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490 pages, Library Binding
Published January 1, 1967
That was feminine worldliness, pretending to be interested so that pleasant things might go on. Masculine worldliness was refusing to be interested so that it might go on doing things. Feminine worldliness then meant perpetual hard work and cheating and pretence at the door of a hidden garden, a lovely hidden garden. Masculine worldliness meant never really being there; always talking about things that had happened or making plans for things that might happen. There was nothing that could happen that was not in some way the same as anything else. Nobody was ever quite there, realizing.This work is the first of four to thirteen volumes, depending on your edition, encompassing a total of more than 2000 pages detailing a bookish, largely reserved English white girl/woman doing bookish, largely reserved English white girl/woman things in a manner of writing that, a century later, doesn't seem all that impressive to folks who complacently take their literature history as dictated by the Powers That Be for granted. This means that, for all its purported difficulties and (rightful) place in (Anglo) writing history, a reader's appreciation of it boils down as much to their personal engagement with the story as it does to their appreciation of the more dry cut mores of of prose, characterization, vernacular, narrative structure, yadda, yadda, yadda. It's true that, if Austen came out with free indirect discourse, Richardson came out with stream of consciousness around a century later, but that latter writer lacks the sacrosanct buffer composed of both actual readers and those who are satisfied that they have the one (1) woman writer they can include and thus escape that niggling feeling of personal shame for the most part. As a result, in this corner of the reading landscape, we get certain kinds of folks: believers that Dickens and Shakespeare is all one needs of the world, drawn by the promise of 1001 BBYD and other hoity toity lists of esteemed clout, and ultimately disappointed when it's not war, or politics, or difficult reading for difficult readings sake. Now, I personally didn't truly start getting into this until the first section/chapter/something was there and gone with its German (a rare occasion when my learned language of choice was the one going untranslated), and there are a portion of pages where the n-word is dropped in some of the most jarring ways imaginable that you understand why there were 'dear looking grannies' among the rioters at the US White House a few weeks back. Still, there is something there that is continually building upon itself in riotously glorious ways at times, and I can't remember the last book where I was able to sit back and just enjoy the borderline hedonism of a spring-field day, a lovely turn of dress, an interior decoration or a spot of human connection with another human soul. I may have started this work as much for reading cred, but now I'm hellbent on finishing it for the sake of seeing its potentials fulfilled.
Perhaps that self, leaving others to do the practical things, erecting a little wall of unapproachability between herself and her family that she might be free to dream alone in corners, had always been wrong. But it was herself, the nearest most intimate self she had known. And the discovery that it was not dead [...] brought her warm moments of reassurance. It was not perhaps a 'good' self, but it was herself, her own familiar secretly happy and rejoicing self—not dead.The complete set of 'Pilgrimage' in my possession is most likely the cheapest and ill put together edition on the market. Supplemental material is limited to less than twenty pages of introduction + foreword at the beginning, there's nary a footnote or endnote in sight, and the very last page contains an advertisement for a collection of self-help books on such vaunted topics as better vocabulary, better writing, and speed reading. If it were in translation, I would probably never bother with it, as my penchant for not worrying about fluency and original language and all that (if you have a problem with that, come talk to me once you've achieved mastery over the 120+ languages logged thus far in my library) doesn't mean I disregard adequate preparation. As it stands, I more than likely still missed bevies upon bevies of references suited to late 19th chunks of England and to a lesser extent Germany as viewed through the eyes of seventeen going on twenty(? time is a mystery in this work) Anglo white woman taking on the role of teacher/governess with no romanticism plot waiting in the wings to sweep her away. So, what do you get instead? Mediations on music and religion, increasingly burgeoning awareness of gender roles and the associated patriarchy, delights in the everyday when the light is clear and the colors shine through, moroseness when one is no more than a cog in the machine that is the lot of those whose assured place in high society has been irretrievably lost, bookishness, flirtations, pedagogy, deep seated anxiety, siblings, mother, father, and an insight into the singular facades that people present to each other to gain marriage, to gain power, to gain money, fame, and the kind of independence that Miriam, the main character, still cannot imagine outside of the constraints of being tied to some uninterested, unfeeling, unmitigated force of casual cruelty that will be totally responsible for one's finances and, thus, has a high chance of being totally responsible for one's doom. A certain joy in certain kind of aesthetics that is still classed as 'feminine' that certain folks see a single word of and throw up their hands in 'boredom.' Nothing new in this section of the world in the long run, then, especially if one's read anything of the Brontës and co. of 'Silly novels by Lady Novelists' of a particularly English repute, and yet...there's a great deal to relate to that is written in a prose that flows soft or hard when it needs to, as well as a certain hard won joy that strikes the narrative every so often, as well as certain conclusions drawn in a manner that one recognizes from having done the same in the process of building up the bedrock of their raison d'être. It won't be that way for all, and since this is no white boy work that inspires self-incrimination Catholic doublethink guilt in many a soul who tells itself it likes something because it's 'universal', readers of it will be more honest about such. Whether they're equally honest about everything else they take upon themselves cause whatever peer reading group does the same is the question.
