It's always amazing how you can open up a book you haven't read in awhile, a little fuzzy on what the story was about, and within a few pages everything comes back crystal clear.
It's like this with Guilty from the Nightmare Hall series.
Haven't read it in a long time, finally found a copy and it's like it hasn't been since 1997 that I last read this book. Yes I know that is a very long time and I am really old but my five star rating still stands after reading it.
If you read the back of the book and then start it proper and become a little confused it might be a bit spoilerific but here goes...
Katherine Sullivan is at orientation for her freshman year at Salem University but her family and best friend Allen Caine call her "Kit". She's dressed nicely but a little bit nervous yet she's always been that way so it's not just starting college but Allen has always been good at making friends and making Kit feel included.
That happens when Kit sees Allen talking to a good-looking, muscular boy with curly, brown hair and glasses and they head over toward her. Allen introduces him as Robert Browne but he prefers to be called "Brownie" and he is flirty and charming, claiming love at first sight.
Kit can't help but blush but when her roommate, LuAnn Price, accidentally bumps into Allen's arm and apologizes it saves Kit from total embarrassment. They talk until Brownie notices his sophomore sister, Caroline, and calls her over. She goes by "Callie" and her personality is a joking one but full of affection towards her brother and it seems as if Callie is open to Kit being close to Brownie.
They soon add another person to their group, Davis Teale, who is a sophomore like Callie. Davis and Brownie become really good friends, LuAnn and Allen go on a few dates, Davis and Callie hook up and Kit becomes Brownie's girlfriend. They are complete opposites but Kit can't help but feel a rush that such an outgoing guy picked a quiet girl such as her...it's love.
The kind of book we are in...you know it won't last.
A trip to go for a canoe ride on the Salem River just the two of them turns from a romantic idea to a nightmare as recent rains make the river swell and whip up the current of the water into muddy rapids. Kit and Brownie are thrown into the water and Brownie is able to get Kit out of the water and to land as their friends rush back from going on a hike. Brownie loses his grip and is soon swept back into the river and it is the last time Kit sees him alive.
His body is found drowned.
A month after Brownie's funeral, there is a big change that has come over Katherine Sullivan. She no longer goes by Kit but has her friends call her Katie and she is no longer a shy, worry-wart wallflower.
Her hair is permed, she wears makeup and stays out late. The neat and organized girl who unpacked her things so meticulously on that first day now lives in a pigsty where she can't see the floor or find anything to LuAnn's disgust.
Katie does her school work so she won't flunk out because for two weeks, she took a break from school and got behind. Yet she doesn't eat and Katie's friends don't talk about Brownie to keep her from getting even more upset. Any mention of a word close to how he died, Katie feels like she may collapse in never-ending tears.
She has become frivolous...almost the attitude of her late boyfriend who was never afraid of anything. Katie says life is too short and anytime she isn't moving around, all she thinks about is how she blames herself for Brownie drowning.
He was a good swimmer but getting her to the bank...that caused him to be swept away and drowned beneath the waves.
When Katie leaves the movies with her friends, they arrive at her car and find the word GUILTY written in the muddy grime of Katie's car.
The others don't pay it any mind but it seems to make Katie paranoid and all the more driven to be the kind of crazy person she wished she could have been around Brownie more...constantly thinking about him teasing her for being so cautious.
Even to the point where Katie can hear his voice but it is full of either love or indifference...it's anger.
"It's all your fault!"
Everyone told her that is wasn't her fault that Brownie drowned but it seems that someone thinks Katie IS guilty. Her things start to go missing but it goes from papers for class to her wallet to even gas being drained from her car's tank.
Katie's grades start to slip, she drives around like a maniac getting traffic tickets, climbing fire escapes and all her friends can do is watch as she doesn't listen to a word they say. Yet when Katie gets attacked at the pool late at night, strong hands trying to pull her down and drown her, they all think it is her lack of sleep playing with her brain.
Is Katie truly going crazy or IS someone after her? Katie feels guilty enough and it has been decided by a person who sees themself as her judge, jury...executioner to put her out of her misery.
There are twists, there are reveals, there are red herrings and fake-outs...just so much I missed as a teen and see as an adult. Katie is suffering from survivor's guilt and having a complete change to her personality to compensate.
Her friends don't seem to be handling it very well. They placate her or berate her behavior or just seem to outright feel disgust more than compassion. LuAnn is the worst roommate because she just straight up leaves Katie to go be roommates with Linda Carlyle from the first book because they are on the swim team and besties.
Some people get pushed to the brink of their patience and I had two roommates in my college tenure. The first semester girl and I had our squabbles but at least she was nice enough when I was homesick. My second semester roommate was awful that when it was over, I hightailed it out leaving her only the microwave and fridge because the TV and computer were mine.
Third and final semester I had a single dorm to myself.
You might want to hate Katie but she isn't the worst one. We even get glimpses that Brownie wasn't so perfect either...he seemed to be real jealous if it looked like Katie was checking out another guy even if she wasn't. Also pushy as well which was bittersweet because if he had just let Katie be cautious Kit and listened to her doubts about going on the river, Brownie might still be alive but yet...how long would that relationship actually have lasted?
Toxic relationships and friendships...a lot to unpack in a YA thriller novel.
After The Roommate, I would say that Guilty is another one of those Nightmare Hall books that is my favorite. From the cover to the story, the atmosphere is full of suspense and terror.
Another recommendation worth the reading.