Anyone who knows me knows I don't "read read" very often. I usually listen to audiobooks or read webcomics. So when I picked up Diving Heart First on Monday, I had no idea I'd be burning through it by Thursday night, but here we are.
Diving Heart First stars an emotionally self-aware swimmer MMC, Connor Bocelli. Now, he's no "Mary Sue". He has anger issues that fester beneath the surface (and even above a couple times) but he is very concious of it and willing to change. One chapter into Connor's perspective and you will feel safe with him and safe in the world of this book. He's gentle, he's warm, he communicates, he listens, he's not a proud aggro dark brooding ego-maniac like many men in books nowadays.
It also features Maisie Thatcher, a sweet but very nervous high diver. She's written very raw, and I mean that in the best way. Her nervous habits are on full display, and there's no attempt to frame them as cute. Her cuticles are gruesome. Biting her lip isn't sexy, it hurts and it makes it bleed. The description of her panic attacks and anxiety overall resonated hardcore with me.
One of the best parts about this book is that no switches are just "flipped" that make characters magically heal from their emotional traumas. It's a very deliberate story showing the evolution of two young college students, their adjustment to higher education, D-1 sports, friendships, and relationships (both healthy and not).
Lewes gives you a front row seat to the evolution of young college athletes facing the pressures of sports, academia, and family through a safe, warm lens.
There's plenty of interaction between the MCs, Connor and Maisie, but they have very lively and rich friendships with other people, resulting in a world that feels LIVED IN. It pulls you in and makes you feel like a member of their friend group. It very much resonated with my own collegiate experience. I was an anxiety WRECK. Making friends was HARD. But it was so so worth it, and when I did, I was able to blossom a bit like Maisie.
I will fight anyone who tries to compare this to Deep End. It's fundamentally different. I liked Deep End, don't get me wrong. But while Deep End is suspense-filled with a brooding MMC whose thoughts you never quite know, Diving Heart First is a safe, warm, and inviting read.
The spice is gentle and sweet and very well balanced. It's focused on emotions and vulnerability, and the story explores how it affects the relationship between the MCs.
I highly encourage anyone who has endured a less-than-stellar relationship to read Diving Heart First. It'll fill your heart with hope. I know it did for me.
**I received an ARC from Happily Booked PR & the author in exchange for my honest review**