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She Loves Me Not
I watched her from the comfort of my car. She was standing by the school's entrance watching the parents collect their children and waving them off. She doesn't see me. She never sees me. She looks so pretty; her eyes, her smile, the way her hair blows gently in the breeze. I licked my lips. I want her. I need her. I shall have her. Not yet though. Too many people around to witness it. I'll have to be patient to make this work. I need to be patient. Get to know her as a friend first before I try and make my move. Let her know that - no matter what - I am here for her. God knows she'll need her friends around her when her husband doesn't come home. With any luck I'll be the first person she phones for comfort. From my house, I can get to hers in around fifteen minutes flat. Ten if I really push it. I'll be there and I'll offer her my shoulder to cry on. I'll tell her everything is going to be okay and that I'm sure her husband will be home soon. Of course we both know that is a lie. He will never be coming home and - in time - she won't even remember his name. She will only remember me.
From Matt Shaw - author of 'Happy Ever After', 'Sick B*stards', 'PORN' and 'WHORE' comes a deeply disturbing new psychological horror about love and obsession.
From Matt Shaw - author of 'Happy Ever After', 'Sick B*stards', 'PORN' and 'WHORE' comes a deeply disturbing new psychological horror about love and obsession.
85 pages, Kindle Edition
First published February 2, 2015
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About the author
Matt Shaw
529 books2,193 followersBiography
MATT SHAW was born, quite by accident (his mother tripped, he shot out) September 30th 1980 in Winchester hospital where he was immediately placed on the baby ward and EBay. Some twelve years later (wandering the corridors of the hospital and playing with road kill when he was on day release), the listing closed and he remained unsold, he was booted out of the hospital to start his life as a writer and hobbit – beginning with writing screenplays and short stories for his own amusement before finally getting published when he was twenty-seven years and forty-five seconds old.
Once Published weekly in a lad's magazine with his photography work, Matt Shaw is also a published author and cartoonist. Has to be said, can be a bit of a flirt and definitely, without a shadow of a doubt, somewhat of a klutz.
Favourite books
"Roald Dahl's Collection of Short Stories"
Tim Burton's Melancholy Death of Oyster Boy
Anything, really, written by himself. Because he is that good.
MATT SHAW was born, quite by accident (his mother tripped, he shot out) September 30th 1980 in Winchester hospital where he was immediately placed on the baby ward and EBay. Some twelve years later (wandering the corridors of the hospital and playing with road kill when he was on day release), the listing closed and he remained unsold, he was booted out of the hospital to start his life as a writer and hobbit – beginning with writing screenplays and short stories for his own amusement before finally getting published when he was twenty-seven years and forty-five seconds old.
Once Published weekly in a lad's magazine with his photography work, Matt Shaw is also a published author and cartoonist. Has to be said, can be a bit of a flirt and definitely, without a shadow of a doubt, somewhat of a klutz.
Favourite books
"Roald Dahl's Collection of Short Stories"
Tim Burton's Melancholy Death of Oyster Boy
Anything, really, written by himself. Because he is that good.
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March 13, 2024
This isn’t necessarily a bad story it’s just quite boring, repetitive. Although it’s a great idea and I usually really enjoy Matt Shaw’s work, this didn’t seem “obsessive” enough. 2 stars go to the intrusive thoughts of the MC
May 22, 2025
#️⃣2️⃣3️⃣4️⃣ Read & Reviewed in 2025 🐠 🍭
Date 🌬️: Wednesday, May 21, 2025 ☄️
Word Count📃: 30k Words, short
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૮꒰ ˶• ༝ •˶꒱ა ♡ My 42th read in summertime read-a-thon "since idk wtf to do with my life for one thousand — two hundred — twenty four hours straight" (^-^ )
5️⃣🌟, the right way to do a stalker romance
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Victorrrrrr, my precious Victor,. This characters so extremely well written & january is one of the most realistic stalkers out theree (compared to the shit ton dark moments books that tries to do the exact same thing but just makes it even more idealized or romanticized even of its dark nature). I get why other reviewers would rate this book low because this isn't certainly not what Matt Shaw normally writes (he normally writes books that feature extreme rape and torture, and the target audiences are people who are into that) this one just takes itself back a few steps and just focuses on realistic measures of disturbed people, what's going on in their minds and the actions that they do for it. The little boys in his head telling all the bad things that he wants to do with her and how his basic sense of ethics and morality tries to prevent that but eventually succumbs to the underlying force of obsession he has with Corinna.
