Ever since I stumbled somewhat by accident on a little known new release called Serendipity a year and a half ago, I’ve been a huge fan/follower/worshipper of Janet Nissenson. Whether or not you like her books or her characters, there is no denying that this woman can write. And there really isn’t anyone else like her out there right now who writes quite like she does – with incredible attention to detail, who paints such a vivid picture of her characters and surroundings that you feel like you’re right there with them in the scene. I know a lot of people talk about this “show don’t tell” crap which I personally have never understood. There are so many times when reading a book that I want, NEED, to know more about these people – what exactly do they look like, what are they thinking, etc. – and the majority of writers tend to skim over these facts. With all of Janet’s books so far, she gives me all of this and more.
Janet cautioned us in her own review of Shattered that this book was going to be darker than her previous releases, and she was right. But, honestly, as much as I adored Serendipity and dreamed about Splendor for weeks (and re-read it something like four times already!) I think this new book might be her best work so far. Whether or not you like the characters – and Angela is a seriously messed up girl while Nick is a total a**hole for most of the book – there’s no denying how beautifully written this book is. It’s emotional, sexy, more than a little unsettling at times, not always easy to read, but it’s honest, heartfelt, and real.
The book is written in three parts – present, past, and present again – so fortunately the entire flashback portion is all done at once without the annoyance of bouncing back and forth between time frames. We also do not get any of Nick’s POV until the third and final part, keeping us guessing about his real feelings and not getting much if any information about his background or what really drives him. This is different than the other books in the series, where we got inside the hero’s head right from the start of the book (in fact, both Serendipity and Splendor start off in the male POV). But this new strategy worked well with Shattered, keeping Nick as something of a mystery man, and then more or less cluing us in to his back story in one chapter.
When the story opens Angela is out for a run, and we learn that running long miles has been something of her salvation these past years. But she has a lot of problems, and has more or less closed herself off from almost everyone and devotes herself to her job. Her young PA Cara (who sounds amazingly cute and will have her own story at some point!) worries about how skinny Angela is and how she never eats and keeps trying to tempt her into eating something. Angela is more or less an emotionless shell and doesn’t bother socializing with people at work or caring much about anything. But when she realizes Nick – her former lover and the man who broke her heart a few years ago – is now working in her office, she’s furious and shows real emotion for the first time in years.
“What are you doing here?” she asked ungraciously. “Both at this firm and in my office. You have to know you’re the very last person I want to see.”
Nick is shocked to see how thin and gaunt Angela is, a very different woman than he remembered, and begins to realize that he is the reason she looks and acts the way she does and feels guilty, an emotion he apparently doesn’t usually feel. He taunts her about resuming their relationship.
“This is far from over, you know. The more I think about it, the more I realize just how much I’ve missed having you in my life. And how intriguing it would be to have you back. Fair warning, Angel. I always get what I want.”
Part two of the book is where we go back in time a few years and learn how Nick and Angela first met and how their relationship developed. Angela is a young stockbroker trainee fresh out of college, while Nick, who is a retired football player, is now one of the top brokers at the office. She hears all the gossip about him, how he never dates co-workers, or has long-term relationships, etc. But when she sees him for the first time none of that matters because she’s instantly captivated by him.
She would remember that exact moment for weeks, months, and even years later – the moment when time froze in place; when her heart was beating so fast she thought for sure it would burst right out of her chest cavity; when her palms grew sweaty and her breasts suddenly felt swollen and achy. And when she fell deeply and helplessly under his spell.
Nick, too, sees something in Angela that he can’t explain but there is an undeniable attraction between them and he takes her out to dinner – and then to bed – the very same night. And then the next time they see each other – something of a surprise to Angela, since he’s got the rep for loving ‘em and leaving ‘em – he lays down his “rules” or conditions that will have to be followed in order for them to keep seeing each other.
This is part of the story that’s a little maddening to read, to realize that Angela is going to give in to all of his unrealistic conditions just to be with him. But Nick admits right off the bat that he wouldn’t blame her at all for refusing and acknowledges he’s a jerk for even asking.
“Basically, Angel, I’m just a self-centered, selfish bastard who’s completely set in his ways and doesn’t know the meaning of the word compromise. That’s how I live my life, how I run my business, and I’m not prepared to apologize for it and definitely not willing to change my ways for anyone.”
But it turns out that being controlled is exactly what Angela wants. When you learn a little later in the story what an unhappy childhood she had, and how messed up her relationship with her family still is, it becomes a little more clear as to why she’d ever agree to accept Nick’s offer and let him take control of her life.
