“A glorious novel that is as beautifully written as it is impossible to put down, a combination that requires a uniquely deft hand.” —Leila Mottley, New York Times bestselling author of Nightcrawling
A brilliantly provocative and compulsive novel in which a husband and wife conceive an unorthodox plan to preserve their late son’s memory, and bend the rules of motherhood to their will . . .
Georges is dead. Charlotte’s darling son has died, still dressed and lying on top of his sheets. It is 4 pm, and typically the 34-year-old would have already been downstairs for a sip of the coffee his mother has brewed for him. But today, he has drunkenly hit his head, fallen into an eternal sleep, and left her with only her adulterer husband for company. As Erik shuts himself in his office to pore over his spam mail and watch porn, Charlotte desperately casts around for any way through her immeasurable grief.
She reaches a chilling Erik, a surgeon, will harvest Georges’ sperm, and a surrogate will bring his baby into the world. Charlotte does not care who the surrogate is. All that matters is that she gets the chance to continue—reimagine—her son’s legacy. But as Charlotte’s plan develops, and she invites another woman into her home, the power quickly begins to slip out of her hands. And soon, an intoxicating cocktail of desire, desperation, and guilt forces the trio to What is the real price of a mother’s love?
Deliciously dark and unsettlingly funny, Compensation is a biting novel about those who have it, and those who wish they did. A poignant and twisted psychological portrait of marriage and statehood, it is a story of delusion, repression, and longing that surprises and subverts until the very final page.
“Absolutely brilliant . . . a modern successor to Frankenstein.” —Ling Ling Huang, award-winning author of Natural Beauty
A darkly funny novel of dangerous choices, and a brilliant study of human nature. When waster, Georges, who still lives with his parents, dies unexpectedly in his bed after a drunken night out, his mother, Charlotte convinces her husband Erik to harvest Georges' sperm. She then convinces their cleaner, Lena, to carry their dead son's child so that she and Erik can have another chance at parenthood (grandparenthood). Cerf describes Charlotte's unravelling through grief brilliantly, as well as Erik's coping mechanisms: his addition to porn and the outfall from that. Lena is in a relationship with Imogene who has her own part to play in this weird scenario. Nobody comes out well, but still Cerf writes character and their internal voices so well that I'm amazed this is a debut.
the claustrophobic atmosphere in augustine cerf’s novel urges readers to set aside any preconceptions they may hold regarding the traditional way in which contemporary fiction addresses themes related to family grief.
after georges' sudden death—a 34-year-old man found dead in his bed after abusing alcohol—his mother, charlotte, begins to develop a somewhat disturbing obsession with using deceased son's sperm to conceive a grandchild through surrogacy. in this case, cerf is able to portray the possessive longing of a mother who is devastated by her loss and, at the same time, a victim of her own grief.
however, i think it would be a mistake to analyze the novel only from an emotional perspective without taking into account its critique of social inequality. personally, i love how the author uses a premise that borders on the absurd to satirize the flaws of family idealism. charlotte’s marriage to erik—an adulterous surgeon with a porn addiction—begins to step into a toxic relationship due to their lack of communication.
as i read, i couldn't help but see charlotte as the archetype of a mother who constantly makes pathetic excuses for her equally pathetic children in order to avoid facing her own mistakes. it was hard to get to the end of the book without wondering if, deep down, the whole story is a cry for help.
for that very reason, i feel like the novel debunks the notion that maternal love is a pure force. cerf demonstrates that once love ceases to recognize the ethical limits, it can become a form of domination as oppressive as any other.
thanks to the publisher and netgalley for the advanced copy!
Thank you NetGalley and Zando/Tin House for the eARC of this!
I deeply enjoyed the writing in this novel while remaining somewhat unimpressed its conclusions. This is a story that lives and dies by the characters: the situation is presented as salacious and, while it is, there were also a lot of elements which lessened the desired impact because they were so stereotypical. We have the aging lothario husband screwing hot chicks to feel young, the awful wife buying antiques to cope with her emotional turmoil, and the chaotic bisexual caught in their web.
The two main thematic threads in this novel relate to motherhood and the truth, and I found the latter to be more compelling since it had more nuance. There are a lot of layers of truth and deceit in this, and even a revelation at the end that was totally awesome with how it fit into yet also shifted the climax.
