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Just What the Truth Is
People-pleaser Ben Forman has been in the closet so long he has almost convinced himself he is straight, but his denial train gets derailed when hotshot lawyer Micah Trains walks into his life. Micah is brilliant, funny, driven…and he assumes Ben is gay and starts dating him. Finding himself truly happy for the first time, Ben doesn't have the willpower to resist Micah’s affection. When his relationship with Micah heats up, Ben realizes has a his parents won’t tolerate a gay son and self-confident Micah isn’t the type to hide. If Ben wants to maintain his hold on his happiness, he'll have to decide what’s important and own up to the truth of who he is. The trouble is figuring out just what that truth is. Word 68,858
300 pages, Kindle Edition
First published October 1, 2011
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Cardeno C.
69 books2,381 followersCardeno C. - CC to friends - is a hopeless romantic who wants to add a lot of happiness and a few "awwws" into a reader's day. Writing is a nice break from real life as a corporate type and volunteer work with gay rights organizations. Cardeno's stories range from sweet to intense, contemporary to paranormal, long to short, but they always include strong relationships and walks into the happily-ever-after sunset.
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Twitter: @CardenoC
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February 15, 2015
~3.5~
This review is for the second edition of this book, which includes a bonus chapter originally published in:
Cardeno C's Home series can be read out of order; the books often overlap and the stories run mostly parallel to one another, like threads unraveling from the same quilt.
I read this book immediately after finishing Noah and Clark's story in:
Iloathed strongly disliked Ben in the first book, but indirectly glimpsed his HEA in the bonus chapter and was curious to see if he could redeem himself.
I'm happy to report that he could and he DID, although he still had major asshole moments in this story.
Because the book is filtered through Ben's first-person POV and the writing breaks down the fourth wall, we are privy to all of Ben's random, neurotic thoughts.
Ben is buried in a closet packed to the brim with his parents' bigotry and expectations. Unlike his younger brother, Noah, Ben is the good boy, buttoned-up, successful, and NOT GAY. Ben's denial about his sexuality verges on the schizophrenic.
When Micah, the new lawyer at Ben's firm, asks Ben out to dinner, Ben tells himself they're JUST FRIENDS. So what if he constantly fantasizes about Micah's dick? It means NOTHING.
*smirks* Whatever makes you feel better, Ben.
I loved strong, funny, and snarky Micah, as well as the delicious first-time sex, the banter between the men, and the quiet times they spend together.
Thankfully, Micah is no doormat. How could he be with a mother who turns every conversation into a battle of wit and domination? (Three cheers for Micah's mom!)
Micah doesn't put up with Ben's shit, and Ben finally crawls out of his oppressive, dark closet, reconnects with Noah and Clark, and stands up to his parents (although I still don't think they deserved to be defended or included in the HEA).
The ending felt a little rushed, with too many big events summarized, but I still enjoyed the hotness and sweetness between the MCs.
The bonus chapter is the flip side of the bonus chapter from book 1, but from Ben's POV. And it is indeed the perfect ending to this lovely, sexy story.
This review is for the second edition of this book, which includes a bonus chapter originally published in:
Cardeno C's Home series can be read out of order; the books often overlap and the stories run mostly parallel to one another, like threads unraveling from the same quilt.
I read this book immediately after finishing Noah and Clark's story in:
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I'm happy to report that he could and he DID, although he still had major asshole moments in this story.
Because the book is filtered through Ben's first-person POV and the writing breaks down the fourth wall, we are privy to all of Ben's random, neurotic thoughts.
Ben is buried in a closet packed to the brim with his parents' bigotry and expectations. Unlike his younger brother, Noah, Ben is the good boy, buttoned-up, successful, and NOT GAY. Ben's denial about his sexuality verges on the schizophrenic.
When Micah, the new lawyer at Ben's firm, asks Ben out to dinner, Ben tells himself they're JUST FRIENDS. So what if he constantly fantasizes about Micah's dick? It means NOTHING.
*smirks* Whatever makes you feel better, Ben.
I loved strong, funny, and snarky Micah, as well as the delicious first-time sex, the banter between the men, and the quiet times they spend together.
Thankfully, Micah is no doormat. How could he be with a mother who turns every conversation into a battle of wit and domination? (Three cheers for Micah's mom!)
Micah doesn't put up with Ben's shit, and Ben finally crawls out of his oppressive, dark closet, reconnects with Noah and Clark, and stands up to his parents (although I still don't think they deserved to be defended or included in the HEA).
The ending felt a little rushed, with too many big events summarized, but I still enjoyed the hotness and sweetness between the MCs.
The bonus chapter is the flip side of the bonus chapter from book 1, but from Ben's POV. And it is indeed the perfect ending to this lovely, sexy story.
July 26, 2013
2.5 stars
I like Cardeno C.
I have a high tolerance for sweet.
I have read a couple others in this series.
I can overlook the "everyone in this town is gay and coupled up" angle.
I can forgive the MC, Ben, for being a coward and indecisive.
But, what I actually can't tolerate is bad editing...not from a book released by a "major" M/M publisher. Spelling errors. Conflicting content. Grammar errors. I am no perfectionist when it comes to the books I read, but this really threw me off...multiple accounts.
Moving on...
The book was the weakest of any book I've read from this author. I didn't find either MC especially interesting or likable...especially not Ben. There was way too much focus on the secondary couple of Noah and Clarke (apparently from book 1, which I haven't read). And the story was all over the place and didn't capture my interest at any given point.
And if I have to read the world "glans" one more time...I will scream. OVERUSE ALERT.
Yeah...this one really didn't do it for me. Not awful, but not even good enough...
July 26, 2019
*** What a delightful story !! *** Cardeno C. has beautiful characters, a well written tale, and amazing erotic sex scenes, and I always get rewarded buying these books. Tall, fit, nearly 40, Micah is a top lawyer, negotiator/litigator,
and he's new to the firm.
now Ben...
Ben is also a lawyer in that firm, but a different area. He's 6'3", good looking, and a good man, living in the "closet," so-to-speak.
He wants to be himself and quit pretending to be who his folks want him to be, after all they have one gay son, Noah, and hate it.
So, when Micah asks him to dinner after work, he says yes, and these two are perfect for each other.
It's fun to have guys in suits, great at their jobs, and looking for their special someone.
Micah doesn't know about Ben's "closet" factor, and the attraction, feelings, and kisses expand, including first time M/M sex for Ben.
* This tale is funny, serious, loving, and glorious. One problem puts a damper on things, and the guys, their friends, and co-workers will have to fill that void. Micah's family is awesome.
Their slow burn of a relationship growing into love has a few bumps. The storytelling is superb. It is written beautifully in first person, Ben, and it's a delightful read. I was engrossed and hated to put it down even for a moment.
It is part of the "Home" series, but each story stands alone.
I highly recommend this amazing story of love. ENJOY !!!
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and he's new to the firm.
now Ben...
