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“𝓎ℴ𝓊’𝓇ℯ 𝓉𝒶𝓀𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝓂ℯ ℴ𝓊𝓉 ℴ𝒻 𝓉𝒽ℯ ℴ𝓇𝒹𝒾𝓃𝒶𝓇𝓎
𝒾 𝓌𝒶𝓃𝓉 𝓎ℴ𝓊 𝓁𝒶𝓎𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝓂ℯ 𝒹ℴ𝓌𝓃 ’𝓉𝒾𝓁 𝓌ℯ’𝓇ℯ 𝒹ℯ𝒶𝒹 𝒶𝓃𝒹 𝒷𝓊𝓇𝒾ℯ𝒹
𝒾’𝓂 ℴ𝓃 𝓉𝒽ℯ ℯ𝒹𝑔ℯ ℴ𝒻 𝓎ℴ𝓊𝓇 𝓀𝓃𝒾𝒻ℯ
𝓈𝓉𝒶𝓎𝒾𝓃𝑔 𝒹𝓇𝓊𝓃𝓀 ℴ𝓃 𝓎ℴ𝓊𝓇 𝓋𝒾𝓃ℯ
𝓉𝒽ℯ 𝒶𝓃𝑔ℯ𝓁𝓈 𝓊𝓅 𝒾𝓃 𝓉𝒽ℯ 𝒸𝓁ℴ𝓊𝒹𝓈 𝒶𝓇ℯ 𝒿ℯ𝒶𝓁ℴ𝓊𝓈 𝓃ℴ𝓌 𝓉𝒽𝒶𝓉 𝓌ℯ’𝓋ℯ 𝒻ℴ𝓊𝓃𝒹
𝓈ℴ𝓂ℯ𝓉𝒽𝒾𝓃’ 𝓈ℴ ℴ𝓊𝓉
ℴ𝒻 𝓉𝒽ℯ ℴ𝓇𝒹𝒾𝓃𝒶𝓇𝓎”
5. Fricken. Stars.
”You are mine, Malakai.”
“I always have been,” I murmur. “Until…whatever the hell.”
“Until whatever the hell.”
NO
I REFUSE TO BELIEVE THAT ITS OVERRRRRRRRR
This book was all I dreamed and more. It fully lived up to my expectations. Like bro it was literally so good. The pining and longing were amazing, the plot was sooooo exciting, and just everything was so thrilling I couldn’t put it down. The writing is by far the best Lauren has ever done and it was all written perfectly. I was actually so scared to start this book (but in a good way!!)
I will say though, this might just be the book I’ve cried the most at.
And not a one or two tear cry.
Like a full on UGLY SOB 😭
—spoilers—
🫂 Characters 🫂
⤷how did they get even better?? I loved each and every one of them (well except for Edric of course, he’s a rat)
🩶 Paedyn “Gray” Azer 🩶
⤷bro I love her so much she is such a BADDIE
”Damn fate, and duty, and every other word meant to keep us apart.” Tears slip from those blue eyes I would happily drown in. “I want to hide with you beneath the willow tree. You are the secret I will spend the rest of my life keeping.” Her voice quivers beneath the weight of such a promise. “Us.”
I love Pae so much.
She is such a strong character and I never find her annoying or anything. She has been through so much and I admire her strength and that she still has the ability to deeply care for things around her. I really liked how she started healing in this book and how she started thinking about Adena not with sadness, but with joy that she had her in the first place. She had so many badass moments and quotes. Her backstory was actually insane and I love how she dealt with it. I’m actually not that mad about Blair, but I’ll talk about that later :)
Anyway, I love how her story ended. Her last chapter was so cute 🥰
❤️ Kai Azer ❤️
⤷MY BABY GOT A HAPPY ENDING
”Paedyn, I love you. Like nothing else before, I love you. And I’ve been waiting to tell you since I realized your eyes are my favorite color and your freckles the only constellation worth looking at. I could lie—say that you’ve stolen my every thought and heartbeat like the thief you are, but all of me was already yours.”
