Hollow Point is book four in the Possum Hollow series. This is the second half of Silas and Cade’s love story and should only be read after book one, Stupid Dirty.
I loved Silas and Cade in Stupid Dirty, so I was excited that we would be getting more of them. I wasn’t expecting it to be such a heavy read. After all the trauma and pain these broken boys have been through, it was tough to see them continue to struggle. It definitely was frustrating when they would brush things under the rug and when they weren’t communicating.
But all through this we see Silas and Cade continue to love each other. The love they had for one another was beautiful. Their found family was amazing, and I especially loved Tristan. Silas and Cade’s journey certainly was not easy, and they definitely deserved to get a HEA. I do have to say I wasn’t really a fan of the ending because it seemed abrupt to me.
Five stars for gritty trauma and mental health realness. Stupid Dirty ended on a nod to Silas going to Dialectical Behavioral Therapy (DBT) in his reference to a worksheet on distress tolerance, and Hollow Point opens on Silas on a bad day, highlighting that while therapy can give us coping skills, it’s not a magic fix all.
This book was both painful and accurate in a way that I think is important for the genre, but that I almost didn’t want to read after my day job of working with complex PTSD. Erin Russell knows her shit 💯. But so often I feel like in romance, we get one character who “fixes” the other, whereas often that very act of “fixing” is avoiding one’s own shit, and I wanted to witness this whole dynamic being done right. Where Silas faced his shit in Stupid Dirty, it’s Cade’s turn in Hollow Point to an extreme degree. We get full on decompensation here, people, and it’s not pretty. I was at several points wondering if Cade was displaying bipolar traits, but also thinking that an assessment for ADHD was needed along with the very obvious substance use disorder spin out.
Intergenerational trauma in impoverished family systems is incredibly common in our country, and I love Erin Russell for examining how it impacts whole communities while remaining safely within the guaranteed HEA mandate of the romance genre. I read romance almost exclusively because the HEA is so often missing from these cases in real life. Complex trauma has a nasty habit of alienating people from each other when what’s needed is a coming together. I love that romance gives us that needed healing on both an emotional and physical level as I see it so rarely for my more traumatized clients. So while this book wasn’t peaceful and relaxing reading, I’m glad that it’s out there and I highly recommend it for anyone interested in the realities of trauma work.
This is not light reading people! Don’t expect it to be. What it is a is a brave beautiful exploration of what it takes to BUILD happiness together despite the odds and then hold on tight to that happiness.
I loved Cade and Silas before this book and then Erin Russell opened the curtains some more, let in a load of light on to some very painful spots and I love them even more now. These boys and their C-PTSD and their fight to be happy and build their family and do right by each other.
I think one of the things Russell did very well here is the laying out of how absolutely murky the world feels and our choices feel and how insidious repetitive patterns playing out can be when we are shutting down or self destructing. The other things they do beautifully is bare the helplessness of watching and the helplessness of being in the grip of the demon.
One of my favourite parts of this book is the support system, the found family that supports the mental health rep narrative of the story. No man is an island is never more true than in this story.
At it’s core it’s a love story though even though I’ve gone on about the rest - it’s a story about choosing your person and being there for them without enabling them and that’s how they build their HEA.
Obviously they are hot that goes without saying, and Russell sprinkles in enough humour to heal as we LoL with some of the stuff that’s being said.
Overall highly highly recommend reading it but best read in order :)
“I need you to stop hurting the person I love. That’s all I want.”
a little over a year into their relationship, Silas and Cade are making it work, with solid attempts at learning how to communicate under their belt. they’ve both been putting in work, particularly Silas, who has been dedicated to therapy.
almost immediately however, we’re clued into that fact that both of them are pushing their own needs and feelings down, in an attempt to avoid what they’ve identified in one another as topics that either escalate or shut down the conversation. each of them is trying to protect the other, waiting to arrive at a softer time when they can safely finally bring up the patterns they’ve noticed.
by kicking the proverbial can down the road, they begin isolating themselves from the other bit by bit, the road itself becoming paved with the seeds of resentment. things haven’t yet reached a point where nearly every conversation results in avoiding difficult topics or devolves into a fight, but the reappearance of Kyle Waters brings all their paused problems to a head, pushing an emotionally brittle Cade from barely holding it together to crumbling under the weight of anything in his life that triggers his own trauma; his patient, young Jaden, who reminds Cade of both Maddi and Silas, dealing with some type of seizure disorder but not receiving the necessary care from his parents, the visible queerness of his relationship with Silas stirring up protective instincts that run on an undercurrent of anger, the possibility of his mom falling into old patterns with Kyle, and the ghosts of his own past abuse that have him jumping at shadows and down people’s throats at any perceived slight.
what follows is a series of escalations of Cade’s concerning behaviour, seen through both their eyes and i can’t decide whose perspective is more upsetting, but there is something desperate about the experience of Silas, who has been working hard to understand himself better, to find ways of communicating what his neurodivergent brain is experiencing, how it processes emotions. Silas, who is only now finding ways to fully articulate himself, desperately trying to figure out how to communicate in a way that gets through to Cade and running up against a wall more often than not.
