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Find Me Where It Ends
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Expected 6 Oct 26A woman wakes up to find the black hound of Death at her front door in this hauntingly beautiful tale from USA Today bestselling author Cassandra Khaw.
Antigone is no stranger to death.
For the women of her family, death always comes in the form of a black dog.
When Antigone’s own black dog arrives, she isn’t afraid. She invites it inside, where it soon becomes a daily source of companionship and comfort. It also forces her to reflect on the life she’s led—the parts of herself she’s hollowed out for the sake of others, and the bone-deep exhaustion that’s hounded her every step.
Her Death’s arrival must be a sign, permission to finally let go. To rest. Because while mortality is inevitable, living is a choice.
But a good death comes at a price.
Also by Cassandra Khaw:
The Library at Hellebore
The Salt Grows Heavy
Nothing But Blackened Teeth
A Song for Quiet
Hammers on Bone
The Dead Take the A Train (co-written with Richard Kadrey)
Antigone is no stranger to death.
For the women of her family, death always comes in the form of a black dog.
When Antigone’s own black dog arrives, she isn’t afraid. She invites it inside, where it soon becomes a daily source of companionship and comfort. It also forces her to reflect on the life she’s led—the parts of herself she’s hollowed out for the sake of others, and the bone-deep exhaustion that’s hounded her every step.
Her Death’s arrival must be a sign, permission to finally let go. To rest. Because while mortality is inevitable, living is a choice.
But a good death comes at a price.
Also by Cassandra Khaw:
The Library at Hellebore
The Salt Grows Heavy
Nothing But Blackened Teeth
A Song for Quiet
Hammers on Bone
The Dead Take the A Train (co-written with Richard Kadrey)
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Expected publication October 6, 2026
About the author
Cassandra Khaw
127 books3,246 followersCassandra Khaw is an award-winning game writer.
Their recent novella Nothing but Blackened Teeth was a British
Fantasy, World Fantasy, Shirley Jackson, and Bram Stoker
Award finalist. Their debut collection Breakable Things is now
out.
Their recent novella Nothing but Blackened Teeth was a British
Fantasy, World Fantasy, Shirley Jackson, and Bram Stoker
Award finalist. Their debut collection Breakable Things is now
out.
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Review of advance copy received from NetGalley
September 29, 2026
I went into Find Me Where It Ends expecting something darkly beautiful, whimsical but wise. Cassandra Khaw delivers with prose that is lyrical and haunting but I never expected just how deeply it would affect me. My thanks to Titan Books for the arc.
Some books are wonderful because they let you experience something new, see a different perspective, walk in someone else’s shoes. Others make you feel seen, reaching into experiences that you or someone you love has lived through. Khaw does both.
She handles dark, intimate themes with a deft hand as Antigone is literally dogged by death in the form of a black dog while struggling with her own mental health. It captures how exhaustion, hopelessness and the simple difficulty of getting up and continuing each day can become overwhelming, without ever reducing Antigone’s experience to something simple or trite.
The metaphor of the black dog for death is beautifully done particularly in how Antigone welcomes its presence and finds a strange comfort in it. The dog becomes a physical manifestation of what she is carrying, allowing her emotions to be felt without needing to spell it out. Seeing death through Antigone’s eyes is deeply affecting, as the thought of an irreversible end becomes tangled up with relief, escape and the illusion of choice. Khaw never romanticises this, instead giving an intimate glimpse into how something so devastating can look from inside the mind of the person experiencing it.
The supporting cast are equally nuanced. You can feel their genuine care for Antigone, even as their well intentioned attempts to help sometimes make things worse. This is painful precisely because it's real - loving someone deeply doesn't always mean knowing how to reach them and attempts to help can have consequences we never intended.
This is not an easy read. It's painful, deeply intimate and for some it will hit far too close to home. But sharing an experience like this feels important, allowing those who have been haunted by their own black dog, or loved someone who was, to feel a little less alone - and perhaps allowing others to understand an experience they may never have otherwise been able to see.
I cried.
Some books are wonderful because they let you experience something new, see a different perspective, walk in someone else’s shoes. Others make you feel seen, reaching into experiences that you or someone you love has lived through. Khaw does both.
She handles dark, intimate themes with a deft hand as Antigone is literally dogged by death in the form of a black dog while struggling with her own mental health. It captures how exhaustion, hopelessness and the simple difficulty of getting up and continuing each day can become overwhelming, without ever reducing Antigone’s experience to something simple or trite.
The metaphor of the black dog for death is beautifully done particularly in how Antigone welcomes its presence and finds a strange comfort in it. The dog becomes a physical manifestation of what she is carrying, allowing her emotions to be felt without needing to spell it out. Seeing death through Antigone’s eyes is deeply affecting, as the thought of an irreversible end becomes tangled up with relief, escape and the illusion of choice. Khaw never romanticises this, instead giving an intimate glimpse into how something so devastating can look from inside the mind of the person experiencing it.
The supporting cast are equally nuanced. You can feel their genuine care for Antigone, even as their well intentioned attempts to help sometimes make things worse. This is painful precisely because it's real - loving someone deeply doesn't always mean knowing how to reach them and attempts to help can have consequences we never intended.
This is not an easy read. It's painful, deeply intimate and for some it will hit far too close to home. But sharing an experience like this feels important, allowing those who have been haunted by their own black dog, or loved someone who was, to feel a little less alone - and perhaps allowing others to understand an experience they may never have otherwise been able to see.
I cried.
Review of advance copy received from NetGalley
Just wow.... This novella is short but really does pack a punch. Being simultaneously haunting, ugly and beautiful, this book gives such a raw representation of how it feels to live with depression. It showcases the balance of how those with depression can constantly teeter on the edge of either feeling guilty because they are still around 'being a burden' and the guilt of leaving people behind to deal with the aftermath of a death.
The amount of times I genuinely had to pause and just sit with this book was astounding - I truly do believe that everybody should give this book its moment! As soon as you step into this book you can tell its going to be something special and truly throughout the rest of the book it only gets better. This is definitely one that I will be bothering all of my friends and family to read if they ever ask for a recommendation! I will say, I went into this expecting more horror aspects but truly it did just present with the idea that the real horror is trying to live on when you lack the motivation to continue for another second, which really is a true horror that a lot of us face.