I also love the fact that Corinna actually acts like a normal human being :)))))))))) i'm so proud to finally see a woman actually doing normal things and not romanticizing this shit cuz damn, dark romance books just ain't it bruh 😭 😭
And of course Corinna's sweet sweet husband, Zak. Proud of him to also do basic human reactions and doing the writings when discovering that a creepy guy wants to kill you in once to get off with your wife.. the ending successfully concludes short story and unlocking forward to read more books like this where it's ACTUALLY realistic when it comes to writing disturbed characters and not just romanticizing the shit out of them & calling them hot every single paragraph.
Date 🌬️: Wednesday, May 21, 2025 ☄️
Word Count📃: 30k Words, short
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૮꒰ ˶• ༝ •˶꒱ა ♡ My 42th read in summertime read-a-thon "since idk wtf to do with my life for one thousand — two hundred — twenty four hours straight" (^-^ )
5️⃣🌟, the right way to do a stalker romance
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Victorrrrrr, my precious Victor,. This characters so extremely well written & january is one of the most realistic stalkers out theree (compared to the shit ton dark moments books that tries to do the exact same thing but just makes it even more idealized or romanticized even of its dark nature). I get why other reviewers would rate this book low because this isn't certainly not what Matt Shaw normally writes (he normally writes books that feature extreme rape and torture, and the target audiences are people who are into that) this one just takes itself back a few steps and just focuses on realistic measures of disturbed people, what's going on in their minds and the actions that they do for it. The little boys in his head telling all the bad things that he wants to do with her and how his basic sense of ethics and morality tries to prevent that but eventually succumbs to the underlying force of obsession he has with Corinna.
She will want me.
Corinna.
My sweet, sweet Corinna.
I also love the fact that Corinna actually acts like a normal human being :)))))))))) i'm so proud to finally see a woman actually doing normal things and not romanticizing this shit cuz damn, dark romance books just ain't it bruh 😭 😭
And of course Corinna's sweet sweet husband, Zak. Proud of him to also do basic human reactions and doing the writings when discovering that a creepy guy wants to kill you in once to get off with your wife.. the ending successfully concludes short story and unlocking forward to read more books like this where it's ACTUALLY realistic when it comes to writing disturbed characters and not just romanticizing the shit out of them & calling them hot every single paragraph.
October 3, 2015
** 2 Unsatisfied Stars **
What am I missing? This was just boring to me. When I think of an obsessed love, I am thinking the obsessed is going to do some crazy, OMG, kind of stuff. I was so disappointed.
Victor is a sad man. No self esteem, no life, no happy, no crazy, besides the voice in his head that I prayed he would finally listen to. But nope, nothing!! No crazy obsession that lead to darkness.
This book could honestly scare the pants of the reader but it was just the story of Victor's boring, lack of self esteem.
Sigh.....my demented mind was hoping for SHOCK AND AWE. Sadly I was just left with AWE.....that's it??
What am I missing? This was just boring to me. When I think of an obsessed love, I am thinking the obsessed is going to do some crazy, OMG, kind of stuff. I was so disappointed.
Victor is a sad man. No self esteem, no life, no happy, no crazy, besides the voice in his head that I prayed he would finally listen to. But nope, nothing!! No crazy obsession that lead to darkness.
This book could honestly scare the pants of the reader but it was just the story of Victor's boring, lack of self esteem.
Sigh.....my demented mind was hoping for SHOCK AND AWE. Sadly I was just left with AWE.....that's it??
May 23, 2015
Okaaay, my mind's still processing what the hell just happened... I am in dire need of booze.
January 10, 2025
Extremely disappointed.
July 31, 2020
Another typical good story
As usual a good story from Mr Shaw. Though I kept waiting for something. What I don't know but it felt like it was missing something. I am used to the unfinished ending as I call them. Not your typical ending as such. But that sense of not hearing it all or missing a chapter was there. I don't know if that was intended, as it was a good story and you felt for the character. But for me personally felt it just missed, but I would still recommend.
As usual a good story from Mr Shaw. Though I kept waiting for something. What I don't know but it felt like it was missing something. I am used to the unfinished ending as I call them. Not your typical ending as such. But that sense of not hearing it all or missing a chapter was there. I don't know if that was intended, as it was a good story and you felt for the character. But for me personally felt it just missed, but I would still recommend.
