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I Keep My Shadow Light: A Berlin Novel
Berlin: Europe's promised city. But like many new arrivals, Maeve is struggling to get the basics down. No permanent home. No job. No lasting romance or reliable friendships. Just the arms of the German state, sweeping her into its heady, bureaucratic embrace.
On her first day of a state-funded Integrationskurs - a requirement for her unemployment benefits - Maeve meets Zehra, Viktor and Karam. Four lost and lonely twenty-somethings, newly arrived in big bad Berlin, brought together by a system that wants to make them useful.
Over seven months, this class of migrants and misfits will grow together and fall apart as they are pushed to assimilate and learn the language to get a job. We witness police barging into the classroom, a racist supply teacher, a troubled classmate with PTSD, and tense debates about whether 'women are best suited to placing the flowers on a table'.
Despite the revolving door of classmates and supply teachers, the course offers Maeve a sense of grounding, community, and unlikely friendships with her classmates.
The story expands beyond the classroom, into a dysfunctional shared flat, bars, the good old Jobcenter, toilet cubicles, freezing living rooms, and then just roams around the streets, spinning out into something.
<>I Keep My Shadow Light is a darkly funny social commentary novel about identity, which asks, "What does it mean to belong, and what do you lose in trying?"
On her first day of a state-funded Integrationskurs - a requirement for her unemployment benefits - Maeve meets Zehra, Viktor and Karam. Four lost and lonely twenty-somethings, newly arrived in big bad Berlin, brought together by a system that wants to make them useful.
Over seven months, this class of migrants and misfits will grow together and fall apart as they are pushed to assimilate and learn the language to get a job. We witness police barging into the classroom, a racist supply teacher, a troubled classmate with PTSD, and tense debates about whether 'women are best suited to placing the flowers on a table'.
Despite the revolving door of classmates and supply teachers, the course offers Maeve a sense of grounding, community, and unlikely friendships with her classmates.
The story expands beyond the classroom, into a dysfunctional shared flat, bars, the good old Jobcenter, toilet cubicles, freezing living rooms, and then just roams around the streets, spinning out into something.
<>I Keep My Shadow Light is a darkly funny social commentary novel about identity, which asks, "What does it mean to belong, and what do you lose in trying?"
302 pages, Paperback
Published January 19, 2026
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April 27, 2026
Such a Berlin story, reflecting the harsh realities of being a migrant in this chaotic city which can swallow you in a second. I finished it in two days, related to the characters and loved the author's ability to understand and emphatise with different cultures <3
June 17, 2026
Such an important book showing the really everyday life of immigrants And people who strugle to intagrate in German society.
April 5, 2026
I loved this book! The characters were all so beautifully developed and I was invested in each of their storylines and arcs throughout the novel. The dialogue felt so natural, funny and woven in seamlessly with politics, history and social commentary. Looking forward to reading more books by Fionnuala Kavanagh.
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