Joshua has always believed “home” was somewhere you went when the pain finally ended.
His grandmother used to say she was being called home and someday, Joshua would be too. When the life he promised himself never materializes, he decides she was right. After a solid year of trying to find a life worth living, he’s done. It’s time to go home.
Almost.
He just wants one last meal at his favorite diner. One last cigarette. And one final ride along the coast before he sees grandma again.
Matthew noticed something was wrong with the kid at the counter. He was calm, almost relieved as he emptied his wallet for the waitress and then strode out to the bike that was obviously his pride and joy. But when he drove past that same bike a few miles down the road, close to where the cliffs dropped to the ocean, he knew what he had to do. The instinct to take care of others wouldn’t allow him to look the other way when someone was in need of help.
This spinoff of The Lactin Brotherhood world has darker edges but the same loving relationships full of strong yet vulnerable men who naturally lactate and the boys who love them. This M/M romance has heavy themes including a suicide attempt, depression, and finding your way home when you think you no longer have one.
Joshua, worn down after a year of trying to build a life that never comes together, decides it’s time to “go home” the way his grandpa once described — by ending everything. After a final meal and a last ride along the coast, he heads for the cliffs. Matthew, who sensed something was wrong back at the diner, spots Joshua’s abandoned bike and steps in, unable to ignore someone in need.
The story opens with such a dramatic, unforgettable moment that it completely set the tone — and honestly, nothing that followed ever quite eclipsed the intensity of that first meeting between Matthew and Joshua. Their introduction was raw, emotional, and gripping in a way that stayed with me throughout the book. I really appreciated how Matthew stepped in afterward, insisting Joshua get counselling and doing everything he could to help him rebuild — offering stability, a job, a home, and even safe transport. His steady care was one of the strongest parts of the story. That said, I did feel the book missed an opportunity by not letting them talk openly about what kind of relationship they actually wanted. With everything they’d been through, that lack of communication was noticeable. Still, the story was easy to read, easy to feel, and easy to understand — a heartfelt journey that began with a dramatic rescue and grew into something tender. This was an MM story with mature content and a Daddy/boy like dynamic with male lactation.
Joshua and Matthew’s book is so good. I really liked the way Matthew saw how fragile Joshua was and decided to check on him. This book does have heavy parts that brought tears to my eyes and you might not want to read it in public. The end of the story was totally perfect for these two men, and I really enjoyed the whole book. I want to note that while this book does deal with a heavy topic I think it was done well and handled with care and therapy.
I felt so much for all Joshua had been through and was trying to manage alone. The feelings of loneliness and desperation he had came through the page of the book. His character made me want to hug him and tell him he was not alone. Luckily, Matthew is there to do just that. Matt has his own issues. When this couple begins, they take things slowly. The support they give to each other is something we all strive for in a relationship.
Please, please mind the trigger warnings. This was raw, emotional, heartbreaking and one of the best stories that I’ve read all year. The characters were amazing and so heartbreakingly real. I loved watching these two together, their story ended up being so heartwarming and inspiring and I truly enjoyed it.
Trigger warning right off the bat! That’s how this romance blossoms. It’s a very slow burn. Organic chemistry… nothing steamy. The whole male lactation piece is hardly present as some of the other offerings.