I found Sigrid Berg’s book on Goodreads and, out of curiosity, read the “Look Inside” pages on Amazon:
“I wasn’t sure if she needed something. Or if she didn’t want to be alone. And worse, I wasn’t sure which would be harder to ignore.”
That was the moment I could no longer ignore Returning Sin. I could not not read it. I knew exactly what she was writing about: the countless rules, the sensory overwhelm, the longing for quiet. I recognized it, and in reading it, I was reminded of someone I knew. It is about control, holding it, losing it, and the thin line between the two.
A question for the author: does it help? Does it work?
I think the book answers that itself. It doesn’t. It didn’t in my experience either, at least not until it no longer mattered.
Reading it feels lively, fast paced and witty: “Her beauty was never the problem. Her not understanding was.”
The novel follows an asymmetrical relationship, an abuse of power. Berg has the rare ability to articulate feelings, thoughts, and chaos through the need for ritual and order. Things that seem meaningless to others but are vital to some, described with unusual clarity.
I have never seen the need for control analyzed with this precision. This is not only brave writing, not reckless. It feels inevitable. And it matters to anyone willing to enter another person’s mind and emotional intensity so completely, to finally see them.
After a few pages, I knew where this was heading. But Berg has the discipline to lay it out so that we not only see it, but feel it, experiencing the protagonist’s ritualized, everyday survival strategies. Sometimes painfully so.
This will not affect every reader in the same way. It is not a book for everyone. But that is precisely the point. Those who recognize these patterns will understand. Others may misread vulnerability and the desperate need for control as arrogance or strangeness, or perhaps stop doing so after reading it.
I have my own systems. Berg’s book interfered with them, painfully. Sixty-five characters per line is optimal, justified text, non-negotiable. Reading Berg disrupted that. It hurt, but mostly in a good way.
Structurally, the book consists of thirteen chapters, each introduced by a rune from the elder Futhark, in order of appearance, of course. I am no longer particularly interested in Norse mythology, but Berg clearly seems to understand the symbolic meaning of these signs. Each rune carries a narrative or energetic suggestion that leads into its chapter, though that is secondary. The thirteen chapters, in their totality, engage with the older symbolic meaning of the number, not the Christian one. I appreciated the reinterpretation of Baldur’s death and the way Berg connects it to her characters as a form of typological foreshadowing.
The novel operates within the territory of dark psychological fiction, with BDSM and LGBTQ themes. The runic structure echoes the Old English rune poems, though interpretation remains optional. For me, it wasn’t essential. I noted her affinity for Nordic mythology; her use of “Gods” rather than “God” did not distract.
This book is about something else entirely. It is about being seen behind walls as thick as a World War II bunker. About still being taken seriously. About being accepted in one’s vulnerability and brokenness.
Whatever you choose to call it, brave or not, it is necessary writing. A breath of fresh air in an increasingly AI-dominated indie landscape. This one is clearly on another level. And, not least, it is compelling to read.