I received and eARC directly from the author and this is my voluntary and honest review.
General spoilers are included below. Not major or specific ones, but some general information is discussed.
- ☝️book 1 in a trilogy
- 🖊️ epigraphs at the beginning of each chapter
- 📚multiple POV
- ✨unique multiple timeline
- elemental and energetic magick: shadow 🖤, lightening ⚡️, dreamwalking 😴, water wielding 💧, wind 💨, intention and emotion reading 🧠😅
- 🫣hidden power and identity
- flirty banter 😉
- reluctant allies to friends to lovers ❤️
- 🛏️ one bed and 🐎 one horse tropes
- A male who own his mistakes and says sorry 🙌
- ❤️🔥themes of forgiveness and acceptance of our whole selves, including the dark and ugly
- 🫑 spice
- political maneuvering 👑
This was an excellent read, a solid five stars. This book was unique from other books being published in this genre, which I really appreciated. I will explain why throughout my review. Also, this is the author's debut novel, GREAT WORK!
First, I LOVED LOVED LOVED both MCs in this book.
- The MFC: This woman lived a good chunk of her life abandoned, and then caged, scared, and abused. She learned how to read the room and fawn in order to survive. At the same time, she was making plans on how to get out and escape. She was intelligent, thoughtful, and logical, while also experienced a range of emotions, such as anxiety, which at times overruled her logic. The author did an excellent job creating a real person the reader could relate to. Despite all the crap the MFC went through, she was kind, optimistic (most of the time), and hopeful. Her personality and experiences were unique to this genre, yet realistic and how many trauma survivors are. Unfortunately, this genre seems to hyperfocus and overrepresent trauma as manifesting as severe trust issues, emotion dysregulation, and constantly angry. Now, of course, this is how many people respond to trauma and I love that their response is represented in this genre. However, other trauma responses and personalities are not typically represented. Therefore, this author including a different person was excellent and refreshing.
More about the MFC. She had SUBSTANTIAL character growth. She improved her communication, ability to cope with distress, and became more assertive. I loved reading the parts where the MFC recognized her anxiety and used tools to cope through. The MFC could also see beyond the MMC's faults and violent history, meeting him with empathy, every single time. She was loyal to him. I really love a fated mates that stick together story.
A little more about the loyalty comment. The MFC would not betray the MMC, no matter the good of the realm. She was loyal to her man. This was so refreshing because I read Crown of the Dune and the MFC was more than willing to marry another man for "the good of the realm," all while she kept her loyal MMC a dirty secret. I hated this and quit the series. SO, to have a book where the MFC was loyal, no matter what the King or realm needed, I was so happy and delighted! Also of note, that loyalty was FULLY reciprocated and also why I loved this book. The MMC was loyal to his woman. He would rather stab himself to defy his evil bossman and not hurt the MFC. A fated mate couple that sticks together is my favorite!!!
- Now, the MMC. This man had a history almost identical to the MFC. A history of being abandoned, caged, and abused. Their stories were different in many ways, yet quite parallel to each other. The MMC started having character growth before the book started (i.e., recognizing what he was doing was not good and he needed to get out). The book starts and we see him continue to significantly grow. ALSO, this MMC had insight into the fact that he made mistakes and he would APOLOGIZE. This happened more than once!! He was very protective, feral at times (for her), strong, and masculine, WHILE ALSO kind, vulnerable, consensual, and generally emotionally mature. He wasn’t a jerk.
⭐️⭐️ THIS MMC IS WHAT WE ARE WANTING!! He was so much more well-rounded than typical in this genre and I LOVED it. ⭐️⭐️
Then, of course, the bracelet scene ❤️ 😭
- Let's shift to the relationship: I really appreciated that this book was about reluctant allies to friends to lovers. Enemies to lovers is an excellent trope and I dive head first into those books; however, they make up the bulk of the genre right now. So, to have a shift in the trope to something less angry and aggressive, and more kind, collaborative, and trust building was AMAZING. This book focused on warm discussions, testing the waters with vulnerability, and getting to know each other (instead of constant fighting and internal dialogue about trust). The MCs had so much in common and were fighting for the same things in their lives. They created a beautiful connection and I loved watching it grow and strengthen. Trust was established more easily than other books in this genre since the MFC could read emotions and intentions. I really LOVED this. Again, instead of the book being about fighting and arguing, the story was about building a friendship and finding oneself with support from that friend. I loved the deep rooted loyalty they showed each other at 63% of the book. This had me smiling, as they had each other's backs, and the MFCs words had me melting. The unconditional regard and loyalty they showed each other was demonstrated again and again after that initial incident at 63%.
Further, the author did a great job slowly adding depth to the MCs by switching POVs and timelines. The MCs didn’t get told about each other's traumas, they got to see them while dreaming, which led to us readers seeing them as well.
