Sometimes you have to break before you can rebuild yourself.
Devon
I learned my worth a long time ago.
From the moment I was born, I was taught to believe that love is conditional. I’m only kept around as long as I’m useful.
Christian is no exception.
He needs a distraction, a new project, and who better to play with than someone who pretends to feel nothing at all?
The hot shot wants to save me, but I'm beyond redemption. And the moment he decides I'm worth something is the moment I have the power to destroy us both.
Christian
I've been chasing adrenaline my entire life.
The rush of a loud engine, that moment my feet catch air at high speed. My bike and my friends are all I ever needed.
At least, until they moved on without me.
Now nothing feels the same.
When a ghost from the past drops into my lap, I tell myself it's temporary. Just something slow and steady to keep the loneliness at bay.
Trusting Devon burned me once—I'd be a fool to do it again.
The more I get to know him, though, the more I see beneath his mask.
I just hope it's not too late to love him the way he deserves.
Forgiving Utah is a full-length MM second chance romance containing themes and situations not intended for readers under the age of 18. Both characters are consenting adults. This story features a bi-awakening, dirt bikes stunts, messy found family and a guaranteed HEA.
This is the final installment of the State of Us series and must be read AFTER Exposing Colorado.
Okay so I’ve been waiting for this book since we got Loving Ohio because the chemistry between Devon & Christian is off the freaking charts. Getting Devon’s POV in Loving Ohio and seeing his internal struggle of wanting to be wanted for him and tired of people leaving just broke my heart. Seeing this broken boy find love in Forgiving Utah was freaking everything. I loved that we finally saw more layers to Christian than just the party boy energy he gave in the other books and he was so well matched with Devon. Together they aren’t alone in the world and they complete each other in ways I really didn’t expect. I absolutely adored their story and am so freaking sad to say goodbye to these characters. This has probably been my favorite series for the past couple years now and it’s so bittersweet to say goodbye to these characters but I absolutely love how all their stories played out. I can only hope we get lil novellas down the line otherwise I’m going to be rereading this series regularly for a dopamine fix 🤣
Grab your tissues for these boys! Hands down, my FAVORITE from The State of Us series! I knew from Loving Ohio that I would desperately need more of Christian & Devon, but wasn't sure where Bree would take this one. As always, Bree does NOT disappoint! Tough guy Christian is loyal to a fault and is always there for everyone, even Dev, when he doesn't exactly want to be. Bad boy loner Devon is truly the loneliest soul with the sweetest heart that he keeps buried deep under a life of trauma he's done everything he can to escape from.
Nobody has ever truly chosen either man... until they both break through the tough exterior walls they've put up to protect themselves and choose love and each other.
Easily a 5 star read! What a beautiful, emotional ride this book was. SO many tears, but an equal amount of laughter & cackling! The spice in this one was easily 5 peppers!!
My ONLY complaint is that Forgiving Utah is the final book in this series. I'm hoping on everything good that Bree decides to give us another novella or two because I'm not ready to be DONE with this group that I've grown to absolutely LOVE!!
I went into this, like everyone else, knowing it was the final book in this series. Needless to say, I was was too emotional from the very first page.
Now, I have a very bad habit of not finishing series. I'll read the first book when it comes out and maybe grab the second book when it releases, but then I never finish it. Once so much time has passed between books, I lose any connection I've made with characters. I stop caring about them. About their stories. Even books I loved. It's a terrible habit, I know. The State of Us series? Ha! Forget that.
I waited, with baited breaths, for every single release. Every single story, every single page, gripped me from the very first book. In my review for Crossing Arizona, I said that it was a labor of love for the characters. If Crossing Arizona was that for Matty, Ducky, and Hannah, then Forgiving Utah was a labor of love for every single character in this series. Salem, Matty, Xed, Devon, Logan, Christian, Huck, Tay, and Owen. Every single one of them. Forgiving Utah was like they were finally throwing up middle fingers to the universe for all the shit it put them through, and stepping away to take their first breath of fresh air. It was freeing, and fulfilling in a way that no other finale has ever been. It was a cerimonious goodbye that hard won and well deserved.
There aren't a lot of series, or book, that change me down to the helical structure of my DNA, but this series is one of them. The conflicts are raw and real, the relationships are deep and tragically brutal, and the charcters are authentic and relatable. They've carved out a place for themselves in my soul, and I'm happy to let them call it home.
Let me just say this book is a beautiful love letter to the end of this series.
