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Reckless #2
Zijn om te houden
Lieve Noah,
Ik haat je.
Ik haat de herinnering aan jou.
Ik haat de kleur van je ogen en het beeld van je gezicht dat in mijn hoofd vastzit.
Maar hoe hard ik het ook probeer… ik kan je niet vergeten.
Ik haat dat verdomde huisje.
Ik haat dat ik je nog steeds kan ruiken wanneer ik daar naar binnen ga, en ik wou dat ik alles tot de grond toe kon afbranden.
Ik haat dat ik je die nacht heb gekust.
Ik haat dat ik niet terug kan gaan in de tijd om mezelf tegen te houden.
Zo begon het allemaal—met een simpele kus. Een stomme kus.
Een moment dat mijn leven heeft verwoest.
Ik haat de brief die je me hebt achtergelaten.
Ik haat dat ik wekenlang heb zitten wachten, hopend dat je zou terugkomen.
Maar dat deed je niet.
Ik haat dat ik je nog steeds mis.
Je verdient het niet.
Ik haat dat je gelijk had.
Je hebt me pijn gedaan.
Je hebt mijn hart gebroken… precies zoals je zei dat je zou doen.
En ik haat dat, zelfs na alles…
ik je nooit zal vergeten.
Nooit.
Niet al mijn liefde,
Sienna
Ik haat je.
Ik haat de herinnering aan jou.
Ik haat de kleur van je ogen en het beeld van je gezicht dat in mijn hoofd vastzit.
Maar hoe hard ik het ook probeer… ik kan je niet vergeten.
Ik haat dat verdomde huisje.
Ik haat dat ik je nog steeds kan ruiken wanneer ik daar naar binnen ga, en ik wou dat ik alles tot de grond toe kon afbranden.
Ik haat dat ik je die nacht heb gekust.
Ik haat dat ik niet terug kan gaan in de tijd om mezelf tegen te houden.
Zo begon het allemaal—met een simpele kus. Een stomme kus.
Een moment dat mijn leven heeft verwoest.
Ik haat de brief die je me hebt achtergelaten.
Ik haat dat ik wekenlang heb zitten wachten, hopend dat je zou terugkomen.
Maar dat deed je niet.
Ik haat dat ik je nog steeds mis.
Je verdient het niet.
Ik haat dat je gelijk had.
Je hebt me pijn gedaan.
Je hebt mijn hart gebroken… precies zoals je zei dat je zou doen.
En ik haat dat, zelfs na alles…
ik je nooit zal vergeten.
Nooit.
Niet al mijn liefde,
Sienna
447 pages, Kindle Edition
Published January 12, 2026
About the author
Bella J.
58 books2,078 followersBella J. is an International and Amazon top 100 bestselling author.
Writing DARK ROMANCE with twists, Bella has an affinity for the ruthless men of the MAFIA world and weaves tales that will leave you breathless and questioning your own moral compass.
When she's not busy creating worlds where danger and romance dance a tango, you can find Bella soaking up the sun in the vibrant city of Cape Town, South Africa. Her writing lair is occasionally invaded by her husband, two kids, and a basset hound who reigns supreme.
A firm believer that laughter is the best medicine, Bella infuses her fictional dark worlds with some wit and humor that peppers her novels.
So buckle up for a thrilling ride through the shadows of romance where happily ever afters have a dark side.
Writing DARK ROMANCE with twists, Bella has an affinity for the ruthless men of the MAFIA world and weaves tales that will leave you breathless and questioning your own moral compass.
When she's not busy creating worlds where danger and romance dance a tango, you can find Bella soaking up the sun in the vibrant city of Cape Town, South Africa. Her writing lair is occasionally invaded by her husband, two kids, and a basset hound who reigns supreme.
A firm believer that laughter is the best medicine, Bella infuses her fictional dark worlds with some wit and humor that peppers her novels.
So buckle up for a thrilling ride through the shadows of romance where happily ever afters have a dark side.
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February 22, 2022
The second book of the series. Man is just keeps getting better! After what happened in the first book, the second book is here to tell us what the fcking happened to the hero and why he is the way he is and why he did what he did. We get to see more of the story from the hero which is heartbreaking and emotional and mysterious at the same time.
PLEASE READ MY REVIEW OF THE FIRST BOOK TO KNOW MORE ABOUT THE COUPLE. CAUSE THIS REVIEW RIGHT HERE WILL BE SHORT. MMKAY.
The separation between them is about 8 weeks. BOTH ARE LOYAL AND NEVER GO TO ANYONE ELSE.... WELL... NOT EXACTLY FOR THE HEROINE😂 The heroine went to a party with her brother after that 8 weeks of crying and devastated about the hero leaving her. She meet one of her brother's friend who likes her but at first she didn't notice it. They were having a great time just talking and see all the party going on at his house. Then she was having this panic attack... The guy tries to calm her down but failed after couple of times and then he kissed her. He kissed her for few seconds though and she push him away... She realize and heal from her panic attack and goes home. After that, several days later that same guy invited her to have a coffee with her as a friend and not a date. She was feeling sad and emotional about the hero leaving her so she said yes to the guy but she decided to meet him there. She goes there and they were talking deep stuff about her, the guy hold her hand and tries to calm her down. Because before she went to see that guy, she was having a argument with one of her brother so her feelings was sad... So yeah that happened 😆😆😝
THE HEROINE AND HERO OF COURSE REUNITED AGAIN AND THIS TIME NO MORE GOODBYES.
THE HERO OF COURSE FELT SO BAD ABOUT HIM LEAVING HER. AND HIS REASONS IS REASONABLE TRUST ME. YOU WILL REGRET IF YOU MAD AT HIS DECISIONS WHEN YOU READ HIS REASONS CAUSE I DID. LOL.
“I know I have no fucking right to say this, but I’m going to say it anyway.”
Leaning his forehead against the back of my head, I could hear his every breath; feel it weave through my hair.