Common tropes used in this book:
- Both MCs were avoidant of their emotions and each other at times. This included avoiding adult conversations, such as about a kiss they shared and how they were feeling towards each other.
- The MMC thought he wasn’t good enough for the MFC, as he had lived a dangerous life and killed people.
- The MFC was sexually and worldly inexperienced. She was also scared to feel anything since she had been isolated and numb her whole life.
- The MFC had all the men wanting her. The prince of Lucien, the MMC, random men at a bar, and King Roz.
Although the MCs were avoidant at times and were scared to share some of their emotions, the MMC actually shared his thoughts and emotions more often than not and quite early in the book. Most of the time, he was direct, honest, and vulnerable. Another aspect I really really loved about this book. The MMC's blunt vulnerability frequently surprised the MFC, which sparked her to be honest and less avoidant back, creating trust and friendship early. Further, by the end, they moved past the avoidant approaches and leaned into direct communication and honesty, demonstrating their growth.
- Another aspect of this book I really enjoyed was that the author did not have MCs who were plagued with constant guilt focused internal dialogue when they had to do what was needed to survive. For example, the MFC was a kind, thoughtful, moral/ethical woman who had never hurt anyone. Once she starts finding her God power, she ends up killing many people because they were going to kill her and/or the MMC. The MFC was not then thinking for chapters and chapters about how guilty she was or how shameful her acts were. Rather, she was able to reflect and have insight that she was 1) growing and 2) needed to do what she needed to do to survive and save the MMC. This was fantastic and saved the plot from getting stalled on the over guilt internal dialogue so many books have. Yes, the MMC had guilt about joining the guild and being an assassin, but he did not have guilt over doing what he had to in order to survive and protect the MFC. He was even turned on by the MFC’s power to save them, which included killing people.
- One more reason I loved the book: both MCs initially kept secrets from each other, yet they didn’t hold a grudge when they found out. They both initially were upset, rightfully so, but they were able to give each other another chance by moving forward and regaining trust. This was fantastic to me because often the plot stalls when a character just can’t let something go.
The rebuilding of trust ends up taking up 50% of the plot. If done right, the author can keep the readers entertained during that stage; however, often it’s not done well and readers get bored. Therefore, I really appreciated that the author focused on forgiveness and second chances, allowing the MC’s to become stronger because it forced them to face their lack of communication skills and grow in that area. Also, in real life, many people are able to let lies or acts of omissions go. So again, I appreciated that the author was representing more diverse approaches in this book than what is typical in this genre.
There was so much mystery to the book and this kept me interested the whole time. Information was slowly revealed as you read, yet there was soooo much unrevealed. Well played to the author on that, because that means we have to read the second book to get more information. Examples:
- The dream walking was very cool, unique, and added more depth and mystery to the plot.
- The secret of who the Vulture was had me thinking the whole time, especially because the Vulture had their own POV chapters. I had a few guesses of who the Vulture was and I was WRONG.
- Then the owl. I was wondering what on earth the owl had to do with anything? I still don’t know.
Other aspects of this book I really enjoyed:
- The magic was unique, but not too complex. There were two major magic systems and then individual powers within those systems. They were really cool!
- I was giddy with joy when the ancient God power would reveal itself, and the MFC was able to have feminine rage. She was able to seek justice to protect herself and her man. Yyyeeessssss!
- I am a clinician and academic, so I loved that the MMC had a passion for research. I liked that the author included a statement about how knowledge was very powerful. As I mentioned earlier, I also liked that anxiety and how to cope with it was included in this book.
- The pacing ebbs and flows from slower to faster. I appreciated this and the change in speed of the pace was well timed.
- The story had a nice blend of plot, mystery, character growth, and relationship development.
- The direct discussions about stereotyping, assumption making, and discrimination about people who are different.
- The themes of proceeding forward, but with caution. This helped emphasize the importance of not avoiding everything and anything, while also not fully trusting right away. Give things/people a change, but don't dive in fully right away.
The ending: Two major pieces of information are dropped right at the end, leaving a delightful cliffhanger. I am so excited for book two!
My one critique (which I informed the author about via email):
- The last book I read the author wrote “I shook my head” over 50 times, which got difficult for me to read. So, with that at the front of my thoughts and moving into this book, I caught it right away. Unfortunately, by page 141 and the author had written "I shook my head" or "he shook his head" 23 times, including three times within two paragraphs. Through the search feature on Kindle, this type of sentence happened 53 times in this book.... with the word "shook" used 62 times total. This silly sentence happened so much I got distracted by my thoughts of, "wow, these people shake a lot." Then I would start to think "do I shake my head when I want to dispel a thought or emotion" and the answer is no, I do not. So, for these characters to do it in the first place was odd, but at the rate they did was extra odd.