If I could give this 10🌟, I would. Here’s my full review💜
“I love you, Frankie. My love for you is fundamental to who I am. It’s deep in my bones. A sonnet written in the marrow.”
“You are everything I know about love.”
Fully in tears as I’m writing this right now. This just became one of my most favorite books of ALL TIME. Absolutely magnificent in every way. I don’t know how to even properly sum up just how much I loved this. I’d like to start it over from the beginning right now and read it again.
I can’t stop thinking about this book.
I’m saying it now and I know I’ll say it again: friends to lovers is elite (especially childhood friends to lovers.) The ANGST of secretly loving and pining after someone for nearly your whole life, but never fully acting on it because the fear of losing each other or the other not feeling the same or whatever it is, is too great a risk….. my god. I’m having chest pains.
The number of times I caught myself absentmindedly clutching and clawing at my heart because I couldn’t take it—the feeling this built in my chest 😭
I had noah kahan’s new album playing on repeat for nearly the entire duration of my read and it was perfect. End of August & Orbiter…? Yeah, those are their songs 😭😭 literally elevated my entire experience
THE LETTERS…. I just—I can’t. PLEASE just send me to the psych ward at this point. These sent me over the edge bro. I cried MULTIPLE TIMES throughout this book but yeah these just sent me into an emotional spiral LOL. I actually went back and re-read the last few chapters of the book and cried again because I couldn’t and STILL can’t stop thinking about frankie and george and their letters and how much i adored this love story and them UGHHHHH 😭
⇢ Prose & Settings
The prose in this was so beautiful. There’s something very special about Carley’s writing. The settings in her stories always evoke this intense nostalgia in me. It takes me back to moments in my life that felt the same. Everything felt rich and warm and layered with this hazy nostalgia. I truly felt like I was transported into the story. I also appreciated how well the pacing flowed alongside her prose. Nothing ever felt rushed. The scene always had space to breathe and you could sit in the moment with these characters.
Please just read this excerpt from the beginning of the book where Frankie sort of zones out in the moment and falls into a memory of her own:
“I never thought I’d get married, yet here I am, two days before my second wedding.
Not that the first one counted.
A pianist in a tuxedo and bow tie is playing something gentle on the Steinway, but for a moment, all of it falls away. Time slips, and I’m at that first wedding under the apple tree.
We recited our vows beneath its branches, a confetti of fallen fruit at our feet. My gown: fashioned from an old curtain as if I were a von Trapp child. My bouquet: a posy of violets plucked from the garden, stems tied with kitchen twine. There was a thumbprint-sized stain on his sweater from my mother’s apple-berry crisp—he was always eating and always making a mess of himself. I remember studying that tiny purple splotch before he started speaking.
Frankie, I promise…
A cool hand settles on my wrist.
‘Frankie?’
I blink back to the present. I feel the scaffolding of bobby pins digging into my skull as they hold my lion’s mane in a polite French twist. Taste the sticky cotton candy flavor of my lip gloss. Feel the slide of silk over my thighs. Sense my bridesmaid’s concerned gaze.”
I seriously felt so emotional throughout this entire book. She’s just so talented at being able to able to create this emotional weight that sits underneath scenes and setting descriptions, even in moments where there isn’t anything dramatic happening in the story. I think these flashbacks or time slips really mirror the longing, desire, fear, and grief that Frankie is experiencing all at once. Right before she falls into this memory, she’s looking around her at the rehearsal dinner and you can sense the gradual discomfort & anxiety she’s starting to feel about this not being what she pictured for herself or what she truly wants. I think it was purposeful that in this very moment, she finds herself slipping into the past for comfort and warmth—remembering & longing for these tender moments she’s had with George. It’s immediately contrasted with her snapping back to the present where she can feel every discomfort digging into her.
⇢ Food
I also really loved the way food was utilized in this. Part of Frankie’s growth is seeing her get inspired in her work again. I think her struggle to be inspired really mirrored where she’s was at in life. She completely burned herself out and then settled for what she thought was safe. Until she’s jolted out of this stagnation, she then starts to feel a new zest for life again. You see her grow and learn to take charge of her life and what she truly wants out of it.
I also loved that it was always more than just food for Frankie, plates she made were all actually pivotal moments in time and memories that she held dear to her heart.
“I think of all the meals we’ve shared together, first when I was learning to cook with my mom and all the evenings we spent in the kitchen later as roommates. I think of the linguini we were making the night George told me he was moving out, and the ravioli we made when he returned after the fires. The dinner party I held at Nate’s house. A lifetime of stories told through food.”
This was a theme all throughout the book and it was done so well. Again, it also really contributed to that nostalgia that is weaved through this story, making it even more beautiful & impactful.
⇢ George george GEORGEEEEEEEE.
Oh my GOD SWOOOOOON 😭😭🫶🏻🫶🏻🫶🏻🥰🥰🥰🥰 I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM I LOVE HIM. Oh how I loved this sweet, YEARNING angel 😭 I actually am so in love with him (though you probably get that by now)😭😭❤️ I mean first of all, we have tall, dark, & handsome with his slutty little glasses and blue eyes…. Yes, I need him expeditiously. The way this man quietly loved Frankie as a best friend and as a lover from the very moment they met… 😭🫶🏻 He was so intensely loyal and caring with Frankie. He could anticipate every one of her needs in a way no one else could. I could physically feel his longing for Frankie and how much he loved her. As we got farther into the story it only felt more intense and I was increasingly more unwell LOL.
