Strong intelligent writing emotional and funny.
I’ve always enjoyed Stephanie Doyle’s writing, both as part of the excellent Hailey Shore duo (with the equally excellent Molly O’Keefe), and solo, so I was happy to read an ARC of this, her latest book.
Spoiler alert: I loved it.
Generally speaking, my three least favourite tropes are love triangles, age gaps and surprise pregnancies. Barely Professional has all three, but I loved it anyway. The characters are flawed, complex and very human, and their relationship has all the messy inconsistency to which humans are prone.
Our hero is Grant, a billionaire still struggling with the loss of his wife three years ago. Anna, our heroine, has aged out of foster care and is trying her very best to create a decent life for herself. Through accident she lands a job as Grant’s assistant.
Barely Professional is bookended with the loss of Grant’s watch during Grant and Anna’s first meeting, and its recovery when Anna and Grant accept love and family. The watch is a quiet symbol of Grant’s loss of time to grief, and his reemergence into the present.
Grant and Anna’s first meeting shows them both at their most vulnerable and desperate. When they meet a second time, Grant seems to hold the balance of power, in resources and experience, but we know that his austere exterior hides a man barely holding on. Whereas Anna’s shabby exterior belies her courage and resourcefulness.
I think this initial meeting is why the age gap (13 years), works so well for me. Anna has already been through the mill as a child and young adult. She’s poor, homeless and unskilled, but also wise, resolute and resilient. She’s the human equivalent of a weed growing through a crack in the sidewalk. Often trodden down, but always reaching for the sunlight.
Grant, on the other hand, is a hot house flower. His singular nature has been nurtured by his family and his late wife; although there is a delicate hint that she recognised Grant’s determined insularity as a weakness. Within the confines of that care he was wildly successful professionally, but unchallenged emotionally. When the cold wind of a terrible loss blows through Grant’s careful bubble, he is brought to his knees by grief and guilt. Unlike Anna, Grant is not resilient, and he allows his grief to swallow him whole.
In many ways, Anna is the adult in this relationship. She is focused on survival; hopeful for better days, but resigned to the possibility of continual struggle. She has learned through hardship to be pragmatic and focused on essentials.
“Fine. Where do you see yourself in five years?” “Cake,” I said, assessing the difficulty of the question. “Alive, with shelter and food.”
Grant, on the other hand, believes that joy is behind him, and has buried his heart with his dead wife. For him, survival is the least happy outcome. We sense that while his grief is real, he has a kind of petulant bewilderment at being forced to deal with this loss.
Together Anna and Grant forge a delicate professional alliance, then a shaky friendship and finally a passionate but uncertain love affair.
The writing is so subtle here: the incremental building of attraction proceeds through tiny interactions. On the surface, nothing much is changing between them, but underneath the ice is thawing. Grant’s return to emotional life is painful and inconsistent, like the pins and needles in a numb limb.
“This must get so old for you,” I said. “The constant pulling and pushing.”
Anna’s unexpected pregnancy is the catalyst for Grant to relinquish his mourning, although he drags his feet pretty much to the moment of birth. There is a deep compassion for Grant here; he knows that moving on from his active grief also means a letting go of his late wife, and we feel that with him.
I often find the surprise pregnancy trope to be a lazy ploy to speed up the action and create some third act drama. In Barely Professional the prospect of new life, forces Grant to accept that terrible truth of loss, that the living must go on and leave the dead behind.
Anna says to Grant, “But one of these days, you are going to have to choose. I think it’s the only way, really. It’s either going to be me or her. And just a reminder, I’m alive.”
Barely Professional is often very funny. Anna is intelligent and self-aware, wrong-footing the resolutely gloomy Grant at every turn. The banter is sharp and funny, even as their relationship flounders in emotional turmoil.
The writing is consistently strong, eschewing stereotype for insight and melodrama for genuine emotion. I think the pacing is a bit languid, and even for a slow burn romance could have been tightened up. On the other hand, I read it in a day, despite its length.
If you enjoy slow burn, or office romance, you should give Barely Professional a try. Stephanie Doyle really deserves a much wider readership for her beautifully written and intelligent romances.