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Freak
The freak belongs to me.
I’ve observed Violet for a long time, studying as each depraved desire slowly plants itself into her subconscious. She resists her primal urges, but deep down, the woman knows she craves degradation just as much as she needs justice.
She thinks I killed her mother, and thus, she is determined to seek revenge, even if it means faking symptoms to begin treatment under my care.
The deviant little freak is desperate to belong, and that makes her the perfect specimen to be trained as my permanent and obedient toy. With each phase of conditioning, she’ll fall deeper into her deviance, and soon, she won’t be able to resist any of my sadistic demands.
There is no other choice.
She will be transformed into my living doll.
Author’s This is a horror novel with graphic scenes. It was originally published as a shorter version titled Exposed. This book has significantly more chapters. An extended content list is located on the author’s website. Reader discretion is advised.
I’ve observed Violet for a long time, studying as each depraved desire slowly plants itself into her subconscious. She resists her primal urges, but deep down, the woman knows she craves degradation just as much as she needs justice.
She thinks I killed her mother, and thus, she is determined to seek revenge, even if it means faking symptoms to begin treatment under my care.
The deviant little freak is desperate to belong, and that makes her the perfect specimen to be trained as my permanent and obedient toy. With each phase of conditioning, she’ll fall deeper into her deviance, and soon, she won’t be able to resist any of my sadistic demands.
There is no other choice.
She will be transformed into my living doll.
Author’s This is a horror novel with graphic scenes. It was originally published as a shorter version titled Exposed. This book has significantly more chapters. An extended content list is located on the author’s website. Reader discretion is advised.
238 pages, Kindle Edition
First published September 6, 2025
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46 books1,168 followersAudrey Rush writes kinky dark romance and erotic horror. She celebrates spooky season every day, and she is obsessed with Disney. You can find her in the South, drowning in coffee.
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December 9, 2025
I got the arc for review.
I knew it was going to be fucked up when I started the book. Having read multiple of her horror erotica before. But I can never prepare for the depravity and disgusting content of the book. It truly horrified me and I had to take breaks. It didn't suprise me it was a 5 star read but I also feel sick in my stomach finishing it. Audrey Rush makes her story so engaging to read with her style of writing. But I definitely need to watch cute videos for a while after.
I knew it was going to be fucked up when I started the book. Having read multiple of her horror erotica before. But I can never prepare for the depravity and disgusting content of the book. It truly horrified me and I had to take breaks. It didn't suprise me it was a 5 star read but I also feel sick in my stomach finishing it. Audrey Rush makes her story so engaging to read with her style of writing. But I definitely need to watch cute videos for a while after.
December 9, 2025
Audrey Rush didn’t just rewrite Exposed — she weaponized it. Freak is the more sinful, more obsessive, more deliciously unhinged version of the story I thought I already knew… and somehow it still managed to catch me off guard.
From the first chapter, the atmosphere is thicker, the tension sharper, and the power dynamics even more intoxicating. Rush gives us an expanded asylum setting that feels alive in the worst—and best—ways: claustrophobic, eerie, and humming with danger. Every added scene deepens that slow, relentless pull toward the forbidden.
And our girl? She is tested, tempted, cornered, and cracked open in ways that feel both terrifying and irresistible. Rush writes psychological seduction like no one else — the kind that sneaks under your skin and whispers, you wanted this.
What really sets Freak apart is the intensity. This version goes harder — the obsession, the unraveling, the dark intimacy that should be wrong but feels so alluring you can’t look away. It’s the kind of book that makes you check your alignment and realize you may, in fact, be sliding comfortably into chaotic evil.
If you loved Exposed, this expanded version gives you everything you craved and everything you didn’t know you needed: more tension, more heat, more twisted emotional stakes. It’s the perfect storm of dark romance and psychological horror, crafted with that signature Rush precision.
A wicked, atmospheric, beautifully deranged upgrade.
I didn’t just read Freak.
I surrendered to it.
I got this book for free as an advanced reader copy and am voluntarily reviewing it.
From the first chapter, the atmosphere is thicker, the tension sharper, and the power dynamics even more intoxicating. Rush gives us an expanded asylum setting that feels alive in the worst—and best—ways: claustrophobic, eerie, and humming with danger. Every added scene deepens that slow, relentless pull toward the forbidden.
And our girl? She is tested, tempted, cornered, and cracked open in ways that feel both terrifying and irresistible. Rush writes psychological seduction like no one else — the kind that sneaks under your skin and whispers, you wanted this.
What really sets Freak apart is the intensity. This version goes harder — the obsession, the unraveling, the dark intimacy that should be wrong but feels so alluring you can’t look away. It’s the kind of book that makes you check your alignment and realize you may, in fact, be sliding comfortably into chaotic evil.
If you loved Exposed, this expanded version gives you everything you craved and everything you didn’t know you needed: more tension, more heat, more twisted emotional stakes. It’s the perfect storm of dark romance and psychological horror, crafted with that signature Rush precision.
A wicked, atmospheric, beautifully deranged upgrade.
I didn’t just read Freak.
I surrendered to it.
I got this book for free as an advanced reader copy and am voluntarily reviewing it.
December 15, 2025
This was my first book by this author, and the moment I saw the cover, I just knew I was going to like it. I don’t know why—I simply felt it. I do have other books pending, but I had to start this one.
First of all: read the trigger warnings. Seriously. This book requires it.
If I could give it 10 stars, I would—because 5 is nowhere near enough. The writing is a masterpiece. It’s incredibly well written, perfectly structured, and masterfully told. The story is twisted, perverse, brutal, gore and extremely unhinged.
I questioned my own morality more times than I can count. How can I be enjoying a book like this, with the things that happen in it? It’s intense. There were moments when I actually laughed at myself for how much I was enjoying it.
But that’s the thing: it’s so twisted and so brilliantly executed that you just sit there turning pages, completely hooked, desperate to know what happens next. Page after page, thinking: what a fucking masterpiece.
If you like horror—really dark, graphic, disturbing stories with extremely messed-up themes—and you have the stomach for it, read this book. No doubt. One hundred percent. Highly recommended. I enjoyed it immensely. I loved it.
First of all: read the trigger warnings. Seriously. This book requires it.
If I could give it 10 stars, I would—because 5 is nowhere near enough. The writing is a masterpiece. It’s incredibly well written, perfectly structured, and masterfully told. The story is twisted, perverse, brutal, gore and extremely unhinged.
I questioned my own morality more times than I can count. How can I be enjoying a book like this, with the things that happen in it? It’s intense. There were moments when I actually laughed at myself for how much I was enjoying it.
But that’s the thing: it’s so twisted and so brilliantly executed that you just sit there turning pages, completely hooked, desperate to know what happens next. Page after page, thinking: what a fucking masterpiece.
If you like horror—really dark, graphic, disturbing stories with extremely messed-up themes—and you have the stomach for it, read this book. No doubt. One hundred percent. Highly recommended. I enjoyed it immensely. I loved it.
December 8, 2025
I said I was going to devour this and devour I did!!
So if you read Exposed and you thought “she can’t go any further than this can she?”
Well Freak is Exposed on cr@ck amplified x1000… I think that’s a good way to put it.
She really outdid herself with this and I promise you will not be disappointed!!
I will say this.. those of you weak and with weak stomachs and very vivid imaginations, this might not be for you because I mean it has some very shall we say detailed parts of things and things
HOWEVER I still say read it because it’s sooooooo good even tho it’s sick and twisted and dark an depraved and just wow.
Add to your TBRs and prepare for this!!
So if you read Exposed and you thought “she can’t go any further than this can she?”
Well Freak is Exposed on cr@ck amplified x1000… I think that’s a good way to put it.
She really outdid herself with this and I promise you will not be disappointed!!
I will say this.. those of you weak and with weak stomachs and very vivid imaginations, this might not be for you because I mean it has some very shall we say detailed parts of things and things
HOWEVER I still say read it because it’s sooooooo good even tho it’s sick and twisted and dark an depraved and just wow.
Add to your TBRs and prepare for this!!