Ben is also a lawyer in that firm, but a different area. He's 6'3", good looking, and a good man, living in the "closet," so-to-speak.
He wants to be himself and quit pretending to be who his folks want him to be, after all they have one gay son, Noah, and hate it.
So, when Micah asks him to dinner after work, he says yes, and these two are perfect for each other.
It's fun to have guys in suits, great at their jobs, and looking for their special someone.
Micah doesn't know about Ben's "closet" factor, and the attraction, feelings, and kisses expand, including first time M/M sex for Ben.
* This tale is funny, serious, loving, and glorious. One problem puts a damper on things, and the guys, their friends, and co-workers will have to fill that void. Micah's family is awesome.
Their slow burn of a relationship growing into love has a few bumps. The storytelling is superb. It is written beautifully in first person, Ben, and it's a delightful read. I was engrossed and hated to put it down even for a moment.
It is part of the "Home" series, but each story stands alone.
I highly recommend this amazing story of love. ENJOY !!!
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October 14, 2018
He leído toda la serie y lo he hecho de forma desordenada en uno días según me interesaba una pareja u otra. Todas las historias tienen unas características comunes, la que más destaca es que lo que pasa no se lo cree nadie, los diálogos muchos son nefastos y el rolling eyes es contínuo. Pero, son entretenidos y están en KU, es lo mejor que puedo decir de ellos.
October 11, 2011
I wasn't initially excited about reading this book. I had read previous books with Ben and thought he was a complete tool. So I was skeptical from page one about my ability to get over his previous douche-ness (I'm pretty sure thats not an actual word :P)- with that being said, I was pleasantly surprised. The dialogue and the relationship between Micah and Ben was great. I actually enjoyed reading this book. Granted there were parts where I wanted to punch Ben in the face but Cardeno C. provides alot of insight (via Ben's POV) as to the reason behind all of his craziness and the story ends up (just like all her other books) in a really great place.Ben comes full circle. If you liked Cardeno C.'s other works (which I did), you'll enjoy this one as well- if you didn't this books is more in the same vein as the others.
January 2, 2016
This review is for the audio of the second edition of this book, which includes a bonus chapter.
Filled with hotness, heat, and a heavy sprinkling of angst Alexander Collins delivers another wonderful performance.
So I'm not going to lie to you. Ben Forman is arguably my least favorite Home collection character. Because Ben, whom we first met as the meddling brother in Home Again, is a closet case of EPIC proportions. A clue: His daily mantra is "I'm not gay. I'm not gay. I'm NOT gay." He has a string of girlfriends, none of whom outlast a tube of toothpaste, and he had a pretty heavy closet crush on his best friend from high school and college, Clark Lehman, which almost destroyed Clark's happiness with his soul mate.
I understand why, I mean he grew up in a household that casually denigrated gays and created a hostile environment for anyone even thinking about being different. Then there was the fact that Ben tried being the perfect son to make up for the fact his brother, Noah, was a constant source of contention in the family. I understand, but that doesn't make it easier to like the character.
Frankly, if it weren't for how absolutely freaking awesome Micah Trains is this would be a very different review. But we do have Micah, who is strong, funny, open, honest and wonderful. Micah also brings out the very best in Ben. Giving him the strength to finally come out and be the man he always was deep down. To rejoice in their love and relationship. And, finally, to have the family that he always wanted but could never find with anyone else.
It also doesn't hurt that the sexy times are plentiful, hot and full of enough bow-chicka-wow-wow moments to make me need a fan...STAT!
Bottom Line: Collins' narration is spot on and made me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. Even when I wanted to knee Ben in the balls and punch him in the throat. I laughed, I cried a little, I raged a little, and I rejoiced. I can't ask for more than that from a book.
RECOMMENDED!
Review Copy generously provided by the author in exchange for an honest review.
This review has been cross-posted at Gay Book Reviews.
Ben Foreman is arguably my least favorite C.C. character. Luckily, his asshole tendencies are mitigated by how wonderful the character of Micah is.
Read: 7/2014, 9/2014, 2/2015
Filled with hotness, heat, and a heavy sprinkling of angst Alexander Collins delivers another wonderful performance.
So I'm not going to lie to you. Ben Forman is arguably my least favorite Home collection character. Because Ben, whom we first met as the meddling brother in Home Again, is a closet case of EPIC proportions. A clue: His daily mantra is "I'm not gay. I'm not gay. I'm NOT gay." He has a string of girlfriends, none of whom outlast a tube of toothpaste, and he had a pretty heavy closet crush on his best friend from high school and college, Clark Lehman, which almost destroyed Clark's happiness with his soul mate.
I understand why, I mean he grew up in a household that casually denigrated gays and created a hostile environment for anyone even thinking about being different. Then there was the fact that Ben tried being the perfect son to make up for the fact his brother, Noah, was a constant source of contention in the family. I understand, but that doesn't make it easier to like the character.
Frankly, if it weren't for how absolutely freaking awesome Micah Trains is this would be a very different review. But we do have Micah, who is strong, funny, open, honest and wonderful. Micah also brings out the very best in Ben. Giving him the strength to finally come out and be the man he always was deep down. To rejoice in their love and relationship. And, finally, to have the family that he always wanted but could never find with anyone else.
It also doesn't hurt that the sexy times are plentiful, hot and full of enough bow-chicka-wow-wow moments to make me need a fan...STAT!
Bottom Line: Collins' narration is spot on and made me feel all warm and fuzzy inside. Even when I wanted to knee Ben in the balls and punch him in the throat. I laughed, I cried a little, I raged a little, and I rejoiced. I can't ask for more than that from a book.
RECOMMENDED!
Review Copy generously provided by the author in exchange for an honest review.
This review has been cross-posted at Gay Book Reviews.
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Ben Foreman is arguably my least favorite C.C. character. Luckily, his asshole tendencies are mitigated by how wonderful the character of Micah is.
Read: 7/2014, 9/2014, 2/2015
June 10, 2013
Read this book, they said..
It'll be fun, they said..
......
Just, no. Can we say emotional rollercoaster?
First, I was like
Tell me a story...
Then:
Then:
Then:
Then:
Le sigh.
Okay, in all seriousness, I obviously really liked this book. It was an honest and heartfelt coming out story. The think I liked best, though, was the dialogue and banter between the characters, and between the narrator (Ben) and the audience (reader). It was extremely witty and I often found myself LOLing...especially over Micah's mother. Definitely a recommended read.
This review sexy Tom Hardy approved. You're welcome.
It'll be fun, they said..
......
Just, no. Can we say emotional rollercoaster?
First, I was like
Tell me a story...
Then:
Then:
Then:
Then:
Le sigh.
Okay, in all seriousness, I obviously really liked this book. It was an honest and heartfelt coming out story. The think I liked best, though, was the dialogue and banter between the characters, and between the narrator (Ben) and the audience (reader). It was extremely witty and I often found myself LOLing...especially over Micah's mother. Definitely a recommended read.
