What (TF) Do I Do Now?: Reclaiming Myself, One Piece at a Time

by Tareasa Johnson

“Reesa Teesa’s online story captivated the world, and this book will do the same.”—Robin Roberts, New York Times bestselling author and co-anchor of Good Morning America

The creator of the viral TikTok series “Who TF Did I Marry?” shares an even more unfiltered account of how she reclaimed herself, fought through toxic relationships, and regained her foundation through healing and deep self-reflection.

When Tareasa “Reesa Teesa” Johnson decided to disclose the full details of her turbulent marriage in a 50-part TikTok series, from first meeting to the finality of divorce, she hoped it would help at least one person from making similar mistakes. In a flash "Who TF Did I Marry?" went global, becoming a movement. Millions around the world were enraptured and identified with Tareasa's story, ultimately sharing their own experiences of heartbreak and deceit.

While “Who TF Did I Marry?” questioned the relationship, What (TF) Do I Do Now? probes deeper, asking “Where did I lose myself?” Through reflection, acceptance, and humor, Tareasa unravels even more details of what caused her to stay in a partnership where familiarity became too comfortable, and loneliness was a scarier proposition than owning her solitude. Tareasa’s indelible voice and keen perspective shares new, engrossing stories and practical insights as she regains her footing and her faith in herself, offering readers the chance to do the same.

Probing, personal, and incredibly relatable, What (TF) Do I Do Now? isn’t a self-help guide, but an empowering conversation with the reader, illuminating the courage it takes to trust yourself because healing is on the other side of pain.

Genres: Audiobook, Nonfiction, Memoir

256 pages, Hardcover

Published August 18, 2026

Reviews

[Bridgette · Rating 4 out of 5]

I gave What (TF) Do I Do Now? 4 stars. I think this is one of those books you’ll either like or you won’t, because a lot of the story is familiar if you followed Reesa Teesa’s viral series. There’s some new information about where she is now and more insight into her headspace, but it’s largely the story we already know.

What really stood out to me was how she handled everything that came after going viral. I’m proud of how well she played her cards. Once the offers started coming in, she got a lawyer to handle her business, which helped her avoid being exploited or taken advantage of. She turned an unexpected viral moment into something successful while still staying true to herself.

I also appreciated that she took accountability for her own poor decisions and used the experience to reevaluate her life. Ultimately, the book made me like her even more. Four stars—not necessarily because the book gave me a brand-new story, but because I really respect what she did with the story she already had.

[Tiffany Sims · Rating 5 out of 5]

This book isn’t for everyone but I’m happy I indulged. We’ve all been that girl. Some of us still are in one way or another. Definitely relatable and realistic view of how love gets complicated.

[Lauren Kirk · Rating 4 out of 5]

I watched all of “Who TF did I marry” when it was dropping LIVE. Like millions of others I was hooked. Getting more into Tareasa’s experience with not only her ex-husband but all of their previous relationships. If you watched the series this is a bit of a recap but more so her headspace, the aftermath of her divorce and virality. One thing I really loved about this was how much accountability Tareasa took during these previous relationships, how they went wrong, why she kept going back and how she’s planning on moving forward.

As a single girl freshly 30, there was a lot of affirming in this for me that, 1 I’m not alone in my desire for partnership and love and 2 patience and not FORCING something will be worth it. She’s was near giving a sermon in this lol. Definitely gave me some things to think about when I look back on my own dating decisions lol. I really enjoyed this and it made me like her a lot more. Can’t wait to see how the TV show goes!

[Allyson · Rating 0.5 out of 5]

Really repetitive and not written well. This book was really sad and her experiences with men were horrible. We know what she’s learned and that’s great but she comes across almost cocky now which is MINDBLOWING. And it took ALLLLLLLLLL that to get some self respect? This was really hard to read and I don’t necessarily like her afterwards.

Also, I had no clue it was going to be SO religious. I’m Christian and still found it pretty grating.

[Sara Kaner · Rating 3 out of 5]

I’d round this up to 3.5 stars. I devoured her TikTok series and think Tareasa is an amazing storyteller, but this book fell a little flat on substance for me.

[Rachel Spann · Rating 5 out of 5]

I remember watching the viral 50 part tik tok series like a show when it first came out! I mean, any opportunity I could get to prop my phone up and watch it, I was, that’s how dialed in I was to this story. And so when I saw that Reesa was going to write a book, I was so excited! This book blew away all of my expectations, it was so well written. And for the audiobook to be recorded by Reesa, I enjoyed it even more.

I love how she didn’t sugarcoat anything in the book, and provided such words of wisdom and advice. As a black woman myself who has experienced my fair share of ups and downs with love, this book was so encouraging and reminded me that there is nothing wrong with taking the time and space needed to ensure that I am good and know how to look out for myself first. I cannot say enough good things about this book. I’ll be getting a copy for myself to mark up for sure!

