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238 pages, Kindle Edition
First published January 29, 2015
"I'm blood and bone
Genetic make up, creating my
appearance as human
Blood bonds us
A connection tethers us
But if a soul makes us truly human
What does that make me"
“You’re going straight to hell, Ryan.”
Souls go to hell and I’m lacking that vital component to make me human. I’m not going to hell. I’m the living hell, staring her right in the face.


I’m not sick and I’m not broken. I’m DESOLATE, born empty, lacking a soul. You can’t fix what was never broken. The believe they have though, with help from me. So now, I WILL PLAY THAT ROLE.
~ RYAN

“She’s like a silhouette cast from my own shadow.”
~ RYAN
“Love is a weakness.”
“Love is a strength. It bonds us.”
“How can it, if I don’t feel it?”
“Because I will feel it for us both.”
“Sometimes I wished I knew what it was I was supposed to feel because it was almost lonely inside my head knowing everyone around me felt things I didn't.”
~ RYAN

“I can feel your pulse in the brush strokes. You will live forever in the image I create of you. Your memory taunts me; I know what you are and that I shouldn't miss you, BUT I DO.”
~ CEREUS

“I only ever feel a release from the empty darkness consuming me when I feed it by inflicting some form of hurt or humiliation on another.”



“Cereus becomes the only one left in color amongst the darkening fog that is me threatening to devour the world. She’s different; she has my blood in her veins.”




“I only ever feel a release from the empty darkness consuming me when I feed it by inflicting some form of hurt or humiliation on another.”

He molds and conforms to the person he’s with. He can be your best friend, your boyfriend or your brother, and you would never know the demon is sitting there staring at you and designing your demise, until it’s too late.

“I was born with a superior genetic predisposition and all the naysayers are just ants, jealous of what they can’t understand.”
“I’m not sick and I’m not broken. I’m desolate...”
"It’s as if the world knows night has fallen with no stars to lighten the sky, only darkness remains leaking hell back upon them."
Oh yes, Ryan is back so buckle up for a wild ride!![]()
Ryan realizes that he can't harm her. He doesn't feel love, or anything like that, but he does feel *something*, and that something makes him realize that he doesn't want to hurt her. She is a lot like him, they have those same dark urges, except Cereus *does* feel love. Something Ryan doesn't have the soul to feel.![]()


"We are slaves to our needs , our cravings, our hunger... and I'm so fucking hungry...."
I was a son,
A friend,
A brother,
A psychopath.
Eighteen years of being in a psyche ward; I was released into the world. Things have changed, Blake is married to Melody and is a father to my new fixation, Cereus. My beautiful niece who knows nothing of my existence. When consequences of past sins begin playing tricks on me, old cravings demand to be satisfied.
There is no cure for my kind of sickness.
I am void of everything but obsession.
I can’t love,
I can’t feel,
I am Desolate.
"“You’re safe with me,” I reassure her, and for once I mean it. I have no plans for her yet.
“That’s what serial killers say,” she jokes, with no clue how close she is to the truth.
“Met many have you?” She’s still reluctant, I can tell by her stiff posture. “How about I promise not to kill you tonight?”
"This is my kid brother. He came into this world lacking a soul and I couldn’t save him. I couldn’t make him have one and as much as I hate him for what he did, I still love the baby I held and raised when our worthless mother didn’t.(Blake)"
“Love is a weakness.”
“Love is a strength. It bonds us.”
“How can i if i don't feel it?”
“Because I will feel it for us both.”
~R :“I see the love in your eyes, brother. it always was your downfall, first with me and then melody.”
~B :“My love is not a weakness, Ryan. I wear my loves as an armor. It protects me from ending up like you.”
""Don't drift through life fighting to be normal, when you're exceptional, like your uncle" (Ryan)"