I do find it quite interesting that they chose a male narrator for this book despite it following a young woman, lowkey it has me thinking a considerable amount over whether this was done with any specific intentions in mind?? That being said, I did really enjoy this narrator and would love to check out more of their work in the future
thank you so much to netgalley and macmillan audio for providing me with this ALC for an honest and voluntary review!
Review of advance copy received from Publisher
Reading for review in the October issue of Library Journal.
Also come see me in conversation with Khaw on 10/8/26 at Twisted Spring in Brooklyn
Three Words That Describe This Book: gut wrenching, affirmation of life, mythological feel
I am never surprised when a Khaw book, especially the short ones (this is a novella), reaches out from the page and grabs me (at least it feels like does) and makes me feel so many emotions. Here the subject is suicide. Well death and grief but also suicide. So know that before you read more.
It opens with Antigone's black dog of death coming to her. Look we know from her name that some greek mythology will be here. And she refers to her dog as a psychopomp-- a Greek creature whose job is to guide newly dead souls to the afterlife. This gives the story a mythological feel from the start.
The entire book is framed with the ominous section titles of "3 months before" then "2 months before" then counting down faster as readers realize the countdown is to the day Antigone is planning to kill herself. It adds a layer of unease that allows the dread to build. As we get to know Antigone we fell her pain but root for her to live.
Antigone is from a family that is close to death and ghosts. The women in their family have known when their deaths were coming., Her mom chose suicide because she couldn't take it. Antigone is 40 and lives in her dead mother's house-- 8 years now. She has a best friend Vera who together they do supernatural investigations. In this novel they work with one specific client whose dead mother won't stop haunting her and it drives the woman to suicide. Antigone has guilt for not helping her.
A gut wrenchingly beautiful affirmation of life. This book is striking, the language is precise and lyrical and evacuative yet easy to digest as a reader. The book is deceptively simple yet extremely deep. Readers are with Antigone as she goes through her own emotions about her mother's death, her own life, and friends she has lost. All of it while keeping the story pacing compelling.
This is another stellar work by Khaw. A horror story that inflicts dark emotions on the reader but also makes them very glad they read it. I am so excited we get to talk about it together right after it comes out.
One of my favorite quotes from this book, which is repeated a few different ways is "Hauntings aren't only about the dead. The living have to chose to let go."
I am known for loving a story where every detail matters and in this one not only is that true but Antigone says at one pint early on "the small things matters. They always did." LOVE THAT
A dark modern mythology or weird fairy tale feel that is steeped in unease and grief like Our Wives Under the Sea by Julia Armfield and a great read alike for Coup de Grace by Sofia Ajram. Not the liminal space parts but the subject and fell. Also fans of Helen Oyoyemi will like this.
Also come see me in conversation with Khaw on 10/8/26 at Twisted Spring in Brooklyn
Three Words That Describe This Book: gut wrenching, affirmation of life, mythological feel
I am never surprised when a Khaw book, especially the short ones (this is a novella), reaches out from the page and grabs me (at least it feels like does) and makes me feel so many emotions. Here the subject is suicide. Well death and grief but also suicide. So know that before you read more.
It opens with Antigone's black dog of death coming to her. Look we know from her name that some greek mythology will be here. And she refers to her dog as a psychopomp-- a Greek creature whose job is to guide newly dead souls to the afterlife. This gives the story a mythological feel from the start.
The entire book is framed with the ominous section titles of "3 months before" then "2 months before" then counting down faster as readers realize the countdown is to the day Antigone is planning to kill herself. It adds a layer of unease that allows the dread to build. As we get to know Antigone we fell her pain but root for her to live.
Antigone is from a family that is close to death and ghosts. The women in their family have known when their deaths were coming., Her mom chose suicide because she couldn't take it. Antigone is 40 and lives in her dead mother's house-- 8 years now. She has a best friend Vera who together they do supernatural investigations. In this novel they work with one specific client whose dead mother won't stop haunting her and it drives the woman to suicide. Antigone has guilt for not helping her.
A gut wrenchingly beautiful affirmation of life. This book is striking, the language is precise and lyrical and evacuative yet easy to digest as a reader. The book is deceptively simple yet extremely deep. Readers are with Antigone as she goes through her own emotions about her mother's death, her own life, and friends she has lost. All of it while keeping the story pacing compelling.
This is another stellar work by Khaw. A horror story that inflicts dark emotions on the reader but also makes them very glad they read it. I am so excited we get to talk about it together right after it comes out.
One of my favorite quotes from this book, which is repeated a few different ways is "Hauntings aren't only about the dead. The living have to chose to let go."
I am known for loving a story where every detail matters and in this one not only is that true but Antigone says at one pint early on "the small things matters. They always did." LOVE THAT
A dark modern mythology or weird fairy tale feel that is steeped in unease and grief like Our Wives Under the Sea by Julia Armfield and a great read alike for Coup de Grace by Sofia Ajram. Not the liminal space parts but the subject and fell. Also fans of Helen Oyoyemi will like this.
Review of advance copy received from Publisher
Thank you Macmillan Audio and Tor Nightfire for the gifted Audiobook!
Content Warning: this book, and consequently this review, openly and directly mention suicide and severe mental health struggles. Please proceed with caution, check in with yourself and protect your mental health. If you or someone you know is struggling or in crisis, help is available. You can call or text 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline (available 24/7, free, and confidential in the US and Canada).
✦ 𝐌𝐲 𝐓𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐬 ✦
Find Me Where It Ends was a deeply emotional and hauntingly beautiful dark literary fantasy read that reached into my chest and borrowed my heart for 144 pages. It was returned to me forever changed by this brilliant, phenomenal little book.
Although this is categorized as a horror novella, there are no jump scares or gore. Instead, it takes the reader through an elegant, intimate, and devastating autopsy of human grief. I feel that it much more comfortably fits within the realm of dark, mythological fantasy and magical realism more than anything.
The story itself follows Antigone, a 40 year old hollowed-out people pleaser who has spent her whole life eroding her own boundaries for other people. Her family has a generational curse that manifests death itself in the form of a massive black dog. Antigone welcomes Death into her home, treating it more like a gentle companion, and its close presence throughout the story leads to so much thoughtful commentary regarding severe, chronic depression, suicidal ideation and the choice to keep living.