“Not a goddamn day went by that I didn’t have to stop myself from coming back to you. Night and day, all I could think about was you. You fucking haunted me, Sienna, and the memories drove me insane. It’s been hell without you.”
This second book pretty much tells you about them getting back together and talk about the hero's problems and enemies. Thankfully both of them are saved and good, and the heroine's family is good too. It's like them having a closure in this book and clear things up. And of course, they're so much in love. Like the hero needs the heroine like an air.... she is everything to him. So yeah. Is more like that...
[ANOTHER SPOILER I'M SORRY]
The heroine's new guy friend who is her brother's friend, he came by to the hospital to visit the heroine when the heroine and hero reunited. Her brother invited him and that guy came with flowers and gifts for the heroine... So sweet but dangerous move cause the hero saw everything and he wasn't very happy about it😂
“I’m Andrew. Sienna’s friend.” Like fuck you are.
“Spencer told me she was here.”
I scoffed. .“Fucking twins, always making noise when they should keep their goddamn mouths shut.”
I squared my shoulders and stepped forward.
“What do you want with Sienna?”
Andrew narrowed his eyes.
“You’re Noah.”
“And you’re leaving.”
A challenge glinted in his eyes.
“You’re the guy who knocked her up and left.”
“And you’re the fucker who seemed more than willing to take my place.”
A slight grin touched the edges of his mouth.
“Not my fault you let her slip through your fingers, man.”
Anger burst through my insides, and I wanted to bash his skull against the goddamn wall just as the nurse came walking past, glowering at us. I inched back, waiting for her to be out of ear’s reach before turning my attention to the piece of shit in front of me.
“Stay away from Sienna.”
He narrowed his eyes and leaned forward, bringing his face daringly close to mine.
“I’ll stay away when she tells me to.”
😆😆😆😆😆😆
The guy tries to make the hero jealous when he tells him that he kissed the heroine when she was having a panic attack. And yeah that was funny one to read😂😂😂
And no the guy only do that, nothing more than that. Don't worry.
So yeah that scene made me more happier cause the hero knows in that moment his decision to left her before was a bad idea 😆😆😆😆 He will for sure regret it for many years😂😂
‼️‼️‼️HAPPY ENDING OF COURSE. MARRIED AND HAVE A BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTER 🥺🥺🥺
What made me give it 4 stars (SPOILER HERE MMKAY) is that the hero solution is run away from his dangerous enemies and the heroine go with him and have a new life together with their newest family member, a baby. Like run a away seriously? This is the author's solution to the problem? I'm sorry, but this made me have a anxiety for them like one happens if the enemies catch them and do something worst when they did? Because the author wrote that the enemies are powerful and dangerous. And run away solve that whole thing? I mean seriously? I thought i will be reading some kickass going on like the hero put a big team trying to find this enemy and kills the enemies so they have a peace of mind about no enemies anymore. But nooooo... This is them running away and in the end of the book is two years later of them happy. I AM WORRIED😂 So yeah that what made me give it only 4 stars because of that. Also, i need more epilogue of them happy and cute adorable child scene.
Other than that, is freaking amazing. No doubt.
👉🏽👉🏽👉🏽Thank you so much for reading my review❤️❤️ For you who loves my review and follow it, THANK YOU SO MUCH. I did not get paid or be told to do a review on a book. I’m here just to write review about a book so i can remember it. Its my honest opinion😚 I didn’t know at first people will find me and follow me and trust me to be honest, I was surprised myself to look at the notifications from people who reach out to me😆 So everything i write down here on a review is based on my personal opinion and based on my true writing. I DID NOT COPY SOMEONE’S REVIEW OR WRITING SKILL because at first when i was using this app for one year i didn’t know how to scroll down on a book and see the reviews from others😂😅🤣 I know, silly me but hey I finally learned my lesson 😛😛😛 Thats why when people assume i copy someone’s review i was like what? Because at first i didn’t know how to use this app properly and i didn’t know how to open someone’s review because for a year i never follow someone or add friends or someone😂😂😂🤣 (I’m laughing so hard) 🤪 AND I NEVER COPY SOMEONE’S REVIEW EVER. IF I WRITE SOMETHING WRONG OR DOESN’T MAKE SENSE PLEASE LET ME KNOW AND BE NICE OKAY. 👈🏽👈🏽👈🏽✋🏽✋🏽
I have a disclaimer down bellow if you have negative thoughts about my review😙😙😙
🌐🌐🌐➡️↘️⬇️➡️This is my own personal thoughts and opinion about the book so if thats not sit right with you or you feel I’m not being fair blablabla, please know that everybody in this world have their own different things that they like and don’t like. It may not be the same thing with you but thats okay because i am my own person and you cannot control me or tell me what to do. For example; i put ketchup (tomato sauce) on my fried chicken. You think that’s disgusting? For me its not and i’ve been eating it like that for many many years. You tell me to put another sauce and see if i like that better? I already did many many times in years but i still like the way i like it. It’s called differences between me and you and billions people in this world😊 be open minded😙 I respect people’s opinions about my opinions but in the end of the day if i say I don’t like it or i do like it, its up to me and its on me. And in the end of the day i always liked and show my respect to books and people’s opinions on books whenever that book is good or not good in my opinion 😊 Respect people’s opinions guys😙😙 I don’t want to write this down because its not really my thing to do it. To like address something like this when obviously i know the people who’s been reading my reviews many times and all the time, they are smart enough to understand and respect other people’s opinions no matter what their opinions on book or their point of view 😙😙 am i right? 💕 also there are people even though i already write “this book is different because i have my own taste of book” those people still comment my taste is this and that when HELLO… everybody have their own thoughts on books and what they want to read… why i read it then? I read it and give it a review because i have to read a book to give it a review… why not read the description book to understand before I’m going to read it? Hello just in case you haven’t notice, description books can be tricky because they write this amazing things about a book but turns out the story is so toxic. Maybe for me its toxic but not for you? YES HELLO THATS WHY US HUMAN BEING HAVE OUR DIFFERENCES, WHAT I LIKE IT DOESN’T MEAN YOU WILL LIKE IT AND EITHER WAY TOO. why i still write the review then if i just don’t like a book? Because I CAN and i want to, you cannot tell me what to do and not what to do🤪 if you still wants to be negative and be karens about my review on book after all of what i just write, i will never acknowledge you and simply ignore you because its not that hard🙏 I won’t respond to negativity comments🙏🏼🙏🏼 DON’T ASK ME AGAIN ABOUT WHY NOT RESPONDING TO YOUR NEGATIVE COMMENTS BECAUSE I ALREADY SAY IT HERE AND I WON’T BE EXPLAINING AGAIN BECAUSE WE’RE NOT CHILDREN SO ITS NOT HARD FOR YOU AN ADULT TO UNDERSTAND😌😌 YES MY REVIEW IS LONG BUT YOU READ IT ANYWAY AND ITS FINE ACTUALLY I CAN WRITE AS LONG AS I LIKE😎 YES MY GRAMMAR IS BAD SOMETIMES AND MAYBE ALL THE TIME BUT LUCKILY MANY PEOPLE CAN UNDERSTAND WHAT I’M SAYING🤪 ⬅️↖️↕️⬅️↩️⤴️
PLEASE READ MY REVIEW OF THE FIRST BOOK TO KNOW MORE ABOUT THE COUPLE. CAUSE THIS REVIEW RIGHT HERE WILL BE SHORT. MMKAY.