"This is what it's like to be truly known by someone. George sees me, even when I don't want to see myself."
Like… frankie’s words here say it too 🥹🥺
I’m not going to bother to look at any reviews because I loved this way too much to do that to myself. HOWEVER, I can guess that if anyone has issues with this, it’s likely because of Frankie.
⇢ Frankie 🤍
Personally, I loved that Frankie wasn’t written as effortlessly perfect. I think what makes her relatable is the fact that she doesn’t have it all figured out and showed that even when you do your best to construct careful control over everything in your life—not everything is within that control because life is complicated and messy. In general, I related to that leaden emotional uncertainty that Frankie carried. Her fear of waking up one day and finding that the people most important to her wouldn’t need her anymore and might leave her behind. After all, this is something she had experienced at one point as a child. It only makes sense this is something she carried into adulthood.
Frankie is also in her early 30s, just had her life flipped upside down and is trying to navigate her next steps in a time where she was convinced she was safe from change. Unfortunately to do that, she dulled parts of herself so she could squeeze into this box in order to become this “perfect” girlfriend or wife.
We also tend to see her avoiding difficult emotional truths until they literally force themselves to the surface. She’s filled with emotional uncertainty and fear. But I really think people misread her character because I don’t think any of these things are written with the intention of being “quirks” of Frankie’s personality. These things genuinely hurt her sometimes. They make her misread situations, they cloud her judgement, they make her more resistant to change. Frankie is forced to confront these things head on after her world is flipped upside down the morning of her wedding. George doesn’t allow Frankie to stay stuck. He not only allows her the space to process her feelings & emotions, but also guides her into being the best possible version of herself.
Look, I’ll admit that in the first 30%, I hadn’t completely decided how I felt about her. Only because there was obviously multiple times I even wrote in my kindle notes like ‘GIRL IS U BLIND HE’S IN LOVE WITH YOU !!!!’ But then it clicked and I just understood her. In addition to everything I stated above, we learn that even as a kid, she never really had an overwhelming desire to date or get married one day—which made George never want to tell her how he felt. Frankie is like me in the sense where I never like to overestimate my importance to people. A man could be so in love with me and if he doesn’t tell me exactly that to my face, I will never assume that’s the case. Frankie is also this way. As much as I wanted Frankie to just see what was right in front of her face, George also waited years and years hoping for some perfect moment to come so that he could tell her how he felt. They both were so afraid of ruining their friendship, which I thought was incredibly valid. So much is at stake when you’re dealing with a 20+ years long friendship. Not to mention, they were BEST FRIENDS. I actually could throw up thinking that he was about to take his feelings to the grave and just watch her marry someone who was so wrong for her. Like bye that makes me physically ILL to think about😭
Like I said though, there were many moments I wanted to shake them and be like HELLO?? UR SOULMATES!!! 😭 BUT I also think if you can just let yourself appreciate the slower burn to this, it pays off in the best way and in a way that I think compliments both of their character arcs in the most impactful way 💜 Frankie needed to be shaken out of this rut she unintentionally put herself in. And life will do that to you sometimes.
I just loved these two together. They bring each other to life in the best way. They make each other better. Seeing their moments in the past as kids made me connect to their love story even more. I felt so connected to who they were in the past and who they are in the present.
One last thing I want to mention is I really loved the side story with Frankie’s mom. I thought it was very important to Frankie’s character growth. Moreover, it added a lot of depth side characters and another layer to the storyline. Frankie’s complicated relationship with her mom echoed the complicated relationship Frankie had with herself and the issues she struggled with. The whale story and everything about her mom made me so emotional. I loved that we got to see that come full circle as well.
I actually can’t believe there are people out there that don’t love this book like I do. It’s hard for me to wrap my head around LOL that’s how much I loved this.
This is truly one of the most magical books I have ever read. Maybe it found me at the perfect time or maybe it’s just PERFECT 💜 I’ll say it’s both.
Any negative review on this can kick rocks. I’ll defend this book with my life—come at me 🙂↕️
I probably forgot some things I want to say so I might periodically add some things to this after posting this.
I’m not going to put a lot of quotes like usual because I did already put some throughout this review, but I also think the joy of it is getting to read them for the first time in the story 🤍
“A promise for a promise,” George says.
Our best one yet.
“I wouldn’t mind belonging to someone if they belonged to me, too. If we belonged to each other as well as to ourselves.”
“I feel as if I’m twelve years old, at the starting line on Track and Field Day. George is beside me, and I am determined to win. A lifetime of competing with him plays in the back of my mind while I wait for the waves. Who can run to the creek first. Who can make the biggest splash in the pool. Comparing marks on essays and exams.
And then suddenly, I’m not twelve anymore. I’m a thirty-year-old woman, lying on a surfboard in the Pacific Ocean with her lifelong best friend at her side. I ache with the joy of it.”
⇢ The aching beauty of this moment for Frankie. It was another turning point for her
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pre-read 🤍🌊🏄🏼♀️
i’m a friends to lovers girl at heart. pls be a win 🙏🏻