Bro I love him so much.
I’m so glad Kai got the happy ending he deserved. His story throughout the books broke me and this one even more. His longing was so strong I could feel it through the pages. When he died i literally cried so hard, I swear my parents probably thought i was insane as they heard me screaming “no!” through the walls. It might just have been the ugliest sob of my life.
When he killed Kitt I was so sad. Not so much for Kitt but Kai has been through too much 😭
I’m so happy he got a happy ending and learned beasts actually do get the beauty (if only he could watch the movie)
I’m just thinking abt this now but I wish there was a quote that said that but oh well
I love him sm
👑 Kitt Azer 👑
⤷i feel kinda conflicted abt him
”I don’t want…to be a monster,” he whispers. “I—I just wanted to be great.”
Okay I’m not his biggest fan but that quote BROKE ME
It’s like I don’t hate him at all I understand his anger but at the same time what?? Like bro you’ve had it so hard and I’m sorry but your father was a jerk. I get that the plague was making him lowk insane but still man.
Anyway I kinda wish Kai didn’t kill him, he was already sick. But it was a good bittersweet ending.
I rlly liked his relationship with Kai and I could see where he was coming from in his search for love.
Okay the epilogue made me SO SAD but it was also the best thing ever yk what I mean?
Anyway, Kitt deserved way better cards in life than he was dealt.
🌙 Mak 🌙
⤷STOP IT WAS SO SAD WHEN HE DIED!!!
”See you in the sky.”
I kinda wanted more from his character but I can’t lie it was actually perfect, he deserves to be with Adena in the stars and I’m glad he finally got peace, and how he let Pae win <3
⚔️ Others ⚔️
⤷Edric can go khs
⤷I’m kinda glad Blair didn’t die. Honestly I kinda started to like her…but I’m really glad that Pae found out that Blair was alive and “forgave” her, it was a big character moment
⤷ngl I kinda hate Lenny he was a traitor to Pae
⤷HAHAHAHAHA TAKE THAT CALLUM U BITCH
⤷Ellie is sweet <3
⤷bro Zailah is such a girl boss I wish we saw more of her
💕Romance💕
⤷ATE SO HARD OMG
”I love you, Paedyn Gray. And I will happily spend the rest of my life trying to deserve you.”
“I love you,” she says sternly. “And I will spend the rest of my life shouting it until even Astrum hears, because it is Death who should fear me if he ever tries to take you away.”
PERFECT I TELL YOU
PERFECT
Literally tho it was amazing. The forbidden romance throughout this trilogy was more than I could ever ask for. The yearning they felt for each other was so perfectly told and I longed for their little moments. Every time they were with each other was so sweet and I’m so glad they both finally realize everything.
The ending was so cute tho when they got MARRIED!!!
And their kid, Kit. Omg that detail made me so happy and sad.
I loved their romance and am so glad it was a happily ever after.
⤷ Adena and Mak 🥺😖
”The softer star informs, “Life ripped us apart.”
“Death brought us together,” the rougher one finishes.”
Actually so sweet. I literally almost cried today when I thought about this quote in the shower 😭
I love how they finally found each other in the stars 💫💞
🏞️ Plot/Setting/Writing 🏞️
PLOT
⤷bro this was actually insane. The trials were so good and I loved them so much. Paedyn’s backstory was WILD and for a moment I was actually so scared that Kai was her brother. And omg the whole plot twist with Kitt had me tweaking out. It was all so insane and had me on an emotional roller coaster.
And again, who tf cares abt plagiarism? This trilogy is amazing
SETTING
⤷I LOVED the new settings!!! Being on sea and stuff was so cool
WRITING
⤷the writing is sooooo much better now. And the quotes were quoting ✨
✍️ Quotes ✍️
⤷ ”I am the monster who hunted her down. I am the beast who delivered her to her doom. And I am afraid I’ll become so much worse when I’m no longer striving to deserve her.”
