This book was heading in a very positive direction for the majority the book and I even saw myself giving this a four and half or even five stars, but then it took a turn as I neared the end. It just got really slow and dragged a little bit too much near the end that it left me feeling disappointed by it. It took forever for Leah and Stavros to get a love scene in fact it was like the last third of the book. I was ready for them to get on already especially with all the lovely setup and anticipation that built up between the two of them, which was really good.
Then I was kind of disappointed with the first time scene, not because it wasn’t steamy or hot because it was, but the mindset going into the scene wasn’t exactly perfect, at least for their first time in my opinion. I think if it happened during their second or third time during that situation but not the first. I just wish it didn’t happen in circumstance in that way and place especially it being her first time and all. I was expecting more of an actual bedroom scene that headed in that direction because their passions exploded and they could no longer resist the temptation and gave into their attraction, instead the scene happened in part because of their attraction but more fraught emotions brought on by grief and wanting to make it go away by doing something more pleasurable by not thinking of the unpleasant emotions going on.
And because their coming together took forever in the book, there were a lack of physically intimate scenes between the pair. There were scenes but they were just summarized and really rushed. There wasn’t a lot of them showing them bond in that moment in that very special way associated with love scenes. I just thought a few more detailed scenes could be thrown in there to show them getting closer and closer and falling deeper and deeper in love. Jus more intimacy thrown in, and I also wished there was an aftermath scene where they were just talking as they held each other. I missed that.
Despite some of those concerns over the book, I did really enjoy it and savor it. I loved the beginning and the middle, leading up to them getting to the love scene point. I took my time with this book and savored it as all the fraught emotions were surrounding them and causing tension between the pair. It was really good, and I was really enmeshed in the world that Leah and Stavros were in that moment. And I very much enjoyed going on that journey with them as their relationship changed and grew as they time progressed in the book as they got to know each other more and more.
I loved all the build up in anticipation between them that was really amazing because of that angst and tension that was there. It was so lovely, and it consumed me in the way that angsty romance books tend to do. That angst and tension was what propelled the story forward and kept me on my toes. I was hanging on by fingernails just waiting for that first kiss, first embrace, and first love scene between them.
I also loved, loved, loved that they had a history together before the story even began. It relates to the point above about the angst, but because they had this history and numerous misunderstandings between them there was a lot going on between them tension wise, sexual and otherwise, and that I love. There were so much hurt feelings going on as well as residual feeling of what happened in the past. In this instance, Leah had a crush on Stavros for years while he more viewed her as a pest that got under his skin. He married her in order to punish her for her sister’s death, which he blamed her for, but they never truly acted like husband and wife. They never lived together and had not seen each other for five years. Conflict city with many, many layers to it from both sides. It wasn’t an easy relationship to say the least. It was very complicated, but I love complicated. It was very easy to be consumed with the story and just be in their emotional turmoil with them like whenever Stavros hurt Leah, I hurt for Leah because what he did was unfair and she didn’t deserve it, but it also gave her strength to because she stood up to him and made her grow as a person, and I loved seeing that. Just when there is a backstory to a romance it makes it all the more complex emotionally and I love that.
Overall, for the most part I really did enjoy this book, and for a majority I thought it was amazing and really loved it. I really did anticipate giving this a five stars until it started to really drag and slow down near the end. I just thought they should have consummated their relationship a lot early. I understand that Stavros had to get over his prejudice of her and want to get to know her, but they still could have been together and come to realize what a mistake he made and grovel from there. There wasn’t a lot of groveling nor overly romantic scene aside from the epilogue. I will say however that I did like that they spent more time together and got to know each other more as they revealed some truths about themselves especially when Leah talked about the wedding dress that was like a punch in the heart. And I will admit that I did tear up a couple of times in the book over the emotional turmoil going on. For the majority of the book, I got the feels just not so much in the end and was a little disappointed by their first time, but other than that I really did like it, and I am curious to read Dmitri’s story sometime in the future because he was quite the character.