This review sexy Tom Hardy approved. You're welcome.
September 12, 2013
Ben ( Noah's brother from Home Again, book one ) tells his own story about being deeply closeted and meeting the man who finally pulls him out of his closet, bringing him the love that he's always wanted. The man who gets to rock Ben's world is Micah and In true Cardeno style this is another case of insta lust that turns to love very very quickly but of course there's some conflict ,mainly from Ben and his family, that causes some angst until they finally get their HEA and I really enjoyed the journey that they took to get them there. As always the love scenes are very hot and the sexual tension and chemistry sizzles.. No disappointment there.
Another instalment of the Home series that I'm enjoying very much and I have to say that this is actually one of my favourites up to now and to be honest I wasn't sure when I first started it because Ben took a while to warm too but I found myself liking him more and more as the story progressed, Micah is lovely and I did get a little misty eyed at the end.
Whether you like his books or not , Mr C does romance really well and he might be sugary but he's definitely satisfying my sweet tooth. Another winner for little old me!
Another instalment of the Home series that I'm enjoying very much and I have to say that this is actually one of my favourites up to now and to be honest I wasn't sure when I first started it because Ben took a while to warm too but I found myself liking him more and more as the story progressed, Micah is lovely and I did get a little misty eyed at the end.
Whether you like his books or not , Mr C does romance really well and he might be sugary but he's definitely satisfying my sweet tooth. Another winner for little old me!
October 4, 2016
3.5 stars
This was in some ways better than I expected and in other ways worse than I expected.
I liked the first half, which I didn’t thought I would. I loved Ben and all his insecurities, while I was expecting to hate him. But how could I hate him when he was hurting so much. I really liked how his relationship with Micah started and how Ben finally took a chance at being happy, even though he was still torn up inside.
Then came the middle part, which I absolutely hated. The break-up I got. I wasn’t too upset over it and expected it to happen. But what I truly hated was Ben fooling around with other men at gay bars during that break-up. It wasn’t even that necessary for the story. He could have just been miserable without getting bjs from other men. That would have worked too.
The second half was as sugary as I would expect from Cardeno. And I liked it. Even though it got a little too sugary near the end. I mean, babies? Really?
Still, it was a nice story.
This was in some ways better than I expected and in other ways worse than I expected.
I liked the first half, which I didn’t thought I would. I loved Ben and all his insecurities, while I was expecting to hate him. But how could I hate him when he was hurting so much. I really liked how his relationship with Micah started and how Ben finally took a chance at being happy, even though he was still torn up inside.
Then came the middle part, which I absolutely hated. The break-up I got. I wasn’t too upset over it and expected it to happen. But what I truly hated was Ben fooling around with other men at gay bars during that break-up. It wasn’t even that necessary for the story. He could have just been miserable without getting bjs from other men. That would have worked too.
The second half was as sugary as I would expect from Cardeno. And I liked it. Even though it got a little too sugary near the end. I mean, babies? Really?
Still, it was a nice story.
March 14, 2013
We first met Ben in Home Again (the first book in the series) which was Noah and Clark's story. Ben was Clark's best friend and Noah's brother, and his actions directly lead to Noah and Clark's separation. Starting this book with low expectations of Ben, I was therefore surprised that I could relate to and sympathise with Ben.
Ben has always hidden his true feelings, even from himself, so struggles with the strong feelings he has for his work colleague, Micah.
"I mean, seriously, Micah Trains was coming on to me, and I wasn't sure if it was the best or the worst thing that had ever happened in my life."
The story follows Ben as he chooses a new path in life, trying to make amends with his estranged brother, be the son his parents expect and be the man he wants to be for Micah.
The story is told from Ben's point of view so it is easy to understand his conflicted feelings. The story has heartache and romance with a warm happy ending.
Ben has always hidden his true feelings, even from himself, so struggles with the strong feelings he has for his work colleague, Micah.
"I mean, seriously, Micah Trains was coming on to me, and I wasn't sure if it was the best or the worst thing that had ever happened in my life."
The story follows Ben as he chooses a new path in life, trying to make amends with his estranged brother, be the son his parents expect and be the man he wants to be for Micah.
The story is told from Ben's point of view so it is easy to understand his conflicted feelings. The story has heartache and romance with a warm happy ending.
April 26, 2014
It's safe to say that CC's writing has matured from Home Again to this novel here by leaps and bounds.
It's also a huge credit to the skills of an author to make me care about a character I despised in the first book, by letting me see into his mind.
In this book, I was equal parts exasperated with Ben and cheering him on. The banter he's got going with Micah was refreshing and caused me to giggle a lot. And Ben is still Ben, dumb and screwing up, plagued by what he thinks he's expected to be and by who he really is. It took him some time to grow a pair, but when he does, he does it all the way.
I adored Micah. He was a real man, a man with feelings he wasn't afraid to show, but also sufficient intuition to see behind Ben's stupidity. While the forgiveness may have been quick, it fit the character nicely.
Sappy, sweet fluff at the end had me grinning widely.
The one thing I kept waiting for was for Ben to acknowledge the grief and pain he caused his brother and his best friend, instead of being sort of wishy-washy about it. I would have really liked to have seen that further explored, considering how much Ben pissed me off in the first book in this series.
Well done, CC.
It's also a huge credit to the skills of an author to make me care about a character I despised in the first book, by letting me see into his mind.
In this book, I was equal parts exasperated with Ben and cheering him on. The banter he's got going with Micah was refreshing and caused me to giggle a lot. And Ben is still Ben, dumb and screwing up, plagued by what he thinks he's expected to be and by who he really is. It took him some time to grow a pair, but when he does, he does it all the way.
I adored Micah. He was a real man, a man with feelings he wasn't afraid to show, but also sufficient intuition to see behind Ben's stupidity. While the forgiveness may have been quick, it fit the character nicely.
Sappy, sweet fluff at the end had me grinning widely.
The one thing I kept waiting for was for Ben to acknowledge the grief and pain he caused his brother and his best friend, instead of being sort of wishy-washy about it. I would have really liked to have seen that further explored, considering how much Ben pissed me off in the first book in this series.
Well done, CC.
March 25, 2023
i genuinely think ben is a bad person in general. not being out or closeted is not an excuse to hurt people around you. just because youre hurting doesnt entitle you to do the same to others. anyway closeted aside. ben is a boring character who thinks hes better than anyone and hes not even all that. i wish micah the best. i dont want them to end up together. also its a me thing but i didnt like how the mc fucked too many men during their breakup. makes their feelings dull and makes ben an asshole multiplied by 10. i hate him so much. im disappointed about this book and the author.
April 17, 2015
I loved this so much... until the end. It kinda ended too fast. But it was sweet and I was so happy to see Ben finally get his head out of his ass, him and Noah repair their relationship and become family again, and get his best friend back. Ben and Noah's parents can take a flying leap... fuckers.