Their husbands grew to hate them because they had no thoughts. But if a woman had thoughts a man would not be 'silly' about her for five years.All in all, while this isn't an absolute favorite of mine, the writing melds so well with my brain in terms of prose, themes, and overall holisms that I'm more than willing to stick with it till the very end. It's not a work that I would recommend to anyone who hasn't already previously cut their teeth on reads running into the thousands of pages, or anyone who isn't likely to find themselves committing to a read such as Beauvoir's four volume autobiography, each tome of substantial weight in terms of both physical heft and ideological content. What certain folks who are likely to find themselves in this area of literature forget is that reading is a practice in and of itself, so to take something on that is past the 2000+ page mark and then blame it for its long term goals is petty at best and dishonest otherwise. Yeah, this work isn't concerned with a lot of the exciting stuff that readers are trained to appreciate one way or another, and if you're looking for a self-adulating treasure hunt that many a white boy of mo/pomo and co. have hurled across the pages (with various degrees of actual writing skill and serious literary intent), the most interesting thing to you will be the namedrop of 'The Anatomy of Melancholy'. However, if you're five to ten novels into the bibliography of Woolf and are wondering why the most popular quote on this site from this supposed 'novel of the female revolution' concerns a namedrop of some particular longwinded work by some long dead white dude, you're probably in the right place. It's not perfect, even in the politically correct sense of the word, but the burgeoning critical awareness that is as fully capable of being appreciative as it is deriding is a breath of fresh air for one such as me, and the fact that its 'stream of consciousness' (Richardson thought that term highly inadequate) really hits its stride at times makes me eager to discover how much more fully it develops when the author brings the main character to fuller fruition in terms of her grasp on both life and her self. Two millennia and counting worth of pages may seem a bit much to get just that, but I'll take that over the tens, even hundreds, of thousands of pages comprising the same old adulated 'classics' that many a critic uncritically swallows down and thinks themselves superhuman for it any day.
There was some awful meaning in the way English people missed the right sound; all the names in India, all the Eastern words. How could an English traveller hear hahreem, and speak it hairum, Aswan and say Ass-ou-ann? It made them miss other things and think wrongly about them.
What's the use of feeling like that if it doesn't stay? It doesn't change anything. Next time I'll make it stay. It might whisk me right away. There's something in me that can't be touched or altered. Me. If it comes again. If it's stronger every time...Perhaps it goes on getting stronger till you die.P.S. This edition has a few blurbs written in the front that are so off the mark that I doubt they went more than ten or twenty pages in at any given section. Guess that's what happens when marketers are looking for love and war while Richardson just wants to figure out how to fulfillingly live with herself to the full extent of her capabilities. In any case, I'll be returning to this in the form of the second volume at the beginning of the next month: one must take their time with works such as these if one expects to get anything out of it.