Christian is loyal, loves his family and loves his friends. He’s also having a hard time excepting that his friends are moving on and he feels like he the last one. If you’ve read Finding Delaware where everything started you get a better understanding of who Christian is in this book. The book picks up right after EXPOSING COLORADO, A lot of hurt, anger continues into forgiving Utah. Let’s fast forward a year… when Christian is going through all his emotions and decides to go into a biker bar when he spots that’s right DEVON…
Devon oh how my heart and soul cries for this man. His life is a whirl wind of bad choices mess up situations and trauma. He’s in debt to someone he’s trying to ask for an extension but things go south that’s into Christian steps in.
Christian is beyond piss and angry at Devon and can’t seem to let go of the past. While Devon is a lost soul a loner always feeling like the outsider. Once i continued reading this book my gosh my heart hurt the soared. The love Christian gives to Devon is so beautiful you want to weep. Devon the love and gratitude he has for Christian will make you sob. This is the last book in this series a beautiful goodbye letter with a bow wrap up in one.
Bree put her heart and soul into writing this book. And it shows from book one all the way to book four. Please check your T/W.
"I love you, too," he whispers. "Thank you for choosing me. Even when I didn't know how to choose myself."
"I'm not going anywhere, Dev. I promise." He smiles wide. "Yeah. Me either. You're stuck with me for life."
I can not believe this marks the end of this amazing series. I have fallen in love with all of these characters and to think this is it was heartbreaking. Bree has assured me that there will eventually be update novellas and that filled me with so much joy. Now onto the book.
WOW JUST WOW! I knew Devon was going to ruin me in the best way. I knew his story was going to be so hard to read because he seemed to be broken in a different way then the other characters in this series. I knew Christian was going to be perfect for Devon. Devon needed someone to give him structure without knowing it was structure and Christian being the oldest with a bunch of siblings and a single mom he was used to doing it for them and was able to give Devon what he needed, what he craved.
Im so glad Christian found someone to love him to the fullest the way Devon can give. Christian is so sweet and being the one that seemed to have most of his shit together its easy to think he was ok doing life the way he was. It was easy to miss his hurt, his pain. Again being the eldest sibling he was used to pushing his needs and feelings aside to make sure everyone around him was ok. As the eldest i get that.
I cant believe its over 😭 im sad I didn't take my time to savor this book but I was so excited I couldn't stop when i started lol no regrets because it was totally worth it. I can't wait to see all the update novellas we will eventually get from all my favorite people. Thank You Bree for creating this beautiful group of imperfectly perfect people.
I am not crying..just something in my eye. This was an absolutely beautiful story. I have been waiting to read about Devon since he was introduced. I know a lot of the characters really hated him but he was just a broken boy who just wanted to be loved and someone to stay. Sometimes we do things out of hurt and anger and baby boy really was in pain. It was so heartbreaking to read his point of view, to really get inside of his head. What he went through and I kind of don't blame him for feeling the way he did when he found out the truth. My heart hurt for him and there were times I wanted to punch Christian. I get it, he didn't know, but man his words and actions hurt. I am really glad to see our boys finally get their well deserved HEA. And Bree, as I said before, thank you for showing the realism of trauma. The effect it has on an individual. For not holding back. Beautiful, amazing story!
I knew Christian and Devon’s book was going to be amazing, and I was not disappointed! Christian and Devon have been building for so long and after all they’ve been through to get where they end up just made my heart so happy. They do go through it in this book and the will they won’t they is so good but once they finally stopped being stubborn it was everything. Also the found family in this book and the closure I’m literally speechless in the best way.
I’m so sad this book is over and this series has come to an end. If you haven’t read this series you absolutely have to highly recommend reading this one in order because the cause and effect throughout each drastically affects the other books especially the last two. If you like hurt/healing, mental health representation, found family this series is for you!
When I say all the Bree will put you on a rollercoaster of emotions. She is break you heart and put it back together and ever second will be worth it. Definitely a bittersweet moment that Dev and Christian is the last in the series! Dev and Christian just deserve so much love and more love.
Devon and Christian there banter and bullshit through everything finally coming and making an amazing story of recovery and growth. This will definitely bring tears to your eyes. I can relate to Devon so much with wanting someone to choose him and not cause they feel they need to but because it all the choose.
The tears and joy this book brought me. OMG I loved this series journey of interconnected standalone and Christian and Devon’s story yea they won my heart from Tay and Huck, snatched it from Matty and Xed, and hugged Logan and Salem goodbye because their journey was hard fought and wonderful. Bree Wiley is an amazing author and this debut series was utter perfection you won’t want to miss 🥹. That epilogue and afterword chefs kiss 😘