December 28, 2013
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“Beh, a volte sei abbastanza fortunato da trovare un ragazzo con cui condividere la vita. Qualcuno con cui ridere nei momenti felici e che ti aiuti durante quelli difficili.” Abbassò la voce, sembrando imbarazzato per la prima volta da quando l’avevo conosciuto. “Qualcuno che ami e che ti ami a sua volta.”
Il suo sguardo era penetrante e io sentii la domanda senza che dovesse dirla a parole. “Micah?” “Si”
Il mio cuore sbatteva contro le costole, ma raccolsi tutto il mio coraggio e gli dissi cosa provavo. “Ti amo.”
Chi ha letto “Ritorno a casa”, quinto capitolo della serie “Home”, conosce molto bene Ben Forman: un uomo solo, disperato, che ha tentato più volte di dividere il fratello Noah dal suo migliore amico Clark.
Ben è cresciuto in una famiglia molto cristiana che ha sempre additato e insultato gli omosessuali e ha vissuto in prima persona le liti tra i genitori e Noah. Tutto ciò ha influito molto sulla sua sessualità: non vuole, infatti, ammettere nemmeno con se stesso ciò che prova e desidera, preferendo trincerarsi dietro una facciata di eterosessuale convinto.
Cosa c’era che non andava in me? Forse mi stavo beccando qualcosa, tipo un raffreddore o l’influenza. Oppure ero affetto da repressione di omosessualità. Potevo sentire la voce di mio fratello rimbombarmi in testa, il suo tono sarcastico e tutto il resto, ma me la scrollai di dosso. Non potevo essere gay: avrebbe assolutamente devastato i miei genitori. Avere un figlio gay era già abbastanza brutto, ma due? Beh, avrei fatto prima a chiamare le pompe funebri e cercare di ottenere uno sconto di gruppo, perché una cosa del genere li avrebbe uccisi entrambi.
La sua maschera inizia a crollare con il confronto tra Noah e Clark, ma riceve il colpo decisivo quando incontra Micah, nuovo avvocato dello studio legale in cui lavora, per cui sin da subito prova una forte attrazione.
Micah da per scontato che Ben sia gay, e quest’ultimo non riesce a negarlo, perché troppo sopraffatto dai sentimenti che prova.
Rabbrividii e sospirai. Era incredibilmente bello che qualcuno mi piacesse così tanto, il volerlo davvero. Quei sentimenti erano così forti, così intensi, che non sapevo come avrei potuto evitarli. No, c’era di più, NON VOLEVO evitarli. Volevo essere in grado di sentirmi così. Era molto meglio vivere nell’ansia costante o nella rabbia che, la maggior parte dei giorni, mi faceva star male dentro.
Il loro rapporto prosegue felice ma Ben vive ancora nell’illusione di essere etero per il resto del mondo e si ostina a non affrontare i suoi genitori per paura di perderli del tutto, ma presto capisce che l’unica scelta possibile per poter vivere e amare Micah è accettare se stesso senza alcuna vergogna.
Annuii, grato della sua comprensione, e cercai di spingere via il rimorso per cose che non potevo cambiare. Non c’era niente che potessi fare per i miei errori passati, ma da quel momento in avanti potevo mostrare a Micah cosa lui significasse per me. Ed era esattamente ciò che avrei fatto. [..] Era tempo di vivere la MIA vita in un modo che fosse giusto per ME.
In questo nuovo capitolo della serie l’unica voce narrante è quella di Ben e con il suo solito stile scorrevole, fresco e diretto, Cardeno C. ha creato un romanzo dolce, toccante, profondo e più "psicologico" rispetto a quelli passati.
Il personaggio di Ben Forman, perno attorno al quale tutto ruota, è stato caratterizzato benissimo: le paure, i tormenti, la scoperta dell’amore, del sesso, la libertà derivante dall’accettazione di se stesso e il recupero del rapporto con Noah e Clark.
Se amate i suoi libri non rimarrete delusi, se non lo conoscete ancora questa è l’ennesima riprova di quanto siano validi!
Cardeno C. è una garanzia, non potete perderlo!
Ho sentito molti amici gay dire che siamo nati così, che non abbiamo voce in capitolo. Beh, è vero. Ma ora? Ora per me essere gay significa condividere la mia vita e crescere i miei figli con l’uomo che amo. E questa è una scelta che farei felicemente ancora e ancora.
“Beh, a volte sei abbastanza fortunato da trovare un ragazzo con cui condividere la vita. Qualcuno con cui ridere nei momenti felici e che ti aiuti durante quelli difficili.” Abbassò la voce, sembrando imbarazzato per la prima volta da quando l’avevo conosciuto. “Qualcuno che ami e che ti ami a sua volta.”
Il suo sguardo era penetrante e io sentii la domanda senza che dovesse dirla a parole. “Micah?” “Si”
Il mio cuore sbatteva contro le costole, ma raccolsi tutto il mio coraggio e gli dissi cosa provavo. “Ti amo.”
Chi ha letto “Ritorno a casa”, quinto capitolo della serie “Home”, conosce molto bene Ben Forman: un uomo solo, disperato, che ha tentato più volte di dividere il fratello Noah dal suo migliore amico Clark.
Ben è cresciuto in una famiglia molto cristiana che ha sempre additato e insultato gli omosessuali e ha vissuto in prima persona le liti tra i genitori e Noah. Tutto ciò ha influito molto sulla sua sessualità: non vuole, infatti, ammettere nemmeno con se stesso ciò che prova e desidera, preferendo trincerarsi dietro una facciata di eterosessuale convinto.
Cosa c’era che non andava in me? Forse mi stavo beccando qualcosa, tipo un raffreddore o l’influenza. Oppure ero affetto da repressione di omosessualità. Potevo sentire la voce di mio fratello rimbombarmi in testa, il suo tono sarcastico e tutto il resto, ma me la scrollai di dosso. Non potevo essere gay: avrebbe assolutamente devastato i miei genitori. Avere un figlio gay era già abbastanza brutto, ma due? Beh, avrei fatto prima a chiamare le pompe funebri e cercare di ottenere uno sconto di gruppo, perché una cosa del genere li avrebbe uccisi entrambi.
La sua maschera inizia a crollare con il confronto tra Noah e Clark, ma riceve il colpo decisivo quando incontra Micah, nuovo avvocato dello studio legale in cui lavora, per cui sin da subito prova una forte attrazione.
Micah da per scontato che Ben sia gay, e quest’ultimo non riesce a negarlo, perché troppo sopraffatto dai sentimenti che prova.
Rabbrividii e sospirai. Era incredibilmente bello che qualcuno mi piacesse così tanto, il volerlo davvero. Quei sentimenti erano così forti, così intensi, che non sapevo come avrei potuto evitarli. No, c’era di più, NON VOLEVO evitarli. Volevo essere in grado di sentirmi così. Era molto meglio vivere nell’ansia costante o nella rabbia che, la maggior parte dei giorni, mi faceva star male dentro.