I loved that the author didn’t treat mental health struggles as a vague literary metaphor; they write about these heavy, dark themes with a raw, terrifying honesty.
There is not much else I can say about this powerful little book without giving anything away. It is a deeply thoughtful tribute to human resilience and will stick with me fore a long time.
If you’re comfortable with the dark subject matter, I cannot recommend it enough. Don’t skip the acknowledgements either.
✦ 𝗔𝘂𝗱𝗶𝗼 𝗡𝗼𝘁𝗲𝘀 ✦
This was a single narration by Isaiah Nichols. I was really surprised this was narrated by a man, and it had me thinking a little bit about why they went that direction and if there was perhaps a reason behind it. He did a really great job with this story, infusing so much raw emotion where necessary throughout the story. I recommend the audio, but go with your preferred format for this one.
✄----------
Genre (My Interpretation): Magical Realism, Dark Fantasy
5 Stars
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“There will be a last day for everything. There will be a time when the sun shuts its burning eye. There will be a moment when the universe goes quiet. And after that, an eternity of nothing to take the place of the stars and everything that came before. It ends. All of it ends. Despite all this we are here. We exist. If that isn’t a type of magic, I’m uncertain what is.”
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Content Warning: this book, and consequently this review, openly and directly mention suicide and severe mental health struggles. Please proceed with caution, check in with yourself and protect your mental health. If you or someone you know is struggling or in crisis, help is available. You can call or text 988 Suicide & Crisis Lifeline (available 24/7, free, and confidential in the US and Canada).
✦ 𝐌𝐲 𝐓𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐠𝐡𝐭𝐬 ✦
Find Me Where It Ends was a deeply emotional and hauntingly beautiful dark literary fantasy read that reached into my chest and borrowed my heart for 144 pages. It was returned to me forever changed by this brilliant, phenomenal little book.
Although this is categorized as a horror novella, there are no jump scares or gore. Instead, it takes the reader through an elegant, intimate, and devastating autopsy of human grief. I feel that it much more comfortably fits within the realm of dark, mythological fantasy and magical realism more than anything.
The story itself follows Antigone, a 40 year old hollowed-out people pleaser who has spent her whole life eroding her own boundaries for other people. Her family has a generational curse that manifests death itself in the form of a massive black dog. Antigone welcomes Death into her home, treating it more like a gentle companion, and its close presence throughout the story leads to so much thoughtful commentary regarding severe, chronic depression, suicidal ideation and the choice to keep living.
I loved that the author didn’t treat mental health struggles as a vague literary metaphor; they write about these heavy, dark themes with a raw, terrifying honesty.
There is not much else I can say about this powerful little book without giving anything away. It is a deeply thoughtful tribute to human resilience and will stick with me fore a long time.
If you’re comfortable with the dark subject matter, I cannot recommend it enough. Don’t skip the acknowledgements either.
✦ 𝗔𝘂𝗱𝗶𝗼 𝗡𝗼𝘁𝗲𝘀 ✦
This was a single narration by Isaiah Nichols. I was really surprised this was narrated by a man, and it had me thinking a little bit about why they went that direction and if there was perhaps a reason behind it. He did a really great job with this story, infusing so much raw emotion where necessary throughout the story. I recommend the audio, but go with your preferred format for this one.
✄----------
Genre (My Interpretation): Magical Realism, Dark Fantasy
5 Stars
✄----------
“There will be a last day for everything. There will be a time when the sun shuts its burning eye. There will be a moment when the universe goes quiet. And after that, an eternity of nothing to take the place of the stars and everything that came before. It ends. All of it ends. Despite all this we are here. We exist. If that isn’t a type of magic, I’m uncertain what is.”
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September 2, 2026
This was beautifully poetic and hauntingly sobering at the same time. I really connected with the characters and loved how unflinchingly such heavy themes were explored.
Although it wasn’t the easiest read due to the subject matter, I would highly recommend this to anyone looking for a thought provoking read that will stay with them.
Thank you to NetGalley and the publisher for the free ARC provided in exchange for my honest review.
Although it wasn’t the easiest read due to the subject matter, I would highly recommend this to anyone looking for a thought provoking read that will stay with them.
Thank you to NetGalley and the publisher for the free ARC provided in exchange for my honest review.
September 28, 2026
4.25/5
April 18, 2026
Oh. Oh dear. That was painful, beautiful, sad, and strangely uplifting. It was souls dancing in the dark around one another.
A story of sadness and darkness so complete they leave no room for life, obliterating all hope, all kindness, all things soft and lovely. Also though, the story of those who love us, unconditionally, those who understand the little things that make us whole. The ways they remind us.
So yes, sad. Painful? Absolutely. But beautiful in every way. 5 stars.
A story of sadness and darkness so complete they leave no room for life, obliterating all hope, all kindness, all things soft and lovely. Also though, the story of those who love us, unconditionally, those who understand the little things that make us whole. The ways they remind us.
So yes, sad. Painful? Absolutely. But beautiful in every way. 5 stars.
Review of advance copy received from NetGalley
Find Me Where It Ends by Cassandra Khaw introduces us to Antigone, a woman descended from a family where death arrives at their door in the form of a black dog.
Accepting of her fate, Antigone invites death into her home, reflecting on her past life and facing what lies ahead in the short time left.
This is a profoundly difficult book to review as it felt very personal and almost semi-autobiographical in nature.
Under one hundred pages, Find Me Where It Ends is a metaphor for depression and suicide. It is dense in theme, and I found Khaw's writing to be genuinely lovely to take in. The prose was elegant in every sense of the word.
I'd also like to mention how developed and well-rounded the characters were. Here, Khaw wasted no words or pages, and you got the very real sense of who those characters were within the space given to them.
Find Me Where It Ends is a moving, heartbreaking and hard-hitting story that takes an unflinching look at extremely difficult themes in a manner that is neither cruel nor exploitative. Yet it also features oddly comforting moments filled with hope.
My only real note would be that I struggle with the horror classification as this book has no jump scares, gore, curses or ghostly goings-on as such, and I'd hate for anyone to go in with those expectations.
