I went into this expecting a dark, smutty romance with Catholic aesthetics and vibes, and while it absolutely is, I was genuinely caught off guard by how much care was happening on the page. The prose is really lovely as always (smooth, immersive, never clunky) and Cheyanne continues to be amazing at giving her characters distinct, personalized voices. This book knows exactly what it is and commits to it fully, then some.
What really got me, though, was the religious nuance. I fully expected a surface-level “Catholicism bad, religion evil, anyway—” situation, and instead got something way more real. This book understands that religion can be traumatizing and comforting at the same time, and it doesn’t flatten that experience. Adrian’s POV in particular felt incredibly well researched and authentic, which I did not expect but deeply appreciated (I have read depictions of Catholicism where it is just disregarded as a different flavor of Protestantism and this is not that to my surprise and pleasure). On top of that, the way addiction is handled here felt honest and was very comforting. It was not romanticized, nor was it magically cured by love. I cannot stress enough how happy I was that the story didn’t frame love as the thing that fixes everything. Maria choosing herself, loving herself, doing the work for herself? That is so important and we need more of that in romance, especially when addiction or mental health is involved.
Also yes, the smut. It’s varied, intentional, and fun to read, and I was happy with the inclusion of non-PIV scenes. It felt thoughtful rather than repetitive, which is always a win for me. I read Cheyanne’s sapphic vampire romance before this and now this one, and honestly, she just keeps showing me she knows her craft and enjoys it. The range! The confidence! The vibes! IMMACULATE!
Overall, this book is dark, smutty, emotionally grounded, and way more meaningful than I expected going in. If you like your romance smutty but with substance, nuance, and care around heavy topics like faith, trauma, and recovery, I would absolutely recommend this. If I wasn’t already a Brubaker fan before, I 1000% am now 😩🙏