Il loro rapporto prosegue felice ma Ben vive ancora nell’illusione di essere etero per il resto del mondo e si ostina a non affrontare i suoi genitori per paura di perderli del tutto, ma presto capisce che l’unica scelta possibile per poter vivere e amare Micah è accettare se stesso senza alcuna vergogna.
Annuii, grato della sua comprensione, e cercai di spingere via il rimorso per cose che non potevo cambiare. Non c’era niente che potessi fare per i miei errori passati, ma da quel momento in avanti potevo mostrare a Micah cosa lui significasse per me. Ed era esattamente ciò che avrei fatto. [..] Era tempo di vivere la MIA vita in un modo che fosse giusto per ME.
In questo nuovo capitolo della serie l’unica voce narrante è quella di Ben e con il suo solito stile scorrevole, fresco e diretto, Cardeno C. ha creato un romanzo dolce, toccante, profondo e più "psicologico" rispetto a quelli passati.
Il personaggio di Ben Forman, perno attorno al quale tutto ruota, è stato caratterizzato benissimo: le paure, i tormenti, la scoperta dell’amore, del sesso, la libertà derivante dall’accettazione di se stesso e il recupero del rapporto con Noah e Clark.
Se amate i suoi libri non rimarrete delusi, se non lo conoscete ancora questa è l’ennesima riprova di quanto siano validi!
Cardeno C. è una garanzia, non potete perderlo!
Ho sentito molti amici gay dire che siamo nati così, che non abbiamo voce in capitolo. Beh, è vero. Ma ora? Ora per me essere gay significa condividere la mia vita e crescere i miei figli con l’uomo che amo. E questa è una scelta che farei felicemente ancora e ancora.
September 6, 2015
4 1/2 stars.
From the previous book in series I can state with no hesitation that I detested Ben. Could I like a book about him? Answer: Oh my yes!
Poor Ben has conflicts. His younger brother is gay and never hid it. Said younger brother is in a relationship with Ben's BF. Ben is the good son to his parents' difficulties with his younger brother. Ben has to be perfect. He is not. He sees himself as a disappointment. He is not gay.
I'm not gay. I'm not gay. I'm not gay.
I know you're thinking that's a weird chant for a straight guy to have as his manta. But I figure maybe if I think it over and over again, it'll actually be true.
...So I'm not gay, right? There must be some other logical explanation for why I'm standing in the bathroom with my hard dick in my hand fantasizing about the new guy at work. For the third time today. And it isn't even lunchtime yet.
Or maybe being gay has nothing to do with all those stereotypes. Maybe being gay just means that no matter how much I wish I could, I'll never react to any woman in the heart-pounding, sweat-inducing, breath-stealing, dick-filling, way I react when Micah Trains so much as runs his fingers through his close-cut brown hair.
Shit. Shit. Shit. Maybe I really am gay.
It is Ben's thoughts that make us understand his turmoil. It is Ben's thoughts that made me laugh. It is Ben's thoughts and subsequent actions that made me love him.
Micah was the perfect pardner for Ben. He would not be a secret no matter how hot they were together. Ben wanted Micah but could he live a life as an openly gay man in a committed relationship with another openly gay man? Could that make him happy?
I hated myself for thinking it, but there is was: Micah Trains was sexy as hell.
I didn't realize that I had stopped moving until Micah looked up from the papers in his hand and locked his steel-blue gaze on me. After that, it was all I could do to stay upright. I felt as if my knees were buckling, and I was getting light-headed.
What was wrong with me? Maybe I was coming down with something, like a cold or the flu. Or repressed homosexuality.
I loved this book.
From the previous book in series I can state with no hesitation that I detested Ben. Could I like a book about him? Answer: Oh my yes!
Poor Ben has conflicts. His younger brother is gay and never hid it. Said younger brother is in a relationship with Ben's BF. Ben is the good son to his parents' difficulties with his younger brother. Ben has to be perfect. He is not. He sees himself as a disappointment. He is not gay.
I'm not gay. I'm not gay. I'm not gay.
I know you're thinking that's a weird chant for a straight guy to have as his manta. But I figure maybe if I think it over and over again, it'll actually be true.
...So I'm not gay, right? There must be some other logical explanation for why I'm standing in the bathroom with my hard dick in my hand fantasizing about the new guy at work. For the third time today. And it isn't even lunchtime yet.
Or maybe being gay has nothing to do with all those stereotypes. Maybe being gay just means that no matter how much I wish I could, I'll never react to any woman in the heart-pounding, sweat-inducing, breath-stealing, dick-filling, way I react when Micah Trains so much as runs his fingers through his close-cut brown hair.
Shit. Shit. Shit. Maybe I really am gay.
It is Ben's thoughts that make us understand his turmoil. It is Ben's thoughts that made me laugh. It is Ben's thoughts and subsequent actions that made me love him.
Micah was the perfect pardner for Ben. He would not be a secret no matter how hot they were together. Ben wanted Micah but could he live a life as an openly gay man in a committed relationship with another openly gay man? Could that make him happy?
I hated myself for thinking it, but there is was: Micah Trains was sexy as hell.
I didn't realize that I had stopped moving until Micah looked up from the papers in his hand and locked his steel-blue gaze on me. After that, it was all I could do to stay upright. I felt as if my knees were buckling, and I was getting light-headed.
What was wrong with me? Maybe I was coming down with something, like a cold or the flu. Or repressed homosexuality.
I loved this book.
April 16, 2013
I love the Home Series, these are just lovable characters.
They have their ups and downs but Cardeno knows how to deliver a HEA story with that happy feeling.
This time was Micah and Ben.
Poor Ben, has been in so deep in the closet for so long he is having serious issues finding his way out.
And Micah, oh how I adore you!
Finally having Ben and Noah talk about their issues and being there for each other was good.
The whole parents coming around, it didn´t felt right. Why? Because ...what about Noah? I haven´t read all the books in the series so I am hoping we get to see how that relationship works out.
It doesn´t seem fair that because Ben has a family he is somehow forgiven and all is right in the world, while Noah keeps suffering.
One thing I really liked about this book, that was different from the others too, was that Ben talked to us readers, it was funny and engaging.
I would recommend these books over and over again.
They have their ups and downs but Cardeno knows how to deliver a HEA story with that happy feeling.
This time was Micah and Ben.
Poor Ben, has been in so deep in the closet for so long he is having serious issues finding his way out.
And Micah, oh how I adore you!
Finally having Ben and Noah talk about their issues and being there for each other was good.
The whole parents coming around, it didn´t felt right. Why? Because ...what about Noah? I haven´t read all the books in the series so I am hoping we get to see how that relationship works out.
It doesn´t seem fair that because Ben has a family he is somehow forgiven and all is right in the world, while Noah keeps suffering.