Review of advance copy
“ᴛʜᴇ ꜰʀᴇᴀᴋ ɪꜱ ᴍʏ ʙᴇꜱᴛ ᴇxᴘᴇʀɪᴍᴇɴᴛ ʏᴇᴛ. ꜱʜᴇ’ꜱ ʟᴜᴄᴋʏ ꜱʜᴇ’ꜱ ᴍʏ ᴏʙꜱᴇꜱꜱɪᴏɴ.”
📘Freak by Audrey Rush
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✨️12.23.25✨️
Freak is an experience. A deranged, mind-bending, spine-curling descent into madness from page one, and I loved every unhinged second of it.
If you read Exposed, just know this:
Exposed walked so Freak could absolutely hose you down so you're soaked with golden unfiltered chaos and call it family bonding. ☀️☔😏
Audrey Rush took Exposed, cracked it open , stitched in new organs, added extra nerve endings, tossed in eggs, flour, a dash of family love, and then baked that unholy batter at 350° until it screamed. The result? ✨️Freak✨️ A perfectly risen, unstable soufflé that will collapse if you blink but absolutely wreck you if you don’t. The added chapters are absolutely wild, making this already unhinged horror book darker and somehow even more messier. You won’t be able to stop consuming it, scooping up chapter after chapter like a ravenous fiend, ignoring all sense of self-preservation… until you’re utterly undone, and questioning all life choices because you’ve devoured every last bite. So dig in little Freak , om nom nom nom nom 😋
Audrey is my QUEEN of horror you never quite know what you’re about to read, only that it will be dark, disgusting, possibly morally offensive… and somehow exactly what your unwell little heart needed.
This lovely little horror nightmare drops December 23rd, which means you can sip hot apple cider, eat gingerbread family cookies, and absolutely ruin the Christmas spirit in the best possible way. Truly the perfect Christmas Eve Eve read if you enjoy festive cheer… but make it deeply concerning. 🎄🩸
⚠️ Important note: The trigger warnings have expanded, so please please check those before diving in.
All the love to Audrey for creating something this bold, this dark, and this unapologetically unhinged.
I absolutely love this book and her. 🩵👀
📘Freak by Audrey Rush
|| @audreyrushbooks
✨️12.23.25✨️
Freak is an experience. A deranged, mind-bending, spine-curling descent into madness from page one, and I loved every unhinged second of it.
If you read Exposed, just know this:
Exposed walked so Freak could absolutely hose you down so you're soaked with golden unfiltered chaos and call it family bonding. ☀️☔😏
Audrey Rush took Exposed, cracked it open , stitched in new organs, added extra nerve endings, tossed in eggs, flour, a dash of family love, and then baked that unholy batter at 350° until it screamed. The result? ✨️Freak✨️ A perfectly risen, unstable soufflé that will collapse if you blink but absolutely wreck you if you don’t. The added chapters are absolutely wild, making this already unhinged horror book darker and somehow even more messier. You won’t be able to stop consuming it, scooping up chapter after chapter like a ravenous fiend, ignoring all sense of self-preservation… until you’re utterly undone, and questioning all life choices because you’ve devoured every last bite. So dig in little Freak , om nom nom nom nom 😋
Audrey is my QUEEN of horror you never quite know what you’re about to read, only that it will be dark, disgusting, possibly morally offensive… and somehow exactly what your unwell little heart needed.
This lovely little horror nightmare drops December 23rd, which means you can sip hot apple cider, eat gingerbread family cookies, and absolutely ruin the Christmas spirit in the best possible way. Truly the perfect Christmas Eve Eve read if you enjoy festive cheer… but make it deeply concerning. 🎄🩸
⚠️ Important note: The trigger warnings have expanded, so please please check those before diving in.
All the love to Audrey for creating something this bold, this dark, and this unapologetically unhinged.
I absolutely love this book and her. 🩵👀
December 10, 2025
If you’ve read any of Audrey’s books you know what to expect 🤭 Do read the trigger warnings if you have any‼️
Violet, is on a mission to delete the man she assumes m^rdered her mother. The man in question is Dr. Ambrose, the place an asylum. As we know though what happens behind closed doors isn’t always what we think, Dr Ambrose has specific plans for Violet, plans that will turn her world on its axis and back again before everything is in its rightful place…according to the doctor 😈 I am being deliberately obtuse because if you read Exposed then you won’t want to restrain yourself from this and I would hate to give anything away!
⛓️ "ɴᴏᴡ, ꜱʜᴏᴡ ᴍᴇ ʜᴏᴡ ʙᴀᴅʟʏ ʏᴏᴜ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ʙɪᴛᴄʜ ᴛᴏ ꜱᴜꜰꜰᴇʀ." 🧪
Audrey has done it again, torn you away from r/l and hauled you into her headspace cos this one just integrates itself in your brain. Bravo lady, bravo! The taboo aspect is like a vicious circle, the depravity and submission are like a feast for the ‘freak’ in you 😱
Violet, is on a mission to delete the man she assumes m^rdered her mother. The man in question is Dr. Ambrose, the place an asylum. As we know though what happens behind closed doors isn’t always what we think, Dr Ambrose has specific plans for Violet, plans that will turn her world on its axis and back again before everything is in its rightful place…according to the doctor 😈 I am being deliberately obtuse because if you read Exposed then you won’t want to restrain yourself from this and I would hate to give anything away!
⛓️ "ɴᴏᴡ, ꜱʜᴏᴡ ᴍᴇ ʜᴏᴡ ʙᴀᴅʟʏ ʏᴏᴜ ᴡᴀɴᴛ ᴛʜᴇ ʙɪᴛᴄʜ ᴛᴏ ꜱᴜꜰꜰᴇʀ." 🧪
Audrey has done it again, torn you away from r/l and hauled you into her headspace cos this one just integrates itself in your brain. Bravo lady, bravo! The taboo aspect is like a vicious circle, the depravity and submission are like a feast for the ‘freak’ in you 😱
December 28, 2025
⭐️ 4/5
Thank you Audrey Rush for providing this e-ARC. All opinions are my own.
This was the most disgustingly horrific (in a good way) book I’ve read to date. Dr. Ambrose is a sick freak and I had the (dis)pleasure of getting to know his inner thoughts and POV. He is manipulative and I felt bad for the characters who unwillingly and unknowingly had to come into contact with him.
Other than the shock value, the story had a couple of twists. Half way through the book, I was not sure what direction it would go. This is definitely not a romance story, and would not take the trigger/warning list lightly.
#Freak #AudreyRush #ARC
Thank you Audrey Rush for providing this e-ARC. All opinions are my own.
This was the most disgustingly horrific (in a good way) book I’ve read to date. Dr. Ambrose is a sick freak and I had the (dis)pleasure of getting to know his inner thoughts and POV. He is manipulative and I felt bad for the characters who unwillingly and unknowingly had to come into contact with him.
Other than the shock value, the story had a couple of twists. Half way through the book, I was not sure what direction it would go. This is definitely not a romance story, and would not take the trigger/warning list lightly.
#Freak #AudreyRush #ARC
December 9, 2025
Disgusting. Depraved. . . Delightful??!?
Audrey Rush could never do me wrong with an erotic horror. ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️
First, I’d like to say I need so much more of this story. I went into this fully expecting to be shocked, and I was fucking shocked to my core! Violet and Dr. Ambrose…how is there even a universe where I’m hoping you end up together?
At what point while reading this do we accept that at the end maybe this is what Violet wants, or do we throw that thought out and fully villainize Dr. Ambrose??
There were moments I thought, "Violet's gonna get her revenge," or "Dr. Ambrose is finally going to have his Grinch’s heart-growing moment...." I’m not sure why I even got my hopes up.
Audrey Rush makes a lot of things interesting that I’ve never thought about trying 💛🚿. THAT BEING SAID, there was one thing in this book (ifykyk) — omfg, what was that?! Absolutely disgusting!!! All that being said, I loved this book with my whole heart and soul! I will always continue to read Audrey’s books!!
If you love pitch black read this it’s 10/10 for me!!!
Some of my favorite quotes
Excerpt From
Freak
Audrey Rush
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“ If this is a trap, then you have to go through with it, even if you end up in your own grave.”