To her surprise, their relationship continues for almost a year, but it becomes harder for her to deal with as time goes on since she’s supposed to keep it a secret, even from her family and friends. Plus, she’s fallen in love with him – one of the things he forbid her to do – and she has to fight all the time to keep from showing her feelings.
Angela closed her eyes, forcing back the tears she so desperately wanted to shed, and told herself firmly to be grateful for what she did have. She reminded herself of how many women would kill to trade places with her, that what she’d shared so far with Nick was much, much more than he’d ever give to another woman. And that if she wanted to remain in his life in any sort of fashion, she would have to accept things as they were and stop wishing for what couldn’t be.
When she makes the mistake of saying “I love you” during one of their heated bouts of sex, she knows that she’s screwed things up and keeps waiting for him to end things. But even though she fully expects that to happen, when the end does come she’s a total basket case and falls apart. The breakup is something she never really recovers from, even though she changes jobs so that she doesn’t have to suffer the pain of seeing him around the office every day.
When we eventually get to read Nick’s POV we learn that he always regretted the way he ended things with Angela, that he was shocked when she initially agreed to abide by his terms at the very beginning of their relationship. He never actually imagined anyone would agree to something so extreme, and sort of intentionally acted like a jerk just so she’d be the one to end things. But because of his own messed-up childhood – different than Angela’s but equally bad or maybe even worse in some ways – he’s gone out of his way to avoid commitment and doesn’t have a clue about how to have a real relationship. But he feels guilty at how badly he treated her, responsible for how bad she looks (skinny, not giving a crap about her appearance, etc.) and decides he’s going to try and win her back, if for no other reason than to help her get better.
But there was almost nothing left of that woman now – the one who looked like a strong wind would blow her over, whose arm had felt alarmingly thin and frail beneath his fingers, whose eyes looked dead. He had done that to her, he realized now with a groan. She’d devoted herself to him, had given him everything he’d asked of her, had loved him for God’s sake, and he had thrown all of it away – he’d shoved her out of his life just as he’d shoved her out of his car that night.
He semi-stalks her, conning naïve little Cara into conspiring with him, and these are actually a few of the more light-hearted scenes in what is otherwise a dark book. But Angela, who has found her backbone somewhere along the way, fights him every step of the way, determined not to let him control her again.
Angela stared at him. “Are you high? Or having a serious mental breakdown? What we had, Nick, was a one-sided relationship where you had absolutely everything your way all the time. Granted, the sex was hot, but since you’re far from the only guy in this world with a big dick and a dirty mouth, I’d say you don’t have a hell of a lot going for you these days.”
Complicating matters is the fact that Angela is dating someone now, but Nick isn’t a guy who’s used to being told no so he keeps trying to push his way back into her life. Whether or not she lets that happen in the end is something you’ll have to read the book to find out. But, like Angela’s friend Julia (the heroine from the first book) tells Nick at one point:
“You’re the one,” replied Julia simply. “The one she was so wrapped up in four years ago. The one,” she added, “that she never got over.”
I was really afraid that I would feel let down by this book, given that all of the excerpts and teasers I’d read up to the release gave hints that it was not going to be a sexy or sweet or romantic story like the previous books had been, and I’m not a big fan of the angst. But I was amazed and surprised at how well all of the elements were brought together – the angst, yes, as well as lots of emotional upheaval and family drama – but also incredibly hot sex (something this author is a master at writing!), wonderful characters, great, realistic dialog, and the way everything feels so real, like you’re right there in the scene or watching it on TV or something.
I liked watching Angela’s journey during the course of the book, which covers something like a 4-5 year time period, how at first she was a young college graduate with little self-esteem but how she started to blossom during her relationship with Nick, then how she became this depressed train wreck who it was painful at times to read about, and finally how she learned to stand up to everyone and became a strong, self-sufficient woman.
As usual, the secondary characters are fantastic but without taking over the book. I adore little Cara and can’t wait to read her book, was caught between laughter and outrage at some of the things Angela’s boss Barbara flung out, and of course, the real treat was having a whole lot more of my favorite character in these books – the smart-ass, tough-chick Lauren. Lauren is the kind of girl you want as your best friend – not to go shopping with or do your nails or watch chick flicks – but to hold your head while you’re barfing, to support you when you’re crying your eyes out, and to threaten your ex-boyfriend with physical harm if he even thinks about hurting you again. I can’t WAIT until her story comes out as she has the potential to be the most kick-ass heroine ever.
But until then think I’ll re-read Shattered again, just like I’ve re-read all the books in this series. Definitely the best book I’ve read so far this year.