[Kkaaccyy]

She's such a good storyteller. This makes me want to rewatch her TT series 😆

[Vanessa Lopez · Rating 4 out of 5]

I listened to the audiobook and I really enjoyed it. Lots of grace, relatability and humor. I didn’t relate to the connections of God but appreciate her story. Uplifting!

[Ida Wilcox · Rating 5 out of 5]

OH My goodness and another great one from Ms. Reasa Tessa.

I love how she shows the other side of "Who TF did I marry" also provided some back story to it as well. I learned alot from both of her stories. Hopefully this can be a learning lesson for those who read this book.

Please HEAL from your past trauma before who inter in a relationship.

[Laura Kingsley · Rating 2 out of 5]

Read it for the TikTok series. The amount of preaching was uncomfortable. The ending was ehh. Stick with the TikTok series it was better. TBH. I’m Disappointed that I wasted an audible credit on this.

[Lauren · Rating 4 out of 5]

🔈I listened to this on Audible and really enjoyed that Tareasa Johnson narrated the book herself. It made the whole thing feel much more personal and conversational, almost like you were hearing the stories and advice directly from her rather than simply being read to.

I found so much of the book incredibly relatable. It captures that weird stage of adulthood where you’re technically doing all the things you’re “supposed” to be doing, but still find yourself wondering what comes next or if you’re even heading in the right direction.

I really appreciated how honest and approachable her perspective felt. It never came across like someone who has life completely figured out giving you a list of things you need to fix. Instead, it felt more like reassurance that questioning your path, changing your mind, and not knowing exactly what you’re doing are all normal parts of figuring out who you are and what you actually want.

One of the themes that resonated with me most was her approach to self-worth and building a sense of worth that comes from within rather than letting it be determined by other people, relationships, accomplishments, or where you think you “should” be in life. I also liked how that tied into the larger theme of not succumbing to outside pressures and expectations at the expense of yourself. It made me reflect on how easy it is to look outward for reassurance or validation instead of learning to trust yourself.

There were so many moments where I caught myself thinking, “Yep, that’s exactly how I feel.” It was comforting and validating while still giving me things to reflect on. I especially liked the reminder that you don’t need to have your entire life mapped out to still be moving forward. Overall, it was an easy, relatable listen with several messages I genuinely want to carry with me.

[Asiah Aaliyah · Rating 3 out of 5]

3 STARS ⭐️

Much in the same manner in which we were introduced to her Reesa Teesa gives us a behind the scenes look of what her life was like in the aftermath of her viral story.
This is not a book that necessarily goes into more depth about Legion and their relationship.

Instead we are brought into Reesa’s love life as she identities the pattern in the men she’s dated before and after Legion.
Now there are times where you might find yourself saying NO Reesa not again girl!!
Why would you be putting up with that after what happen last time??
But that’s the thing about Reesa she’s honest and doesn’t hide anything.

This is a raw look into the parts of her healing that she’s still actively working on.
The parts that going viral or becoming famous on the internet doesn’t fix.

I believe this is what makes Reesa relatable even if you may not always agree with her choices.
She doesn’t act like she has it more together than she does.
She owns her truth.
The very thing that got her in front of the world in the first place.

I wouldn’t recommend this book as what to do in love and relationships because this isn’t that nor do I believe it’s what it was intended to be.
This is Reesa telling us she’s still a work in progress and I believe every woman if brave enough can be honest to say we all have parts of ourselves that we’re still figuring out.

This was not a bad book at all.
And I just can’t wait to see the tv show!
As for Reesa pleaseeeee stay away from WM!!!
I’ll keep you lifted in prayer girl! 🙏🏽✨

[Rosetta Delancy · Rating 5 out of 5]

This book was really good! I was able to immerse read physical book & audio. I think this book would be beneficial to everyone; however, I think young adult women would benefit the most; especially since they are stepping out into the world independently making their own decisions. I could relate to a lot of her experiences. I appreciated her taking ownership of her role in some parts of what she experienced in life. The level of vulnerability she displayed was commendable. She acknowledged ignoring the red flags 🚩🚩🚩warning signs, and spiritual intuition that would have prevented alot of her heartaches /disappointments. It’s interesting how we as human are willing to accept certain things because of what society says we should have by a certain time. You can definitely see how growth since her TikTok viral videos. She relied on her faith and personal relationship with GOD to see her through her mistakes; he blessed her more for her trouble. Love it

[ReadnliftwithShar · Rating 5 out of 5]

🫶🏾✨

Honestly, I wanted to read this book because I had watched all the videos. But what I walked away with was thought provoking, lightbulb moments, and so many gems that I needed to highlight. I loved this book because I was once that girl - yearning for love and ignoring all the red flags. I loved the relatability and vulnerability, mixed with humor and honesty. Healing isn’t linear and it’s not a perfect journey, but being real with yourself makes a world of difference. I appreciate ReesaTeesa so much. 🫶🏾💕

[Sarah Battiste · Rating 4 out of 5]

This was a great follow up to her series. It gave a lot of great backstory and what happened afterwards. It felt like a retelling of some of her series, but also from the lessons she learned through her journey. It was also interesting to see how her life has evolved since then and get more details that we didn’t hear in the series. If you were a fan of her series, I would definitely read the book. I listened to it and she narrated it, which was actually really great.