The separation between them is about 8 weeks. BOTH ARE LOYAL AND NEVER GO TO ANYONE ELSE.... WELL... NOT EXACTLY FOR THE HEROINE😂 The heroine went to a party with her brother after that 8 weeks of crying and devastated about the hero leaving her. She meet one of her brother's friend who likes her but at first she didn't notice it. They were having a great time just talking and see all the party going on at his house. Then she was having this panic attack... The guy tries to calm her down but failed after couple of times and then he kissed her. He kissed her for few seconds though and she push him away... She realize and heal from her panic attack and goes home. After that, several days later that same guy invited her to have a coffee with her as a friend and not a date. She was feeling sad and emotional about the hero leaving her so she said yes to the guy but she decided to meet him there. She goes there and they were talking deep stuff about her, the guy hold her hand and tries to calm her down. Because before she went to see that guy, she was having a argument with one of her brother so her feelings was sad... So yeah that happened 😆😆😝
THE HEROINE AND HERO OF COURSE REUNITED AGAIN AND THIS TIME NO MORE GOODBYES.
THE HERO OF COURSE FELT SO BAD ABOUT HIM LEAVING HER. AND HIS REASONS IS REASONABLE TRUST ME. YOU WILL REGRET IF YOU MAD AT HIS DECISIONS WHEN YOU READ HIS REASONS CAUSE I DID. LOL.
“I know I have no fucking right to say this, but I’m going to say it anyway.”
Leaning his forehead against the back of my head, I could hear his every breath; feel it weave through my hair.
“Not a goddamn day went by that I didn’t have to stop myself from coming back to you. Night and day, all I could think about was you. You fucking haunted me, Sienna, and the memories drove me insane. It’s been hell without you.”
This second book pretty much tells you about them getting back together and talk about the hero's problems and enemies. Thankfully both of them are saved and good, and the heroine's family is good too. It's like them having a closure in this book and clear things up. And of course, they're so much in love. Like the hero needs the heroine like an air.... she is everything to him. So yeah. Is more like that...
[ANOTHER SPOILER I'M SORRY]
The heroine's new guy friend who is her brother's friend, he came by to the hospital to visit the heroine when the heroine and hero reunited. Her brother invited him and that guy came with flowers and gifts for the heroine... So sweet but dangerous move cause the hero saw everything and he wasn't very happy about it😂
“I’m Andrew. Sienna’s friend.” Like fuck you are.
“Spencer told me she was here.”
I scoffed. .“Fucking twins, always making noise when they should keep their goddamn mouths shut.”
I squared my shoulders and stepped forward.
“What do you want with Sienna?”
Andrew narrowed his eyes.
“You’re Noah.”
“And you’re leaving.”
A challenge glinted in his eyes.
“You’re the guy who knocked her up and left.”
“And you’re the fucker who seemed more than willing to take my place.”
A slight grin touched the edges of his mouth.
“Not my fault you let her slip through your fingers, man.”
Anger burst through my insides, and I wanted to bash his skull against the goddamn wall just as the nurse came walking past, glowering at us. I inched back, waiting for her to be out of ear’s reach before turning my attention to the piece of shit in front of me.
“Stay away from Sienna.”
He narrowed his eyes and leaned forward, bringing his face daringly close to mine.
“I’ll stay away when she tells me to.”
😆😆😆😆😆😆
The guy tries to make the hero jealous when he tells him that he kissed the heroine when she was having a panic attack. And yeah that was funny one to read😂😂😂
And no the guy only do that, nothing more than that. Don't worry.
So yeah that scene made me more happier cause the hero knows in that moment his decision to left her before was a bad idea 😆😆😆😆 He will for sure regret it for many years😂😂
‼️‼️‼️HAPPY ENDING OF COURSE. MARRIED AND HAVE A BEAUTIFUL DAUGHTER 🥺🥺🥺
What made me give it 4 stars (SPOILER HERE MMKAY) is that the hero solution is run away from his dangerous enemies and the heroine go with him and have a new life together with their newest family member, a baby. Like run a away seriously? This is the author's solution to the problem? I'm sorry, but this made me have a anxiety for them like one happens if the enemies catch them and do something worst when they did? Because the author wrote that the enemies are powerful and dangerous. And run away solve that whole thing? I mean seriously? I thought i will be reading some kickass going on like the hero put a big team trying to find this enemy and kills the enemies so they have a peace of mind about no enemies anymore. But nooooo... This is them running away and in the end of the book is two years later of them happy. I AM WORRIED😂 So yeah that what made me give it only 4 stars because of that. Also, i need more epilogue of them happy and cute adorable child scene.