By contrast, I felt like this book was never sympathetic to Charlotte’s quest to re-experience motherhood. Yes, it’s deranged, but she and her husband are presented as so totally devoid of sympathy or a compelling inner-life that the book elides interesting moral questions. While Lena and her gf Imogen deepen as the story unfolds—they were both interesting, sympathetic, and infuriating—Charlotte and her husband remain static. And that’s just not super interesting to me.
There is something so addictive, so compulsive about this one. I simply could not look away, could not put it down, could not stop thinking about it. Every time I picked it back up, I flew through the pages. It felt consuming in the best, most interesting way.
It's such a darkly funny one, as well. Such an interesting, compelling study on human behaviour, on love and how far it can push us, how suddenly normal even the most insane of things could become, while also shining a light on social inequality. It manages to balance everything so masterfully, making sure the humour of it never takes away from the situation.
The premise is so unique, borderline insane in its absurdity, and it is topped with a cast of questionable characters, who are never justified in their actions, which I truly liked. They all are in the wrong at some point, in some way, but they are never showed in a way that makes you want to sympathize. They are human, they are flawed, and I love that.
Honestly, such a great, surprising novel. I have never read anything quite like it, I loved how gripping it was, there was something about it that felt almost claustrophobic as it kept spiralling into madness.
Many thanks to Zando & NetGalley for the eARC. All opinions are my own.
Compensation was a genuinely riveting read. I knew that the premise gave license for the book to be deeply psychological but Cerf did such an amazing job with the characters. i really enjoyed the writing style and found the phrasing so beautiful. whilst the concept was VERY unhinged i loved every moment and will be back for whatever augustine cerf writes next.
each of the characters was deeply flawed in their own way which made the multiple POVs even more engaging. even though charlotte was INCREDIBLY unlikable i couldn’t help but feel so much sadness for her in the depths of her grief - a mark of incredible character building. it would have been easy to make charlotte appear just unhinged and callous but her grief is painted so vividly by the prose, it really feels like you occupy her mind through every part of the process.
i think this novel does such a great job of exploring the ethics of surrogacy and the privilege that surrounds such a process. at every point i felt like the author was well informed and wanted to do justice to the subject matter.
I loved the premise of this book as a lover of weird little, this seemed right up my alley. It was very slow moving at the beginning and confusing, and I was so excited to read this one I kept trudging along-unfortunately, it never came together in the way I hoped and stayed confusing and boring with choppy writing. The shock factor moments did not prove enough to make me want to push through the plot and even on the last page there were unanswered questions and the only relief I took was from this book being over. Thank you to Net Galley for providing an advanced readers copy. All opinions are my own.
I’m firmly of the belief that you don’t need to agree or root for every character in a book, in fact I think it’s good to read books with characters and stories you dislike. You may even find yourself liking a horrible broad like Charlotte, or a pathetic clown like Erik. However it was a treat to read an anti-surrogacy book just quietly.
This was exciting, fast paced, funny, extremely human and complex. It was truly such a treat. It’s nice to read a book on a first round and feel like you are picking up on all the subtleties, like it was written to scratch your brain just right. This book even made me root for poly people. This felt very new and fresh, I can’t wait to recommend this to everyone and see what Augustine publishes next
First of all I would to say thank you for Zando and NetGalley for this Arc.
First thing that attract me to read this book are the cover and the synopsis. This not something that I normally pickup, my genre is mostly about fantasy, thriller and horror but Im glad i read this book. You need to be more open minded when you read this book, for me as someone who come from Southest Asia, this is a taboo.
Apart from that this book is really interesting, I cannot put this book down. Its really good. There are 3 main POV in here which are Charlotte, Erik and Lena and all of them has a "good" chemistry. I mean messy connection not a healthy relationship.
George is 34 years old who still live with his family, no job, just playing video games and drinking. By standard he is not some one you expect when you hit certain age. Well he died (Not a spoiler).
But as I further reading I realised this issue not only come from his mother but his father as well. Charlotte who Im not sure how to describe her. A narcissist? I mean she is weird, she control her son life. keep saying him to do this and that, she loved him but to the point that destroy her son. If im her son, i will definitely become crazy.
