The Game Series, #16 • Standalone Duet • Book 1 of 2 • Hurt/Comfort • Family • Dom/Dom • Opposites Attract • Angst Ash and Nathan’s story begins on a blistering day in Philadelphia, with a rough-around-the-edges scaffolder yelling outside the office of a trauma specialist. Psychology major Nate decides to give this brute a piece of his mind.
The friends who told me to move on didn’t have a clue what they were talking about. Moving on wasn’t happening—and I knew that better than anyone after being trapped at the bottom of a heartbreak for an excruciating year now, where I had nothing but crippling anxiety and our memories to torture me. Everything we’d built, the family we’d created, the pictures, that damn National Parks passport, the ring on my finger, echoes of laughter and promises… I’d been there, watching you, being your test subject, as you’d become the rope rigger you were today. With amusement glinting in your eyes, you’d called me the OG bondage bunny. Me, the primal predator, who thought about chasing brats through the woods, your bondage bunny. We’d given each other laugh lines. We’d loved so damn hard. We’d stood in front of our friends and family and vowed to fight for us forever.
Almost twenty years together. Four beautiful children.
What the hell happened, Nate?
You didn’t have to tell me. I already knew. I was a coward. I’d let my fears hold us back.
The question now was if I still stood a chance, because…frankly, living without you was impossible.
I'm often stoically silent or, if the topic interests me, a chronic rambler. In other words, I can discuss writing forever and ever. Fiction, in particular. The love story—while a huge draw and constantly present—is secondary for me, because there's so much more to writing romance fiction than just making two (or more) people fall in love and have hot sex. There's a world to build, characters to develop, interests to create, and a topic or two to research thoroughly. Every book is a challenge for me, an opportunity to learn something new, and a puzzle to piece together. I want my characters to come to life, and the only way I know to do that is to give them substance—passions, history, goals, quirks, and strong opinions—and to let them evolve. Additionally, I want my men and women to be relatable. That means allowing room for everyday problems and, for lack of a better word, flaws. My characters will never be perfect.
Wait…this was supposed to be about me, not my writing.
I'm a writey person who loves to write. Always wanderlusting, twitterpating, kinking, and geeking. There's time for hockey and cupcakes, too. But mostly, I just love to write.
Duplicate review as the previous edition is apparently no longer available for review!
I absolutely loved this but it's not a 5* read for me because - honestly - I'm not sure why it's been split into two books.
I know Cara talked about the length of it meaning she needed to split it, but this one's only around 280 odd pages (on my Kindle count anyway) and it only took me a couple of hours to read it (and yes I am a fast reader).
However, as this is all the lead up to the point at which we know Ash and Nathan from the previous The Game books, I can accept that it makes sense to split at this point and then the second half of the story be how they find their way back to each other.
It's beautifully written, it's an angsty journey because you know you're reading them falling in love and then getting the journey of how they came to be apart at the current state of play in this series.
It's heartbreaking because you can empathise and sympathise with both men, neither is right, neither is wrong, their relationship has hit an impasse that seems impossible to resolve and yet both men are still blindingly in love with each other.
There's some ideas of where the narrative might be going to go and I have to say I am definitely here for that and I am so looking forward to seeing just how Cara manages to guide these two back together and into their new look family future.
#ARC kindly received from the author via Give Me Books, I am voluntarily leaving a review
Omg Cara Dee!!! You have outdone yourself. Love and all its ecstatic highs and devastating debilitating lows across time. What a thing to read and witness. How beautiful is Ash and Nate’s story.
These two - I love them, how unbelievably young when they meet, how floored they are with each other tumbling head on into lust love and friendship. Building a life, growing together. But there are cracks in that foundation that never got addressed - cause life life is just moving and running and taking over as it does
I think what really got me is how relatable how believable their journey is. The author explores the nuances in a relationship so perfectly - no mater how strong the love is how it can bend and break.
It’s no secret that I love the Game Series and this is definitely a kinky romance with all the found family and kink exploration and dynamics we love and expect from the series. And like all the books in the series Cara Dee gives this one a fresh relationship to follow a new lens to look at love in all it’s forms with all it’s permissiblity.
