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304 pages, Hardcover
First published September 8, 2026
"Sometimes you have to hurt someone to show how much you truly care," the thing pretending to be his father tells him.
"To him, the end of life seemed like an impossible deed-something that would inevitably cause so much excruciating agony. Perhaps that's why he has spent so much time pleasuring himself or seeking pleasure from anonymous young men in those internet chatrooms he frequents on his laptop late at night. If some were underage, if some were mere children, who would he tell? In fact, part of him preferred to never know their real age, the truth of his own monstrousness. Sometimes he imagines what he might do if ever trapped in a room with one of them-one of those young, nubile faceless torsos he meets with on video chat. He wants to believe that he would muster the courage, the will to fuck them the same way so much of the world has already decimated him. Perhaps once Rupert might have hesitated at the thought of fucking a little boy-a frail, powerless child. But now it feels like the only honorable thing to do."