I initially had a hard time getting into this, not least due to the lack of contractions in places where I would expect there to be contractions, but I ended up liking it. At its core, I think in addition to being a love story, it’s also about two people who are very sick of their lives but don’t know how to break out of them, and so there’s something really heartening, albeit sometimes frustrating, about watching them work out what they want and how to balance loyalty with desire. I'd maybe put it at a 3.5? It took me a while to get through it, but I'm glad I finished it.
Our two heroines are Tate Grafton, a barista working at a lesbian-feminist bookstore in Portland, Oregon, and Laura Enfield, a real estate developer from Alabama who is also the closeted daughter of a prominent conservative politician. Laura’s company has bought the property Tate’s coffee shop is in, which means the coffee shop is out.
The set-up is a bit You’ve Got Mail-esque, though I think Tate’s relationship to the coffee shop is different than Kathleen’s relationship to the bookstore in You’ve Got Mail. Tate doesn’t actually really like working at the coffee shop. She works there because its owner, Maggie, took her in when she was a teenager and her mother and stepfather kicked her out. Later, when Maggie’s business and life partner leaves her to marry a man, Tate drops out of college and comes in to pick up the pieces. It’s made abundantly clear throughout the book that while Maggie has the community bona fides, she’s really not good at running a coffee shop, and the store’s other employee, Krystal, is an immature young woman also in need of guidance (her father is a convicted murderer) who’s there as one of Maggie’s mentees rather than because she’s good at making coffee. Tate loves Maggie and Krystal, and even Maggie’s hippie ex-partner Lill, but she’s tired of being the one who gets things done, living in a small studio and working for a business that’s not even remotely financially viable. She likes her gardening, and her motorcycle, and her best friend Vita, but she’s kind of trapped.
Meanwhile, Laura is, like, intensely into Tate from the word go, but is so trapped by her own life that she can’t really fathom a way for them to be together. It would be pretty easy to condemn Laura, because she certainly puts Tate through the wringer—the sequence where she flies Tate out to Palm Springs then literally makes her hide in the closet when her family shows up is the low point—but it’s easy to see how she got there. Her family, frankly, sucks—her dad literally fakes a heart attack as a manipulation tactic to get Laura to stay in the closet long enough for him to run for president—but she loves them and has devoted her whole life to her father’s political career. She’s a surprise in some ways: she feels unqualified for her job, knowing that she got it because of nepotism, but she’s pretty strategic and creative when it comes to business. She comes up with a scheme by which Maggie could save the coffee shop (which of course Maggie doesn’t do, because it involves cutting corners when it comes to their organic suppliers and fudging their projected profits), and then later uses the same thing she’s been afraid of the whole book—her coming out and how it would affect her father and his allies—to maneuver her way out of the company she works for and into financial security for herself and Tate.
Their relationship is a lot of Tate putting herself out there and Laura running hot and cold. But at the same time, it had a quality to it that I find important in romance-novel relationships that isn’t always there, and that is that I could see what attracted them to each other. Laura’s attraction to Tate is obviously enough to disrupt the course of her life, and all the things that make people in Laura’s life dismiss Tate make Laura see her as noble and loyal. What might be a little more surprising is why Tate is attracted to Laura after all she puts her through, but at points it becomes clear that Laura sees Tate in ways the people she’s known and loved for years don’t, her vulnerability and regrets, as someone who could use some taking care of rather than always having to take care of others.
There were some sour notes here and there. Vita drops a rather transphobic line when she says, “But what if she [Laura]’s a man? You just can’t tell these days.” And then later, there’s more weirdness regarding trans people from Vita when they meet the very butch Janice and Vita just won’t shut up about how she thought Janice was a dude and wondering if she’s trans. Like, that definitely was unnecessary, and really soured me on Vita as a character. The idea that Krystal was going to go live with conservative Mennonites at the end was weird, and then in the epilogue when Krystal has a girlfriend but the Mennonite relatives are at Laura and Tate’s party made me wonder, “Huh, I wonder what happened there?” Krystal’s story is wild—her father did some heinous crimes, and she runs off to be with him and there’s a whole almost action sequence where Tate’s going to check on her with her Mennonite relatives, who are packing heat because her father owes money to the wrong people or something. It was very odd. I honestly had a hard time getting a handle on Krystal as a character.
But I enjoyed the descriptions of Portland, and there are some really quite pretty passages—I don’t often highlight bits on my Kindle that stand out to me, but I did with this one, just because the descriptions of summer nights resonated with me. I think there are some tonal contrasts between the serious things happening between Laura and Tate and the cartoonish shenanigans that Maggie, Lill, Vita, and Krystal are getting up to, but I ultimately found that central romance compelling enough to like it.