Thank you so much to Netgalley for sending me this amazing read, I am so glad to have gotten my request accepted and enter Evelyns world.
4.5/5 stars
Spiralling Out follows Evelyn, one of the best figure skaters in the country during her final year of high school as she learns to coexist with her OCD, manage school and training, find time for her friends, and figure out what the hell is going on between her an her skating rival Mei.
This book tackles OCD in a way I have never seen before, and as someone with OCD, it felt very real and genuine. There weren't spelt out comments of Evelyn going though an episode, or dramatic displays of her issues. It was true to how OCD will often present itself; an internal fight between your compulsions and actions. Evelyns need to perfect every move until her mind tells her she can stop, her need to have her lucky items with her, and her quite spiral of panic that follows her every action felt very true to my own experience, and it was great representation for the community.
The queer representation in this book is amazing. Evelyns support from her family and friends was especially nice to see. We see so much of her internal fear around her parents disapproval, her OCD spiralling as she says even she knows her family would likely be fine with it, so when her mother does talk to her about it, and Evelyns worst case scenarios prove to be as irrational as she thought, it feels full circle for her development and like a happy moment for the family.
Her family overall had a good dynamic I enjoyed reading. Having such successful parents both supportive of different career paths was a great set up for the tension in terms of Evelyns choice for school. Her mother supports her no matter, and would love for her to join her at the rink, while her dad wishes for a more traditionally acceptable career. Neither parent is downright dismissive of her, and even despite the conflict between their wants and her own, her parents find room to let her breathe and find her own place.
My one critique of the book would be that I wish her father and brother got a little more page time and development. Josiah was such a fun character and I loved the scene of the sister and brother talking about her receiving the award and her thinking about all the times he's come to support her. It was a quite ac t of sibling love and the bond the two share that I wish we saw more of. As for the father, I felt he just needed a bit more time to come around to Evelyns choice regarding a BA. For how much the book set up his bed for her to be a doctor and for her to be this perfect stem student, it felt like he accepted her choice and this 'betrayal' a little too fast. I think just a little longer spent on that scene, on her and her father having a genuine conversation where she talks about her missing him at her competitions, and her wanting more from him than just questions on academics would have really brought this book to a perfect 5 for me. Some of my favourite quotes from the books were ones surrounding their relationship, like when he asks her how's she's doing and she automatically assumes he means academically, or when she mentions she wonders if he knows she's been picking herself up. I just really wanted a full circle moment with that in their resolution and a bit more time spent on it to make it seem more realistic.
Overall though, an amazing book, and I cannot wait to read more by this amazing author.