Other than that, is freaking amazing. No doubt.
👉🏽👉🏽👉🏽Thank you so much for reading my review❤️❤️ For you who loves my review and follow it, THANK YOU SO MUCH. I did not get paid or be told to do a review on a book. I’m here just to write review about a book so i can remember it. Its my honest opinion😚 I didn’t know at first people will find me and follow me and trust me to be honest, I was surprised myself to look at the notifications from people who reach out to me😆 So everything i write down here on a review is based on my personal opinion and based on my true writing. I DID NOT COPY SOMEONE’S REVIEW OR WRITING SKILL because at first when i was using this app for one year i didn’t know how to scroll down on a book and see the reviews from others😂😅🤣 I know, silly me but hey I finally learned my lesson 😛😛😛 Thats why when people assume i copy someone’s review i was like what? Because at first i didn’t know how to use this app properly and i didn’t know how to open someone’s review because for a year i never follow someone or add friends or someone😂😂😂🤣 (I’m laughing so hard) 🤪 AND I NEVER COPY SOMEONE’S REVIEW EVER. IF I WRITE SOMETHING WRONG OR DOESN’T MAKE SENSE PLEASE LET ME KNOW AND BE NICE OKAY. 👈🏽👈🏽👈🏽✋🏽✋🏽
I have a disclaimer down bellow if you have negative thoughts about my review😙😙😙
🌐🌐🌐➡️↘️⬇️➡️This is my own personal thoughts and opinion about the book so if thats not sit right with you or you feel I’m not being fair blablabla, please know that everybody in this world have their own different things that they like and don’t like. It may not be the same thing with you but thats okay because i am my own person and you cannot control me or tell me what to do. For example; i put ketchup (tomato sauce) on my fried chicken. You think that’s disgusting? For me its not and i’ve been eating it like that for many many years. You tell me to put another sauce and see if i like that better? I already did many many times in years but i still like the way i like it. It’s called differences between me and you and billions people in this world😊 be open minded😙 I respect people’s opinions about my opinions but in the end of the day if i say I don’t like it or i do like it, its up to me and its on me. And in the end of the day i always liked and show my respect to books and people’s opinions on books whenever that book is good or not good in my opinion 😊 Respect people’s opinions guys😙😙 I don’t want to write this down because its not really my thing to do it. To like address something like this when obviously i know the people who’s been reading my reviews many times and all the time, they are smart enough to understand and respect other people’s opinions no matter what their opinions on book or their point of view 😙😙 am i right? 💕 also there are people even though i already write “this book is different because i have my own taste of book” those people still comment my taste is this and that when HELLO… everybody have their own thoughts on books and what they want to read… why i read it then? I read it and give it a review because i have to read a book to give it a review… why not read the description book to understand before I’m going to read it? Hello just in case you haven’t notice, description books can be tricky because they write this amazing things about a book but turns out the story is so toxic. Maybe for me its toxic but not for you? YES HELLO THATS WHY US HUMAN BEING HAVE OUR DIFFERENCES, WHAT I LIKE IT DOESN’T MEAN YOU WILL LIKE IT AND EITHER WAY TOO. why i still write the review then if i just don’t like a book? Because I CAN and i want to, you cannot tell me what to do and not what to do🤪 if you still wants to be negative and be karens about my review on book after all of what i just write, i will never acknowledge you and simply ignore you because its not that hard🙏 I won’t respond to negativity comments🙏🏼🙏🏼 DON’T ASK ME AGAIN ABOUT WHY NOT RESPONDING TO YOUR NEGATIVE COMMENTS BECAUSE I ALREADY SAY IT HERE AND I WON’T BE EXPLAINING AGAIN BECAUSE WE’RE NOT CHILDREN SO ITS NOT HARD FOR YOU AN ADULT TO UNDERSTAND😌😌 YES MY REVIEW IS LONG BUT YOU READ IT ANYWAY AND ITS FINE ACTUALLY I CAN WRITE AS LONG AS I LIKE😎 YES MY GRAMMAR IS BAD SOMETIMES AND MAYBE ALL THE TIME BUT LUCKILY MANY PEOPLE CAN UNDERSTAND WHAT I’M SAYING🤪 ⬅️↖️↕️⬅️↩️⤴️
February 5, 2022
3.5 STARS
To Hate You by Bella J brings the emotional conclusion of Noah and Sienna's heartbreaking love story. This story brings lots of complex and deep feelings with nuclear hot passion.
Sienna has been completely broken after Noah left her without a word. The enigmatic man who stole her heart and made her feel alive again also made her feel the ugly pain. She has been barely keeping her pieces together. But Noah forced her to face him again. Because Noah has a past and she is in danger. Will she accept Noah's apologies? What will happen when Noah come to know of the secret she has been keeping?
I loved how the author brought Noah and Sienna's connection to life with her words. You can sincerely and deeply feel how much they need each other. But their story is messy and sometimes toxic and edgy. Noah is a broken man who let his dark past consume him and he has been living like a dead man. But Sienna lit up his world with her fierceness and her impulsive simple love. You will love Noah with all his rough alpha personality. Sienna was an admirable character too. The sex scenes were pure fire. My only issue is how the ending came. Everything resolved a bit too easily and abruptly. Also when Noah took her away, Sienna let him in a bit too easily. Overall it was a good romantic suspense.
I reviewed an early copy voluntarily
To Hate You by Bella J brings the emotional conclusion of Noah and Sienna's heartbreaking love story. This story brings lots of complex and deep feelings with nuclear hot passion.
Sienna has been completely broken after Noah left her without a word. The enigmatic man who stole her heart and made her feel alive again also made her feel the ugly pain. She has been barely keeping her pieces together. But Noah forced her to face him again. Because Noah has a past and she is in danger. Will she accept Noah's apologies? What will happen when Noah come to know of the secret she has been keeping?
