Thanks to Random House UK, Cornerstone (Penguin) and NetGalley for the opportunity of reading this ARC! The review is personal and unaltered by external factors.
5/5
“We Only Have The Summer” by Paige Toon is an adult romance novel focusing on grief, the art of dance, and the psychological surroundings of those in art who suffer through the tumultuous emotions of having and losing a partner, along with the spark of healing and change opening up to others can offer. The emotional enrichment of the heroine, a professional dancer named Maddie, is at the centre of this novel, and it is expertly portrayed through her mental breakdown caused by severe grief and revival from her own ashes.
The plot is relatively simple; Maddie goes to her deceased partner’s favourite location in his native Canada, as to feel closer to him again and attain a certain closure before going on tour again. However, life is not that simple, as she encounters someone who feels like home from the very start: Miles. For the first time since Beau’s death, Maddie feels safe, and, furthermore, for the first time in what seems to be forever, our heroine feels understood without having to justify herself or try to mould herself according to her surroundings. Consequently, while straightforward in regards to action, the plot is very much character driven, the psychological evolution of Maddie being the focus of the novel. The major plot twist was not particularly mind-bending, nonetheless, as previously mentioned, since the characters themselves are the focus, their reactions to the revelation being what mattered and not the revelation itself.
« I adored the feeling of being in control while losing myself completely, of being elevated above the normal stresses and strains of everyday life. »
Maddie’s character as a dancer, as an artist, as someone who feels life very intensely was absolutely amazing. As someone who was part of and in contact with the dancing scene, I found her artistic side extremely well-portrayed, and her effervescent expressions and feelings towards the art of dancing especially well-depicted. Paige Toon managed to capture the mind of an artist who is eaten away and possessed by their art remarkably well. The feeling of loss and confusion after disconnecting with something so quintessentially part of oneself was, in equal amounts, excellently portrayed. Maddie’s grief combined with her loss of self as both a woman and an artist was heartbreaking to read, vivid and consuming, creating an empathy-filled tenderness towards the heroine. Her evolution was well done, her reconnecting with her own self and her living up to the concept of change.
Miles was equally well-portrayed, the business analyst with an artist’s soul, finding life empty of meaning until he reconnects with the process of creating music, art, an expression of his very soul, as he finds meaning and hope within Maddie. His son, Kai, acts as a bridge between the two of them at times, but he represents an extension of Miles himself, a young artist seeking the very meaning of art, trying to express himself through dance.
The relationship between Maddie and Miles was healing and tender; although a bit quick, it was not dissonant with their characters’ parameters. In the end, they are both artists who feel and experience much deeper and passionate and consuming than others. Their relationship advancement reflected that particularly well. Beautiful chemistry, soft and suave, yet not lacking in passion and desire at any given point.
The memory of Beau as a recurring and haunting motif was excellent as well; soul-shattering and heartbreaking but extremely beautiful. A great character as well, complex and passionate.
« I felt it all with him: attraction, exhilaration, uncertainty, fear, hope . . . I’d never existed in such an acute way. The feeling was addictive. »
The prose is first person narration from Maddie’s perspective and, throughout all the novel, reflects the heroine’s mental state very well. Maddie’s moments of panic, grief, spiralling and completely losing herself to pain were excellently depicted, the fractured mental state and forcing herself to normalcy to becoming one with her new self being reflected in the prose at all times, her vocabulary itself becoming more and more intense as her mental state shifts.
As far as recommendations go, all I can say is that the author is special to me. After experiencing Sophie Kinsella and Lauren Weisberger’s novels as a teenager, it has been hard for me to reconnect with contemporary romance. In 2017, I randomly picked up “The One We Fell in Love With” because I liked the cover and the premise written on the back and, well, Paige Toon made me love love again. Read this book if you want a delicate yet sparkling experience in one afternoon, one weekend, or, perhaps, save it for when your heart needs some healing.