Violet
“For fuck’s sake, I just want to belong to anyone as long as I don’t have a choice.”
Violet
“He smiles. “Now, sweet one, let me clean you with my tongue.”
JAW ON THE FUCKING FLOOR
“I’m not any freak. I’m his freak.
And he’s proud of me.”
Violet
“Perhaps I am caring for her. I am deeply invested in her more than any other specimen I’ve experimented on.”
Dr.Ambrose
“I’ve truly mastered the art of depravity.”
Dr.Ambrose
Excerpt From
Freak
Audrey Rush
This material may be protected by copyright.
Audrey Rush could never do me wrong with an erotic horror. ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️
First, I’d like to say I need so much more of this story. I went into this fully expecting to be shocked, and I was fucking shocked to my core! Violet and Dr. Ambrose…how is there even a universe where I’m hoping you end up together?
At what point while reading this do we accept that at the end maybe this is what Violet wants, or do we throw that thought out and fully villainize Dr. Ambrose??
There were moments I thought, "Violet's gonna get her revenge," or "Dr. Ambrose is finally going to have his Grinch’s heart-growing moment...." I’m not sure why I even got my hopes up.
Audrey Rush makes a lot of things interesting that I’ve never thought about trying 💛🚿. THAT BEING SAID, there was one thing in this book (ifykyk) — omfg, what was that?! Absolutely disgusting!!! All that being said, I loved this book with my whole heart and soul! I will always continue to read Audrey’s books!!
If you love pitch black read this it’s 10/10 for me!!!
Some of my favorite quotes
Excerpt From
Freak
Audrey Rush
This material may be protected by copyright.
“ If this is a trap, then you have to go through with it, even if you end up in your own grave.”
Violet
“For fuck’s sake, I just want to belong to anyone as long as I don’t have a choice.”
Violet
“He smiles. “Now, sweet one, let me clean you with my tongue.”
JAW ON THE FUCKING FLOOR
“I’m not any freak. I’m his freak.
And he’s proud of me.”
Violet
“Perhaps I am caring for her. I am deeply invested in her more than any other specimen I’ve experimented on.”
Dr.Ambrose
“I’ve truly mastered the art of depravity.”
Dr.Ambrose
Excerpt From
Freak
Audrey Rush
This material may be protected by copyright.
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
December 11, 2025
Okay… Audrey Rush. Miss Ma’am. RESPECTFULLY — I love whatever the hell is wrong with you!
Because NEVER in my wildest imagination could I have conjured anything this unhinged, depraved, and jaw-droppingly disturbing. Freak was my first read from her and holy hell… what an introduction. 😭🖤
This book had me audibly yelling at the FMC like,
“BABE. WAKE UP. RUN. STOP JUSTIFYING YOUR ACTIONS.”
But she’s emotionally cracked open, raw, desperate for love and belonging, and Dr. Ambrose? That cold, detached puppet-master of a man? He plays her vulnerability like a damn instrument. Watching her spiral was frustrating, heartbreaking, and horrifying all at the same time.
And let’s be clear:
NOTHING ABOUT THE SPICE IS ROMANTIC. ( I already knew this, I am saying this for those who don’t understand that spice aint always nice) It is meant to make your skin crawl, not make your heart flutter.
This is psychological erotic horror! An Audrey executes this with the accuracy of a hit man! Seriously, prep yourself or it will take you all 👏🏻the 👏🏻way 👏🏻out.
You gotta check your triggers and be okay with a LOT of dark shit really fast — we’re talking (Ne)cro, age gap (no minors), blood relations, degradation, objectification , psychological manipulation, bodily fluids, infections, poor hygiene, & Taco Bell level chaos, okay?? 😭
But this depravity is not without its depth!
Parental abandonment is the driving force here.
That bone-deep yearning for acceptance, for a place to belong, for someone to choose you… even if they never should. This story shows the brutal lengths someone will go to feel wanted — even if it means sacrificing their identity, their safety, their entire sense of self. She becomes an empty shell chasing love from someone who is fundamentally incapable of giving it.
And Ambrose?
That man is a master manipulator with no remorse, no empathy, no soul — just a clinical obsession to create a “living doll” for the world’s darkest desires. He is FAR worse than the disgust he spits at the FMC, and somehow that makes every scene with him even more disturbing.
Listen…
I said “WHAT THE ACTUAL F*CK?!” more times than I can count.
My jaw hit the floor repeatedly.
I was uncomfortable, grossed out, horrified, and still turning pages with eagerness.
This book is depraved, disgusting, creative, compelling, and absolutely NOT for beginners. If you’re new to erotic horror? Babe, pack your bags and keep walking. Neo,This ain’t the one.
But if you’re a seasoned reader who loves their fiction pitch-black, twisted, psychologically brutal, and gleefully unhinged?
Yeah… Freak is gonna sink its claws into you
Final Thoughts
Freak is gross, depraved, emotionally heavy, psychologically gripping, and ultimately unforgettable. Audrey Rush crafts a story that weaponizes vulnerability, explores the cost of abandonment, and exposes the monstrous consequences of seeking acceptance in all the wrong places. It is horrifying, fascinating, deeply uncomfortable — and impossible to look away from.
If you can handle the content, the artistry of its execution makes it well worth the read.
Thank you to BookSirens & Audrey Rush for the ARC ( & nightmares 😜)
Because NEVER in my wildest imagination could I have conjured anything this unhinged, depraved, and jaw-droppingly disturbing. Freak was my first read from her and holy hell… what an introduction. 😭🖤
This book had me audibly yelling at the FMC like,
“BABE. WAKE UP. RUN. STOP JUSTIFYING YOUR ACTIONS.”
But she’s emotionally cracked open, raw, desperate for love and belonging, and Dr. Ambrose? That cold, detached puppet-master of a man? He plays her vulnerability like a damn instrument. Watching her spiral was frustrating, heartbreaking, and horrifying all at the same time.
And let’s be clear:
NOTHING ABOUT THE SPICE IS ROMANTIC. ( I already knew this, I am saying this for those who don’t understand that spice aint always nice) It is meant to make your skin crawl, not make your heart flutter.
This is psychological erotic horror! An Audrey executes this with the accuracy of a hit man! Seriously, prep yourself or it will take you all 👏🏻the 👏🏻way 👏🏻out.
You gotta check your triggers and be okay with a LOT of dark shit really fast — we’re talking (Ne)cro, age gap (no minors), blood relations, degradation, objectification , psychological manipulation, bodily fluids, infections, poor hygiene, & Taco Bell level chaos, okay?? 😭
But this depravity is not without its depth!
Parental abandonment is the driving force here.
That bone-deep yearning for acceptance, for a place to belong, for someone to choose you… even if they never should. This story shows the brutal lengths someone will go to feel wanted — even if it means sacrificing their identity, their safety, their entire sense of self. She becomes an empty shell chasing love from someone who is fundamentally incapable of giving it.
And Ambrose?
That man is a master manipulator with no remorse, no empathy, no soul — just a clinical obsession to create a “living doll” for the world’s darkest desires. He is FAR worse than the disgust he spits at the FMC, and somehow that makes every scene with him even more disturbing.
Listen…
I said “WHAT THE ACTUAL F*CK?!” more times than I can count.
My jaw hit the floor repeatedly.
I was uncomfortable, grossed out, horrified, and still turning pages with eagerness.
This book is depraved, disgusting, creative, compelling, and absolutely NOT for beginners. If you’re new to erotic horror? Babe, pack your bags and keep walking. Neo,This ain’t the one.
But if you’re a seasoned reader who loves their fiction pitch-black, twisted, psychologically brutal, and gleefully unhinged?
Yeah… Freak is gonna sink its claws into you
Final Thoughts
Freak is gross, depraved, emotionally heavy, psychologically gripping, and ultimately unforgettable. Audrey Rush crafts a story that weaponizes vulnerability, explores the cost of abandonment, and exposes the monstrous consequences of seeking acceptance in all the wrong places. It is horrifying, fascinating, deeply uncomfortable — and impossible to look away from.
