The first book in the series was my absolute favourite, and I was just so excited and pumped up for the next book in the series. I genuinely liked Ellie and Travis’s story and had so many expectations, but they all went down the drain.
Honestly, I don’t know—maybe there were some scenes, but I felt like the story wasn’t going anywhere, and it just wasn’t working for me. Maybe for other people it might be great, but for me, it wasn’t.
I had seen on the author’s page that people were raving about chapter 23—how it was so good, mind-blowing, and unexpected. And yes, it was unexpected for sure, but honestly, it grossed me out. It weirded me out, and that was the last straw for me. While making that decision, I was genuinely sad because I had such high expectations. I was so excited to read this book and had been waiting for it ever since finishing the first one. Even when the news came out that this book was releasing, I was one of the first people excited about it.
I’m not going to give spoilers or specific reasons. Maybe while reading the book, you may understand my reasons and feel that they’re valid—or maybe you won’t. For me, it was hard to process. At the same time, I wanted to continue reading because what I had read wasn’t even half of the book yet, and maybe it would get better after that. I honestly didn’t know.
I kept wanting to go on. I don’t know why, but I felt that there might be scope for improvement and that maybe what I read was a mistake. But for me, a threesome involving his supposed partner and his best friend or bandmate just didn’t sit right. I have nothing against reverse harem, and honestly, I don’t have a problem with it. But when it comes to romance novels—where we already know who the couple is supposed to be and that they are meant to be in love—it feels off when the story shows the main lead being involved with multiple people.
Especially when the male lead is shown sleeping with practically anyone and suddenly has a realization like, “No, I want her.” That just didn’t work for me. I know the book is 431 pages long, and chapter 23 ends around page 167. I also know that this was likely a mistake that would be rectified later, because I’ve read book one and had faith in the author. I believed that maybe it would get better and that nothing serious would come out of it.
In the end, I decided to give the book another chance. I thought maybe chapter 23 happened in the spur of the moment and wasn’t meant to be anything serious. And yes, it did turn out to be a one-time thing and nothing more.
Still, something felt lacking. Seeing the love Pen has for Liv made me realize that the same depth was missing in Ellie and Travis’s story. It felt like Ellie deserved someone much better. Travis didn’t really fight for her in the true sense, and I don’t know why, but the story felt incomplete to me.
I know it’s meant to be a raw, emotional story with imperfect characters, but my expectations from the story weren’t met. It felt like Ellie gave everything, but in return, she didn’t even receive 70% of that back. I know love isn’t a barter system where feelings are exchanged equally, but to me, it felt like Ellie poured her whole heart into it while Travis didn’t truly reciprocate. He was still confused, still messed up, still stuck in his own head.
Yes, he was protective of her. Yes, he was her friend. Yes, he stood up for her. But still, something was missing. For me, this definitely wasn’t a five-star read, and Travis isn’t the kind of fictional partner one would hope for.
That said, I’m still looking forward to the next book in the series. I’m excited to read Tanner and Pacey’s story, and I truly hope the next book turns out to be better.