Hollow Point is a brilliant take on miscommunication, deftly sidestepping the pitfalls of the trope, in part precisely because it doesn't treat it as one. re-casting miscommunication as 'learning to communicate' avoids every single aspect that makes it my most maligned trope and i never once found myself frustrated or needing to suspend disbelief by the way our two MCs navigate around one another and their shared issues. rather, i found myself aching for both Cade and Silas as they struggled to vocalise their thoughts and feelings, circling in tighter and tighter spirals around the unspoken things that seem to be pulling them apart.
“Our home has become a seething, brittle place.”
there are many moments where both of them communicate poorly, and particularly on Cade's part, knowing full-well that they were either failing to say something crucial, doggedly denying the truth staring them right in the face, or digging in their heels by saying something they know will make things worse, but they never stop trying to do better, trying to be more honest.
“I know he’s making sense, and I know he’s only doing this because he cares. But it’s like the part of me that understands that and the part of me that’s in charge right now refuse to fucking talk to each other, and I’m just a passenger, trapped behind a glass wall.”
these heartbreaking insights into the vise grip trauma has on our (in)ability to make decisions that we know deep down are actually good for ourselves or at the very least not worse resonate, because in one way or another, we’ve all been there, with emotions too muddled and sirupy to parse through and make sense of, especially of in the heat of the moment.
particularly gripping was the palpability of the shame Cade felt over and over, after each escalation of his spin out. it become a living thing, oozing in his mind and we see so well how that same shame makes him continually double down on what is already a shit fucking situation.
adding depth to the situation is how it’s all affecting Silas — his anxiety and requisite panic attacks triggered by the fear of something bad happening to Cade when he’s on the motocross track or driving around while angry and seeking booze, his frustration over the moments when his attempts at reaching Cade go up in flames, as well as later on, confronting the scary parallels between Cade and both their fathers - the temper, the booze and the grand schemes to magically fix their troubles.
repeatedly confronted with Cade’s mounting explosions of anger “[f]or the first time, I think I realise how much effort that must take for him, when he’s normally on a haretrigger with the rest of the world. It always comes back to him changing himself to what? Placate me? Keep me calm?…Cade’s never been the most stable person internally, but his presence in my life has been rock-fucking-solid since he first pulled me back from the edge of that quarry. He’s a constant, and I’m abruptly realising how much I’d been taking it for granted.”
another crucial realization Silas arrives at is an understanding that Cade doesn’t yet fully know how to let himself be loved the way he wants and deserves, made apparent when he begins to understand the mindset Cade brings to their dom/sub dynamic, namely one of punishment that goes beyond play, a transaction that wipes the slate of transgressions clean. the horror Silas feels upon this discovery is gut wrenching, yet it ultimately leads to progress and the sexual dynamics of their relationship are integral to their story and their development as people. seen from this perspective especially, i think these are some of the most effective sex/intimate scenes i have ever read; the fact that their dynamic is insanely hot and VERY much my thing adds to my enjoyment immensely, but their primary value is how they both ground and propel the narrative.
the same issues come up over and over, but in a way that feels productive, even when you know there’s another hit coming. we see them clawing their way toward a breakthrough, a collection of moments and insights that lead to realisations, acknowledgments that allow for a paradigm shift. in each other, they’ve each found a constant, a partner unwilling to give up when things get hard. ultimately, it's also their trust in the veracity of the love of the other that allows them to keep returning to those conversations in good faith, something which even those with regulated nervous systems struggle with. even when it's hard, they try their best not to hold things the other said against them; they continually show one another grace in their most difficult moments and do an admirable job of not withholding affection or comfort when their own egos are bruised.
both are also bolstered by their steadfast friends, particularly Tristan who is truly one of the best friends anyone could ask for. he’s always showing up in times of need, helping them understand themselves better and most crucially, capable of calling Cade on his shit when he least wants to but most needs to hear it.
at first i struggled with the ending, because it seemed abrupt and i had expected to see more of Cade “Getting Help”, but the more I sat with it, the more it felt right, especially once i reminded myself that every single aspect of their journey is the healing part, every aspect of choosing to break from old patterns involves a lot of hard work, especially emotionally. we see so much of his agonizing journey, perhaps even the absolute worst parts of it, because as much as Cade will always at least partially hate therapy, the crucial battle was allowing himself to even get to that part. not having to see him slog his way through therapy and instead fast forwarding slightly to a brighter, calmer and steadier future feels like a reward and a blessing. in fact, that's the hope i was left with, that this reaching that point also marked the point where Cade's pain begins to lessen.
