Well, I have quite a bit to say about this book. So, long reviews do not always come after high-rated books. I strongly believe as a first timer, the writer deserves and needs a proper review. I would like to touch the points that drew me blank, confused and irritated through the book. But I will say this; none of the things I will mention, are something that cannot be cleared out with a good Beta reader as it was pointed out on other reviews.
Firstly, having not been raised in the States, I don't know much about the highschool experience and its potential impact on a persons life and DECISIONS, except those I have heard from different personal and public sources. But I have received my highschool education in American tradition as well so I have some personal idea.
I understand that the writer wished to present this very Dilemma that highschool presents to every teenagers life and decisions but it seems like with her background and way of thinking Jordan stands out of the crowd with not having many friends except Megan and with the much intellectual way of thinking of hers, referring to Hitler and all. So I don't find it difficult to believe for her to choose to act as a spy, though the 'quality' of her acts in that regard is for me very highly questionable and contradictary. So one point to remember: the actions of the character must be contradictary with the way of thinking. Or vice versa. In my way of thinking Jordan acts like there is no connection between her mind and actions. I saw no mental pep talk kinda part where she justifies her self-chosen actions not only for herself but also for us as well. I could even do something that was presented as some unconsciously driven impulse-like actions that she herself was not able to understand either, if you know what I mean. But there was none, except for the coffeeshop guy incident, where she weighted the possibilities regarding herself, Brandon and her father. And even then it was very very inadequate and lacking.
This also is related to her feelings and socalled commitment to Brandon(which I felt almost none existent, except those that existed in her mind where she kept telling herself as). What I am telling these for is, the writer must involve the reader in the process of decision making of the main character, regardless of we would agree with her or not. But we were hardly involved. So I was basically clueless as to why Jordan decides to do anything after the point of revealing her decision to act between east and west siders secretly. Asking about his training etc. And for me there was no commitment shown from her toward Brandon except taking her place in his bed and seemingly acting as exclusive. But you see since the writer doesnt point things out we the readers only 'assume'. Assume that both of them are in love. Exclusive. Have talked about their feelings towards each other. Even maybe their pasts??? But what the readers assume, does that always have to be the way it is?
As the story teller we should read it from Jordan's mind and mouth, and for that the writer should include those things. Otherwise for me (since there is no connection between Jordan's mind and actions) they-Jordan and Brandon- were only fuckbuddies. As to the way things were presented. Except for the one night she waited up for him to 'talk'.
There is no emotional connection presented between the two. This could be like the MAIN issue lacking in the storytelling here, even if you disregard the mind-action connection issue. Especially being a 'forbidden' kinda ROMANCE novel, we just MUST have these romantic interactions and 'talks'. But there were NONE. And worse, there were no justifications as to this. I mean; she (Jordan) could be like-in her peptalks- she was not ready/sure to do the us-talk. Or due to the pressure of their situation-the impending fight and all-she was reluctant to force him do the us-talk. Or like she always knew(from their childhood) that he was not the kind for talking but they always communicated with their eyes..for example. Or I could even do with Jordan being such kinda girl who was not into 'us-talk' at all. But with the intro of her character that would be unlikely believable, still it would be a justification, if you know what I mean.
Even their first sexual encounter does not do the sufficient justice to their past. For all I know they could be a boy and girl who met at a frat party and with being drunk and everything, they ended up in bed. No feelings from Jordan. No observation of Brandon's feelings from Jordan's pov. Nothing. And they ended up 'lovers'. I was like totally WTF!!! So much for past, so much for feelings, so much for yearning, so much for connection, so much for having had something missing ever since being parted with Brandon... You see what I mean.
So the observation of Brandon and their socalled relationship (He doesnt have to be talking) is thoroughly lacking. Jordan with so much understanding of the world around her, with so much intuition, with so much considerative side; MUST be able to tell things about Brandon after they became 'lovers'. How he behaved or acted with her etc. But weirdly there were much more observation and input about him before than after they ended up together. This is definitely lacking.
And because of all THESE above, I don't know how Brandon would find a way to forgive (assuming they have more than a physical relationship, though its presentation is lacking) Jordan after what she did/caused. Because I cannot justify her. More importantly, I don't know how SHE justifies herself her actions. So I am clueless as to how Brandon would justify her without losing all the respect and charisma he estabished in the eyes of the readers and become a 'total loser' as the highschool terminology refers.
So if/when the writer (still having a chance to turn it around with the squel if very well and carefully thought about these reviews.) writes the sequel, she has a very difficult and risky job ahead of her. I will be following. If it turns around, it definitely be much more worth it.