I loved how the author brought Noah and Sienna's connection to life with her words. You can sincerely and deeply feel how much they need each other. But their story is messy and sometimes toxic and edgy. Noah is a broken man who let his dark past consume him and he has been living like a dead man. But Sienna lit up his world with her fierceness and her impulsive simple love. You will love Noah with all his rough alpha personality. Sienna was an admirable character too. The sex scenes were pure fire. My only issue is how the ending came. Everything resolved a bit too easily and abruptly. Also when Noah took her away, Sienna let him in a bit too easily. Overall it was a good romantic suspense.
I reviewed an early copy voluntarily
April 14, 2022
I received a copy of this book from the publisher/author to review for Stephanie's Book Reports.
Dear Noah,
I hate you. I hate the memory of you. I hate the color of your eyes and the image of your face that's stuck inside my head. No matter how hard I try, I can't forget you. I hate that cottage. I hate that I can still smell you when I go in there, and I wish I could burn it all to the ground. I hate that I kissed you that night. I hate that you can't go back in time and stop myself from doing it. That's how it all started with a simple kiss. A stupid kiss. A moment that ruined my life. I hate the letter you left me. I hate that I sat around for weeks waiting for you, hoping you'd come back. But you never did. I hate that I miss you. You don't deserve it. I hate that you were right. You hurt me just like you said you would. And I hate that, even though you broke my heart...I'll never forget you. Ever.
Not all my love,
Sienna
To Hate You is the second book in this duet. You need to read To Touch You first or you are going to be lost. To Hate You picks up where we left off and we fiend Noah gone and Sienna a shell of herself. Oh holy lump in the throat. I can't believe he did that and I just hurt for Sienna, her heart is shattered and she is a shell of herself. Noah....grrrrr I was so mad at him. He freaked out and ran and he lived up to what he told her when he said he would hurt her. I don't wanna go in to detail about the story or I am going to ruin something for someone. I love these characters and I don't feel the same about Noah as I did in the beginning. I love when there is redemption in the story and there so is for really both of them. I loved getting to know Sienna and see more of how she really feels and she's got a lot to feel about. This book was just the perfect conclusion to this duet. You guys do not want to miss this one. I closed that book with a big old smile on my face and you just have to love when that happens.
Dear Noah,
I hate you. I hate the memory of you. I hate the color of your eyes and the image of your face that's stuck inside my head. No matter how hard I try, I can't forget you. I hate that cottage. I hate that I can still smell you when I go in there, and I wish I could burn it all to the ground. I hate that I kissed you that night. I hate that you can't go back in time and stop myself from doing it. That's how it all started with a simple kiss. A stupid kiss. A moment that ruined my life. I hate the letter you left me. I hate that I sat around for weeks waiting for you, hoping you'd come back. But you never did. I hate that I miss you. You don't deserve it. I hate that you were right. You hurt me just like you said you would. And I hate that, even though you broke my heart...I'll never forget you. Ever.
Not all my love,
Sienna
To Hate You is the second book in this duet. You need to read To Touch You first or you are going to be lost. To Hate You picks up where we left off and we fiend Noah gone and Sienna a shell of herself. Oh holy lump in the throat. I can't believe he did that and I just hurt for Sienna, her heart is shattered and she is a shell of herself. Noah....grrrrr I was so mad at him. He freaked out and ran and he lived up to what he told her when he said he would hurt her. I don't wanna go in to detail about the story or I am going to ruin something for someone. I love these characters and I don't feel the same about Noah as I did in the beginning. I love when there is redemption in the story and there so is for really both of them. I loved getting to know Sienna and see more of how she really feels and she's got a lot to feel about. This book was just the perfect conclusion to this duet. You guys do not want to miss this one. I closed that book with a big old smile on my face and you just have to love when that happens.
February 7, 2022
4.5 stars. The best HEA possible!
To Hate You is the second and final book in the duet and follows in the aftermath of that final event in the first book, To Touch You. These books must be read in order.
Sienna feels heartbroken and abandoned, escusing herself from the world and licking her wounds alone and sulking. She's hurting with no idea how to get out of the marasm her life turned into. And the unexpected predicament she finds herself in, it's time to put life in perspective and start living fully, little by little, on her own again. Noah hasn't been able to forget the girl that was not supposed to happen, the feelings long dormant that fought their way to the surface and came to stay. This is a story about secrets and hidden agendas, loss and grief and the imperative will to protect, at every cost, even if it means loving from afar. But the pull is too strong and the love already deeply rooted, so it's time to regroup and choose. This is a poweful narrative about passion, connection, fears and wills, but mostly about how strong a love can be and what one's willing to sacrifice to live it completely, fully and eternally with no hard feelings or regrets. It's about choosing the place where you want to belong.
Great conclusion to the duet!
To Hate You is the second and final book in the duet and follows in the aftermath of that final event in the first book, To Touch You. These books must be read in order.
Sienna feels heartbroken and abandoned, escusing herself from the world and licking her wounds alone and sulking. She's hurting with no idea how to get out of the marasm her life turned into. And the unexpected predicament she finds herself in, it's time to put life in perspective and start living fully, little by little, on her own again. Noah hasn't been able to forget the girl that was not supposed to happen, the feelings long dormant that fought their way to the surface and came to stay. This is a story about secrets and hidden agendas, loss and grief and the imperative will to protect, at every cost, even if it means loving from afar. But the pull is too strong and the love already deeply rooted, so it's time to regroup and choose. This is a poweful narrative about passion, connection, fears and wills, but mostly about how strong a love can be and what one's willing to sacrifice to live it completely, fully and eternally with no hard feelings or regrets. It's about choosing the place where you want to belong.
Great conclusion to the duet!