If you can handle the content, the artistry of its execution makes it well worth the read.
Thank you to BookSirens & Audrey Rush for the ARC ( & nightmares 😜)
December 21, 2025
5⭐️
This was genius!
Pure genius! I LOVED this book. Audrey, please, never stop writing books.
I absolutely loved this book!
I had already read Exposed, but this version is way darker and, honestly, much better. The extra chapters really add to the story and make everything feel more intense and messed up in the best way.
Audrey Rush is so good at writing obsession and control. This book is uncomfortable, but that’s exactly why it works. Watching Violet slowly change and sink deeper into everything is disturbing, but I couldn’t stop reading. The story pulls you in and doesn’t let go.
The atmosphere is heavy and creepy from start to finish. It feels like something bad is always about to happen, and that tension kept me hooked the whole time.
Thank you so much to Audrey Rush for the ARC. I’m always excited when I see her emails, and this book did not disappoint at all.
Easy five stars. Dark, twisted, and unforgettable.
This was genius!
Pure genius! I LOVED this book. Audrey, please, never stop writing books.
I absolutely loved this book!
I had already read Exposed, but this version is way darker and, honestly, much better. The extra chapters really add to the story and make everything feel more intense and messed up in the best way.
Audrey Rush is so good at writing obsession and control. This book is uncomfortable, but that’s exactly why it works. Watching Violet slowly change and sink deeper into everything is disturbing, but I couldn’t stop reading. The story pulls you in and doesn’t let go.
The atmosphere is heavy and creepy from start to finish. It feels like something bad is always about to happen, and that tension kept me hooked the whole time.
Thank you so much to Audrey Rush for the ARC. I’m always excited when I see her emails, and this book did not disappoint at all.
Easy five stars. Dark, twisted, and unforgettable.
January 3, 2026
ARC REVIEW
Freak by @audreyrushbooks
So I think I'm a pretty seasoned horror reader. At this point, not much gets to me anymore. But Audrey Rush sure does!!!
Freak was a whole new level of messed up. It's depraved, it's taboo, it's soulless and it's such a downward spiral. AND I WAS HERE FOR ALL OF IT!!
Dr. Ambrose is one of the most disgusting characters I have had the pleasure to read. Although I wished for him to be struck by a meteor, I just couldn't help but keep turning pages to see what he came up with next. Not gonna lie, some of it was shocking.
I'm not sure if I feel bad for what Violet goes through or if I'm more curious to find out what the doctor does next.
Audrey Rush is my go to author when I'm in the mood for botemless darkness and she DELIVERED with Freak.
CHECK YOUR TW'S! DO NOT TAKE THEM LIGHTLY!!!
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Freak by @audreyrushbooks
So I think I'm a pretty seasoned horror reader. At this point, not much gets to me anymore. But Audrey Rush sure does!!!
Freak was a whole new level of messed up. It's depraved, it's taboo, it's soulless and it's such a downward spiral. AND I WAS HERE FOR ALL OF IT!!
Dr. Ambrose is one of the most disgusting characters I have had the pleasure to read. Although I wished for him to be struck by a meteor, I just couldn't help but keep turning pages to see what he came up with next. Not gonna lie, some of it was shocking.
I'm not sure if I feel bad for what Violet goes through or if I'm more curious to find out what the doctor does next.
Audrey Rush is my go to author when I'm in the mood for botemless darkness and she DELIVERED with Freak.
CHECK YOUR TW'S! DO NOT TAKE THEM LIGHTLY!!!
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December 9, 2025
I read the first write up of this book when it was titled Exposed and thought it was the most grotesque books i’ve ever read.. I received an ARC copy of the reworked title FREAK and boy was I very wrong 😂😂😂 The rewrite of FREAK adds SEVERAL chapters to the original story filled with the most vial things you can imagine.. But of course if you know Audrey’s writing.. this is 100% on par. I loved the extended chapters, it tied everything together with her Doll universe. The ending is everything you have come to expect in this universe but yet you are left with your jaw on the floor cringing in the best way.. PLEASE CHECK TRIGGERS as this one is filled with them..
Review of advance copy
wow. I hated every second of that. and for a horror erotica thats exactly what I wanted 🤣💀 Freak took every trigger warning and taboo aspect and slapped you in the face. Audrey def understands how to make you squirm, gag a little bit, and also reread the page to make sure "yup that just happened". I do NOT reccomend this book to anyone with morals or sensitivity issues. Freak is just the doll she is made to be, and Dr. Ambrose will make sure nothing gets on his way. Not even DNA or questionable choices or even dirty fingernails 🤢 You will enter the asylum. You will not be leaving. You will obey the Dr. You will not think for yourself. You are nothing but a toy now. You are a Freak.
December 24, 2025
ARC REVIEW: Heed to trigger warnings ⚠️
The title describes the story. I was constantly asking myself "what the f*ck?" But in the best way possible. I absolutely loved this. Audrey did an amazing job. The plot twists were great and honestly I was expecting a different ending. The descriptions were so detailed I could have sworn I was there, unfortunately at times. The story flowed really nicely, super easy to follow and was written well. Editors and beta readers did a great job as I didn't notice anything. Not quite a five star read as I feel like a little more could have been given in the last few pages but I'd definitely read it again.
The title describes the story. I was constantly asking myself "what the f*ck?" But in the best way possible. I absolutely loved this. Audrey did an amazing job. The plot twists were great and honestly I was expecting a different ending. The descriptions were so detailed I could have sworn I was there, unfortunately at times. The story flowed really nicely, super easy to follow and was written well. Editors and beta readers did a great job as I didn't notice anything. Not quite a five star read as I feel like a little more could have been given in the last few pages but I'd definitely read it again.
January 3, 2026
if youve read anything written by Audrey then you know she is not a stranger to writing dark and depraved...but I was not expecting this.
Freak is phenomenally written with such intensity and darkness i honestly would give it 6 stars if i could.
Dr. ambrose is a vile person but I couldnt stop reading. and I was so obsessed with Violet.
this is not for the faint of heart. multiple times I had an uneasy feeling in my stomach so please check triggers if you have them.
but if you like twisted then this may be for you.
Freak is phenomenally written with such intensity and darkness i honestly would give it 6 stars if i could.
Dr. ambrose is a vile person but I couldnt stop reading. and I was so obsessed with Violet.
this is not for the faint of heart. multiple times I had an uneasy feeling in my stomach so please check triggers if you have them.
but if you like twisted then this may be for you.
December 8, 2025
I love whatever is wrong with Audrey Rush. This book was so messed up and I don’t what it says about me for finishing this book in one sitting. Definitely read warnings before hand. I devoured this book and if you like really messed up horror erotica books then you will too!
December 10, 2025
If I ever want something fucked up, I can ALWAYS count on Audrey! I ATE THIS BOOK UP!
Review of advance copy received from Author
I got an arc, but my rating/review are my own!
review coming soon...
omggg ewww ewww ewwww
review coming soon...
omggg ewww ewww ewwww
December 31, 2025
Oh hell yes! Not mad that this is probably my last read of 2025. I loved it 😌
Review will be added
Review will be added
January 14, 2026
The plot twist at the end. YES!
December 29, 2025
⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️ - 𝓻𝓪𝓽𝓮
🌶️🌶️🌶️🌶️ - 𝓼𝓹𝓲𝓬𝓮 (ish)
🔥🔥🔥 - 𝓹𝓵𝓸𝓽
🩸🩸 - 𝓰𝓸𝓻𝓮
🖤 𝓶𝓪𝓲𝓷 𝓬𝓱𝓪𝓻𝓪𝓬𝓽𝓮𝓻𝓼🖤
Dr. Alick Ambrose & Violet
🖤 𝓽𝓻𝓸𝓹𝓮𝓼🖤
📕 𝓮𝔁𝓽𝓻𝓮𝓶𝓮 𝓭𝓮𝓰𝓻𝓪𝓭𝓪𝓽𝓲𝓸𝓷
📕𝓫𝓸𝓭𝔂 𝓶𝓸𝓭𝓲𝓯𝓲𝓬𝓪𝓽𝓲𝓸𝓷
📕𝓫𝓻𝓮𝓮𝓭𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓯𝓸𝓻 𝓹𝓻𝓸𝓭𝓾𝓬𝓽
📕𝓲𝓷𝓬𝓮𝓼𝓽
📕𝓷𝓮𝓬𝓻𝓸𝓹𝓱𝓲𝓵𝓲𝓪
🖤 𝓻𝓮𝓿𝓲𝓮𝔀🖤
“You’re a true gutter whore, willing to take any trash I give you.”