January 26, 2025
I read some reviews for this before I read it, and I know a lot of people didn’t enjoy it - but this book was literally terrifying to me because of how REAL it was. It felt like I was reading the ramblings of an intense and scary stalker. The end wasn’t my favourite, but definitely a really enjoyable book
May 11, 2016
This is a very sad story about a man obsessed with being loved and loving someone in return. He finds a woman he thinks is perfect for him and that drives the rest of the story. He does things he considers to be completely rational to get the girl and not be alone. He sees people around him, such as his brother, take for granted the people in their lives. Their attitude seems to be, "Oh well. This one is over. On to the next."
For Victor, there is no "next". He is desperately alone and he doesn't know what he did to deserve that. He thinks he's ugly and that he doesn't know how to talk to people, but, as he says in the book, "“It’s not fair, I’m a good guy...I’m kind hearted. Yet - no matter how nice I am to people - I’m the one who always appears to be finishing in last position...I just want to be loved."
He just wants to be loved. He just wants what he believes everyone else has. He's not obsessed with the woman; he is obsessed with wanting to be loved. It seems so normal. It seems so easy for others. It's not easy for people like Victor and it makes him so angry that he fantasizes about doing terrible things to get what he believes he needs so much. In the end, he finds his own solution that hurts no one but himself, but he is so far gone by this point that he takes comfort in the terrible position he is putting himself. He won't ever be alone again.
For Victor, there is no "next". He is desperately alone and he doesn't know what he did to deserve that. He thinks he's ugly and that he doesn't know how to talk to people, but, as he says in the book, "“It’s not fair, I’m a good guy...I’m kind hearted. Yet - no matter how nice I am to people - I’m the one who always appears to be finishing in last position...I just want to be loved."
He just wants to be loved. He just wants what he believes everyone else has. He's not obsessed with the woman; he is obsessed with wanting to be loved. It seems so normal. It seems so easy for others. It's not easy for people like Victor and it makes him so angry that he fantasizes about doing terrible things to get what he believes he needs so much. In the end, he finds his own solution that hurts no one but himself, but he is so far gone by this point that he takes comfort in the terrible position he is putting himself. He won't ever be alone again.
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May 31, 2016Cori Hoover must be thrilled with this fantastic story that her husband commissioned Matt Shaw to write for her.
While it is no where near as gory or horrific as some of his other work, this is scary in a dark, suspenseful way which builds up gradually through the tale. A bit of a change of pace for Matt Shaw with a very unexpected ending.
While it is no where near as gory or horrific as some of his other work, this is scary in a dark, suspenseful way which builds up gradually through the tale. A bit of a change of pace for Matt Shaw with a very unexpected ending.
October 18, 2016
That voice
When that little voice in your head, the one wearing a pair of pointy horns atop it's head, gets louder, more stern and violent it becomes hard to ignore.... At least for psychos. I enjoyed this read. It is unlike most Shaw books I've read because of the ending, the way the character reacts.
When that little voice in your head, the one wearing a pair of pointy horns atop it's head, gets louder, more stern and violent it becomes hard to ignore.... At least for psychos. I enjoyed this read. It is unlike most Shaw books I've read because of the ending, the way the character reacts.
November 13, 2015
Corinna Hoover is so lucky! This is such a great story and the fact that it's personalized makes it even better! I loved it!
August 19, 2024
We really could work well together. We really could be a perfect couple. If she were single.
Corinna Hoover is a teacher. In her late twenties, Corinna loves children and animals. Corinna happens to be married to Zak, a wealthy man.
Victor is in his thirties. He does not want children of his own. This fact has caused much strife in Victor’s past relationships.
Moderate to severe self-esteem issues, Victor is not the best-looking guy. And Victor has had his heart broken before.
Victor remains supportive of his older brother, despite him essentially being a deadbeat father.
Corinna teaches Danny, Victor’s nephew.
I like the career reveal at 45%—though it’s not a huge leap in the guessing game.
Victor is quite the romantic. He is fascinated by Corinna; Victor is fairly certain that she’s The One.
Victor is a gentleman. He does not like when men treat women poorly. He does not abide by coarse language, either.
The ending is working working working…until it doesn’t. 😔 😔 😔
Regardless of my opinion on his books, it’s awesome that Matt gives such phenomenal fan service. More independent authors should try this. He’s really onto something—taking book requests from his most ardent fans—even if the execution is not always my jam.
I just wanted to be loved.