February 7, 2022
Such an emotional journey! Bella J tugs at your heartstrings in To Hate You. A slow burn with an abundance of passion! Loss and unexpected surprise! Wonderful read!
June 5, 2022
DNF 77%
❌no connection, i literally feel nothing for this couple
❌their time apart...she says she has her heart broken...girl..you fucked him a few times ,maybe 1 week.
❌they said they loved each others...again....girl...a few days of fucking isn't love
❌i couldn't take it anymore with this, there is no build up nothing!
❌he had also a daughter..not only an ex wife, figures ...
❌it just didn't work for me at all.
there was insta LUST and that's it, not insta love, there was no base at all for it! i get it ,she can miss him, but you can't tell me he broke your heart. After knowing him for like 4 days.
The first book was literally all of 4 days.
The time apart was 8 weeks, he said he leaved her to protect her cuz he loved her...yeah right..his dick loved her. That was more realistic lol :)))
The second book was again all, in a few days stamp.
If in the 1st book the author toke some time to add a few chapters more of them being an item, and then doing this second book, it would've work! but not like this.
❌no connection, i literally feel nothing for this couple
❌their time apart...she says she has her heart broken...girl..you fucked him a few times ,maybe 1 week.
❌they said they loved each others...again....girl...a few days of fucking isn't love
❌i couldn't take it anymore with this, there is no build up nothing!
❌he had also a daughter..not only an ex wife, figures ...
❌it just didn't work for me at all.
there was insta LUST and that's it, not insta love, there was no base at all for it! i get it ,she can miss him, but you can't tell me he broke your heart. After knowing him for like 4 days.
The first book was literally all of 4 days.
The time apart was 8 weeks, he said he leaved her to protect her cuz he loved her...yeah right..his dick loved her. That was more realistic lol :)))
The second book was again all, in a few days stamp.
If in the 1st book the author toke some time to add a few chapters more of them being an item, and then doing this second book, it would've work! but not like this.
February 6, 2022
The conclusion of Sienna and Noah’s story is raw, compelling and heart wrenching….
This duet is an emotional roller coaster- one I absolutely never want to get off of! This author has a way with words that grabs onto the reader and makes you feel right along with the characters. From the last page of book one to the last page of book two I was on this crazy, intense, heartbreaking, emotional and passionate journey.
Noah and Sienna have a connection that is completely undeniable, it’s more than chemistry- it’s as if they are equal parts of the others soul. Noah’s backstory tore my heart out and so much came together. There are twists and turns and revelations in this story that will have your jaw on the floor. I couldn’t be happier with this couple HEA no matter how much I hate to see it end.
Bravo on another amazing duet.
This duet is an emotional roller coaster- one I absolutely never want to get off of! This author has a way with words that grabs onto the reader and makes you feel right along with the characters. From the last page of book one to the last page of book two I was on this crazy, intense, heartbreaking, emotional and passionate journey.
Noah and Sienna have a connection that is completely undeniable, it’s more than chemistry- it’s as if they are equal parts of the others soul. Noah’s backstory tore my heart out and so much came together. There are twists and turns and revelations in this story that will have your jaw on the floor. I couldn’t be happier with this couple HEA no matter how much I hate to see it end.
Bravo on another amazing duet.
February 6, 2022
This is the second book and the conclusion of Sienna and Noah's story. This is not a stand-alone, the books are best read in order.
THY picks up where the previous book was left off. Sienna is all alone after Noah left her. She's grown over the last book and I liked her less rich girl attitude. But not to forget, Noah had a reason for leaving her.
This is the fast paced, drama laden, action packed conclusion to a great love story. I read the book, cover to cover, in one sitting, literally unputdownable, raw and gripping.
THY picks up where the previous book was left off. Sienna is all alone after Noah left her. She's grown over the last book and I liked her less rich girl attitude. But not to forget, Noah had a reason for leaving her.
This is the fast paced, drama laden, action packed conclusion to a great love story. I read the book, cover to cover, in one sitting, literally unputdownable, raw and gripping.
February 10, 2022
4.5 stars!!
This is the conclusion to Noah and Sienna’s story. This can not be read as a stand alone.
Wow!! We start this book out with a bang!! I loved it. Noah and Sierra are anything but happy at the beginning of this book. But as we know from the first book shit went awry. Don’t worry this ends with a great HEA, but it’s a bumpy ride to get there.
I always enjoy Bella’s writing and she can create vivid sexy time scenes. I will say I felt like every conflict was easily resolved but sometimes too easy. With everything all said and done this book is another sexy age gap romances that you do not want to miss out on!!
**I was given a copy of this book to beta read and in return gave my honest review**
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This is the conclusion to Noah and Sienna’s story. This can not be read as a stand alone.
Wow!! We start this book out with a bang!! I loved it. Noah and Sierra are anything but happy at the beginning of this book. But as we know from the first book shit went awry. Don’t worry this ends with a great HEA, but it’s a bumpy ride to get there.
I always enjoy Bella’s writing and she can create vivid sexy time scenes. I will say I felt like every conflict was easily resolved but sometimes too easy. With everything all said and done this book is another sexy age gap romances that you do not want to miss out on!!
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March 23, 2022
Hmmmm, I just have too many questions to give this more stars. Why did he end up divorcing his wife? Was it because of his kinky ways or because of the threat? Did he divorce her before his daughter was killed or after? Did he still love her? If so, how could he fall for Sienna? And in these two books we got to meet and spend time with Sienna’s two brothers quite a bit and then in the end it is just ‘you can’t ever see them again’ and she is fine with that? What?? And the ending is very unsatisfying. Basically nothing changed and the mobsters could still find them and kill them? Where did Cleo go all of a sudden? What happened with her father and his new wife we heard so much about? And I could go on like this for a while still…plus a few inconsistencies: in the first book he made her pancakes, and in the second book he tells her it is a new skill? Plus how can Sienna be 7 weeks pregnant when she hasn’t seen Noah for over 8 weeks?? When you get pregnant you get two ‘bonus weeks’ as they count from the moment of your last period. So if Noah is the father she should be at least 10 weeks pregnant if she hasn’t seen him in over 8.