Any horror within is much, much quieter and existential in nature.
Overall, this is a weighty read and one that I'd highly recommend, however readers should be aware of the content before approaching it.
Highly recommended.
With thanks to Titan for the ARC.
Accepting of her fate, Antigone invites death into her home, reflecting on her past life and facing what lies ahead in the short time left.
This is a profoundly difficult book to review as it felt very personal and almost semi-autobiographical in nature.
Under one hundred pages, Find Me Where It Ends is a metaphor for depression and suicide. It is dense in theme, and I found Khaw's writing to be genuinely lovely to take in. The prose was elegant in every sense of the word.
I'd also like to mention how developed and well-rounded the characters were. Here, Khaw wasted no words or pages, and you got the very real sense of who those characters were within the space given to them.
Find Me Where It Ends is a moving, heartbreaking and hard-hitting story that takes an unflinching look at extremely difficult themes in a manner that is neither cruel nor exploitative. Yet it also features oddly comforting moments filled with hope.
My only real note would be that I struggle with the horror classification as this book has no jump scares, gore, curses or ghostly goings-on as such, and I'd hate for anyone to go in with those expectations.
Any horror within is much, much quieter and existential in nature.
Overall, this is a weighty read and one that I'd highly recommend, however readers should be aware of the content before approaching it.
Highly recommended.
With thanks to Titan for the ARC.
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February 13, 2026This cover is incredible
Review of advance copy received from NetGalley
CW: suicidal ideation
Antigone isn't a witch. Well, if you look at the definition of a witch, she probably is. Over the generations, though, her family's magic has dwindled to only the inconvenient ability to see their own deaths. When the black dog of her death comes to greet Antigone, she is resigned; she's only in her 40s after all. But she befriends her dog, and gets on with her life, until the day she doesn't. It takes conversations with an old inhuman friend to do some deep reflection.
While I'm used to Cassandra Khaw's books going to dark places, this is a particularly haunting, macabre novella, as Antigone contemplates the line between life and death. Find Me Where it Ends is dark and reflective, and works well as a contemplative novella. It's less horror than Khaw's other books, but with a deeply depressing edge and a hopeful message. This may not be a good one to go into blind, but if you're in the right headspace, it's a rewarding read.
Thank you to Tor Nightfire for an eARC and MacMillan Audio for an ALC. Find Me Where it Ends is out 10/6/2026.
Antigone isn't a witch. Well, if you look at the definition of a witch, she probably is. Over the generations, though, her family's magic has dwindled to only the inconvenient ability to see their own deaths. When the black dog of her death comes to greet Antigone, she is resigned; she's only in her 40s after all. But she befriends her dog, and gets on with her life, until the day she doesn't. It takes conversations with an old inhuman friend to do some deep reflection.
While I'm used to Cassandra Khaw's books going to dark places, this is a particularly haunting, macabre novella, as Antigone contemplates the line between life and death. Find Me Where it Ends is dark and reflective, and works well as a contemplative novella. It's less horror than Khaw's other books, but with a deeply depressing edge and a hopeful message. This may not be a good one to go into blind, but if you're in the right headspace, it's a rewarding read.
Thank you to Tor Nightfire for an eARC and MacMillan Audio for an ALC. Find Me Where it Ends is out 10/6/2026.
Review of advance copy received from NetGalley
I found this novella to be hauntingly beautiful. I loved the black dog as death imagery and think this was such a neat idea. This book definitely delves into some deep topics such as grief and death so if that is something you aren't looking for, you may want to skip this one. While this is technically categorized as horror, I don't think it's your traditional horror book with gore and guts. This novel feels like an emotional and melancholic journey that is not for the faint of heart and may leave you feeling a little dispirited. Don't get me wrong, I think this is well written, but if you are looking for something light and fluffy, this is not the book you want to pick up.
Isaiah Nichols (Narrator)
Thank you NetGalley and Macmillan Audio for access to the ALC in exchange for an honest review.
Isaiah Nichols (Narrator)
Thank you NetGalley and Macmillan Audio for access to the ALC in exchange for an honest review.
Review of advance copy received from NetGalley
This is Khaw without the gore. There are only faint traces of the body horror and blood and guts we are all used to but that doesn’t mean it isn’t great. The horror here lives inside Antigone's head: her depression, her exhaustion, and the pull of letting go.
More than anything, this is a character study about depression and suicide, it is beautiful, it hurts, and it's powerful.
As someone who often struggles with depression and anxiety, I found it deeply relatable which also made it hard to sit with at times. But there's something beautiful about seeing a topic most people avoid, being displayed this honestly, and in such a dark and atmospheric way.
I listened to the audiobook, and Isaiah Nichols was phenomenal. His tone fits this kind of story perfectly and carries the weight of it without being over the top.
Thank you to NetGalley and Macmillan Audio for the advanced listener copy. All thoughts are my own.
More than anything, this is a character study about depression and suicide, it is beautiful, it hurts, and it's powerful.
As someone who often struggles with depression and anxiety, I found it deeply relatable which also made it hard to sit with at times. But there's something beautiful about seeing a topic most people avoid, being displayed this honestly, and in such a dark and atmospheric way.
I listened to the audiobook, and Isaiah Nichols was phenomenal. His tone fits this kind of story perfectly and carries the weight of it without being over the top.
Thank you to NetGalley and Macmillan Audio for the advanced listener copy. All thoughts are my own.
Review of advance copy received from NetGalley
I need to go hug something wtf. (rtc)
July 26, 2026
“There were different ways to be haunted.” And so sets the tone for a beautiful yet melancholic story exploring portents of death, the metaphorical albatross replaced by a black dog, the millstone around the neck weighted further down by the burden of mortal inevitability. It is an existential exhaustion those of us with a history of depression will find familiar. It’s less of a danse macabre and more of series of slow steps firmly and tearfully embracing relationships past and present, sights set on a blurry, uncertain horizon.
This is Cass Khaw at their most vulnerable— no blood, no guts, just the horror of potentially facing the end, ready or not.
This is Cass Khaw at their most vulnerable— no blood, no guts, just the horror of potentially facing the end, ready or not.
September 9, 2026
Aaaaand I’m crying (complimentary). Review to come.
