Hugo, 24, is painfully shy and hiding a he’s a Little. Convinced he’s broken, he’s terrified of the needs he’s been hiding for years. Desperate for a safe space, he walks into Andy's, a kink shop that promises “privacy without isolation, safety without shame.” What he finds is a 36-year-old grieving shop owner who is just... stuck. Graham built Andy's as a promise to his dead partner and has no business taking on a new boy. He’s a Daddy in name only, with a heart he's kept locked away for three years. One tentative question about a pacifier turns into an exploration of trust, boundaries, and healing. For Hugo, Graham is the first person to make him feel safe. For Graham, Hugo is the first person to make him want to live again. As they navigate the fragile line between the Daddy/Little caregiving and the intense adult D/s dynamic they both crave, they have to decide if they're brave enough to build something new. Graham must learn to honor his past without letting it destroy his future, and Hugo must learn to trust that he is not broken, he is cherished.For readers who age gap MM romance, Daddy kink with emotional depth, first-time exploration, protective Daddies, sweet Little boys learning to trust, collaring, found family, hurt/comfort, and happily-ever-afters that feel earned.
CW: Grief, past partner death (off-page), anxiety, initial shame around kink identity, explicit sexual content, D/s dynamics, age regression, collaring.
Wanted to love this but it just didnt hit the mark...
much longer than needed A LOT of repetition (even within a few sentences) so many of the time frames didnt line up, for example in chapter 28, the following
"I stayed at the shop until eight, then eight-thirty, then nine. Helping customers who didn't need help. Reorganizing displays that were already organized. Avoiding. I got home at seven-thirty"
how are you home at 7:30 if youre at the shop until 9?
the chapter where he met Hunter, I could've sworn he already met him? plus Hunter had mentioned looking at security footage, knowing Hugo was in the shop etc but they didn't 'meet' until much later?
the age play wasn't too bad nor was the romance, Graham going to therapy etc.
could be improved by shortening (less than 300 pages which this story would fit into if it weren't for the aforementioned repetition and pointless filler sections)
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This book was hard to get through which is sad cuz I love the plot. But the writing, the author would mention something like the characters doing something. But then in the next chapter have the characters go and do that same thing again..
Like he met Hunter and mentioned him knowing about the collar, but that was before anything with a collar even happened.
I honestly wanted to DNF a few times but I pushed through
I give this a 3.5, not because it’s necessarily terrible, but because it could be really solid with a little more structure and thought.
Spoiler alert: I’m only about 39% done, so take this for what it's worth, but there is already a multitude of layers to it.
The story starts off with Hugo, who is a little and has major anxiety. He is so scared of someone discovering his lifestyle that he won't even leave his little stuff out out of fear that a coworker or a guest might see it. He’s been working himself up for weeks to go to a kink place called Andy’s because he’s heard really great reviews about it. He’s been stalking the place for so long that he even knows the owner’s name is Graham, but he doesn't realize he'll be attracted to him until they meet in person and Graham settles him down with his daddy voice accidentally.
Graham is the owner of Andy's, and it's named that because of his dead ex-fiance.They were building the shop together until one day his fiancé went for a swim without him and ended up drowning. Overnight, Graham had to learn how to deal with his grief, and he never really knew how; he just knew he had to keep his promise and build the shop anyway. Three years go by, and that’s when he meets Hugo, which is where they start circling around each other without even realizing it.
The things I like about this book are:
I really like the therapy advice Graham gets for taking his life back. It feels like a real healthcare provider giving advice, not just random shit like you see in other books.
I also like how Graham actually wants to do the work on himself instead of just jumping into things without handling his grief.
Hugo feels super real to me, too, in the sense of overanalyzing situations and amping himself up. As a fellow worrier, I overlook stuff like that constantly, so I really appreciate that realism.
But what I dislike is this:
First, I hated both of their friends. It’s not that they are necessarily bad people, but they act like mind-readers who know all the answers, which is a mistake I see a lot of authors make. Their friends do not need to be so up in their business it just feels very middle school.
I also didn't understand the whole over amplifying the little moments they had. He literally would just come inside the store and buy some stuff and they would talk for like 2 seconds, and while it was cute I don't think Hugo or Graham should've been as hurt as they did with the time apart.
I also didn’t understand Hugo's sudden shift. At first, he acts like this scared kid who barely has any boundaries if we are being real, and then overnight after just one conversation with cam he suddenly has all these strict boundaries with Graham. I'm not saying it's necessarily bad, but it just felt a little unrealistic to me.
On top of that, I really didn't like the lack of empathy they had at times for Graham and his grief. For example, the book acts like taking three weeks to be ready for Hugo is a long time Let’s get real: if it took three years of deep grief and just trying to survive, it’s going to take at least two months of active healing to move on. While Graham should have been stern with Hugo from the get go, and not done the little actions he did to make him feel loved in those tiny moments; saying "not yet" wasn't an attack on him; Graham truly was just grieving. Hugo shouldn't be obligated to wait on him, but he also shouldn't have felt like it was such a horrible thing for Graham to protect them both from more hurt. I think the author tried to state that countless of times, but could literate it the best.
I haven’t gotten to any of the spicy parts yet since I'm not all the way through, but as you can see, there are a lot of layers to this. I do think it’s worth a read or at least worth trying out, but you will definitely have mixed emotions like a roller coaster.
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DNF @ 28% - I gave this a go because I really like the main themes (grief/anxiety), even though I'm not into age play. And so far, the age play isn't a problem (though it hasn't really been explored much yet). The problem is that for every single interaction between Graham and Hugo, they overanalyse it, discuss it with their BFFs, then experience it, then overanalyse it again, and then discuss it again with their BFFs. Oh my goodness, I just cannot. I don't mind the overthinking everything: comes with the anxiety. But these BFFs are just too much. They are mindreaders - in fact, they can read the minds of both their BFF and the other main character, whom they have never met. They are also omniscient and know exactly what is about to occur or what has just occurred between the main characters. And they tell their BFFs what to think and what to do to an extent that I am really not comfortable with.
This book would have been so much better without Cam and Hunter (or perhaps with other friends who weren't quite so involved).
The beginning of the book was absolutely fantastic. I could practically feel Hugo's anxiety bleeding through the pages, and his thought process was incredibly relatable as he struggled to enter a space that had been calling to him. It immediately caught my attention, and I genuinely loved the characters.
However, the constant repetition of certain scenes and conversations became boring and I was skimming through them. The book would have benefited from being about 200 pages shorter.
Another thing that really bothered me was how the characters kept reporting every little detail to their friends, almost like children. It was particularly triggering with Graham, considering he's a fully grown adult.
I was also hoping we'd get Hunter x Cam, but sadly, no such luck. Their dynamic could have been interesting as a brat/dom.
Such an intense tale, of two people starting out stuck in one place and learning how to grow, expand, and live fully. Their transformation was slow (in a good, realistic way) and emotional, with lots of steam.
And… there was a lot that editing more deeply could have improved. Scenes happened out of sequence, and there was a lot of repetition- exact wording and phrases feeling copy-pasted at each similar beat. A few sentences dropped off abruptly, never to be completed. The strength of the story is the two MCs building; building themselves, each other, and eventually, community.