Overall it just left me unsatisfied and confused. Meh. ⭐️⭐️⭐️
Overall it just left me unsatisfied and confused. Meh. ⭐️⭐️⭐️
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
February 10, 2022
Noah and Sienna’s story continues to its conclusion.
This book picks up where To Touch you leaves off, with Noah leaving her in the middle of the night. Sienna is heartbroken. She gets a surprise after Noah leaves. Then, she gets to see him again under very unusual circumstances. Sienna finally gets to hear all of his secrets, and they are doozies. They are frightening and dangerous to say the least. Can their love conquer all? This is a great ending to this Reckless series. The journey they take together will keep you on edge until the last page. This is a great series. You have to read the first book first though. This is not a standalone. I highly recommend it.
This book picks up where To Touch you leaves off, with Noah leaving her in the middle of the night. Sienna is heartbroken. She gets a surprise after Noah leaves. Then, she gets to see him again under very unusual circumstances. Sienna finally gets to hear all of his secrets, and they are doozies. They are frightening and dangerous to say the least. Can their love conquer all? This is a great ending to this Reckless series. The journey they take together will keep you on edge until the last page. This is a great series. You have to read the first book first though. This is not a standalone. I highly recommend it.
February 7, 2022
To Hate You is the conclusion of Noah and Sienna's AGE GAP story and it is HOT AF!!!!!!
I couldn't put it down, I devoured it in one evening. They have an undeniable connection, and there's no question that they should be together. They open up to each other and connect on an emotional level, while still having burning hot sex. Sienna's pain and grief combined with Noah's personal story ripped out my heart and I ugly cried, more than once. I thoroughly enjoyed this duet ( To Touch You and To Hate You) and I recommend to everyone!!!
I couldn't put it down, I devoured it in one evening. They have an undeniable connection, and there's no question that they should be together. They open up to each other and connect on an emotional level, while still having burning hot sex. Sienna's pain and grief combined with Noah's personal story ripped out my heart and I ugly cried, more than once. I thoroughly enjoyed this duet ( To Touch You and To Hate You) and I recommend to everyone!!!
February 12, 2022
*An ARC was provided in exchange of an honest review*
Having read To Touch You (bk 1) which was sooo good btw, and getting to dive into Noah & Sienna’s conclusion had me obsessed. It gutted me and had my heart aching for them both. I couldn’t get enough and it def gave me the best heartache a girl can ask for with reading. My feels were everywhere! Bella J did great with this duo and IYDKNYK this duo is a age gap goodness all wrapped up with a big bow of angst! So good! Be sure to check it out!!
Having read To Touch You (bk 1) which was sooo good btw, and getting to dive into Noah & Sienna’s conclusion had me obsessed. It gutted me and had my heart aching for them both. I couldn’t get enough and it def gave me the best heartache a girl can ask for with reading. My feels were everywhere! Bella J did great with this duo and IYDKNYK this duo is a age gap goodness all wrapped up with a big bow of angst! So good! Be sure to check it out!!
February 8, 2022
To Hate You is the second book in the Reckless duet. The book is the conclusion of Noah and Sienna's age gap romance. I loved reading and following their emotional story. Bella J. knows how to create characters that stick with you and never leave you after you finish the book. I look forward to reading more from this author.
February 9, 2022
To Hate You is the second book in the Reckless duet. The book is the conclusion of Noah and Sienna's age gap romance. I loved reading and following their emotional story. Bella J. knows how to create characters that stick with you and never leave you after you finish the book. I look forward to reading more from this author.
February 14, 2022
I was on pins and needles waiting for this book to arrive...
This is how this author makes me feel when waiting for a new book... She's that awesome.
Bella J is the bomb. The Queen of tease and cliffhangers. The Queen of darkness and her books are to die for.
Have you had the chance to read any of her books?
If you have, you know what I'm talking about, but if you haven't... You need to rectify it right now.
Her writing is that good.
To Hate You is her latest release and explores the lives of Noah and Sienna.
One very important thing. This book is not a standalone therefore you must read To Touch You first.Can I just say that I love this cover? There's something about this girl that portrays the way I see Sienna.
Has you know, Noah and Sienna had a thing going on. Their chemistry was off the charts but he left.
With that, he took her heart with him.
Her life is not the same and she's too broken to keep going.
But...
I was so sad that I wanted to cry so hard...
Wanna know why?
Because the book ended and I wanted more.
I want Ted to keep reading good about these two, but now I can't. Because it's over.
Perfect plot, well written, super engaging, and emotional.
Each chapter was even more addictive than the previous and I couldn't stop.
I read this book in one sitting and was mad when "The End" made its appearance...
How can you fall in love with the characters so hard, that I can't conceive the idea that the book ended?
These two were perfect for each other and you could feel the love they shared.
This series was perfect and I want more.
Can we have more Bella J?
Are you finished with these two? Will you write about the twins?
I sure hope so. I voluntarily reviewed an Advance Reader Copy of this book.
This is how this author makes me feel when waiting for a new book... She's that awesome.
Bella J is the bomb. The Queen of tease and cliffhangers. The Queen of darkness and her books are to die for.
Have you had the chance to read any of her books?
If you have, you know what I'm talking about, but if you haven't... You need to rectify it right now.
Her writing is that good.
To Hate You is her latest release and explores the lives of Noah and Sienna.
One very important thing. This book is not a standalone therefore you must read To Touch You first.Can I just say that I love this cover? There's something about this girl that portrays the way I see Sienna.
Has you know, Noah and Sienna had a thing going on. Their chemistry was off the charts but he left.
With that, he took her heart with him.
Her life is not the same and she's too broken to keep going.
But...
I was so sad that I wanted to cry so hard...
Wanna know why?
Because the book ended and I wanted more.
I want Ted to keep reading good about these two, but now I can't. Because it's over.
