I have so much to say about this book. I don’t even know where to start. Both of the books completely consumed me. I was living in their world.
„Shadows caressed the contours of her body and she was a living, breathing piece of art. Devastatingly beautiful. Both ethereal and real. A tangible dream.
More than anything though, it was the sparkle in her eyes. The brightness of who she was beneath all
of the physical beauty. The sharp wit. The fast humor.“
„This was what people didn’t understand about her.
This was the part of her often overlooked, buried by the lightness of her laughter and the animation of her stories. Underneath the genuine smile and joy was a bedrock of strength. She was steady, confident
and sure.“
„That woman has backbone. She seems easy-going, but she won’t put up with too much of your shit.
She’s patient, but has her limit. You need that.” I loved that Erin also saw the real Elle, not just the quirky journalist.
“It was nice to see that they didn’t underestimate her.” I loved this line from Amelia about Roslyn. She literally helped kill people, yet the book was still driven by such strong female characters.
„The door creaked open and Roslyn Hunt entered the room. Two young cops with terrified expressions flanked her. At first, I thought it was because of little ol’ me, but I realized that it was Roslyn who made them nervous.“
I know this was mainly a murder mystery and it was incredibly well thought out, but I’m just a sucker for the Elle & Roslyn storyline.
That being said, I still have to talk about the murder mystery. Being there for your partner through thick and thin… but helping your wife kill people because you still felt guilty for cheating on her? „So, he‘d helped her to kill. Because if he didn’t, she would find anothet man who would“.
The details of how Amelia, Lars, and Kevin killed all those people? Crazy haha. All because she was bored? She really should have picked up another hobby.
This scene had me laughing:
“In high school, I was a lanky, epileptic lesbian.” What a sentence.“ „I didn’t have any friends, unless you count my brother, which most people didn’t.” I shrugged. “I suppose I could’ve blamed the epilepsy, or being gay.” My mouth curved into a half-smile. “But honestly, the problem was my personality. To use your vernacular, I ‘was a real bitch’”
Gillian raised an eyebrow. “You sure about that past tense?”
My lips twitched into a full smile. “I didn’t grow out of the epilepsy or being gay either. At least I’m consistent.”
The way I nearly started crying when I thought the police officer had fucking shot Jasper. WTF.
But then Martha, the icon that she is, whacked him with her heavy diamond bag. ICONIC. I LOVE HER.
“Don’t worry,” I said. “I’m sure ingesting all the anti-aging creams you slather onto your face would kill him long before they’d get here.” Jasper let out a low woof as if in agreement.“
Yeah… I definitely cried at the end.
Roslyn giving up her entire career because she felt guilty about her brother’s death, knowing he had been on his way to see her perform. And she still performed even though he was in the hospital. „It would haunt me forever and it should“.
The way she described what she felt after he died…
„I’d dedicated my full self, my full soul, to dance in advance. I’d used up my entire emotional capacity in that pursuit. I felt everything out on stage instead of in the rest of my life.“
„Passion, empathy, pain, and happiness were all reserved for ballet.“
„For as much as I wanted to be a dancer, I needed to be a person first.“
„I deserve to suffer in my self-loathing because it was a valuable reminder of the kind of monster I could be. I would always hate that I had switched off my humanity for the sake of my career. I hated that I was able to. I had chosen a performance over the most important person in my entire life. I had made that choice easily. I had chosen to give in to my ambition over my humanity.“˙◠˙
This was the most vulnerable thing she had ever said to anyone, and she said it to Elle. It was heartbreaking and perfect at the same time. I felt every emotion while reading it. It was brilliantly written.
Elle, Roslyn, and Jasper.
I’ll be thinking about you for a long time. <3