There is no way encompass the experience of reading this into a right coherent review so I’m just going to touch on some more things I loved
Obviously Ash’s energy and big heart and dominance. Nate’s caring love and deep waters and courage. The family they built, those kids are precious. James and Jordan——- LOVE THEM. House McLean and seeing Noa and Cam and KC and Colt and Greer again, seeing their journey over time too. Kyle 🥰. The pacing is sublime, so much packed into this story and it flows seamlessly. I’ll say it again - OUTDONE YOURSELF.
I am dying to see the rest of the journey, I miss Nate and Ash and everyone else already 😭😭. This book is so emotional in such a real way, I knew it was going to hurt but not this much and I need some of that comfort that’s coming
This has turned into quite a ramble.
TLDR: highly recommend reading if you love hurt comfort love across time watching a relationship unfold and soulmates find each other, tonnes of pining, kink, white hot sexy times and found family, beautifully written, relationship in crisis, HEA coming next.
I love Dee's The Game Series and one of the things that keeps me coming back is the anticipation that characters we get intriguing sketches of in other books would someday take center stage in a book of their own. Ash has been one of those characters particularly in a few of the more recent releases. In this first book in a planned duology, we get the twenty year love story of Ash and Nathan. The first meeting. The immediate connection. The marriage and becoming fathers. And... the exploration of kink. These two get on really well and compliment each other in all ways except they're both Doms and that they don't have common kinks. Nathan is one to explore his passion and over the years becomes an expert Rigger. Ash meanwhile has shoved his Daddy Dom into a corner and hasn't even tried to explore it. This is the crux of the problem with these two. Nathan wants his husband to be a full and fulfilled person especially because he believes wholeheartedly that he and Ash can tackle any possible complications or issues as they're super strong. Ash is the complete opposite and is so paralysed by possible complications that he's never willing to try and thinks it doesn't/hasn't had an effect on his relationship with Nathan but it has. Over the years this divide widens. Nathan and Ash as great fathers to their four adopted children and successful in their jobs but they are growing apart as a couple.
I found this book interesting in that the conflict is not a very common one in romance but is probably very common in life. I think we all to a large degree wall off parts of ourselves in order to go along even if we know we're not fulfilled. I loved that Nathan cared enough about Ash, their family and himself to want more for Ash. I do wish that we got more exploration of how Ash's unexpressed dominance made Nathan feel. Also, Ash's fear makes him afraid to really communicate with his husband and leads to prideful and rash decisions. It was a bit hinted at that Nathan didn't care to be put in a somewhat submissive role but I think the story could've benefitted from more examples of how and why Nathan felt so strongly in his position. It could seem that Nathan was nitpicking but that's only because that aspect, which again is the crux of their problems, wasn't explored or explained enough. When this book ends, the two have been together twenty years and are heading for divorce, which is sad because we've gone on this journey with them. I'm really looking forward to book 2 so that Ash can get his head out of his bum and see why Nathan was so adamant and then despondent when he got nothing from Ash for years. I want book 2 NOW because these two love and need each other. June feels so far away! Recommend.
As always, Cara Dee delivers a beautifully devastating story, one that breaks your heart and somehow makes you smile through the tears. She has this incredible ability to balance heavy, emotional moments with humor and lightness, and this book hits hard in all the right places. The longing and pining between Ash and Nate is on another level. You feel every glance, every hesitation, every unspoken word. Cara writes in a way that makes you experience every tiny emotion alongside the characters and it’s immersive in the best (and most painful) way. True to her style, she seamlessly threads connections to beloved characters from The Game Series while bringing in fresh perspectives that keep the story feeling new and exciting. I especially loved seeing familiar characters through new POVs, it adds so much depth to a world that already feels rich and lived in. The Game Series has become one of my ultimate comfort series because every character feels like a friend. This book is no exception. Highly recommend but just make sure you have tissues ready.
Emotional, beautiful, heartbreaking. But hope at the end of the tunnel. I loved seeing all of Ash and Nathan’s memories and I can’t wait to see what they become in book 2!
