3.75 (rounded to 4 ⭐️)
I really wanted to love Be Not Afraid. Angels, prophecy, apocalypse dark romance? This should have been everything for me… but it didn’t fully land all the way - but still think the world has tons of potential!
The biggest issue for me was the pacing. This book felt long, and I truly think it could have been at least 100 pages shorter. A large portion of the story felt like one extended introduction where not much actually moved forward, and I struggled from about 50% to 90% to stay engaged. But I was committed and kept pushing - but at the same time wondering where was this story going?
The angel politics and war were also overly complicated. I feel like I should be taking notes. I love detailed world building, but this felt heavy instead of immersive, and at times it pulled me out of the story rather than deeper into it. I do think the author did a great job describing the landscapes and scenes!
The FMC was inconsistent for me. She went from very naive and frustrating to suddenly powerful, and I found it hard to fully connect with her. By the end, we finally start to see a more strategic and self-aware version of her, which made the final chapters more engaging, but it made me wish we had seen more of that version of her earlier in the book. At some parts she was a complete brat!!!
One of my biggest struggles was the way certain relationship dynamics were portrayed. Some of the darker scenes, especially involving Abaddon, crossed into territory that felt more disturbing than compelling. As the story progresses, it becomes clear that this is not just “dark romance,” but a lack of consent and loss of agency, which made it difficult to connect with any romantic elements. I did not like that!
That said, there were aspects I did enjoy. The concept is strong, the world itself is interesting, and some of the darker, more chaotic elements had real potential. I did love her interactions with Malak, and even their hook ups and banter - and the friendship they built!
At one point I even thought this was going to become a love triangle trope and I was here for it - but then Malak kind of became a weak side character (which I didn’t like as I think he should be one of the main characters) and the whole abusive Abaddon situation just turned me off for a while!
And then… Azael showed up. The devil he is!
Azael completely changed the tone of the book for me. His presence brought clarity, tension, and a much stronger dynamic with the FMC. Their interactions felt like a true push and pull, built on choice rather than control, which made their scenes far more compelling. He actually calls things out for what they are, including the trauma the FMC experienced, and it made the story feel more grounded and intentional.
He gave me major Rhysand vibes — that confident, morally gray, slightly dangerous energy that you know you probably shouldn’t trust… but do anyway.
The final stretch of the book was, without a doubt, the strongest part. It finally leaned into the darker, more powerful energy I had been hoping for from the beginning. The tension improved, the FMC started to take more control, and the story felt like it was finally finding its direction.
The ending itself felt more like a transition than a cliffhanger, almost like the story is just beginning. While that left me a bit frustrated, it also made me curious about where things are going next.
Overall, this book had a lot of potential and some really strong ideas, but the execution didn’t fully come together for me which is expected for a debut novel. That said… I would absolutely continue the series, especially for Azael and the direction the story seems to be heading. Overall I think this was a solid first book that gives great potential to the second!
Definitely check your triggers!
Thank you to the author Koja Kolas for sending me an ARC in exchange for my honest review!