Ah!!! Rush freakin’ nailed this re-release of Exposed by connecting it to SKINS, with the Pure Companion Company making its morbid return. Let me start by saying that this HORROR story has some deeply pitch dark scenes that may be too much for some readers including but not limited to invest, necrophilia, fisting, sodomy, and other sadist acts. But if you have ever read anything by Rush, you should already know what you’re getting into. Once I started this sickening story, I was SEATED. Violet and Dr. Ambrose are two sick FREAKS! Rush does not hold back on any of the gnarly details which paints the imagery of the scene even more grotesque.
*spoilers*
Dr. Ambrose is not your typical doctor. In fact, I wouldn’t choose him to do any of my check ups from the start when he’s getting off on a video of a woman getting urinated on. He’s a freak waiting for his next patient to arrive. Violet. The daughter of the woman he used to test his perversions on before her untimely death. See, he has this insatiable urge to see how far she’s willing to take things and his desires outweigh everything else.
Violet is a woman seeking revenge for her mother. Her mother who was unalived in the asylum, Ambrose Asylum, where Dr. Ambrose works. Where he blackmailed in order to take over the facility. She doesn’t know the whole truth of what occurred within those walls or how her mother died, but she believes Ambrose had something to do with it and is risking everything to be admitted so she can exact her plan to unalive him. Even if it means doing obscene sexual acts in order to be admitted.
See, Violet’s mother was supposedly raped in the asylum and carried to term, hence how she was created. But Violet has done her research and discovered there’s a possibility that Ambrose isn’t who he appears to be. And that he may be her biological father. And it’s true. He isn’t who he approaches himself as; a doctor. Instead, he is connected a morbid corporation called the Pure Companion Company that literally makes living fuck dolls. And she is his next specimen. But she remains persistent on the reason she came in the first place: to kill Dr. Ambrose.
Unfortunately, the longer she takes on her mission, the more submissive she becomes to Dr. Ambrose. He has a manipulative mind and slowly breaks her down until she’s not even herself anymore. Nothing more than his disgusting FREAK. And you know the severity of it when the chapter titles make their change. From here, everything escalates into a nightmare from hell and I was literally sat until the end.
Audrey Rush, author of other horrendous horror novels including SKINS and MORSELS, brings forth her re-release FREAK which is just as dark and depraved as her other works. A delightful dive into a monstrous world where the real monsters are human. Simply degrading and excruciatingly full of deranged details, this is a must-read for those with strong stomachs. If you felt unsatisfied with Exposed, you’ll feel complete with Freak.
🌶️🌶️🌶️🌶️ - 𝓼𝓹𝓲𝓬𝓮 (ish)
🔥🔥🔥 - 𝓹𝓵𝓸𝓽
🩸🩸 - 𝓰𝓸𝓻𝓮
🖤 𝓶𝓪𝓲𝓷 𝓬𝓱𝓪𝓻𝓪𝓬𝓽𝓮𝓻𝓼🖤
Dr. Alick Ambrose & Violet
🖤 𝓽𝓻𝓸𝓹𝓮𝓼🖤
📕 𝓮𝔁𝓽𝓻𝓮𝓶𝓮 𝓭𝓮𝓰𝓻𝓪𝓭𝓪𝓽𝓲𝓸𝓷
📕𝓫𝓸𝓭𝔂 𝓶𝓸𝓭𝓲𝓯𝓲𝓬𝓪𝓽𝓲𝓸𝓷
📕𝓫𝓻𝓮𝓮𝓭𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓯𝓸𝓻 𝓹𝓻𝓸𝓭𝓾𝓬𝓽
📕𝓲𝓷𝓬𝓮𝓼𝓽
📕𝓷𝓮𝓬𝓻𝓸𝓹𝓱𝓲𝓵𝓲𝓪
🖤 𝓻𝓮𝓿𝓲𝓮𝔀🖤
“You’re a true gutter whore, willing to take any trash I give you.”
Ah!!! Rush freakin’ nailed this re-release of Exposed by connecting it to SKINS, with the Pure Companion Company making its morbid return. Let me start by saying that this HORROR story has some deeply pitch dark scenes that may be too much for some readers including but not limited to invest, necrophilia, fisting, sodomy, and other sadist acts. But if you have ever read anything by Rush, you should already know what you’re getting into. Once I started this sickening story, I was SEATED. Violet and Dr. Ambrose are two sick FREAKS! Rush does not hold back on any of the gnarly details which paints the imagery of the scene even more grotesque.
*spoilers*
Dr. Ambrose is not your typical doctor. In fact, I wouldn’t choose him to do any of my check ups from the start when he’s getting off on a video of a woman getting urinated on. He’s a freak waiting for his next patient to arrive. Violet. The daughter of the woman he used to test his perversions on before her untimely death. See, he has this insatiable urge to see how far she’s willing to take things and his desires outweigh everything else.
Violet is a woman seeking revenge for her mother. Her mother who was unalived in the asylum, Ambrose Asylum, where Dr. Ambrose works. Where he blackmailed in order to take over the facility. She doesn’t know the whole truth of what occurred within those walls or how her mother died, but she believes Ambrose had something to do with it and is risking everything to be admitted so she can exact her plan to unalive him. Even if it means doing obscene sexual acts in order to be admitted.
See, Violet’s mother was supposedly raped in the asylum and carried to term, hence how she was created. But Violet has done her research and discovered there’s a possibility that Ambrose isn’t who he appears to be. And that he may be her biological father. And it’s true. He isn’t who he approaches himself as; a doctor. Instead, he is connected a morbid corporation called the Pure Companion Company that literally makes living fuck dolls. And she is his next specimen. But she remains persistent on the reason she came in the first place: to kill Dr. Ambrose.
Unfortunately, the longer she takes on her mission, the more submissive she becomes to Dr. Ambrose. He has a manipulative mind and slowly breaks her down until she’s not even herself anymore. Nothing more than his disgusting FREAK. And you know the severity of it when the chapter titles make their change. From here, everything escalates into a nightmare from hell and I was literally sat until the end.
Audrey Rush, author of other horrendous horror novels including SKINS and MORSELS, brings forth her re-release FREAK which is just as dark and depraved as her other works. A delightful dive into a monstrous world where the real monsters are human. Simply degrading and excruciatingly full of deranged details, this is a must-read for those with strong stomachs. If you felt unsatisfied with Exposed, you’ll feel complete with Freak.
December 10, 2025
The freak wants to belong. To be loved. To be cherished. And I will cherish her.
The short wait for this felt excruciating because of how excited I’ve been for it and, oh hell, did Audrey Rush deliver - as always.
The storyline itself is gorgeously disgusting; truly a wonderful read as someone who enjoys filth straight to the core. It doesn’t feel like something written just for a shocker impact, it still has depth between the lines, and that’s exactly what Audrey Rush is best at. She understands her characters and their actions so clearly, fully stepping into the story with them, and she conveys that understanding even in drastic situations and personalities. You can tell by the simplest elements of the book how much of herself she dives into storylines with, like the difference in how Violet and Dr. Ambrose’s chapters are worded, or how the chapter POV switches change at a certain point towards the end of the book to match the events instead of digging further elsewhere.
The lore pieces tangled in with the filth throughout the book really suck you in to keep reading. The events aren’t slow paced by any means yet the excitement and morbid curiosity feels like a slow pull regardless.
I also love the nods to other Audrey Rush books/peaks into what could be potential books as well. The connections aren’t forced into the story in an attempt to make them exist for the sake of it, they weave wonderfully throughout and create a specific filthy Rush world. It’s comforting somehow as a fan of her books to watch certain storylines merge together like there’s a world being designed specifically for a vulgar freak, like myself as a reader, to enjoy without judgement.