Cassandra Khaw has a talent for making horror feel beautiful and spectacularly painful. Find Me Where It Ends may be one of their most haunting works yet. This novella carries enormous emotional stakes, using mythology, grief, ghosts, and the specter of death to tell a deeply intimate story about what it means to keep living when you are exhausted by life itself. Antigone has always been familiar with death. In her family, the women know when their time is approaching, and death arrives in the form of a black dog. So when Antigone's own psychopomp appears at her door, she doesn't feel like running. She lets it in. What follows is not a traditional face off with death, but more an uneasy companionship. The dog becomes a constant fixture while Antigone considers whether its arrival is permission to finally stop fighting. Khaw makes the countdown structure very effective. Beginning with "3 months before" and steadily moving toward the inevitable day, the tale creates a sense of dread that intensifies even as we come to understand Antigone more deeply. We know where the story is heading, but that knowledge makes every small moment in between matter more. And small moments is where Khaw excels. Their prose is lyrical without becoming impenetrable, filled with images that feel both delicate and devastating. Greek mythology and supernatural work provides the frame, but the true horror is grief. The weight of losing people, carrying guilt, and slowly hollowing yourself out for others. Find Me Where It Ends is a story about death that becomes an aching affirmation of life. It doesn't minimize despair or offer simple answers. Instead, it asks whether letting go always means dying, or whether sometimes it means finally choosing yourself. Melancholy and utterly devastating, this is Khaw at their most emotionally potent. Please read with care if you have any triggers/sensitivities around mortality. This book is beautifully brutal. Thank you Tor Nightfire for sending me a review copy. You can pick this up October 06, 2026 wherever you buy your books! Full coverage to come from The Fandomentals soon.
Cassandra Khaw has a talent for making horror feel beautiful and spectacularly painful. Find Me Where It Ends may be one of their most haunting works yet. This novella carries enormous emotional stakes, using mythology, grief, ghosts, and the specter of death to tell a deeply intimate story about what it means to keep living when you are exhausted by life itself. Antigone has always been familiar with death. In her family, the women know when their time is approaching, and death arrives in the form of a black dog. So when Antigone's own psychopomp appears at her door, she doesn't feel like running. She lets it in. What follows is not a traditional face off with death, but more an uneasy companionship. The dog becomes a constant fixture while Antigone considers whether its arrival is permission to finally stop fighting. Khaw makes the countdown structure very effective. Beginning with "3 months before" and steadily moving toward the inevitable day, the tale creates a sense of dread that intensifies even as we come to understand Antigone more deeply. We know where the story is heading, but that knowledge makes every small moment in between matter more. And small moments is where Khaw excels. Their prose is lyrical without becoming impenetrable, filled with images that feel both delicate and devastating. Greek mythology and supernatural work provides the frame, but the true horror is grief. The weight of losing people, carrying guilt, and slowly hollowing yourself out for others. Find Me Where It Ends is a story about death that becomes an aching affirmation of life. It doesn't minimize despair or offer simple answers. Instead, it asks whether letting go always means dying, or whether sometimes it means finally choosing yourself. Melancholy and utterly devastating, this is Khaw at their most emotionally potent. Please read with care if you have any triggers/sensitivities around mortality. This book is beautifully brutal. Thank you Tor Nightfire for sending me a review copy. You can pick this up October 06, 2026 wherever you buy your books! Full coverage to come from The Fandomentals soon.
Review of advance copy received from NetGalley
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Thank you @macmillanaudio for the gifted audiobook copy. Thank you @Tornightfire for the gifted physical copy.
Title: Find Me Where It Ends
Author: Cassandra Khaw
Pages: ebook 138 pages
Narrator: Isaiah Nichols
Duration: 3 hours 45 minutes
Genre: Horror
Pub Date: October 6, 2026
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🎧📚 Synopsis 🎧📚
A woman wakes up to find the black hound of Death at her front door in this hauntingly beautiful tale.
🎧📚 My Thoughts 🎧📚
I knew I was in for it when the dedication hit me like a pile of bricks.
The plot seemed deceptively simple until you really sit with it. Which is part of the utter genius of Khaw's writing in general. Grief and death drip off the pages in the most lyrical and haunting way imaginable.
The metaphor of the black dog is masterfully done. Watching our main character accept and receive comfort in the dog while struggling with death and personal burden was so close to home and may be uncomfortable for many people. Highly recommend checking the triggers on this one.
Khaw takes a step away from the body horror in this novel, but that doesn't make it any less harrowing. Proving that Khaw can do it all. I feel like the metaphor of the black dog got a little muddy toward the end as the book dipped more into the supernatural and the dog became less of a focal point. But overall it was a strong presence through the novel.
If you're really looking to be destroyed, read the authors note.
🎧📚 Narration 🎧📚
At first, I was not too sure about this narration. A mostly female cast narrated by a male voice did throw me for a moment, but I feel like the narrator did a really good job with it.
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🎧📚 Read if You Like 🎧📚
* Stream of consciousness
* Self Reflection
* Representation of depression
* Emotional literature
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#audiobookreview #audiobookrecommendation #bookstagram #findmewhereitends #cassandrakhaw #horrorbook
Thank you @macmillanaudio for the gifted audiobook copy. Thank you @Tornightfire for the gifted physical copy.
Title: Find Me Where It Ends
Author: Cassandra Khaw
Pages: ebook 138 pages
Narrator: Isaiah Nichols
Duration: 3 hours 45 minutes
Genre: Horror
Pub Date: October 6, 2026
~~~~~~~~~
🎧📚 Synopsis 🎧📚
A woman wakes up to find the black hound of Death at her front door in this hauntingly beautiful tale.
🎧📚 My Thoughts 🎧📚
I knew I was in for it when the dedication hit me like a pile of bricks.
The plot seemed deceptively simple until you really sit with it. Which is part of the utter genius of Khaw's writing in general. Grief and death drip off the pages in the most lyrical and haunting way imaginable.
The metaphor of the black dog is masterfully done. Watching our main character accept and receive comfort in the dog while struggling with death and personal burden was so close to home and may be uncomfortable for many people. Highly recommend checking the triggers on this one.