Erik her husband, has chosen a toxic coping mechanism, i mean instead writing he watch porn even bang other woman. The fact that his son died, being unloved by his wife & she also asking for him to extract their son sperm (not a spoiler) in order to "preserve" their dead son legacy is weird.
As I mentioned before this is not something that i will normally choose to read but Im glad that i read this book. This book give me an exposure to different perspectives to the point im asking myself back is this really okay? Is this worth the risk?
Honestly our of all these characters i feel bad about George & Imogen. They deserve better.
Overall the ending is okay, which is unexpected and a little bit rush for me but they got what they deserve.
However as i mention, reading this from Southeast asian lens where surrogacy is in the "gray zone" is a little bit uncomfortable topic but seeing this as one of the "option" to ease a grief is a new perspective.
I would say that this is a provocative read that questions my ethics and boundary of family legacy.
The only con of this book this, i feel some of the paragraph is not needed as it kind repetitive. Others are really good.
Do i recommend this book? Yes. Will i reread this? Yes.
I had to start it and set it down for a hot second until I could come back to it, ready. This is literary fiction with a capital L. The prose felt like a poem. Or poems, since there are three narrators. And the speed at which these narratives are woven together, and their lives are inevitably changed forever, increases gradually until they are all at risk of total annihilation.
The story starts when Charlotte’s 34-year-old son, Georges, dies suddenly and she is left in a black hole of grief. She convinces her husband, Erik, to harvest his son’s sperm in an effort to assuage her suffering — reasoning that bringing his baby to life with a surrogate (their undocumented housekeeper) is the only way to forward. Erik agrees because, well, a multitude of his own reasons, none of which are good or pleasant or noble.
If you love happy stories, with likeable characters, whose dialogue is punctuated with quotation marks: this is not, I repeat, this is not the book for you. Every character is deeply flawed, often unlikable, and filled with insatiable yearning to fulfill their most human needs.
This is a heady, hedonistic offering to the god of grief. A guttural scream, asking for relief from the Earthly suffering these characters are facing.
This book, much like the baby Charlotte envisions will soon be hers, has a heartbeat; a thrumming, crushing pulse that rests its boot on your chest and doesn’t let you go until the very last page, when you’re left gasping and holding your ribcage in relief.
I will be thinking about so many of Cerf’s beautiful, evocative sentences for a long, long time.
Thank you to Netgalley and Tin House for giving me the chance to read this book early.
‘’Her grieving is in her body. He is always in his head.’’( p.62)
At what point does unconditional love stop being an open, fulfilling light and instead become a noose pulled tight around one's neck, strangling all the conditions that actually define what love is?
A wealthy family where nothing is as it initially seems. From the very beginning, their love is toxic, creating a situation where a 34 years old "child" named George never matures into an independent adult, because unconditional love allows him to simply parasitize this fabricated idyll. Live still at parents home, drink and play video games. When this 34years old child dies, all that remains is the outer shell of a family, unconditional love, and an emptiness that can only be filled by replacing him with an identicalized object.
Desperate to maintain this nonexistent love and preserve their imaginary family illusion, the mother deep in grief wants to replay this entire path of love all over again, hiring a financially struggling woman named Lena as a surrogate.
Each parent grieves differently. One seems willing to accept absurd, unethical decisions to achieve their goal by any means necessary, while the other suffers in silence, trying to navigate between this devastating loss and their spouse's absolute madness, struggling in between his own decisions. And then there is Lena, somehow in the epicentre of all this mess, trying to create life on herself.
A dark and controversial book that looks at the pain of family loss in an entirely different light. Is it ever truly possible to experience the exact same life all over again? Can we destroy all to create love once again?
3.7 stars
Thank you to NetGalley for sharing this mystery’s digital reviewer copy with me in exchange for my honest thoughts.
Thank you to NetGalley and the publisher for the ARC in exchange for an honest review!
I have to start with my usual disclaimer: I reserve ⭐⭐⭐⭐⭐ for books that completely change my brain chemistry, so a 4-star rating is still a strong recommendation from me!