Cade had to go down a rather accelerated downward spiral and have a nasty wake-up call to finally admit to needing real help, to allow himself to ask for it. towards the end, my own emotions were so raw. i felt so deeply for Cade, choking on shame that nearly kept him from acknowledging that he has a problem. when he finally allows himself to breakdown in Silas’ arms, the catharsis is pure and potent. it’s cleansing to see Cade not only allow himself to fall apart but also rely on another person in ways he hasn’t felt deserving of and to claim the tenderness and care from another he so deeply craves and needs.
“Cade cries in a way I’ve never seen from him before. It’s all the grief and rage he’s been bottling up for fucking years, pouring out into my lap. It should break my heart, and it does, but honestly I’m relieved. It feels like every single problem we’ve had recently could have been avoided if Cade would fucking allow himself to feel an emotion other than anger.”
Once Cade is able to see the truth of Silas’ words — “it feels like you’re hurting yourself, or taking something out on yourself. And you don’t deserve that…I need you to stop hurting the person I love. That’s all I want…You’re hurting. But you pretend you aren’t, and it makes it worse.” — he’s finally able to give in to the helplessness and desperation he feels: “What should I do? Can you just tell me what to do please? I’m so tired, and I don’t want to be like this anymore.””
the real struggle was accepting that he needed to change, that years of holding himself together to keep others from falling apart were only ever going to tear him up from the inside out. what comes after is no less challenging, but ultimately easier, because it's built on a foundation of accountability, which required reckonging with difficult truths.
this book is a powerful insight into the deep grooves left by anger — in particularly the anger of others and how poisonous it is to the self if left to fester, how that illfitting coat becomes passed down — and the healing touch of love fuelled by dedication, repeatedly doled out to soothe the burns and dissolve the thick layer of shame keeping everything at a standstill. Cade and Silas' relationship is perfect because it isn’t, because they find ways to make room for one another's hurt and because both believe in their love enough to fight for it, determined to keep having difficult conversations until they become easier.
in the end, this book resonates with me immensely because i see myself in both characters, and i doubt i will be the only one. i was moved to ugly, sobbing tears numerous times, always rooting for these two boys to figure out their shit. rarely have i felt so ultimately fulfilled by two people struggling to find the right words, when usually it leaves me frustrated to no end. and it's down to the author's talent for writing deeply relatable people who feel so utterly tangible. Erin Russel shows once again that their grasp on what makes us human, how our innermost thoughts and feelings can be both our downfall and our greatest strength, is insightful and provocative, giving us one last trip to Possum Hollow to be witness to one of the most challenging and rewarding experiences that comes with being human.
To start, you need to have read Stupid Dirty before diving into Hollow Point. This is "After the HEA" for Cade & Silas. What happens when you meet your person and start your life together? Its not always easy. These 2 are adjusting to being adults, on their own basically after having such drastic responsibilities placed on their shoulders for years. Now, they are navigating what that looks like when they have to really focus on themselves and each other. I love the love C&S have for each other, the found family in Possum Hollow and the ability they have to still make me smile while also tearing at my little dark heart strings.
•Motocross •After the HEA •Learning to Communicate •Hurt/C0mfort •Found Family •Autistic MC •Healing Childhood Trauma •Light D0m/sub dynamics
I always suggest reading all the books in the series, because I love each of the couples separately and appreciate their interactions that much more, so I'd say yes, read them all.
↓↓ Ugh, it was so good to be back in Possom Hollow and catch up with Cade and Silas, as well as some of the other characters from this series. These two broken boys, gah, they are still struggling so much mentally and it hurt my heart. The pain, the trauma, the struggle, it was so real, so raw and so honest.
These two have been through so much and their path to healing has been and is still extremely rough and bumpy throughout this whole book. Did they get frustrated, shut down and not know how to deal with things and situations? They sure did. Did they brush things under the rug and not communicate so well, or at all, for a long time? You betcha they did and it was frustrating. But the best thing they did was not give up.
These two love so hard and they love in the only way they know how to. They don't have the best record to see what a healthy relationship and love should be like so watching them learn how to communicate and love healthy was so incredible and beautiful. I was so happy to finally see them on the journey that worked best for them and their relationship to heal and move forward.
I have loved all of these characters so much so although this is the last of these character's and their stories, I am so happy to know that we are not totally leaving the Possum Hollow world and will be seeing them again in future books.