Khaw takes a step away from the body horror in this novel, but that doesn't make it any less harrowing. Proving that Khaw can do it all. I feel like the metaphor of the black dog got a little muddy toward the end as the book dipped more into the supernatural and the dog became less of a focal point. But overall it was a strong presence through the novel.
If you're really looking to be destroyed, read the authors note.
🎧📚 Narration 🎧📚
At first, I was not too sure about this narration. A mostly female cast narrated by a male voice did throw me for a moment, but I feel like the narrator did a really good job with it.
~~~~~~~~~
🎧📚 Read if You Like 🎧📚
* Stream of consciousness
* Self Reflection
* Representation of depression
* Emotional literature
~~~~~~~~~
🏷️
#audiobookreview #audiobookrecommendation #bookstagram #findmewhereitends #cassandrakhaw #horrorbook
September 19, 2026
I went into this under the impression it would be another eerie horror novella from a favorite author. Nothing really implied otherwise which I think is unfortunate.
I think the overall messaging and allegory was well done. It was a new take on depression, but it also felt a little cliche and corny at times. It was extremely realistic however…almost to the point I had to put it down. It’s hard to give it any higher of a rating, though, simply because of how I felt thrown into the deep end of a very dark and uncomfortable story.
I suppose in some way it was a horror story after all.
* thank you to the publisher for providing an early version of this book in exchange for an honest review
I think the overall messaging and allegory was well done. It was a new take on depression, but it also felt a little cliche and corny at times. It was extremely realistic however…almost to the point I had to put it down. It’s hard to give it any higher of a rating, though, simply because of how I felt thrown into the deep end of a very dark and uncomfortable story.
I suppose in some way it was a horror story after all.
* thank you to the publisher for providing an early version of this book in exchange for an honest review
Review of advance copy received from Publisher
I'm a huge fan of Cassandra Khaw's previous books, so I knew I'd probably like this novella going into it. I was blown away by how much this story impacted me though. As someone who is currently experiencing a lot of anticipatory grief and loss, this book meant everything to me. I'm having trouble putting my thoughts into words, so all I can say is that I highly recommend it. One of the best and most impactful books that I've read this year.
May 30, 2026
This book is a wonder! It’s a character-based novella exploring life, death, su!c!de, and reasons for living. For Antigone’s family, Death arrives one day in the form of a black dog, knowing her time is drawing short, she reflects on her life, her accomplishments, and her failures. This is my first Cassandra Khaw story, and I will be seeking out more of her work. It is engaging, honest, and well-written. Highly recommended
This is my honest opinion of an uncorrected proof of an ARC
I would like to thank Cassandra Khaw, Macmillan Publishing, and NetGalley for this opportunity.
This is my honest opinion of an uncorrected proof of an ARC
I would like to thank Cassandra Khaw, Macmillan Publishing, and NetGalley for this opportunity.
Review of advance copy received from NetGalley
I'm very torn on this one.
I've struggled with depression myself, to the point I felt like I was sleepwalking through my own life, so my own experiences definitely shaped my opinions about this novella. On one hand, it's brutally honest. The musings on the futility of life? I remember that. The weird lack of any one thing that made life "really bad?" I had that, too. The struggle with guilt over my obsessive thinking about myself, even if those thoughts were all bad? Baby, guilt is my middle name; that particular experience is embedded in my soul. However, here's kind of my (personal) problem with this book: I actually think putting other people first, trying harder for the loved ones in your life, and not navel-gazing so much, IS actually the answer. Or at least, a possible answer. And I'm not really sure what the answer presented here was. The cat? Good food? I guess the sister, a little bit. But is that enough? Here's my problem with Antigone: it seems to me she didn't give herself reasons to live. Ultimately, I think you should be responsible for creating a kind of life you at least somewhat like. Antigone seems to have not done that. She seems to be coasting through life, somewhat bored and apathetic. And trust me, I KNOW that's also a symptom of depression. I guess Antigone has been depressed for a while? The book is so short, I feel like certain things were maybe not explained or explored fully.
Here's my real gripe with this book, though: I think it's very nihilistic. Reading it made me feel kind of worse. If I had been in that really dark, apathetic place, this book would have asked me, "Why not?" I know the ending is hopeful, and that saved this from being 1 star. But to have a couple of pages of hope following over 100 pages of apathetic, despairing nihilism? I just don't think it's an answer. Again, my personal feelings about this book are VERY influenced by my own personal experiences with depression. It seems this book spoke deeply to a majority of readers. I'm not one of them. Take my opinions with the biggest grain of salt. Ultimately, if this book helped you through the hardest time in your life, it did its job, and I'm happy for that.
Thank you to Netgalley and Tor Publishing for my free eARC. All opinions are my own.
I've struggled with depression myself, to the point I felt like I was sleepwalking through my own life, so my own experiences definitely shaped my opinions about this novella. On one hand, it's brutally honest. The musings on the futility of life? I remember that. The weird lack of any one thing that made life "really bad?" I had that, too. The struggle with guilt over my obsessive thinking about myself, even if those thoughts were all bad? Baby, guilt is my middle name; that particular experience is embedded in my soul. However, here's kind of my (personal) problem with this book: I actually think putting other people first, trying harder for the loved ones in your life, and not navel-gazing so much, IS actually the answer. Or at least, a possible answer. And I'm not really sure what the answer presented here was. The cat? Good food? I guess the sister, a little bit. But is that enough? Here's my problem with Antigone: it seems to me she didn't give herself reasons to live. Ultimately, I think you should be responsible for creating a kind of life you at least somewhat like. Antigone seems to have not done that. She seems to be coasting through life, somewhat bored and apathetic. And trust me, I KNOW that's also a symptom of depression. I guess Antigone has been depressed for a while? The book is so short, I feel like certain things were maybe not explained or explored fully.
Here's my real gripe with this book, though: I think it's very nihilistic. Reading it made me feel kind of worse. If I had been in that really dark, apathetic place, this book would have asked me, "Why not?" I know the ending is hopeful, and that saved this from being 1 star. But to have a couple of pages of hope following over 100 pages of apathetic, despairing nihilism? I just don't think it's an answer. Again, my personal feelings about this book are VERY influenced by my own personal experiences with depression. It seems this book spoke deeply to a majority of readers. I'm not one of them. Take my opinions with the biggest grain of salt. Ultimately, if this book helped you through the hardest time in your life, it did its job, and I'm happy for that.