The Memories We Made absolutely wrecked me in the best possible way. This book dives into their past, showing the moments that shaped them and the relationship that grew between them long before we ever met them in the present timeline where theh are divorced. Knowing where things eventually end up makes every moment hit harder, and the emotional weight of their history is impossible to ignore.
We’ve caught small glimpses of these characters in previous books, but never enough to really know them. Still, they definitely caught my attention back then, and I’ve been curious about them ever since. Getting to finally see their story,or at least the beginning of it , felt incredibly rewarding. Cara Dee took those brief appearances and turned the characgers into something so rich and emotional that you instantly understand why their story needed to be told.
Cara Dee has a way of writing relationships that feel incredibly real, and this one pulls you straight into the characters’ hearts. The vulnerability, the longing, the quiet moments of connection, it all builds into something that feels deeply personal. More than once I found myself completely caught up in the emotions, feeling every step of their journey with them.
And honestly… it’s almost diabolical that this is only part one. Ending it where she did and making us wait for the continuation should be illegal. The story is so gripping that the moment it ended I just wanted to immediately dive into part two.
This might honestly be Cara Dee’s best book yet. If I could give it more than five stars I absolutely would! And Infinity stars for the emotional damage and the brilliant storytelling.
My heart just hurts! Nate and Ash just were so beautiful and sweet until their problem grew and infected the rest of their life but their love never faded, never diminished. While they are fighting the good fight in politics and becoming dads, my heart soared and it hurt. This story starts off in the past from where the games are taking place pretty far, and we get to see Nate and Ash’s story start in Philly and take them to Boston before coming to the outskirts of DC, where we first met them. They are on the front lines of the equal rights fights and politics, to fight for their right to get married and have a family. Their struggles are many and great but through it all, they have each other. But these guys are two Tops, two Doms, and they don’t want a third, so trying to mesh their wants and dreams with their core kinks is hard, harder for Ash than for Nate but still hard all the same. Their journey is so beautiful, I absolutely loved it and felt their struggle so hard. These two are perfect for each other and I can’t wait to see what is in store for them and the healing they may find. I devoured this book, I could not put it down, stayed up til 4am to finish and then wrote my thoughts really quickly before finally succumbing to sleep, and honestly I’m still stuck with these guys, I’m not ready to move on. I want more (and can’t wait to get it). Wonderfully written, as always Cara Dee never disappoints me, I love the game series, I can’t get enough of Mclean House and all the brats and sadists and every other kinky member.
This book will gobble you up and in the best way possible.
I’m talking nonstop tears. There were so many moments where I just sat there thinking, why are they doing this to us?
The super cute way they meet. The author somehow managed to captures nearly two decades of love, pain, growth, and devotion into this 300 pages of book and it was chef’s kiss. I loved each and every bit piece of Nathan and Ash story and before this Ash was my favorite. But after reading this Nathan, my love — you’re the one.
I feel like he’s so misunderstood by the others. He’s such a deep hearted person and his love for Ash goes beyond.
This is a full-on heartache romance and If you’re looking for something that will make you cry and whisper “why, why, why” to yourself at 2 a.m., this is it.
I’m definitely going to be thinking about this book nonstop until the next one comes up.
How can a read be so beautiful and still crack my heart? When this author writes it, that’s how.. They had everything, well almost. The wanted children and it was a difficult road. But they had them, four children! They wanted to explore their kinks together.
Fuck, stop pushing, please! I’m gonna cry and won’t recover until book two of this duet is out!!
Unfortunately this wasn’t the book for me. Which is surprising since Cara is usually one of my go to writers. I found the story forced. That the problem between Ash and Nate was manufactured and fake. A problem that they both bought into just for the sake of drama.
Eh not all books resonate with everyone. Won’t stop me from picking up a different book from her in the future!
So, I'm rating this book four stars for the character depth, pacing, the fact that it's well written, mostly kept my interest till the end, and that I was invested in the characters. The fact that Nate raised my blood pressure, well that's something else altogether.
