nor who either of these people are. I begin taking a look further, stalling at her question, to see if there are any areas in which I can escape to when the opportunity arises. While I have no idea why I am here nor how I got here, I do know that I should NOT be here in a room that is unfamiliar to me and surrounded by people that I have no recollection of.
A few minutes pass before the woman in the white coat clears her throat and asks, "Do you know who we are?"
I turn back to them, checking off that there are two exits that I'm seeing so far….either through the window or to the door in the right corner of the room which looks like a bathroom and might have a window there as well.
"Not ringing any bells, actually….I'm assuming you are my "doctor" and you…" I point to the man in black, "…well, it seems the only thing I know about you is that you don't know a single thing about boundaries since you had your hands all over me just a few seconds ago."
The woman in white looks at the man in black with concern. He doesn't pay her any attention as he narrows his eyes at me while crossing his arms.
"You have no idea who I am?" he questions, "No idea who you are to me?"
"Sorry buddy…have no idea….in fact, if you could just point me in the nearest direction of a phone, I'd like to make a call to my husband who is probably worried about me." I give a smile as best as can knowing full well I don't have a husband but my best friend, Zane, is the best I got and hopefully he can play along.
"It's a good thing he's already here," the man answers while moving toward the bed, "What is it that you'd like to tell me, wife?"
This is the first time within my ARC Reviews where I'm contemplating on what rating to provide a book. I'm not sure if it's the case that this was not the book for me from a "mood reader perspective" or if I’m entering a period of "reading slump", but I found myself stuck in a hard place of deciding where to place this book from an honest view without being "too harsh" just because of the above possible situations that might have occurred and/or be occurring right now.
Let me explain….
When I first received this ARC from NetGalley and Canelo, I was absolutely ESTATIC to dive in. The concept of a new Vampire Romance was right up my alley as something I wanted to read and have found myself in the mood to read more Paranormal and Monster Romances as of late; which is where I categorize Vampire Romances. I had also just finished an Academia Romance before this, so switching gears to this one would be a nice change to something different. Unfortunately, as I starting reading through, the excitement ended up turning into uncertainty. This was the first time that I found myself leaving the book after every few chapters uninterested, and at times completely frustrated.
Before I dive in more about the reason why, let me give an overview of what this book is about…
We have our FMC Liv, also known as Elivienne, who has just woken up and found herself unsure of where she is and who is currently surrounding her. While there are several people happy and excited at the fact that she seems to have just woken up from a coma, she has absolutely no memories of who each of these people are, nor which bed she is currently waking up within. Included within those people surrounding her is our MMC, Celdric, who Liv has no recollection of and has found herself now "scared of" after learning that he, himself, is a Vampire. Celdric, more than willing to understand she has just woken up to a world in which she no longer recognizes, is more than willing to continue being patient in the hope that her memories will come back to her. Unfortunately for Liv, she seems to still be living in the past from a life that she no longer lives, for a boy she believes she still loves, and has to begin piecing back information little by little to help navigate the new world she is in, while also mourning the one that she still thought she had.
While understanding the overview of what to expect, your tropes within this storyline include….
🧛♀️Vampires x Humans
🧛♀️Amnesia x Memory Loss
🧛♀️Love Triangle
🧛♀️Mystery x Betrayals
🧛♀️Slow Burn Reconnection
Keeping both the premise and tropes in mind, this brings you to when you first start the book, once again, with our FMC Liv waking up with no recollection of where she is or why she is there. This concept is very interesting at this point and I'm intrigued to follow through in seeing why she doesn't recognize anyone and how she got to where she is. I enjoyed reading those several chapters seeing her reaction and trying to "put the puzzle pieces together". But after those chapters, I was finding myself losing interest. In fact, the longer I went on, even 50% way through, I felt like I was still right at the beginning on page one; as if I was on an infinite time loop where the exact same conversations, exact same behavior outbursts, exact same arguments, and exact same confusion was still happening.
I found myself starting to ask…
"When is the plot going to start happening here?
"Why is it that we are continuing to do this?"
"Where's the progression or growth with this storyline?"
And my favorite one that I was using often….
"For the love of god, woman, what is wrong with you?!?"
While reading through, I also felt like I just couldn't connect with any of the characters within the book. Many of the characters felt flat, unlikeable, and unmemorable most of the time. And oh my gosh, Liv was so frustrating to me at always being so defensive, crying to herself about her situation constantly and wanting to "start fights/arguments" that I sometimes I just felt like we didn't need her and should have just found a new FMC. Placing the trope of memory loss as the "cherry on top" of it all, I was burnt out and uninterested finishing through this book.
As I mentioned before, it could be possible that I'm being a little too critical here and we could chop this all up to into either…
( A ) Sasha found herself in a reading slump and this was not the read for her current mood like she thought it would be
( B ) Sasha has just found out that the "Memory Loss Trope" is not for her and she should probably stay away from any book which have this trope as the main premise going forward
So please take what I say here as just an opinion and not something that you may feel when you read this book. In fact, as you read through the reviews, you will find there are some people who absolutely LOVED this. So be sure to just take a look at a few reviews first to make sure it's the right fit for you as what I say is just what my experience was when reading and everyone has their own preferences and likes when it comes to book choices.
Overall, while I may have struggled through this one, I do still recommend to take a look at other reviews which gave this 4-5 stars before it comes out on AUGUST 06 2026. This could have all boiled down to the trope of "memory loss" just not being for me and it could be something you absolutely thrive with!