Thank you to Netgalley and Tor Publishing for my free eARC. All opinions are my own.
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
Review of advance copy received from NetGalley
Thank you to NetGalley and Titan Books for this ARC!
“Find Me Where It Ends” is a beautiful novella by Cassandra Khaw, full of heart and love and hope, despite its darkness. We join Antigone on the day death arrives at her door. For her, and the other women in her family, death takes the shape of a black, unearthly dog. Instead of getting scared, Antigone invites Death inside, and it quickly becomes her closest companion. Its arrival forces her to consider the life she has lived, the choices she has made. Death is patient – but will Antigone be?
This book was heartachingly beautiful, funny, and relatable in all the worst (and best) ways. The characters are so utterly charming and feel real despite occasionally being a little cartoonish, and have a solid complexity to their goodness and “badness”.
I really don’t wanna discuss the plot too much because I think with a book this short it is easy to say too much, but just know the ending definitely made me cry, something not a lot of books can boast of having achieved.
This next paragraph may be considered a spoiler. If you feel that discussing the themes of a book could be spoiler-y, I recommend skipping it.
The dog, Death, is used as a metaphor for suicidal ideation. If you have ever had the misfortune of living with this feeling, this book will likely hit you in a way it wouldn’t someone who doesn’t understand the underlying constancy of it. In their acknowledgements, Khaw discloses that they too struggled with suicidality in recent years, and you can really tell that they get it.
I loved every single second of this book, and I can already tell it is one I will be re-reading sooner rather than later. If you enjoy books dealing with heavier topics in a creatively charming manner, and if you ever wondered “when will it all finally end”, this book is absolutely right for you.
“Find Me Where It Ends” is a beautiful novella by Cassandra Khaw, full of heart and love and hope, despite its darkness. We join Antigone on the day death arrives at her door. For her, and the other women in her family, death takes the shape of a black, unearthly dog. Instead of getting scared, Antigone invites Death inside, and it quickly becomes her closest companion. Its arrival forces her to consider the life she has lived, the choices she has made. Death is patient – but will Antigone be?
This book was heartachingly beautiful, funny, and relatable in all the worst (and best) ways. The characters are so utterly charming and feel real despite occasionally being a little cartoonish, and have a solid complexity to their goodness and “badness”.
I really don’t wanna discuss the plot too much because I think with a book this short it is easy to say too much, but just know the ending definitely made me cry, something not a lot of books can boast of having achieved.
This next paragraph may be considered a spoiler. If you feel that discussing the themes of a book could be spoiler-y, I recommend skipping it.
The dog, Death, is used as a metaphor for suicidal ideation. If you have ever had the misfortune of living with this feeling, this book will likely hit you in a way it wouldn’t someone who doesn’t understand the underlying constancy of it. In their acknowledgements, Khaw discloses that they too struggled with suicidality in recent years, and you can really tell that they get it.
I loved every single second of this book, and I can already tell it is one I will be re-reading sooner rather than later. If you enjoy books dealing with heavier topics in a creatively charming manner, and if you ever wondered “when will it all finally end”, this book is absolutely right for you.
Want to Read
April 1, 2026Logging this so I don’t forget to tattoo that cover on my goddamn body.
Review of advance copy received from NetGalley
Explores death (and life) through a portent of a black dog. What happens when you gladly welcome death in? A super tough read, but one we need in a world where we sanitize death and treat depression as a character flaw.
Want to Read
September 25, 2026that cover - I love it! sounds soo good, can't wait to read it!
A huge thank you to the author and publisher for providing an e-ARC via Netgalley. This does not affect my opinion regarding the book.
A huge thank you to the author and publisher for providing an e-ARC via Netgalley. This does not affect my opinion regarding the book.
Review of advance copy received from NetGalley
(4.5 Stars rounded up to 5 for Audio)
I really liked this book. The concept is unique and the pook itself was a joy to read. The characters were fun, and the way it was arranged just made sense.
It was a very short book, but really packed a punch. The audioboot was great, and I really liked the narrator.
I really liked this book. The concept is unique and the pook itself was a joy to read. The characters were fun, and the way it was arranged just made sense.
It was a very short book, but really packed a punch. The audioboot was great, and I really liked the narrator.
Read
July 15, 2026i read this at 3.30AM, the childhood scent of my mothers rose lotion wanders in from somewhere that i cannot place. i am far away from home thinking of my friend and my family, and i am cracked open in the hands of cassandra khaw.
Review of advance copy received from NetGalley
Jesus, not right now Cassandra Khaw 😭😭😭
Heavy (certainly) but hopeful (maybe?) Could be perfect if you're looking for a good, cathartic cry while staring at a wall.
Heavy (certainly) but hopeful (maybe?) Could be perfect if you're looking for a good, cathartic cry while staring at a wall.
Review of advance copy received from NetGalley
I received this e-ARC from NetGalley in exchange for a fair review.
Obviously, with the name Antigone, the narrator is going to be wrestling with suicide, so I’ll be mentioning that topic in the review (so take this as a content warning).
Mysterious and haunting, Find Me Where It Ends is not what it seems.
Given the blend of horror and fantasy, the main character's name, the psychopomps, and something else, this book has a mythological quality to it.
Despite a very dark and dreary subject matter, this book is quick-paced, absorbing, and beautifully written. I really enjoyed her other book - The Salt Grows Heavy - so I had expected something similarly intriguing, and this book totally delivered.
Unfortunately, I can’t talk about what makes this book really resonant and powerful as it’s a major spoiler, but if you’re not put off by the theme, this is a fascinating story that moves in a surprising direction. Despite some fantastical elements, the book feels like a deep dive into someone’s psyche, into all the reasons they want to end things, or, more aptly, all the things they are lacking that drive them to that. It’s heavy, but it’s also not hard to read - the prose is so absorbing (and the narrator is so, well, chill about it) that it’s not depressing.
It somewhat reminded me of the short story “Light and the Sufferer” by Jonathan Lethem; similar vibes but different focus.
Overall, it’s hard to talk about this book without the spoiler, but if you’re looking for a hard-hitting novella that’ll stick with you, check this one out.
