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Expected publication November 10, 2026
But the knowledge still seeped in. It was all around me. It whispered when I was alone. It circled around the birth charts and conjured Diana in the garden. It narrated my dreams. Still, I did not trust a knowledge I could not name. I ignored that knowing and abandoned my body, which was seeking revelation. Over time, my body became a relic and its speech became a dead language. A silent object in a museum that other people ’s voices collided against. A statue turning in the wind, one way, and then the other, always at the mercy and pleasure of another.
The patterns within these ritals and myths always led me back to my own experience, revealing something I had never been able to grasp at the centre of myself. They offered me a way of moving around it, writing around it, glancing only through the corners of my eyes, and I could almost trace its shape, almost feel the vibration of its surface. Sometimes it seemed to whisper to me and I had a feeling that the thing I was circling was circling me, too. Sometimes I noticed the cold shadow on my skin, and I knew I was getting closer.
What I had believed to be indestructible was gone. The way I had engaged with the world was no longer possible. The children came into the room, already in their pyjamas, and caught me talking to myself. They couldn't understand that I was meeting myself as someone new.