Crying on the Kitchen Floor: A Memoir

by Trisha Paytas

From THE Trisha Paytas comes a raw and uproarious memoir that finally sets the story straight.

No person has reinvented themselves more times than Trisha Paytas. Like a phoenix, she has risen from the ashes again and again – outliving social media platforms, navigating ill-fated and explosively popular podcasts and being on the wrong end of more messy feuds than she can count. As one of the world’s first influencers, she helped create the blueprint for a new kind of celebrity. But across a career marked by both dizzying highs and earth-shattering lows, one thing has remained What the hell was she thinking?

In Crying on the Kitchen Floor, Trisha sets out to answer this question once and for all by opening up like never before. She recounts in vivid, shocking detail how an insatiable need for fame led a quiet girl from the suburbs to life on the seedy streets of Hollywood. From dangerous encounters with potential serial killers, to abusive relationships with former child stars, infinite reality TV cameos, and ultimately, taking over the internet, Trisha’s desperate search for identity nearly cost her everything. Yet, after decades spent battling mental health issues and weathering endless cancellations, she somehow managed to fight her way to high ground as the world she helped build transformed beneath her feet.

Whether you’re a lifelong Trisha stan, or simply a child of the internet trying to make sense of the past three decades, this is a can’t-miss read from a true icon of our digital age.

Genres: Memoir, Nonfiction, Pop Culture

368 pages, Hardcover

Expected publication November 10, 2026

About the author

Trisha Paytas is a media personality known for shaping the modern creator landscape as one of the internet’s first influencers. She posted her first video on YouTube in 2007, just 2 years after the website’s inception, and has since amassed a devoted following of over 20 million fans across platforms. She has guest starred in more than 50 television shows and films, including Saturday Night Live, Celebrity Big Brother UK, and America’s Got Talent, with an appearance on Euphoria to come. She lives in Los Angeles with her husband Moses and their children Malibu Barbie, Elvis, and Aquaman.

Reviews

[Emma Griffioen]

I have never been so excited for a memoir in my life! Her title is perfect!

[Brenda]

i love you Jesus,,,, so excited for this memoir. please NetGalley/Hachette let me request an ARC please please please please please

[julianna ☽]

as someone who has been doing essentially nothing but crying on the floor this week, this was the announcement i needed to give me something to look forward to. if trisha was able to survive the consequences of all her bullshit PUBLICLY i can survive one little breakup.

[bunny ୨୧]

Please I will sell my soul for an arc please please please

[Lilah Whoop]

Trisha Paytas’s life is as scandalous and lavish as it can get in Hollywood. Trish always had a knack for the social life, especially on YouTube where she was able to gather a fan base with her “sexy” and “eccentric” videos. In her YouTube career she uploaded videos that some would deem infamous, others would deem groundbreaking.

Whether you’re in the mood for a Domino’s pizza mukbang, a teacher/student role-play, incestual mud wrestling promo for her OF, an “artistically” curated video of Jon Benêt Ramsay’s (yes, THAT Jon Benêt Ramsay) last night alive where Trish took creative liberties to be SA’ed by her father, or a family vlog with Trish’s 3 children and fostered dog, Moshe, you can find it all with Trisha Paytas! Can’t wait to read her upcoming memoir, it’ll be a rollercoaster for sure!! 🥳

[zac hary · Rating 5 out of 5]

Thank you Trisha

[madi]

I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR THIS ONE

[Samantha Cooper]

idc that it was very obviously ghostwritten, I was hooked from start to finish