[Reader · Rating 5 out of 5]

Good to know Theresa got some closure and is in her healing journey. There is some new details she did not share in the fifty part series. Sometimes I got annoyed of how naive she was with her relationships just in search of love and stability. And sadly there are a lot of girls like that out there. Don’t let your weight be your self worth to settle or crazy relationships and give up your body to anyone that wants it.

[Felicia Williams · Rating 5 out of 5]

I decided to read this book because I was completely locked into the 50 part series. I came for more tidbits of this crazy story and left with so much more. I found the book to be relatable in so many ways - the desire to be chosen, settling for less, and losing your own voice. This book was a reminder that we all weather storms, but how we learn and grow from those experiences is what truly changes us.

[Cecelia · Rating 3 out of 5]

My introduction to Reesa Teesa came from her interview on the Dear Future Wifey podcast. It was a great interview! And, apparently, I learned all I needed to know from that interview. The book was okay. But, if you've watched her Tik Tok series (I did not) or seen an interview, then there's really nothing more to hear. Her ex-husband lied a lot. The end. But, I'm happy that she was able to turn that negative experience into a glow-up.

[Entset · Rating 3.25 out of 5]

Tareasa is an excellent story teller during her tik tok series. However, this book is hard to follow. it jumps from time-to-time with no point ...or assistance to help the reader stay on topic. This book was like unmedicated friend with ADHD telling stories with no ties, structure, ending or beginning. I wish the book was edited better - i think i would have enjoyed the book more...

on the positive side, i am glad that Tareasa went to therapy! :)

[Nikki B · Rating 5 out of 5]

Thank for being transparent and allowing me the space to accept my own truth. This story has allowed me a chance to fully appreciate and evaluate my journey without shame. Silence is not safer. It’s time we begin to embrace our own self value. This book should be a prerequisite for life as a young woman .

[Kay · Rating 4 out of 5]

This is a book I needed to listen to. Despite trials and tribulations of men there's a light on the other side. Your self worth isn't tired to those relationships or achievements of being a wife or a mother. I absolutely loved the way she wrote and presented this book (audio reader). I hope she publishes more.

[Naeelah]

I don’t have a TikTok so I didn’t follow her series, but I saw her story on the news. Once it became available at my library, I decided to check it out. It is definitely worth the read if you are interested in her journey. She was vulnerable and spoke candidly about how she ended up in the marriage she did.

[Noelle O'Neal · Rating 5 out of 5]

DNFing this simply because it is far more religion based than I expected and not relatable for me.
BUT still giving 5 stats because she is that girl and I just love her. Her narration is top notch and I wish her nothing but happiness and success!

[LaChelle Weaver · Rating 5 out of 5]

I listened on audiobook and I enjoyed it. It’s not a retelling of the 50 part Who TF Did I Marry series that went viral on TikTok. I love how she tells a story so I was looking forward to this one. I’m happy she’s getting her heart desires now because she deserves it.

[Su · Rating 3 out of 5]

There are some good parts like how she is aware of her intentions and patterns of persuading certain types of men. Also, she mentioned about her "why-not" era, how it might be scary but why not.

She has her viral moment. But, many parts of the book appear to be vain and repetitive.

[Lakedra · Rating 5 out of 5]

There are nuggets in this book for all women. I watched the previous Tik Tok series and was afraid this book would just be a repeat. I'm relieved to say that we're taken through her healing journey.  Loved this book!

[Breanna Contreras · Rating 5 out of 5]

I listened to Teresa’s fifty part TikTok series as it was dropping in 2024. This book put a new light on her story and everything that she has gone through. Her strength is inspiring and her faith in God’s plan for her life is unshakable. Loved this!! 🤩🤍

[Stephanie Gray Brand · Rating 4 out of 5]

I enjoyed this. So happy for Ressa Tessa.

[Elaina Breaux · Rating 4 out of 5]

She is such an amazing story teller!

This is a great book, especially for single ladies.

It was like hanging out and talking to your cool older aunt who understands you better than your mom.

[Connie J · Rating 3 out of 5]

3.5