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Solitude, the word carries abysmal depth, as if there’s silence, loneliness, sadness, longing, despair, melancholy, sorrow and grief hiding, shivering and trying to make themselves at home within the gaps of the letters.
Maybe when sadness and loneliness make love, Or maybe when loneliness has an affair with grief, Or maybe when sorrow and melancholy decide to hang out with despair. Or, just hear me out, maybe, just maybe, when longing stands in the rain for far too long waiting for love and finally decides to go home and wank the weariness away, is that how solitude is born?
I believe that sadness, loneliness, grief, despair, and solitude are true emotions that humans still have and are not able to fake for their benefit, yes looking at you “happiness”!
Deep within solitude there are different layers of grief, and in an attempt to ease the sorrow we seek solitude. But the irony is, the more we spend time alone, the more grief infests in the varied loneliest colors. Balzac once said, solitude is the best company when you have someone to share it with, otherwise it's just loneliness.
Correct me if I am wrong but two grieving individuals create the strongest bond, by healing each other in whichever way possible, because the one suffering only knows what the other’s suffering can be like. Only when you know, the other needs to hear a gentle song that you will yourself to sing gentle songs.
You and I have our own share of sufferings, grief, sadness, trauma, despair, bundled up and hidden in one corner, while we pretend to be okay, and function as an adult in the society. Even though the bundle bursts every night, with every morning we neatly bundle it again and go on with life as if nothing happened.
What is the use of words if they can’t help us communicate our emotions, have words really failed us or have we stopped listening closely, observing closely, sometimes emotions exist in the gaps of words, the silences between words.
All one has to do is listen carefully to the unspoken words, badly arranged words, harsh words, words hiding in the gestures, words pouring out of countenance, words that died on the lips, words that lost direction and words that wrap feelings more than meanings.