I really tried to understand Nate's point of view, especially since he's a psychologist who, no doubt, places great value in knowing and exploring oneself. On the other hand, his whole insistence that Ash That man was perfectly fine being a husband and father and meeting up with kinky friends here and there. Whether or not that changed in the future could have been managed with a, 'Ok, if you ever feel like you want to blah blah, promise me you'll come to me and we'll have a conversation about it. Lasagna ok for dinner?" That's it!! Nate's insistence made no sense at all, was frankly weird, and then he had the gall to be upset when Ash finally started putting himself out there. Umm isn't that what YOU wanted?? Ash gave him multiple chances to just scrap the whole thing and for them to be together. The whole thing pissed me off. Now that I think about it, it makes me dislike Nate even more; the fact that he's a psychologist makes the whole thing even more egregious.
It's always weird when I get to a point in a book where I stop loving the relationship and I'm perfectly fine with one of the partners being with someone else, and that's how I feel here. Ash deserves better. Alas, he still loves Nate, so I guess I'll have to power through Book 2 where they find their way back to each other, with modifications. I guess we'll find out.
Either way, kudos for a book that had my emotions running high, even if it was me being pissed off at times lol. After about 60%, I stopped reading the italics at the end of each chapter. I was too annoyed.
Nathan and Ash's story is split into two books, this being the first part. You could read this as a standalone since it really focuses on Nathan and Ash's relationship from its start to its current state. If you're a fan of the author, you have probably been waiting for this story; many in the community believe these two belong together and occasionally mention it. The story spans 20 years, so be ready for time jumps as we get to see them at the various stages of their relationship.
I won't say that this was an easy story to read, as it lays out years of building and breaking down a relationship. I loved how early on they were good about communicating and working together, but it was easy to see where the cracks were probably going to form. Their love is so strong, and it was hard to watch their relationship suffer and start falling apart. They have been through so much and have always been each other's strength, but this lingering, long, festering denial is metaphorically killing them both. I didn't find myself disliking either Nathan or Ash; instead hoping that they find their way forward together in the next book. I was equally mad at both of them at times for the lack of communication when they could have used it the most. They lived busy lives with their family, and they were great parents, but they needed to embrace and find ways to be whole. Like many characters in this series, finding the way to fulfill their wants and needs isn't always easy or straightforward, and they were fracturing instead of working together like they had for so long. It was hard to see a relationship so beautiful and strong fall apart.
I can't say that I left the book with hope, but based on past reads from the author, I have no doubt that she will find a way for these two to deal with their roadblocks and be stronger together than ever. If ever two people deserved a happily ever after, it's Nate and Ash. I can't wait for their second book and the rest of their story.
*Copy provided to Bayou Book Junkie for my reading pleasure. A review wasn't a requirement.*
I'm thinking it would have been a lot better to read this book right before the second one came out so I could read them both together. As it stands, I'm not really agreeing with what other reviewers are saying about this being so emotional and heartbreaking and etc. I am confused. It seems like Nathan caused all these problems because of the way the story has been written. Nathan says that Ash is repressing his daddy side, but we never see that on the page. Nathan says that Ash is going to lash out and pick at him and be mean to him because Ash is in pain, but we never see that on the page. The decision to separate was really quick and seemingly came from nowhere. And it didn't really make sense because we never saw any of these problems Nathan is saying there is on the page. Ash asks Nathan to get back together three times in this book, and Nathan says he can't because Ash is repressing himself. And yet in all the time they were apart, Ash still never tried to do what Nathan thinks he needs to do to be, I don't know, better than who he is now? There isn't really anything about kink in this book besides saying that Ash is a primal daddy or whatever and Nathan likes rope. So maybe it makes sense in the author's head, but it didn't come across on the page. I wasn't feeling it, and I don't know what was so heartbreaking or emotional about this when it doesn't really make sense. That's the difference between telling and showing. I think I'll read the next one and then maybe I can revise the opinion on this book but probably not, because she made the choice to split them up this way and I don't think it worked.