Here's my take on the ending:
Obviously, with the name Antigone, the narrator is going to be wrestling with suicide, so I’ll be mentioning that topic in the review (so take this as a content warning).
Mysterious and haunting, Find Me Where It Ends is not what it seems.
Given the blend of horror and fantasy, the main character's name, the psychopomps, and something else, this book has a mythological quality to it.
Despite a very dark and dreary subject matter, this book is quick-paced, absorbing, and beautifully written. I really enjoyed her other book - The Salt Grows Heavy - so I had expected something similarly intriguing, and this book totally delivered.
Unfortunately, I can’t talk about what makes this book really resonant and powerful as it’s a major spoiler, but if you’re not put off by the theme, this is a fascinating story that moves in a surprising direction. Despite some fantastical elements, the book feels like a deep dive into someone’s psyche, into all the reasons they want to end things, or, more aptly, all the things they are lacking that drive them to that. It’s heavy, but it’s also not hard to read - the prose is so absorbing (and the narrator is so, well, chill about it) that it’s not depressing.
It somewhat reminded me of the short story “Light and the Sufferer” by Jonathan Lethem; similar vibes but different focus.
Overall, it’s hard to talk about this book without the spoiler, but if you’re looking for a hard-hitting novella that’ll stick with you, check this one out.
Here's my take on the ending:
July 11, 2026
Before I’d even started the story, Cassandra Khaw had me in tears.
The dedication is beautiful, and it ends with the words, “Stay. I love you. Stay.” Those final words hit me immediately and set the tone for everything that followed.
Find Me Where It Ends is a short novella, coming in at under 200 pages, but it packs an incredible emotional punch. It follows Antigone as she grapples with depression, suicidal thoughts and what it means to keep living. The black dog is a constant companion, a powerful metaphor for depression, while Death itself is another presence throughout the story, quietly following her as she wrestles with whether to stay.
I loved the symbolism throughout. The black dog is such a powerful metaphor, and I thought Cassandra Khaw handled it with so much care. I also found the choice of names fascinating. Antigone, Ophelia and Juliet are all women whose stories end in tragedy, and those subtle literary callbacks added another layer to a book that was already rich with meaning. In contrast, Antigone’s best friend is called Vera, a name often associated with truth and faith. Whether that symbolism was intentional or not, I loved the possibility that while the story is surrounded by echoes of tragedy, Vera represents something honest, steadfast and worth holding onto. It felt like a quiet but hopeful counterbalance to everything Antigone is carrying.
What impressed me most was how authentically Khaw captured that headspace. Some of Antigone’s internal thoughts felt painfully familiar. Having experienced depression myself, and having lost people in my life to suicide, I found this incredibly emotional to read. I could recognise parts of that way of thinking, and I could also recognise it in people I’ve loved. It never felt sensationalised or exploitative. Instead, it felt compassionate, honest and deeply human.
The ending is beautifully handled, and I would genuinely recommend reading the acknowledgements afterwards. I don’t often read acknowledgements, but in this case they’re absolutely worth your time. They give such important context to where this story came from and made the whole experience even more moving.
This won’t be an easy read for everyone, and I’d encourage anyone to check the content warnings beforehand. At the same time, I think this could be a really important book for people who are struggling or for those trying to understand what someone they love may be going through. At its heart, despite everything it explores, this is a story with one simple, powerful message:
Stay.
Cassandra Khaw’s writing is absolutely stunning. I was amazed by how much emotion, depth and hope she managed to fit into such a short novella. I finished it in tears, but they were the kind of tears that remind you why stories matter. I came away thinking not only about Antigone’s journey, but about the care that had gone into every choice, from the symbolism of the black dog, to the literary references woven through the names, to the quiet hope that sits at the heart of the novel.
Thank you to NetGalley and Titan Books for this ARC copy.
The dedication is beautiful, and it ends with the words, “Stay. I love you. Stay.” Those final words hit me immediately and set the tone for everything that followed.
Find Me Where It Ends is a short novella, coming in at under 200 pages, but it packs an incredible emotional punch. It follows Antigone as she grapples with depression, suicidal thoughts and what it means to keep living. The black dog is a constant companion, a powerful metaphor for depression, while Death itself is another presence throughout the story, quietly following her as she wrestles with whether to stay.
I loved the symbolism throughout. The black dog is such a powerful metaphor, and I thought Cassandra Khaw handled it with so much care. I also found the choice of names fascinating. Antigone, Ophelia and Juliet are all women whose stories end in tragedy, and those subtle literary callbacks added another layer to a book that was already rich with meaning. In contrast, Antigone’s best friend is called Vera, a name often associated with truth and faith. Whether that symbolism was intentional or not, I loved the possibility that while the story is surrounded by echoes of tragedy, Vera represents something honest, steadfast and worth holding onto. It felt like a quiet but hopeful counterbalance to everything Antigone is carrying.
What impressed me most was how authentically Khaw captured that headspace. Some of Antigone’s internal thoughts felt painfully familiar. Having experienced depression myself, and having lost people in my life to suicide, I found this incredibly emotional to read. I could recognise parts of that way of thinking, and I could also recognise it in people I’ve loved. It never felt sensationalised or exploitative. Instead, it felt compassionate, honest and deeply human.
The ending is beautifully handled, and I would genuinely recommend reading the acknowledgements afterwards. I don’t often read acknowledgements, but in this case they’re absolutely worth your time. They give such important context to where this story came from and made the whole experience even more moving.
This won’t be an easy read for everyone, and I’d encourage anyone to check the content warnings beforehand. At the same time, I think this could be a really important book for people who are struggling or for those trying to understand what someone they love may be going through. At its heart, despite everything it explores, this is a story with one simple, powerful message:
Stay.
Cassandra Khaw’s writing is absolutely stunning. I was amazed by how much emotion, depth and hope she managed to fit into such a short novella. I finished it in tears, but they were the kind of tears that remind you why stories matter. I came away thinking not only about Antigone’s journey, but about the care that had gone into every choice, from the symbolism of the black dog, to the literary references woven through the names, to the quiet hope that sits at the heart of the novel.
Thank you to NetGalley and Titan Books for this ARC copy.
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
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