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To Whom Shall I Go?: Why I Laid Down My Protest
“I was taught to convert Catholics—then I became one.”
Ellie Hiller grew up in the heart of the Protestant Bible Belt, immersed in a faith she believed was unshakable. Her faith shaped everything—her worldview, her family, her friendships, her marriage. Raised in the Church of Christ yet educated K-12th grade at the flagship school of the Presbyterian Church in America, Ellie lived within two traditions divided on many points of doctrine but united in one Catholicism had perverted the simple, saving Gospel and turned it into “traditions of men.”
Over time, however, subtle contradictions between the two traditions began to emerge. Tensions between what she was taught at home and what she learned at school unsettled her, taking root in her mind and refusing to let go. Where had these two traditions split, and why? Which should she believe when both were reading the same Bible?
As an athlete, those theological tensions became physical. Ellie wrestled with the disconnect between a faith largely lived in the mind and a life powerfully experienced through the body. Why was the body—through which she encountered so much of God’s world—so often treated as secondary in the spiritual life? Where did the tangible and the incarnational belong in worship?
Confident she would find these answers in her Protestant tradition, she set out to uncover a biblical theology of the body. But when her husband of four years told her he wanted to become Catholic, her unshakeable faith began to crumble, and her worldview unraveled. In her grief and desperation to stop his conversion, God began a work in her heart—using her very questions about the place of the body in His plan for salvation to lead her toward a sacramental faith.
Her story is one of struggle and surrender–an unlikely journey that led her, step by step, into the arms of the Church she once sought to save others from.
Ellie Hiller grew up in the heart of the Protestant Bible Belt, immersed in a faith she believed was unshakable. Her faith shaped everything—her worldview, her family, her friendships, her marriage. Raised in the Church of Christ yet educated K-12th grade at the flagship school of the Presbyterian Church in America, Ellie lived within two traditions divided on many points of doctrine but united in one Catholicism had perverted the simple, saving Gospel and turned it into “traditions of men.”
Over time, however, subtle contradictions between the two traditions began to emerge. Tensions between what she was taught at home and what she learned at school unsettled her, taking root in her mind and refusing to let go. Where had these two traditions split, and why? Which should she believe when both were reading the same Bible?
As an athlete, those theological tensions became physical. Ellie wrestled with the disconnect between a faith largely lived in the mind and a life powerfully experienced through the body. Why was the body—through which she encountered so much of God’s world—so often treated as secondary in the spiritual life? Where did the tangible and the incarnational belong in worship?
Confident she would find these answers in her Protestant tradition, she set out to uncover a biblical theology of the body. But when her husband of four years told her he wanted to become Catholic, her unshakeable faith began to crumble, and her worldview unraveled. In her grief and desperation to stop his conversion, God began a work in her heart—using her very questions about the place of the body in His plan for salvation to lead her toward a sacramental faith.
Her story is one of struggle and surrender–an unlikely journey that led her, step by step, into the arms of the Church she once sought to save others from.
239 pages, Paperback
Published December 14, 2025
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January 28, 2026
“It was if the scattered pieces of my faith finally came together into one clear unified picture.”
Ellie’s journey to the Church is relatable in many aspects. She demonstrates thorough humility in the book, as well as countless documented sources. I learned many things, yet it was written in a way that’s easy to comprehend complex theological concepts. I’m so thankful for her, as well as her husband Sean. They are truly a blessing to those looking to learn and understand doctrine. Easy read, highly recommend!
Ellie’s journey to the Church is relatable in many aspects. She demonstrates thorough humility in the book, as well as countless documented sources. I learned many things, yet it was written in a way that’s easy to comprehend complex theological concepts. I’m so thankful for her, as well as her husband Sean. They are truly a blessing to those looking to learn and understand doctrine. Easy read, highly recommend!
March 29, 2026
"It wasn't that I stumbled upon some hidden knowledge or suddenly became more intelligent. Rather, it was as if the scattered pieces of my faith finally came together into one clear, unified picture. I was simply able to see my faith in full, no longer in fragments. It was now embodied, sacramental, whole."
Although our circumstances are different, Ellie's story deeply resonated with me and it was very relatable in many ways.
This quote she shared stood out to me and it sums up perfectly how my conversion journey started:
"As soon as you stop being against the Catholic Church, you find yourself being oddly in favour of it."
~ Dale Alquist
Although our circumstances are different, Ellie's story deeply resonated with me and it was very relatable in many ways.
This quote she shared stood out to me and it sums up perfectly how my conversion journey started:
"As soon as you stop being against the Catholic Church, you find yourself being oddly in favour of it."
~ Dale Alquist
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