Cara Dee returns to The Game universe with Part I of Nathan and Ash's story, The Memories We Made: Remembering Us. This is book 16 in the series and would be best enjoyed with prior reading. This portion of Nathan and Ash's story tells readers the story of how the pair got to the point where we know them to be in the present. The story is told in vignette-type moments of peering into their shared lives at various points along the timeline leading to current day.
This story is the hurt portion of the hurt-comfort. I wouldn't blame anyone at all for waiting for both parts to be available since this portion is emotionally heavy as it navigates Nathan and Ash's separation. It is evident to the reader that these men belong together, but are being hardheaded on both sides. There is a lot of fear on Ash's part with navigating newness and risking his relationship with Nathan. Meanwhile, Nathan doesn't know how to ensure that Ash gets the satisfaction he needs without pushing for change. It's the strangest of Catch-22s with an obvious solution. It simply isn't easy. Nathan and Ash also navigate co-parenting as they attempt to figure out their places in each others' lives.
There is no satisfying ending here. Part II will undoubtedly supply that. But this book provides all the background and set up required to make Nathan and Ash's story not only make sense, but also resonant emotionally.
I will certainly be sat and eagerly awaiting Part II.
This arc was provided to me free of charge in return for an honest review. These opinions are my own.
On the surface this isn't the sort of book I'd normally gravitate towards. I am not generally someone who likes/wants to read about the intricacies or a marriage and raising children. That said, I have read Cara Dee's work many times in the past. I like her character work a lot and I'm a big fan of this series.
Like with the previous books, I think she created a great couple. I like that we get to know them as individuals and together. While I don't particularly care about marriage troubles, I cared about theirs. They were a compelling pair and their struggles were heartbreaking. Particularly as they're trying to figure things out. I do appreciate that it wasn't all sadness though. It could've been easy to make this a very depressing book.
My one grievance, and it's a bit of a big one, is that it feels incomplete. I acknowledge that it's largely in part because it is a duology. However, the way that it's written as a countdown implies a lead up to something we don't see. Also, because of that approach, it feels less like a cliffhanger and like more an abrupt stop. This particular choice might work for some people but I didn't particularly like it. That said - I will absolutely be back to see where it goes because I do want to see how it plays out. So I suppose if that was the goal Cara Dee succeeded.
Ash and Nathan’s story begins on a scorching day in Philadelphia, when a rough‑edged scaffolder shouting outside a trauma specialist’s office pushes psychology major Nate to confront him. From there, Ash’s perspective reveals the depth of his heartbreak: after nearly twenty years together, four children, and a lifetime of shared memories, he’s been drowning in anxiety and grief since their split. He blames himself for letting fear sabotage their marriage, and living without Nate has become unbearable. Now, desperate and determined, Ash is ready to fight for the man he still loves — hoping it isn’t too late to win him back.
This story was absolutely packed with emotion. The deep love between Ash and Nathan is undeniable, and that’s what makes the heartbreak hit even harder — because this isn’t a story with a happy ending, at least not yet. Their determination to be good parents, to protect their children from the fallout of their broken relationship, was powerful and beautifully written. I loved how clearly their feelings came through on the page. Every emotion — grief, longing, regret, love — was so easy to feel and understand. The writing made their pain real, and their devotion to their family even more moving. It’s a heartbreaking story, but one that completely pulled me in. I can’t wait to read the next book in this duology and see where their journey leads. This was an MM story with mature content and BDSM-like dynamics.
Nearly all of the books I choose to read have happy endings, and while I know ultimately Nate and Ash will get theirs, Part I of their story is precisely why second chance is one of my favorite tropes.
I was giddy and smitten alongside Ash after his first encounter with Nate. I swooned with Nate when he realized how far Ash would go just to spend an evening together (20 pizzas!). I marched right next to them in their fight for equality, and cried (then celebrated!) with them through all the heartbreak that led them to fatherhood. I watched them as new fathers..the perfect team. I watched their kids grow up. I saw firsthand, over time, as a small crack in their foundation slowly became a chasm neither one knew how to repair. I was there for every part of their relationship and how it shaped them into who they are today.