One thing I really liked about this book, that was different from the others too, was that Ben talked to us readers, it was funny and engaging.
I would recommend these books over and over again.
December 9, 2015
4 Follow your inner truth Stars!
Source: Audible copy for Honest Review Courtesy of Author and WLK Book Promotions
This was my first CC story that I had wished I had previously listened or read book 1, Home Again within this series. I think it would have made the story even better having a back story of Ben's interactions with his bother Noah and his old friend Carter and their family dynamics. Even though I didn't have that I still adored the book.
The way it's written as if Ben is talking to the listener/reader totally makes the story in the audio version. You know from the first line that it's going to be good and are intrigued to see how Ben coming out is going to unfold.
As we listen from Ben's POV we get to see his great and very bad choices on this new transition in life. For Ben he has been conditioned to believe a certain way, especially when his brother Noah came out. His parents did not handle this news well, which caused Ben to overcompensate and be miserable as he had to hide a piece of himself.
Ben was able to hide that part of himself until Micah Trains walked into his office as a fellow partner of the firm. He tries to talk himself into being straight but he can't when it comes to Micah. But you know its going to be a bumpy ride when Ben doesn't tell Micah the truth, but how could he when he won't admit the truth to himself.
As Ben comes more to terms with his truth he falls more and more for Micah, but also has more conflict with himself and his parent's beliefs. Once Ben gets his head out his ass and gives in to his truth, the story morphs into an adorably sweet yet still spicy love story. Adored it!!
This was such a sweet coming out story and Micah and Ben are adorable together. The story deals with some tougher situations about why Ben is in the closet and his internal struggle but the journey was a bumpy one but worth it in the end for these two.
June 3, 2012
This is a new author for me. I really liked the book the writing style & narrator for the most part. Ben is funny & self deprecating & his love interest Micah is solid, mature & patient. The story is not terribly original dealing with in the closet & coming out but I still enjoyed it. I think because the author glossed over some of the confrontations Ben had with his parents over this issue. Fine by me, who needs the tedious details writing about the endless handwringing of the non accepting parent. On the other hand, Micah's parents were a nice contrast with his mother being particularly amusing.
At some point, however, the internal conflicts Ben is going through is resolved & the book seemed to reach a conclusion--except it doesn't end. Unfortunately after this the book descended into super sweet saccharin territory. The book would have been better served without this but apparently this is the author's trademark. I'm curious about his other works so will probably check out some others. I found this to be a good read despite all that sweetness.
At some point, however, the internal conflicts Ben is going through is resolved & the book seemed to reach a conclusion--except it doesn't end. Unfortunately after this the book descended into super sweet saccharin territory. The book would have been better served without this but apparently this is the author's trademark. I'm curious about his other works so will probably check out some others. I found this to be a good read despite all that sweetness.
October 12, 2011
This is a sweet story, relatively slow moving and with lots of introspection. The humor and Ben's self-deprecating thoughts keep it from becoming boring.
Ben sort of slides into the realization that he may be gay after all. His family may have issues with that (except for his gay brother), and he lets that stop him from coming out for a very long time. I was yelling at him to at least be honest with himself because he couldn't even manage that.
Micah is a great guy, even if he does miss a lot of signals (all pointing to the fact that Ben is not at peace with himself or his sexuality). His patience seems endless, but, luckily, he does manage to put his foot down - eventually.
If you like sweet stories, with main characters who have to find themselves before they can move on with their lives, and if you like a happy ending, this book may be for you.
Ben sort of slides into the realization that he may be gay after all. His family may have issues with that (except for his gay brother), and he lets that stop him from coming out for a very long time. I was yelling at him to at least be honest with himself because he couldn't even manage that.
Micah is a great guy, even if he does miss a lot of signals (all pointing to the fact that Ben is not at peace with himself or his sexuality). His patience seems endless, but, luckily, he does manage to put his foot down - eventually.
If you like sweet stories, with main characters who have to find themselves before they can move on with their lives, and if you like a happy ending, this book may be for you.
September 12, 2013
2.5
I'm thinking that maybe this authors writing style and I do not get along so well?
It's more freestyle thought than I think I can handle and it took me some time to become completely vested in Ben and Micah's relationship. I'd go hot to cold in a flash.
It was a sweet story, but just didn't quiet work for me completely.
I'm thinking that maybe this authors writing style and I do not get along so well?
It's more freestyle thought than I think I can handle and it took me some time to become completely vested in Ben and Micah's relationship. I'd go hot to cold in a flash.
It was a sweet story, but just didn't quiet work for me completely.
June 5, 2022
The first three-quarters of this book made it hard for me to warm toward Ben. He is totally mixed up/in the closet/in denial blah blah blah. But I loved the last quarter - it had some beautiful moments.
April 29, 2014
Cardeno C is a go to author for me when I want a low angst, humorous, sexy story. I've read and liked most of this series but this one just didn't work for me as well as the others. I can't really put my finger on what it was but I didn't connect with it the way I expected to.
October 6, 2016
I really enjoyed this story. It had a different, cool vibe to it. I like how Micah took charge in dating Ben without him even realizing they were dating. I liked how Ben talked directly to the readers at times. His struggle coming out was believable. And I really liked their HEA.
January 13, 2013
I liked this a lot. It was nice to follow Ben's growing up and how he finally finds his way to a fulfilled life.
March 20, 2013
This, my friend, is a 5-star story in my book.
Ever sweet, witty, humorous, fulfilling, and so many truths are embedded.
Love the characters, love how it's written.
Ever sweet, witty, humorous, fulfilling, and so many truths are embedded.
Love the characters, love how it's written.
March 26, 2019
Being the True You!
Angst riddled, family issues and a bunch of sexy times leads to the Ben & Micah romantic tale. Interesting enough characters and readable storyline. Although, I think the story relies too much on sex scenes to stretch the story.
Angst riddled, family issues and a bunch of sexy times leads to the Ben & Micah romantic tale. Interesting enough characters and readable storyline. Although, I think the story relies too much on sex scenes to stretch the story.
November 30, 2013
This review can be found at The Blog of Sid Love.
3.5 stars
Ben Forman’s life is lonely… and miserable. He’s so deep in the closet, everything he does makes him paranoid he’ll be taken as gay. He lives the typical ‘straight man’s’ life so that no one would think there’s something ‘wrong’ with him. When he meets Micah Trains, the new partner at his law firm, his constant denial soon disappears when Ben learns just what happiness means in the arms of Micah. Unfortunately, Ben’s still in the closet and Micah’s openly gay, with Ben’s paranoia and denial, can they make a relationship work? Or will Ben screw up the only happiness he’s ever had because of a little cowardice?