Perfect plot, well written, super engaging, and emotional.
Each chapter was even more addictive than the previous and I couldn't stop.
I read this book in one sitting and was mad when "The End" made its appearance...
How can you fall in love with the characters so hard, that I can't conceive the idea that the book ended?
These two were perfect for each other and you could feel the love they shared.
This series was perfect and I want more.
Can we have more Bella J?
Are you finished with these two? Will you write about the twins?
I sure hope so. I voluntarily reviewed an Advance Reader Copy of this book.
February 11, 2022
To Hate You is the second and final book in Noah and Sienna’s duet and picks up right where To Touch You left off .with Noah leaving in the middle of the night leaving Sienna completely heartbroken. Noah and Sienna are two of most intriguing and multi layered characters you will ever meet . From the moment I started reading the first book I was just so completely invested in their journey . My heart literally broke for sienna , after Noah leaves she is completely wrecked , and does not know how to move on without him in her life .And Noah he has he’s own demons he’s dealing with . One thing he never expected though was how deep his feeling would grow for Sienna . He truly believes that by leaving he is protecting her .one of the things I loved most about this amazing story was the chance to learn more about Noah’s Backstory, be warned though there are moments you will feel like you heart is literally being torn out of your chest , it’s that emotional. But also so beautifully written . I guarantee that once you start reading you will not be able to stop . Bella J has once again delivered a story that you will not forget
February 10, 2022
HOLY HELL! To Hate You is the conclusion of Noah & Sienna's story which started in To Touch You (Book 1) which you must read first. After the first book's ending, I was dying inside to be honest, and now we get the aftermath of all that devastation. Bella J. never ceases to amaze me with her stories, and even when they're short(ish), I still feel an emotional punch that hurts, but I also hate that there are no more words for me to devour. Gosh, I could literally feel Sienna's pain like it was my own, and my eyes are trying to leak again as I type this review. There's also a ton of twists coming in hot to allow me to get my emotions into check. I LOVE this talented author so much, so I'll end with HIGHLY HIGHLY HIGHLY RECOMMENDING TO ALL!
February 23, 2022
Holy amazeballs. To Hate you is the second book in this duet. We get the conclusion of Sienna and Noah. My heart broke for both of these characters. The titles are amazing cause it is a love Hate relationship. The outcome will make you smile. Loved it.
February 9, 2022
OMG!!! What a heart-wrenching story Noah and Sienna's conclusion brings. It touches your very soul with so much passion, angst, heartbreak, and truths that I will never forget these characters and their story. It is written with so much heart and love it consumed me and had me cheering and crying all at the same time.
I could go on and on I loved it that much, the words are strong along with the characters and is just beautiful.
I could go on and on I loved it that much, the words are strong along with the characters and is just beautiful.
February 9, 2022
Oh wow! What an emotional, action-packed and steamy conclusion to this duet. Sienna is a mess after the ending of the first book. Noah has a lot of work to do. Will she be able to forgive everything? This story is so well written and really hits you in the ‘feels’. I really loved Sienna’s growth in this book. I was satisfied with how everything ends up and absolutely loved the epilogue! I highly recommend this book!
February 15, 2022
To Hate You is the concluding book in the Reckless series and my goodness does Bella J deliver some delicious scenes again with Noah and Sienna and their turbulent relationship that's completely raw, gritty and reckless where never sure if they make it together or if the hate will take over the sexual tension is off the charts and the angst is so amazing it will leave you on the edge of your seat.
Bella J writes some fantastic books I've thoroughly enjoyed Noah and Sienna's book.
Bella J writes some fantastic books I've thoroughly enjoyed Noah and Sienna's book.
February 22, 2022
If you love drama, sexiness and loveable but flawed characters, To Hate You will have you on the edge of your SEAT. Bella J weaves a thrilling and romantic end to a wonderfully reckless duet. Loved it!!
February 11, 2022
Noah and Sienna's heartbreaking conclusion is here. Noah has a dark past that he left in order to protect Sienna. Now he's back demanding to be let in again. Sienna is in danger from his past but can she live with it? Will Noah be able to live with Sienna's secret as well? A stunning read and duet.
February 9, 2022
My oh my! Noah, it's no wonder he is the way he is, dark.
This highly emotional, sizzling hot finale will squeeze your heart!
Cry, yes, I did.
Squirm, yes, that too!
I had fingers and toes crossed that Sienna could bring Noah much needed light!
This highly emotional, sizzling hot finale will squeeze your heart!
Cry, yes, I did.
Squirm, yes, that too!
I had fingers and toes crossed that Sienna could bring Noah much needed light!
February 10, 2022
Second book to Siennas and Noah story. After Noah walks away from Sienna. She is left broken lost then ever. Noah had to leave behind Sienna. His past caught up with him and he will do anything to keep her safe. Secrets, lies and lost of emotions mix together to bring this epic book together.
February 11, 2022
5 FABULOUS STARS!! I had been waiting for this book and it was PERFECTION for Sienna and Noah's emotional story. Their story will take you on a fast paced rollercoaster ride, so buckle up. You definitely need to read these books.
February 13, 2022
Not what I expected especially since that cliffhanger at the end of the first book left me speechless. But it was enjoyable nonetheless and just the right amount of smut.
BUT THAT EPILOGUE COMPLETELY BROKE ME. I AM CRYING AND THROWING UP.
Therefore, it is a 4 stars.
BUT THAT EPILOGUE COMPLETELY BROKE ME. I AM CRYING AND THROWING UP.
Therefore, it is a 4 stars.
February 10, 2022
Heartbreaking. Angsty. Emotional. Sweet. Sexy. This story packs up Sienna and Noah's story and gives us just what we needed. I felt for them and I rooted for them until the end.
February 13, 2022
This is the conclusion of Noah and Sienna love story. Boy did this love story have its ups and downs. This book was so good. My emotions were all over. Such an amazing conclusion.
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