A very personal thing I’d like to praise is how incest has been approached in the story. I’m such a sucker for ‘romancey’ incest, it’s one of my favourite tropes/plots, and I’ve never encountered incest written like this before - not just with brutal descriptions and fear intertwined, but with more baseline things: hidden familial ties, the truth actually enhancing behaviours and experiences; the idea of reconnecting through incest and it therefore being used as something like a healing agent for when the craving of validation and acceptance through a parental figure leads to self destruction. It’s an interesting concept to explore even beyond the piss and shit and blood.
“Repression is odd, isn’t it?” I say coldly. “You want me more, knowing I’m your father, because your need for approval—for acceptance from me—is buried so far deep inside of you, you don’t even know it’s there.” …delicious.
Audrey Rush always delivers stories that are a full, hearty experience and Freak is no different. Stomach churning, grimace worthy, and very much cunt firing - Freak is one hell of an experience.
(I received an advance review copy for free, and I am leaving this review voluntarily.)
The short wait for this felt excruciating because of how excited I’ve been for it and, oh hell, did Audrey Rush deliver - as always.
The storyline itself is gorgeously disgusting; truly a wonderful read as someone who enjoys filth straight to the core. It doesn’t feel like something written just for a shocker impact, it still has depth between the lines, and that’s exactly what Audrey Rush is best at. She understands her characters and their actions so clearly, fully stepping into the story with them, and she conveys that understanding even in drastic situations and personalities. You can tell by the simplest elements of the book how much of herself she dives into storylines with, like the difference in how Violet and Dr. Ambrose’s chapters are worded, or how the chapter POV switches change at a certain point towards the end of the book to match the events instead of digging further elsewhere.
The lore pieces tangled in with the filth throughout the book really suck you in to keep reading. The events aren’t slow paced by any means yet the excitement and morbid curiosity feels like a slow pull regardless.
I also love the nods to other Audrey Rush books/peaks into what could be potential books as well. The connections aren’t forced into the story in an attempt to make them exist for the sake of it, they weave wonderfully throughout and create a specific filthy Rush world. It’s comforting somehow as a fan of her books to watch certain storylines merge together like there’s a world being designed specifically for a vulgar freak, like myself as a reader, to enjoy without judgement.
A very personal thing I’d like to praise is how incest has been approached in the story. I’m such a sucker for ‘romancey’ incest, it’s one of my favourite tropes/plots, and I’ve never encountered incest written like this before - not just with brutal descriptions and fear intertwined, but with more baseline things: hidden familial ties, the truth actually enhancing behaviours and experiences; the idea of reconnecting through incest and it therefore being used as something like a healing agent for when the craving of validation and acceptance through a parental figure leads to self destruction. It’s an interesting concept to explore even beyond the piss and shit and blood.
“Repression is odd, isn’t it?” I say coldly. “You want me more, knowing I’m your father, because your need for approval—for acceptance from me—is buried so far deep inside of you, you don’t even know it’s there.” …delicious.
Audrey Rush always delivers stories that are a full, hearty experience and Freak is no different. Stomach churning, grimace worthy, and very much cunt firing - Freak is one hell of an experience.
(I received an advance review copy for free, and I am leaving this review voluntarily.)
December 28, 2025
In my mad dash to download Audrey’s latest descent into filth, I somehow overlooked the small but crucial detail that this is an extended version of her earlier novella, Exposed. I’ll point you back to my review of that book, because everything I said there still stands, only now it’s been dragged into a darker room and flayed open. So how do you improve on something that was already a vile, horrifying, disgusting and depraved shit-show? Simple. You add even more. To paraphrase an early line in the book, you’ll feel acid rising up your esophagus as you read this, with both repulsion and morbid fascination warring in your rib cage. Audrey has always skewed closer to horror than erotica, and this only cements that view. Yes, there are sexual acts aplenty, but almost none of it is meant to arouse unless you’ve got a deeply buried masochistic streak you weren’t ready to admit. This is not titillation; it’s violation. Dr. Ambrose’s “experiments” will leave your jaw slack with disbelief. Violet’s descent from avenger to living doll is brutal, relentless, and deeply unsettling. What truly twists the knife, though, are Violet’s own thoughts as she’s broken down and reshaped. Ambrose is clearly a psychotic monster, but the question that gnaws at you is far worse: what does that make his creation? Violet slides from being Ambrose’s “sweet one” to “his disgusting little freak,” enduring oceans of mental anguish yet offering little, if any, resistance. That quiet compliance is more disturbing than any act itself. And when the full scope of Ambrose’s work comes into focus, there’s a moment where you have to stop and genuinely ask yourself what the actual f*ck you’re reading. That’s Audrey’s true talent—pushing you so far past your comfort zone that all you can do is stare, horrified, unable to look away. As my stomach churned and I swallowed hard to keep my gorge down, I found myself desperately wishing for a different kind of ending. But if you’ve read Audrey before, you already know the truth: Violet was doomed long before she’s ever heard of Dr. Ambrose.
I received an advance review copy for free, and I am leaving this review voluntarily.
I received an advance review copy for free, and I am leaving this review voluntarily.
January 19, 2026
Freak 🤎
I was lucky enough to receive an ARC of Freak. I had heard so many amazing things about Audrey Rush & had already purchased Skins & My Girl, I also won a giveaway and received Dead Love from Rush herself, but I just haven’t had chance to read them…yet…
Well, I will NOT sleep on Rush any longer! As my introduction to you, I can say hands down I am already absolutely OBSESSED 😍 This was INCREDIBLE 👏🏼
Violet has done everything she can to get into Ambrose Asylum she knew she had to show depravity, making the filthiest of snuff films in order to get Dr Ambrose’s attention. Why has she done all of this? Well she owes it to her mother since she died there at the hands of The Doctor & she plans on getting revenge!
Dr Ambrose knows it’s all an act but he welcomes a new plaything, especially if she’s anything like her mother. He craves her, wants to break her & turn her into his doll.
Violet has to stand the tests, why is she so obsessed with this man? Is it because he killed her mother? Or the fact he could quite possibly be her father?? Or is it simply because he can pull out her darkest desires with only a touch of a dirty finger nail?
She has to stay focused!! It’s a filthy game of cat & mouse….but she might enjoy being the mouse a little more than she realised 🫣
I hands down have to say this is the absolute BEST Erotic Horror book I have ever read!! I was locked in from the very first chapter & read this within 24hours! I just could not stop until I knew the outcome.
The way this is written has you drawn in with every single page, the taboo of it is just the start!! I just couldn’t believe how Violets character progressed (or should I say regressed) I was rooting for her but at the same time I was having to question my own morals in the Doctor 🤣
There was certainly some gippy parts that left me open mouthed but my god was this amazing. I haven’t felt like this about a book in so long! I cannot praise it enough! ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️
Okay, I’m off to go stare at a wall until I’ve recovered, then of course I’m going to devour Rush’s collection! Thank you so much for the ARC 🫶🏻🤎
I was lucky enough to receive an ARC of Freak. I had heard so many amazing things about Audrey Rush & had already purchased Skins & My Girl, I also won a giveaway and received Dead Love from Rush herself, but I just haven’t had chance to read them…yet…
Well, I will NOT sleep on Rush any longer! As my introduction to you, I can say hands down I am already absolutely OBSESSED 😍 This was INCREDIBLE 👏🏼
Violet has done everything she can to get into Ambrose Asylum she knew she had to show depravity, making the filthiest of snuff films in order to get Dr Ambrose’s attention. Why has she done all of this? Well she owes it to her mother since she died there at the hands of The Doctor & she plans on getting revenge!
Dr Ambrose knows it’s all an act but he welcomes a new plaything, especially if she’s anything like her mother. He craves her, wants to break her & turn her into his doll.
Violet has to stand the tests, why is she so obsessed with this man? Is it because he killed her mother? Or the fact he could quite possibly be her father?? Or is it simply because he can pull out her darkest desires with only a touch of a dirty finger nail?