I prefer to read books that I know will have a happy ending. And while technically The Memories We Made did not end with an HEA, I already know that because Cara took us on this journey of their lives together, the happy ending will feel so much sweeter and so much more meaningful after witnessing the beginning and (almost) ending of their love story. I cannot wait until these two find their way back to each other for good.
I received a free copy of this book via Booksprout and am voluntarily leaving a review.
The Memories We Made: Remembering Us by Cara Dee is the sixteenth book in this exceptional The Game Series and the first part of Nathan and Ash’s duet. While it’s part of a larger series, the focus here is very much on their history and how a chance clash in Philadelphia between a blunt scaffolder and a determined psychology student turns into a relationship that spans nearly twenty years.
The story unfolds through a series of moments across their lives together, showing the growth of their relationship, their family, and the memories they’ve built. Seeing those milestones makes the present-day separation between them hit even harder. It’s clear they still care deeply for each other, but fear, miscommunication, and changing needs have left them stuck in a painful stalemate.
Cara does what she excels at and leans heavily into the emotional “hurt” side of the story and doesn’t offer a full resolution yet, keeping us absolutely engrossed and sets up the background and stakes for what comes next, leaving us with a deeper understanding of Ash and Nathan’s bond and plenty of anticipation for the second half of their journey. Cannot wait!.
I received a free copy of this book via Booksprout and am voluntarily leaving a review.
I had all the feeIs when reading this book. The beginning of their love story was beautiful, the way they loved each other and their children was inspiring. Some parts of the book I got so frustrated with either Ash or Nathan I wanted to shout! All in all Cara dee managed to take me on quite an emotional journey which made me wish their story was all in one book and I didn’t have to wait months for the rest of the story!
If you have read the previous games series books you are already aware of both characters and have a bit of information about their situation, in my opinion this book provides you with a backstory to characters that we have encountered before in previous books but this time we were given the backstory and more context as well as the story behind all of the little glimpses in previous books. Overall, I think it is a great opener to the Ash and Nathan story and I cannot wait to see how they ended up figuring things out. I am also excited to find out how the other two characters fits into the equation.
I received a free copy of this book via Booksprout and am voluntarily leaving a review.
Cara Dee once again delivers an emotional and beautifully written story. She has a special talent for balancing heartbreak with warmth, and this book definitely pulls at the heart while still leaving you with a sense of hope.
Ash and Nate’s story feels incredibly real. Their connection, the quiet longing between them, and the weight of their shared history make the emotions very easy to feel as a reader. Cara Dee writes relationships in such an immersive way that even the smallest moments carry a lot of meaning.
I also loved returning to the world of The Game Series. Seeing familiar characters again and getting small glimpses of them from different perspectives adds even more depth to a universe that already feels rich and lived in. It is one of the reasons this series has become such a comfort read for me.
This book focuses heavily on the emotional journey and clearly sets up the rest of Ash and Nate’s story, so the ending leaves you wanting more. I am very curious to see where their journey goes next.
Oh my gosh - this book is so raw, emotional, relatable, heartbreaking, and honest!!!
Cara got me with how well she wrote about Ash loving Nate so much, he gave up a part of himself for his soulmate - and was happy and would happily do it for the rest of his life!
But Nate worrying that Ash would regret it later caused so much of a rift and uncertainty; they are very cordially and ever-so-slowly parting ways, after almost 20 years together. The longing, yearning and pining for each other during this process is excruciating for both of them. The flashbacks and memories accentuate that hurt so much more. And I felt it right along with them.
I need the second part of their story "The Time We Have Left" like right NOW!!!! I need to know how these two are going to come out on the other side/recover from this!!!!.
I received a free copy of this book via Booksprout and am voluntarily leaving a review.
I received a free copy of this book via Booksprout and am voluntarily leaving a review.
This book was a really interesting look into the complexities of relationships and compatibility. The characters in this book are almost perfect for each other in every way, the problem in their relationship occurs with their sexual compatibility in relation to kink. Neither of them need or want to have a full time dynamic (and they have a fulfilling sex life), but for the most part they are unable to engage with the kink dynamic they identify as due to incompatible desires.
