A trama segue a história de Fan Xiao, o herdeiro de um conglomerado tailandês, e You Shulang, um executivo de uma empresa, cujos caminhos se cruzam após um acidente de carro. A partir desse encontro, a dinâmica entre os dois evolui de uma provocação fria para uma atração crescente. A situação se complica quando Fan Xiao começa a se aproximar de Lu Zhen, que é o parceiro de Shulang.
as of right now (dec 10, 2025) the show is updated to 8 episodes and i've rewatched them multiple times already. of course i have no patience to wait for the other episodes, i need to read the book NOW, so here i am 🤭
Started strong, fizzled out once Fan Xiao lost his edge.
Let me preface this by saying that wife-chasing crematorium isn't exactly my favorite trope and I generally don't like redemption arcs. Seeing men groveling is deeply off-putting to me - I prefer my fictional evil bastards unrepentant. There's a reason Thousand Autumns is my favorite danmei, after all. Consequently, I struggled to stay engaged during Fan Xiao's redemption arc and had to constantly remind myself that karma and atonement are very much the central themes here - and, tbf, these themes are executed relatively well.
Two things work in the story's favor: 1) Both Fan Xiao and You Shulang stay consistent and plausible. In Fan Xiao's case that's often frustrating to read, but clinging to manipulation, schemes and compulsive lying as long as he does fits his character, and with stories like these, the frustration is kind of the point. I did prefer Fan Xiao the smooth manipulator to Fan Xiao the anxious lapdog, though. If you take away the manipulation, the scheming, the lying, if you pull off his mask, what do you even have left? A scared child.
2) Shulang isn't a pushover. He sets his boundaries. He pays back grievances. He's driven to the brink of despair, but he has the strength to pull himself up again. He also has the strength to forgive and keep loving. In the end, it doesn't matter if Fan Xiao "deserves" Shulang; he is the first person Shulang allows himself to be vulnerable with, the first person to make him feel less alone, probably also the first person to ever fully slate his physical desire. Lust is a major driving force in their relationship: lust and repressed desires jumpstart Fan Xiao's obsession with Shulang, lust and newly awakened or acknowledged desires lead Shulang to take a risk, to be unreasonable for the first time in his life.
(Btw, the drama tones down Fan Xiao's internalized homophobia a lot. Probably couldn't have him say all that on camera. Shulang is also less stoic, when in the novel his expressionless face is one of his most prominent features. An understandable change, given the drama lacks his internal monologue, so we have to actually see his emotional turmoil and anguish. I just wish I didn't have to see people calling him "whiny" and "whimpy". Or "weak". If there's anything he's not, it's weak.)
White Lotus' fantranslation is lovely and reads very well. I wish official translations were on this level 😔
There's still some extras left, but those are mostly dogfood and, well - I'm here for the drama.
I love character-driven stories and this novel really peaked in that department! Excellent character studies of both the ML and MC, who were perhaps the most interesting characters I've read in a long time (especially Fan Xiao), alongside a well-paced plot, this novel had me so hooked that it took me only a few days to fly through the whole thing. The redemption arc was extremely satisfying to read, and made me scream in frustration and excitement so many times. The writing was surprisingly good too, I bookmarked an embarassing amount of pages to reread later (i guess i like dramatic stuff). Ignoring a couple of danmei-specific issues, and even though it was a heavy read, I really enjoyed this book! I do recommend checking the trigger warnings before you decide to pick it up though!