She has to stay focused!! It’s a filthy game of cat & mouse….but she might enjoy being the mouse a little more than she realised 🫣
I hands down have to say this is the absolute BEST Erotic Horror book I have ever read!! I was locked in from the very first chapter & read this within 24hours! I just could not stop until I knew the outcome.
The way this is written has you drawn in with every single page, the taboo of it is just the start!! I just couldn’t believe how Violets character progressed (or should I say regressed) I was rooting for her but at the same time I was having to question my own morals in the Doctor 🤣
There was certainly some gippy parts that left me open mouthed but my god was this amazing. I haven’t felt like this about a book in so long! I cannot praise it enough! ⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️⭐️
Okay, I’m off to go stare at a wall until I’ve recovered, then of course I’m going to devour Rush’s collection! Thank you so much for the ARC 🫶🏻🤎
December 9, 2025
ALRIGHT I got to ARC read this baby so that means review time! Firstly I’m incredibly grateful for the opportunity to have ARC read this book so buckle of for a review (it’ll probably be horrible as i’m not the best worth words or punctuation and i’m riding the high of this book).
“You came from a freak, you are a freak, and soon, you’ll be nothing but my fucking freak.”
Holy fucking crossovers btw, from skins and morsel BUT ALSO while it’s not technically a cross over the STRONG my girl themes which just so happened to be one of my favorite reads from last year and morsel this year. Truly, when it comes to an Erotic Horror Audrey Rush can never do any wrong.
I didn’t read this when it was “exposed”, and ofc had no clue it would become this but i’m so glad the chain of events happened this way … I thought I was in a reading slump before I got my hands on this ARC. Anyways, 5 out of 5 stars and the highest praise to Audrey Rush I’m actually convinced she can actually do no wrong. Not only creating a whole new world of fucked up but interlacing it with my favorite fucked up worlds. I know it’s not christmas but this damn sure felt like a christmas present.
So, if you want a book to read that equally makes you feels fucked up and giddy all at once in the most delightful way pick up this book or literally any other Audrey Rush book, you won’t regret it.
🫀little fucking freaks.
“You came from a freak, you are a freak, and soon, you’ll be nothing but my fucking freak.”
Holy fucking crossovers btw, from skins and morsel BUT ALSO while it’s not technically a cross over the STRONG my girl themes which just so happened to be one of my favorite reads from last year and morsel this year. Truly, when it comes to an Erotic Horror Audrey Rush can never do any wrong.
I didn’t read this when it was “exposed”, and ofc had no clue it would become this but i’m so glad the chain of events happened this way … I thought I was in a reading slump before I got my hands on this ARC. Anyways, 5 out of 5 stars and the highest praise to Audrey Rush I’m actually convinced she can actually do no wrong. Not only creating a whole new world of fucked up but interlacing it with my favorite fucked up worlds. I know it’s not christmas but this damn sure felt like a christmas present.
So, if you want a book to read that equally makes you feels fucked up and giddy all at once in the most delightful way pick up this book or literally any other Audrey Rush book, you won’t regret it.
🫀little fucking freaks.
December 10, 2025
This book is not a dark romance nor does it have an HEA. What it was to me was a journey into the minds of 2 people. The Sadistic psychopath Dr. and his victim that was groomed since birth to become his sexual experiment ( becoming a type of mindless sex slave ) . The story on face value was a bit unbelievable and really a cringe worthy horror book of a madman doing the most evil thing imaginable to his victims. When I delved deeper I saw it as a story about how a sadistic psychopath with zero morals who prey on these victims by grooming them and destroying everything that makes them able to be unique, loved and love, to think for themselves and to be all that makes one an individual with human emotions. For me I found the setting , not a hospital but a place of isolation where others are also groomed by this Dr. Thid is difficult to read and not for those who are looking for a HEA but how could there be? These types of people who groom, control, torture do not bring happy endings to their victims. To me this book showed me that in these cases the Victims don’t come home and are truly destroyed . This is an ARC and the writing is superb and I recommend it if you’re aware the content is more than dark horror it’s downright bone chilling. It deserves the 5 stars I gave it.
December 27, 2025
She’s done it again 👏 I just love Audrey’s books, and this one was wild 🤣 It was wrong on so many levels, but I couldn’t stop reading. It had me questioning my own mental wellbeing. It felt like something you shouldn’t be reading, but you just can’t stop, and that, in my opinion, is a damn good horror 😈
Freak follows Dr. Ambrose (MMC) on his twisted venture to condition Violet (FMC) into the perfect toy, a doll, a Freak that he commands and honestly, Violet’s humanity is completely stripped away in the most f*cked up way. She becomes an IT, a “freak,” and it was scary as hell. There were also a few little plot twists I did not see coming, and I love a good plot twist 😍
I also love how so many of Audrey’s books are loosely connected, with the mention of the Pure Companion Company in this book, as well as The Butcher/Farm.
There must also be something seriously wrong with me, because the 💩 “shake” incident had me dying of laughter 😂 but also… WHAT THE HELL AUDREY 🤣🤣🤣 (nutrient shake, anyone?!) 🥛
I genuinely think this was one of the most twisted books I’ve ever read, easily top 3 tier, good GOD… But I actually loved it 😍 thank you for letting me ARC read and I think I will also rave on about how much I love your books 🥰
P.S. I’ll be sending you my therapy bill 😂🖤
Freak follows Dr. Ambrose (MMC) on his twisted venture to condition Violet (FMC) into the perfect toy, a doll, a Freak that he commands and honestly, Violet’s humanity is completely stripped away in the most f*cked up way. She becomes an IT, a “freak,” and it was scary as hell. There were also a few little plot twists I did not see coming, and I love a good plot twist 😍
I also love how so many of Audrey’s books are loosely connected, with the mention of the Pure Companion Company in this book, as well as The Butcher/Farm.
There must also be something seriously wrong with me, because the 💩 “shake” incident had me dying of laughter 😂 but also… WHAT THE HELL AUDREY 🤣🤣🤣 (nutrient shake, anyone?!) 🥛
I genuinely think this was one of the most twisted books I’ve ever read, easily top 3 tier, good GOD… But I actually loved it 😍 thank you for letting me ARC read and I think I will also rave on about how much I love your books 🥰
P.S. I’ll be sending you my therapy bill 😂🖤
January 15, 2026
This book is a very interesting read, I liked the character of the doctor and his disturbing qualities. I liked the freak character after she entered the asylum. I found it very odd her thought process before going in but then realised after reading more things had already been put in place for her to be acting that way.
As an erotic horror it for sure has the WTF am I reading aspect 🤣 and I need to continue reading it as I need to know what happens.
The plot is very twisted which I liked. Some of the things that happen I wanted to throw up 🤢 so I think they are things I don’t particularly enjoy reading but nothing that would trigger me.
I went into this book blind and I’m glad I did. With other characters that were mentioned I might have to go and read that book next.
If you want extreme erotic horror with zero triggers this is a fab book. If you want a HEA you won’t get it and this is not a romance book at all.
I enjoyed the book and I will definitely recommend it for others who enjoy this type of book but I don’t think I will ever read it again so that’s why I only gave it 3⭐️
First book by this author but I will definitely be reading more from her as her writing style is fab 🖤
As an erotic horror it for sure has the WTF am I reading aspect 🤣 and I need to continue reading it as I need to know what happens.
The plot is very twisted which I liked. Some of the things that happen I wanted to throw up 🤢 so I think they are things I don’t particularly enjoy reading but nothing that would trigger me.
I went into this book blind and I’m glad I did. With other characters that were mentioned I might have to go and read that book next.
If you want extreme erotic horror with zero triggers this is a fab book. If you want a HEA you won’t get it and this is not a romance book at all.
I enjoyed the book and I will definitely recommend it for others who enjoy this type of book but I don’t think I will ever read it again so that’s why I only gave it 3⭐️
First book by this author but I will definitely be reading more from her as her writing style is fab 🖤
Review of advance copy
I received an advance review copy for free, and I am leaving this review voluntarily. I can’t stress enough how much I love Audrey Rush! This book is no different. The sick & crazy twisted mess of this book is insane.