The premise of the story is something that I really enjoyed reading. I liked the back and forth within Ben: his struggle to accept being gay and being happy with Micah while wanting to keep his old, safe life by faking who he is. At times, it did get a little overwhelming because Ben is very much in denial but I liked that Micah was able to wear him down and show him how much his life was missing, even if Micah didn’t realize that was what he was doing. Ben, as a character, is very lost, innocent and most of all naive. He thinks in a very stereotypical way, which is why he has so many emotional problems. I absolutely adored Micah. He’s so sweet, loving, tender, strong but he’s also a steady rock with his calmness. It broke my heart whenever Ben would string Micah along through one of his panics. It was sad but I could understand why Ben was so messed up… I just hated that Micah had to go through Ben’s mood swings.
While I enjoyed the story, there were two things that really bugged me. One, there was too much sex for my liking and, two, I didn’t like the style in which this one was written. It’s told in a way where Ben ‘speaks’ directly to the reader, talking to you as if you are right there and he’s literally telling you a story. Personally, I’m not very fond of this style especially mixed with the foreshadowing that occurred a few times. I would start to really get into the story and then Ben would make a comment, talking to the reader, him telling us not to laugh at him or commenting that he knows we want to smack him, etc. that would pull me out of it. To be honest, I was actually struggling with the book for a while because of this but then I got to this part in the story:
Which pulled me back into it. After this point, I found myself enjoying the story again, even laughing a few times. Although, that was because of Micah’s family who were absolutely hilarious. Then the ending came and I found it bittersweet, a little. It ends with an HEA that I adored but I just wished it had been taken slower, less telling and more showing of the whole process that takes place. Hell, that whole last chapter probably could have been turned into a novella sized story because of how much time and events that happen.
In the end, this was a good story. I didn’t care for the style but I ultimately liked the characters and what they go through. I adored their connection and even though I wanted to smack some sense into Ben a few times, I’m happy with where it left off. If you’ve enjoyed Cardeno’s stories in the past and like the Home series then you’ll enjoy this one as well.
3.5 stars
Ben Forman’s life is lonely… and miserable. He’s so deep in the closet, everything he does makes him paranoid he’ll be taken as gay. He lives the typical ‘straight man’s’ life so that no one would think there’s something ‘wrong’ with him. When he meets Micah Trains, the new partner at his law firm, his constant denial soon disappears when Ben learns just what happiness means in the arms of Micah. Unfortunately, Ben’s still in the closet and Micah’s openly gay, with Ben’s paranoia and denial, can they make a relationship work? Or will Ben screw up the only happiness he’s ever had because of a little cowardice?
The premise of the story is something that I really enjoyed reading. I liked the back and forth within Ben: his struggle to accept being gay and being happy with Micah while wanting to keep his old, safe life by faking who he is. At times, it did get a little overwhelming because Ben is very much in denial but I liked that Micah was able to wear him down and show him how much his life was missing, even if Micah didn’t realize that was what he was doing. Ben, as a character, is very lost, innocent and most of all naive. He thinks in a very stereotypical way, which is why he has so many emotional problems. I absolutely adored Micah. He’s so sweet, loving, tender, strong but he’s also a steady rock with his calmness. It broke my heart whenever Ben would string Micah along through one of his panics. It was sad but I could understand why Ben was so messed up… I just hated that Micah had to go through Ben’s mood swings.
While I enjoyed the story, there were two things that really bugged me. One, there was too much sex for my liking and, two, I didn’t like the style in which this one was written. It’s told in a way where Ben ‘speaks’ directly to the reader, talking to you as if you are right there and he’s literally telling you a story. Personally, I’m not very fond of this style especially mixed with the foreshadowing that occurred a few times. I would start to really get into the story and then Ben would make a comment, talking to the reader, him telling us not to laugh at him or commenting that he knows we want to smack him, etc. that would pull me out of it. To be honest, I was actually struggling with the book for a while because of this but then I got to this part in the story:
…when I became distracted by Micah’s mother once again. She was talking to Micah in what I think was supposed to be a whisper but really wasn’t.
“So tell me this, is he circumcised?”
That’s it. I was scarred for life.
“Are you fucking kidding me right now, Mom? Did you seriously just ask me about my partner’s penis?”
Which pulled me back into it. After this point, I found myself enjoying the story again, even laughing a few times. Although, that was because of Micah’s family who were absolutely hilarious. Then the ending came and I found it bittersweet, a little. It ends with an HEA that I adored but I just wished it had been taken slower, less telling and more showing of the whole process that takes place. Hell, that whole last chapter probably could have been turned into a novella sized story because of how much time and events that happen.
In the end, this was a good story. I didn’t care for the style but I ultimately liked the characters and what they go through. I adored their connection and even though I wanted to smack some sense into Ben a few times, I’m happy with where it left off. If you’ve enjoyed Cardeno’s stories in the past and like the Home series then you’ll enjoy this one as well.
March 1, 2015
The description for this story interested me the most mainly because I'd had quite a glimpse of Ben when I read his brother, Noah's, story, which incidentally, was the first book in the 'Home' series. 'Just What the Truth Is' is book five and I'm still just as big of a fan of the series as I was when I finished the first book. Needless to say, I had a feeling this book would be pretty entertaining since I figured Ben would be completely clueless and terrified about being gay. I certainly wasn't concerned about whether the writing and plot would hold my interest, since, hello? It's a Cardeno C. and I'm pretty hooked on that author. So glad I was right about it all.
"I preferred somebody older than me, not younger. Somebody with a lot of confidence and a big presence. Somebody a little rough around the edges. Somebody like.....women. I preferred women.
Yeah, right. Are you buying that? Because it was getting harder and harder to convince myself that it could ever be true."
My reaction to Ben, this time around, was sorrow. I felt bad for him trying to uphold the "perfect" life, something he'd been doing since he was a child. It wasn't making him happy, that's for sure. He tries to be the perfect son, especially since his parents have no contact with Noah, and he knows that if he admits to being gay it would just kill them. Ben worries that if he comes out as gay will his clients leave him? And his friends? He'd been able to keep his needs under control until he meets Micah. I guess nobody else had ever tempted Ben to make the changes in his life he so desperately needed. Being around, Micah, and with him, gives Ben the happiness and peace he's been longing for his whole life.
Micah is amazing. He's confident, self-assured, successful, smart, sexy, and he scares the living hell out of Ben. Ben can't even tell him he's not gay and they end up dating, except Micah has no clue about the turmoil rocketing around inside Ben. Not a great way to start a relationship, Ben. And I gotta say, there were some times I just really wanted to smack Ben around for his stupid thinking. I understood his fears and the horrible guilt trips his parents placed on him throughout his life, but come on. He is not responsible for the lack of relationship between his parents and Noah. That is on them. And Ben needs to realize that at some point he has to put his own happiness and well-being first, because his parents won't be around forever, and the way he's been living his life has left him miserable.
This was, truly, one of the best coming out journeys I've read and I loved taking it with Ben. I adored him and Micah, with the added benefit of seeing Ben grow closer to Noah and Clark. This was an excellent addition to the series and I'm so very glad the author wrote a story for Ben. Thank you, Cardeno, I loved it.
