This incredibly shallow book has little to do with learning about tantra and mostly to do with a very lusty woman longing for sex over and over. The author starts in her teens and never seems to stop wanting to have sex with men, claiming she "falls in love" with them often within a few hours or seconds of meeting them! She details some of her sexual experiences here, supposedly in the name of teaching others about sexual spirituality, but there's very little sacred in the book. The irony is that she claims in the book that tantra is 90% spiritual and 10% physical--but the book is the opposite of that.
Anand (not her real name) I guess is known as a teacher and trainer of those looking for sensual connections that are deeper than just physical (she claims to be the founder of modern tantra in the West but nothing here indicates she should be proud of that). The book shows that she is almost all about the physical. She doesn't mention a person in the book without describing them in great physical detail, including the way they dress or wear makeup or cut their hair, and it underlines how shallow the author is.
She is attracted to pretty much every man mentioned, including her "spiritual leaders," then gets angry when they act physical toward her. It comes across as very anti-male because she blames men for her own problems. She's very much a hypocrite, particularly when it comes to the men she partnered with. She's intentionally vague about who she married or specific timelines, but in every case she finds one major thing wrong with a man, though often she plants the seeds of the problem herself.
So she goes on an LSD trip, where she can't recall most specifics, but feels she was screwed by the spiritual leader that was guiding her. She eventually calls it rape but does nothing about it and fails to admit that she could have started the sexual session during her mind-blown acid trip. Then a longtime partner is given permission to do anything he wants with her physically, and as part of the play he starts spanking her hard. She eventually calls it sexual abuse but fails to acknowledge that he was just doing what he thought she gave him permission to do.
The author is one really messed-up woman and shouldn't be leading anything. The story of her teaching her first tantra seminar reveals a real lapse in judgment and she herself could be blamed for causing the abuse and rape of others.
Worst is Chapter Eight--the one she proclaims as the greatest in the book--entitled "The Guru Between My Legs." It's basically her going nude in front of a large group of people so her male lover can cause her to have an angry orgasm for others to copy. And her lover is not her partner--at one point she has sex with two guys at the same time and ends up keeping them both for awhile. It's truly bizarre.
This is not the book to read if you want to know anything about tantra. It's confusing, illogical, overly emotional, and in many ways disgusting human behavior in the name of freedom. It is also offensive in many spots, and she feels the need to repeatedly condemn Western morality and Christianity. She claims all her "mad life" has been devoted to her "mission to heal sexual ignorance." Instead it reads like she's just incredibly horny and never really finds fulfillment in all the men she gives her body to. She needs a lot of true healing.