⤷ “I would spend the rest of my days making her flower crowns if she wanted to be a queen. My queen. Not Kitt’s. Not Ilya’s. Mine.”
⤷ “I am no one’s queen.”
“Is that so? Then you have no idea how much power you have over me.”
“You seem to forget that I’m completely powerless, Prince.”
“So be my weakness, then.”
⤷ “You’re quite the poet, Prince.”
“And you the muse, darling.”
⤷ “Oh, my pretty Pae.” His words are a murmur against my lips. “For once, it is I who will be your undoing.”
⤷ “I will show you my bravery, my benevolence, my brutality. I will survive these Trials and so much more. Still, you will likely hate me.” She lifts her chin, expression deceitfully calm. “So bow at my feet and sneer, if you must. I won’t see it with your face on the ground.”
⤷ “If you want me to fight you, I won’t, Paedyn. I told you in that field of poppies how I would never do that again. That when I lay a hand on you, it would only ever be in a caress.” Raindrops drip from his lashes, but he doesn’t care blink as he murmurs, “And I plan to keep that vow.”
⤷ “So, in the wise words of Adena, this is simply a good way to say bye until…whatever the hell.”
“Until whatever the hell.”
⤷ “And when she kisses me, long and fierce, I realize how happily I’d live the rest of my life at the end of a blade. So long as she is the one holding it.”
⤷ “It is cruel, not being able to call him mine after everything we’ve endured.
Perhaps in another life, I am strong enough to never need proof of it. Perhaps in another life, I am brave enough to confess that I love him. Perhaps in another life, I learn to love him from afar. And that is the most fearless thing of them all.”
⤷ “You look like someone who has just done the impossible.”
“So I look like hell?”
“If you look like hell,” he whispers with a sly grin. “then I am fortunate to be going there.”
⤷ “You are my inevitable. In life and in death.”
⤷ “My pretty, pretty Pae.” She laughs breathlessly. “Stay with me.”
⤷ “I was prepared to plead.”
“You would not.”
“Oh, darling, I would do so much worse if only you asked.”
⤷ “You know,” she says slowly, “you’re not nearly as terrifying as you seem.”
“Not to you. Never to you.”
⤷ “My favorite color is the shade of her, a sliver of the vibrancy she excludes. And I will gladly drown, gladly burn, gladly fall into those blue eyes until the day she looks at me for the last time.”
⤷ “I promised to save your life again and again. And I will, whether you allow me to stay in it or not.”
⤷ “That seems foolish.”
“Then it’s fitting.” (…) “Seeing that I am a fool.”
“You told me you weren’t anymore.”
“That was pretend, darling.”
⤷ “I’m selfish, Paedyn. I burned your home to the ground just to have you and now it is all of Ilya standing in my way, tempting me to light a match.”
⤷ “You are my inevitable. In death, and in love.”
“And you are mine.” I smother my sobs long enough to whisper, “I love you, Malakai. I love you.”
⤷ “Where are you going?”
“Somewhere you cannot torture me, Gray.”
“Torture? I haven’t even raised my dagger to you yet.”
“Are you completely unaware of how devastating you are?” Kai chuckles darkly. “You don’t need a blade. I would bleed if only you asked.”
⤷ “We are all just shadows of what we believe to be true.”
⤷ “At the end of a blade, I would love you. Until it pierced my throat, I would say ‘yes’ to you.”
“You’re quite the poet, darling.”
“Some fool inspired me.”
⤷ “Would you…” He feels oddly shy. “Would you stay with me awhile?”
(…) That warm, bubbly voice fills the void between them in response. “Until you see your brother again, if you like.”
The deep voice rumbles above him. “We are all waiting for someone.”
✨Overall✨
⤷holy frick it was amazing. It fit all of my expectations and is definitely my favorite of the series. It kept me on my toes with all of its twists and turns and I could not get enough. The romance and characters were absolutely perfect and I could not ask for a better end to such a fantastic trilogy.
I can’t believe it’s over 😭💔
~forever my undoing~