NOTE: This book was provided by the author for the purpose of a review on Rainbow Book Reviews
"I preferred somebody older than me, not younger. Somebody with a lot of confidence and a big presence. Somebody a little rough around the edges. Somebody like.....women. I preferred women.
Yeah, right. Are you buying that? Because it was getting harder and harder to convince myself that it could ever be true."
My reaction to Ben, this time around, was sorrow. I felt bad for him trying to uphold the "perfect" life, something he'd been doing since he was a child. It wasn't making him happy, that's for sure. He tries to be the perfect son, especially since his parents have no contact with Noah, and he knows that if he admits to being gay it would just kill them. Ben worries that if he comes out as gay will his clients leave him? And his friends? He'd been able to keep his needs under control until he meets Micah. I guess nobody else had ever tempted Ben to make the changes in his life he so desperately needed. Being around, Micah, and with him, gives Ben the happiness and peace he's been longing for his whole life.
Micah is amazing. He's confident, self-assured, successful, smart, sexy, and he scares the living hell out of Ben. Ben can't even tell him he's not gay and they end up dating, except Micah has no clue about the turmoil rocketing around inside Ben. Not a great way to start a relationship, Ben. And I gotta say, there were some times I just really wanted to smack Ben around for his stupid thinking. I understood his fears and the horrible guilt trips his parents placed on him throughout his life, but come on. He is not responsible for the lack of relationship between his parents and Noah. That is on them. And Ben needs to realize that at some point he has to put his own happiness and well-being first, because his parents won't be around forever, and the way he's been living his life has left him miserable.
This was, truly, one of the best coming out journeys I've read and I loved taking it with Ben. I adored him and Micah, with the added benefit of seeing Ben grow closer to Noah and Clark. This was an excellent addition to the series and I'm so very glad the author wrote a story for Ben. Thank you, Cardeno, I loved it.
NOTE: This book was provided by the author for the purpose of a review on Rainbow Book Reviews
November 9, 2015
3.5/5 stars...
Micah Trains steamrolls into Ben Forman’s life and turns it upside down, then turns Ben inside out. Ben has this track running on a constant loop in his brain… You are straight, you meet a girl, sleep with girl, move on to next girl, you are straight. And he’s managed to maintain this for appearances sake if nothing else. That is, until Micah Trains, the sexy, confident, successful lawyer in his firm takes a liking to Ben.
While this broken record continues to play in Ben’s mind, he manages to recognize his attraction to Micah. But until Ben comes to terms with his own deep seeded issues with his sexuality, works on his rocky relationship with his openly gay brother, and seriously gets over this insane need he has to be this picture perfect person his parent’s envision for him… he will continue to doubt himself and his feelings for Micah.
So, I had a couple huge issues with this story. First, Ben was very unlikeable for more than half of the story. I could understand and even appreciate his struggle, but I didn’t really connect with his character until he finally had that heart to heart with his parents. From there the story was so good; he was like a completely different person. Perhaps that was CC’s goal, but it made it difficult for me to press play for the first few hours. I will say this, Micah was steadfast and unwavering, even with Ben’s behavior that ping ponged between happy, psychotic and occasionally almost comatose. I have to admit, Micah was his strength and his saving grace. And that ending, the extra epilogue CC went back and wrote when DOMA was overturned. Perfection!
Now, for the narration, at times Collins lost the tones he had given Ben and Micah and the story came through like he was simply reading off the grocery list. When the correct tones and inflections shone through, it was amazing. Those times where the tone of Ben’s voice lined up with the stress or pain, even the joy he was feeling and the same for Micah, that was great listening. Then there were times when Ben would be talking to someone on the phone and suddenly it sounded like I was in a tunnel and there was a guy five miles down, yelling up at me, that was annoying. Sadly, I would just skip past these parts.
An emotional, angsty, figuring out who you are story about a guy that can’t be true to himself, without the support of the one person that loves him unconditionally. Overall it was an enjoyable read, just a couple issues here and there. CC definitely wrapped it up splendidly there at the end.
* I received a copy of this book in exchange for an honest review through http://mmgoodbookreviews.wordpress.com *
Micah Trains steamrolls into Ben Forman’s life and turns it upside down, then turns Ben inside out. Ben has this track running on a constant loop in his brain… You are straight, you meet a girl, sleep with girl, move on to next girl, you are straight. And he’s managed to maintain this for appearances sake if nothing else. That is, until Micah Trains, the sexy, confident, successful lawyer in his firm takes a liking to Ben.
While this broken record continues to play in Ben’s mind, he manages to recognize his attraction to Micah. But until Ben comes to terms with his own deep seeded issues with his sexuality, works on his rocky relationship with his openly gay brother, and seriously gets over this insane need he has to be this picture perfect person his parent’s envision for him… he will continue to doubt himself and his feelings for Micah.
So, I had a couple huge issues with this story. First, Ben was very unlikeable for more than half of the story. I could understand and even appreciate his struggle, but I didn’t really connect with his character until he finally had that heart to heart with his parents. From there the story was so good; he was like a completely different person. Perhaps that was CC’s goal, but it made it difficult for me to press play for the first few hours. I will say this, Micah was steadfast and unwavering, even with Ben’s behavior that ping ponged between happy, psychotic and occasionally almost comatose. I have to admit, Micah was his strength and his saving grace. And that ending, the extra epilogue CC went back and wrote when DOMA was overturned. Perfection!
Now, for the narration, at times Collins lost the tones he had given Ben and Micah and the story came through like he was simply reading off the grocery list. When the correct tones and inflections shone through, it was amazing. Those times where the tone of Ben’s voice lined up with the stress or pain, even the joy he was feeling and the same for Micah, that was great listening. Then there were times when Ben would be talking to someone on the phone and suddenly it sounded like I was in a tunnel and there was a guy five miles down, yelling up at me, that was annoying. Sadly, I would just skip past these parts.
An emotional, angsty, figuring out who you are story about a guy that can’t be true to himself, without the support of the one person that loves him unconditionally. Overall it was an enjoyable read, just a couple issues here and there. CC definitely wrapped it up splendidly there at the end.
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December 7, 2015
3.5
Ben has a hard time accepting himself as is. He's a gay man who has been told his entire life that being gay is wrong. His parents taught him that all gay men live wild and dangerous and end up alone. He has always been the good son. No matter how old he gets, it's hard to choose his happiness over pleasing his parents. When he meets Micah and can no longer deny his feelings, Ben goes through a life crisis trying to figure out how to move forward.
This story is filled with a family and friends vibe. I believe everyone can identify with Ben to some extent. We've all had to figure out who we are and where we're headed. I like the humor Ben brings. He tends to makes fun of himself to lighten the mood. Just What the Truth is also has lots of sexy bits and romance. I recommend this to those looking for a perfectly sweet happily ever after.
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