Corinna Hoover is a teacher. In her late twenties, Corinna loves children and animals. Corinna happens to be married to Zak, a wealthy man.
Victor is in his thirties. He does not want children of his own. This fact has caused much strife in Victor’s past relationships.
Moderate to severe self-esteem issues, Victor is not the best-looking guy. And Victor has had his heart broken before.
Victor remains supportive of his older brother, despite him essentially being a deadbeat father.
Corinna teaches Danny, Victor’s nephew.
I like the career reveal at 45%—though it’s not a huge leap in the guessing game.
Victor is quite the romantic. He is fascinated by Corinna; Victor is fairly certain that she’s The One.
Victor is a gentleman. He does not like when men treat women poorly. He does not abide by coarse language, either.
The ending is working working working…until it doesn’t. 😔 😔 😔
Regardless of my opinion on his books, it’s awesome that Matt gives such phenomenal fan service. More independent authors should try this. He’s really onto something—taking book requests from his most ardent fans—even if the execution is not always my jam.
I just wanted to be loved.
December 31, 2022
Some parts really enthralls you, while others just felt like they were there to fill in the pages. The ML is basically a patriarchal sad boy, which is hella annoying, and his "ignore the voice" is the irritating equivalent of Anastasia's "inner goddess". There are better books by the author, don't waste your time with this one.
June 13, 2018
What the h*ll was this?
I expected some dark obsessed guy. But this was something else. I don't even know what to say. He is not even obsessed with the woman. He is just sad, hurt and unloved.
Ending was weird as well.
I expected some dark obsessed guy. But this was something else. I don't even know what to say. He is not even obsessed with the woman. He is just sad, hurt and unloved.
Ending was weird as well.
April 10, 2019
It was OK, nothing particularly disgusting or over-the-top, but some of the dialogues seem extremely unnatural and the ending is very rushed.
October 6, 2019
An upsetting read about one man's desperation to be loved in the way he feels he deserves
August 11, 2022
3 ⭐️
I didn't love it but it didn't suck either
I didn't love it but it didn't suck either
October 21, 2022
It was alright, but somewhat boring. It wasn’t much of a thriller.
September 4, 2023
it was mid
September 29, 2023
A complete and utter bore.
Upset I wasted my time on this.
This is my first Shaw book and we are not off to a great start.
Upset I wasted my time on this.
This is my first Shaw book and we are not off to a great start.
March 11, 2024
Ο συγκεκριμένος συγγραφέας είναι τόσο psycho που εθίζεσαι!
February 13, 2015
Here's To Hoping For A Sequel!!
Matt Shaw knows how to keep you intrigued. He knows how to put us as readers directly into the minds of the characters he portrays in his stories. This definitely wasn't one of his most gruesome works, yet I truly loved this book. Maybe it's because so many of us can relate to poor Victor, whether we'd be able admit to that or not. Up truly hope there will be a sequel. So many routes this story could take!! Well done once again Matt Shaw. You kept it interesting and left a very hard to please reader wanting more.
Matt Shaw knows how to keep you intrigued. He knows how to put us as readers directly into the minds of the characters he portrays in his stories. This definitely wasn't one of his most gruesome works, yet I truly loved this book. Maybe it's because so many of us can relate to poor Victor, whether we'd be able admit to that or not. Up truly hope there will be a sequel. So many routes this story could take!! Well done once again Matt Shaw. You kept it interesting and left a very hard to please reader wanting more.
November 28, 2015
Another really great read from Matt. I loved it. I like how he has managed to take a question i expect most people have asked and take it to an extreme. The voices in the main characters head were brilliant. Once again I completed the book but wanted to read more. As an aside, this does remind me very slightly of Chad Kultgens "Average American Male" which is another book I really like - where the main male character continues to have thoughts which whilst are very honest most people would find offensive. Anyway, more books like this please Matt.
September 23, 2015
You never know who's watching you, how lonely people are, or to what lengths they would go to be happy.
Dark short story. Not what I expected. Not enough back story to make the references to his father understandable or believable. That was the biggest drawback for me. Other than that I liked it.
Dark short story. Not what I expected. Not enough back story to make the references to his father understandable or believable. That was the biggest drawback for me. Other than that I liked it.
February 13, 2015
Great read, found myself feeling a bit sorry for the main character who's a bit nutty! And surprised at the ending. I think I'm getting too used to Matt's extreme collection. It was nice to read some of his other works for a wee change :D
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