This book had me feeling uncomfortable on edge and very disturbed the whole time I read it. To want to put yourself thru something like the character in this book did to find answers and seek revenge, just to find out you yourself are of the sick and twisted nature. A FREAK. OMG…. Yes
I love how when you start to dig for information about your lost/dead mother you come to find out more than you would have liked to know. All the while deep down you had a gut feeling these thoughts you were having were true. And you play into the part you were ment to have so well, and get the praise you always wanted. Be ready for a sick and gross turn of events. This book will have you making faces as you read wondering what kind of sick am I to want and like this book I’m reading. Hahaha get ready for the visual your mind will have you on with this book.
I received an advance review copy for free, and I am leaving this review voluntarily.
This book had me feeling uncomfortable on edge and very disturbed the whole time I read it. To want to put yourself thru something like the character in this book did to find answers and seek revenge, just to find out you yourself are of the sick and twisted nature. A FREAK. OMG…. Yes
I love how when you start to dig for information about your lost/dead mother you come to find out more than you would have liked to know. All the while deep down you had a gut feeling these thoughts you were having were true. And you play into the part you were ment to have so well, and get the praise you always wanted. Be ready for a sick and gross turn of events. This book will have you making faces as you read wondering what kind of sick am I to want and like this book I’m reading. Hahaha get ready for the visual your mind will have you on with this book.
I received an advance review copy for free, and I am leaving this review voluntarily.
December 14, 2025
🪦 𝐅𝐑𝐄𝐀𝐊 🪦
“ʏᴏᴜ'ʀᴇ ɴᴏᴛ ᴊᴜsᴛ ᴀɴʏ ᴅɪsɢᴜsᴛɪɴɢ ғʀᴇᴀᴋ, ʏᴏᴜ ᴋɴᴏᴡ. ʏᴏᴜ ᴀʀᴇ ᴍʏ ᴅɪsɢᴜsᴛɪɴɢ ғʀᴇᴀᴋ. ᴀɴᴅ ʟᴏᴏᴋ ʜᴏᴡ ᴡᴇʟʟ ʏᴏᴜ'ᴠᴇ ᴛᴀᴋᴇɴ ᴛᴏ ɪᴛ."
"𝑻𝒉𝒆 𝒐𝒏𝒍𝒚 𝒘𝒂𝒚 𝒕𝒐 𝒃𝒆 𝒔𝒂𝒗𝒆𝒅, 𝒕𝒐 𝒃𝒆 𝒇𝒊𝒙𝒆𝒅, 𝒕𝒐 𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒍 𝒊𝒔 𝒕𝒐 𝒇𝒖𝒍𝒍𝒚 𝒂𝒄𝒄𝒆𝒑𝒕 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓𝒔𝒆𝒍𝒇."
ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴛᴏ ᴇxᴘᴇᴄᴛ
⚰️ ɢʀᴀᴠᴇʏᴀʀᴅ ᴄʜᴀsɪɴɢ & ᴄᴏғғɪɴ ғᴄᴋɪɴɢ
💉 ɴᴇᴄʀᴏ
⚰️ sᴄᴀᴛ
💉 ɪɴᴄᴇsᴛ
⚰️ ᴘɪss ᴘʟᴀʏ
💉 ғᴜʟʟ ʙᴏᴅʏ ʀᴇsᴛʀᴀɪɴᴛs
⚰️ ʙᴏᴅʏ ᴍᴏᴅɪғɪᴄᴀᴛɪᴏɴ
💉 ғᴏʀᴄᴇᴅ ʙʀᴇᴇᴅɪɴɢ
⚰️ ᴅᴏʟʟɪғɪᴄᴀᴛɪᴏɴ
💉 ᴅᴏᴄᴛᴏʀ x ᴘᴀᴛɪᴇɴᴛ
5✨
ARC REVIEW
i read Exposed so i knew what i was getting into. Audrey Rush always brings horror to a new level and i absolutely love that about her. Freak was BETTER than Exposed. i loved everything about it. it may not be for everyone but it definitely was for me. Audrey Rush never fails to amaze me with how much wild things can happen in a book. it is never boring. i read this book in one freaking sitting and didn’t not stop until i was done. i DEVOURED IT. thank you so much for this ARC. as always, if you don’t like horror, this may not be the book for you. please check your triggers before reading.
"𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝚏𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚔 𝚒𝚜 𝚖𝚢 𝚋𝚎𝚜𝚝 𝚎𝚡𝚙𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚝 𝚢𝚎𝚝. 𝚂𝚑𝚎'𝚜 𝚕𝚞𝚌𝚔𝚢 𝚜𝚑𝚎'𝚜 𝚖𝚢 𝚘𝚋𝚜𝚎𝚜𝚜𝚒𝚘𝚗."
“ʏᴏᴜ'ʀᴇ ɴᴏᴛ ᴊᴜsᴛ ᴀɴʏ ᴅɪsɢᴜsᴛɪɴɢ ғʀᴇᴀᴋ, ʏᴏᴜ ᴋɴᴏᴡ. ʏᴏᴜ ᴀʀᴇ ᴍʏ ᴅɪsɢᴜsᴛɪɴɢ ғʀᴇᴀᴋ. ᴀɴᴅ ʟᴏᴏᴋ ʜᴏᴡ ᴡᴇʟʟ ʏᴏᴜ'ᴠᴇ ᴛᴀᴋᴇɴ ᴛᴏ ɪᴛ."
"𝑻𝒉𝒆 𝒐𝒏𝒍𝒚 𝒘𝒂𝒚 𝒕𝒐 𝒃𝒆 𝒔𝒂𝒗𝒆𝒅, 𝒕𝒐 𝒃𝒆 𝒇𝒊𝒙𝒆𝒅, 𝒕𝒐 𝒉𝒆𝒂𝒍 𝒊𝒔 𝒕𝒐 𝒇𝒖𝒍𝒍𝒚 𝒂𝒄𝒄𝒆𝒑𝒕 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓𝒔𝒆𝒍𝒇."
ᴡʜᴀᴛ ᴛᴏ ᴇxᴘᴇᴄᴛ
⚰️ ɢʀᴀᴠᴇʏᴀʀᴅ ᴄʜᴀsɪɴɢ & ᴄᴏғғɪɴ ғᴄᴋɪɴɢ
💉 ɴᴇᴄʀᴏ
⚰️ sᴄᴀᴛ
💉 ɪɴᴄᴇsᴛ
⚰️ ᴘɪss ᴘʟᴀʏ
💉 ғᴜʟʟ ʙᴏᴅʏ ʀᴇsᴛʀᴀɪɴᴛs
⚰️ ʙᴏᴅʏ ᴍᴏᴅɪғɪᴄᴀᴛɪᴏɴ
💉 ғᴏʀᴄᴇᴅ ʙʀᴇᴇᴅɪɴɢ
⚰️ ᴅᴏʟʟɪғɪᴄᴀᴛɪᴏɴ
💉 ᴅᴏᴄᴛᴏʀ x ᴘᴀᴛɪᴇɴᴛ
5✨
ARC REVIEW
i read Exposed so i knew what i was getting into. Audrey Rush always brings horror to a new level and i absolutely love that about her. Freak was BETTER than Exposed. i loved everything about it. it may not be for everyone but it definitely was for me. Audrey Rush never fails to amaze me with how much wild things can happen in a book. it is never boring. i read this book in one freaking sitting and didn’t not stop until i was done. i DEVOURED IT. thank you so much for this ARC. as always, if you don’t like horror, this may not be the book for you. please check your triggers before reading.
"𝚃𝚑𝚎 𝚏𝚛𝚎𝚊𝚔 𝚒𝚜 𝚖𝚢 𝚋𝚎𝚜𝚝 𝚎𝚡𝚙𝚎𝚛𝚒𝚖𝚎𝚗𝚝 𝚢𝚎𝚝. 𝚂𝚑𝚎'𝚜 𝚕𝚞𝚌𝚔𝚢 𝚜𝚑𝚎'𝚜 𝚖𝚢 𝚘𝚋𝚜𝚎𝚜𝚜𝚒𝚘𝚗."
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