I found this really compelling, especially as a reader who does not usually read books with kink; I found the premise and dynamic unique. There were times the main characters bothered me, communication was a big issue, but I understood where the characters were coming from.
I look forward to the follow up book and would highly recommend.
I thought I knew what was coming. I thought I was prepared. Cara just ripped my heart out.
How can two people fit so easily together, building a seemingly perfect life, only for small cracks to appear and threaten everything Nathan and Ash hold dear?
Their love is beautiful to see, their pain felt so real. I wanted to pick them up, hug them and told them everything would be okay. That this was not the end of their love story. Even though this book ends with their relationship having been brought to the breaking point. I have to trust Cara to put everything right again in the next book, giving Nathan and Ash their happy ending.
This story is about how Nathan and Ash got to know each other over the years. There are some mentions from other characters featuring in the Game Series, but the story is written in the past. I think the next book will pick up in the present and we might even get the next Game in House McLean!
I feel like I need to warn you: this book will break your heart into tiny pieces. I honestly had to take a break from reading because it was too painful seeing two men who are clearly meant for each other, and still in love, being apart. I wanted to put them in a room and not let them out until they were back together.
They were so beautiful together, both as partners and as parents. I desperately want to read the second book; I need to see them get their happily ever after back. Nate and Ash are wonderful characters, relatable and lovable. They feel like real people, and I connected with them instantly.
I love how the author writes second chance romance, and I love reading books about married couples. This was heartbreaking but perfect. I just really, really, really need the next book!
I'm the first to admit that while I really enjoy the author's books, sometimes they are lacking in feeling, romance, connection. And I get it since most are BDSM. But this book, this was all of the things I was missing and then some.
The way it started 20 years ago... Plenty of story before time jumping. The jumps never felt abrupt. They were all at exactly the right time. Like a retrospective of them meeting, falling in love and building their loves together. And with that there wasn't a ton of outside filler. The story focused on Nate and Ash.
I loved the italicized paragraphs at the end of a chapter. A diary of sorts, recognizing how great they were, but also where the cracks started.
You think they are a perfect couple. But no couple is perfect.
Ok it’s Cara Dee so I guess that by the end of part two of this story about Ash and Nathan they will be happy again, but she tore my heart out with this book. She is so good at writing this type of thing and her characters and their relationships always feel so real. I could empathize with these two guys because even though I’m a girl married to a guy I can relate to a lot of their problems. Not the one that breaks them apart, but I do like to read about that type of activity (If you know Ms Dee’s writing you know what I mean by activity!). Block out a time to read this book because you will not want to be interrupted and have lots of tissues handy because she will wring out all of the feels from your heart. Also I need book two as soon as possible.
I got a copy of this book through Booksprout and this is my honest review.
I knew going into this book that my heart was going to be broken. It's part of the story it wasn't a surprise, but that doesn't make it hurt any less. Nate and Ash were such great partners for each other with similar goals and values. I loved getting to see them meet, fall in love and start their family. Cara Dee did the magic she does and in just a few pages I was fully invested in these two. Which is why watching them consciously uncouple hurt so much. The love is always there, but the values, the goals, their focus shifted and watching them wade through the quicksand of their break up over time is absolutely devastating in the best way, because I know part II will stitch me back up. I need the aftercare that Part II will bring and the waiting is going to be excruciating.
I received an ARC of this book and voluntarily give my honest review.
My heart cannot take this book, yet I loved it with everything I am.
Nate and Ash a beautifully written characters who love and hurt deeply. Their lives over the 18 years of this book have some of the happiest of times and some of the saddest times. The truly see each other and are afraid of what they might lose if they give into their kink or ignore it.
Their path is one that shows you that no matter how well intentioned you are with your love and understanding it can still crack the bonds that hold you together.
I cried so much during this book wishing they could see the light at the end of the tunnel. Sometimes we have to go through the pain to get to the happy ending. I cannot wait for their second book to come out.