𝕋𝕣𝕠𝕡𝕖𝕤 / 𝕎𝕙𝕒𝕥 𝕥𝕠 𝔼𝕩𝕡𝕖𝕔𝕥 🩷 Motocross 🩷 After the HEA 🩷 Learning to Communicate 🩷 Hurt/Comfort 🩷 Found Family 🩷 Autistic MC 🩷 Healing Childhood Trauma 🩷 Light Dom/sub dynamics
stupid Dirty has been one of my favourite books since the day it came out. I couldn't help but love Cade and Silas from the very start. And to see this conclusion of their story was just perfect. Erin wrote these men so well. No perfect solution to the toughness of life, no miraculous event to make everything wonderful, just hard, gritty trauma dealt with in the only way both men knew how - withdrawal and chaos. We all know there was nothing stable and normal about the history these two have lived and shared, but with support around them and a love so deep they would move the earth for each other, we see a future they both work towards and deserve so much. This whole book series has been amazing and Erin could have left us at the end of book three, but my heart feels settled now I'm sure Cade and Silas will do just fine. After all, they have each other and will for ever work to keep it that way.
3.75 ⭐️ I’m not sure this 300-page epilogue was necessary to convince me that Cade and Silas would have their work cut out for them, or that they’d be willing to do it.
We left off Stupid Dirty with Silas prepared to fight for his mental health so that he could be there for Cade, Cade’s sisters, and the growing group of supportive friends in Possum Hollow. Here, we see the cracks showing in Cade’s facade of “fine,” as his trauma leaks out in anger, and his anger is stifled by alcohol. In therapy but still working on a lot of issues, including disordered eating, Silas struggles to convince Cade to take care of his own mental wellness, too.
Luckily, Tristan is there to talk some sense into them both, especially when Cade’s awful dad rolls back into town (having had, I guess, a personality transplant).
I liked Stupid Dirty just fine, and I like a brave epilogue to examine the HEA, but I don’t think this answered any questions I actually had.
Listen, I absolutely ADORE Cade & Silas together. I just did not like this book as much as I wanted too. This is their second book together and they still have yet to learn how to truly communicate with each other. First chapter in is about how much Silas is still struggling even after all this therapy and I thought that would be the premise of the book but no then we move on to Cade and all his childhood trauma and it feels like we completely just forget everything that Silas is going through still. I felt like nothing really got resolved. Like any of the issues they were having pre-Cade meltdown gets completely overlooked in my opinion. I still love them, I just wish we got more depth from them both.
This entire review has been hidden because of spoilers.
OH Erin!!! I just love Cade and Silas. This book was a perfect follow up for them.
They have been through so much and I have shed many tears for them. These broken boys have grabbed ahold of my heart and they are not letting go. I just love them and want to hug their necks.
They have battled and battled to get to their happy ending.
Erin THANK YOU, for a perfect book.
If you like the following tropes then this book is for you:
🩷 MM Motocross Romance 🩷 After The HEA 🩷 Light Dom/sub dynamics 🩷 Autistic MC 🩷 Learning to Communicate 🩷 Found Family 🩷 Healing Childhood Trauma 🩷 Hurt/Comfort
You seldom get a glimpse into what comes after the HEA, but Hollow Point goes to prove that the happy bit isn’t always a guarantee.
Silas and Cade are still head over heels in love with one another after their enemies to lovers coming together in Stupid Dirty, but are also living proof that life deals you sh*tty hands, communicating with your partner sometimes takes more work than you have in you, and healing from trauma is never linear.
This book is very real, a little heavy, a lot spicy and so worth the journey.
✨MM ✨Found family ✨Mental health rep ✨Hurt comfort ✨🌶️🌶️🌶️🌶️
I love Silas and Cade. This book was heavy on mental health issues, but it was thrilling to see how far Silas had come since the first book. Hopefully Cade will make more progress and settle into their happily ever after. I am here for these boys and it’s amazing to watch them put themselves back together after their living through such tragic pasts.
Erin Russell is magnificent and I cannot wait for more whether it be in Possum Hollow or part of the Banna series!
genuinely what was resolved in this and their “love” is most certainly NOT enough to solve all of the problems they both have internally and with each other
also i’m so lost bc when i started this I thought it would be more on Silas and his depression and his on and off days .. but then it turned to Cade just being a shit the rest of the book and i was like oh cute
I love the first book and I will be ridding my memory of their sequel for my own sanity
I’m a sucker for an after the HEA book. Who doesn’t love revisiting characters they love and checking in on them. This book was so beautiful and painful to read. Two people who come with loads of trauma trying desperately to rise above it yet not having enough tools in the mental health tool box to succeed. The character growth and development with this was real and heartfelt and honest.