Compensation is a dark, unsettling exploration of grief, privilege, obsession, and the stories people tell themselves to justify the unjustifiable. The premise hooked me immediately, but the real strength of this novel is its deeply flawed, morally gray characters 😅
“That’s what they do to cows, pump them full of hormones and force them into a state of constant giving, only they take away the calf, so that the love is poured into nothing, which is what grief is like.”
Watching these characters unravel was equal parts fascinating and horrifying. I especially appreciated that the book didn’t force growth on everyone, some characters evolve, while others remain trapped by their own delusions, and that felt incredibly true to life… 🫠
The ending was a little predictable, but still genuinely satisfying. I also went back and forth on the lack of quotation marks in dialogue, it was occasionally distracting and difficult to follow, but may have been an intentional stylistic choice to immerse the reader more deeply in each narrator’s perspective.
Overall, this didn’t completely floor me, but it was an engaging, thought-provoking read that I’d definitely recommend if you enjoy morally gray characters and psychological dramas!! And the ending gives total queen status 💅🏼👏🏼👑
Lots of good things to say about Augustine Cerf’s compensation! A brilliant & unsettling book that im still mulling over days after I finished it.
The story follows Charlotte and Erik Blom and their housekeeper, Lena. After the sudden death of their adult son, Georges, Charlotte and Erik ask Lena to carry a baby conceived using Georges' sperm, taken at the time of his death. While pretty disturbing (and illegal), the pregnancy provides our three main characters with enticing opportunities. Charlotte uses it as a second chance at motherhood and an escape from her all-consuming grief, while for Erik it's the path of least resistance in a fragile marriage. For Lena, who is grappling with a myriad of challenges due to her lack of documentation, it’s her chance for a real proper go. It's uncomfortable but handled with nuance and wit.
Charlotte was my favourite character to read. She's controlling, elitist, narcissistic, judgemental, and, overall, just pretty frustrating, and yet I still found myself pitying her; was quite conflicted with how I felt about her by the end. I also really enjoyed the contrast between Charlotte and Erik's outwardly conventional marriage and Lena and Imogene's relationship. Charlotte and Erik on paper embody the traditional nuclear family, but Lena and Imogene less ‘traditional’ relationship consistently shows honesty, open communication, and mutual respect.
Despite some heavy themes (concerning grief), it's a quick, engaging read, with short chapters and multiple POVs that keep the story moving.
Overall, I thought Compensation was a really impressive debut, and I'll definitely be picking up whatever Cerf writes next.
The cover obviously gripped me right away! We get introduced to Charlotte, her husband Erik, their son Georges, and their autodidact bisexual housekeeper Lena whose attempts at becoming a citizen have been unsuccessful thus far in this novel about power distribution, inequity, grief, and bizarre family dynamics. The book is told from the perspectives of these characters, except for Georges of course, because he is dead. (This is not a spoiler.)
I like reading unlikeable characters, and tried my hardest to feel empathetic for them, but Charlotte and Erik are selfish, close-minded, and a perfect match for each other. There is humor dispersed throughout the book, but it was most amusing to me that Georges caused so much grief in his wake, given how awful he was. It's mentioned he had a decent singing voice, but other than that, I don't think he had any redeeming qualities. As such, I enjoyed the paragraphs told from Lena's perspective the most. I think Imogene deserved better, as she was constantly "workshopping" (read: rationalizing) her circumstances. But when you think about it, not a single character in this story could demonstrate a healthy relationship. Lena herself, arguably the best of the bunch, is constantly convincing herself she's making "the right choice" when, as Imogen pointed out, was not a choice she should ever have to make.
I was entertained throughout, docking a star only for the semi-rushed ending. I could only hope that what came next would foster greater compassion, better communication, and equity. Thank you for the Advanced Copy, NetGalley!
Compensation begins with a premise so outrageous that my first reaction was: surely I am never going to believe this. And yet, little by little, Augustine Cerf draws you so completely into the psychology of her characters that what initially feels impossible starts to feel disturbingly plausible.
That, for me, is the great achievement of the novel. The situation remains grotesque, morally uncomfortable and at times almost surreal, but Cerf is such an exceptional writer that you stop questioning whether these people would behave this way. You understand how they got there. The absurd becomes believable.
Her characters are complicated, damaged and often deeply unlikeable, but never one-dimensional. Charlotte in particular could so easily have become simply monstrous, yet Cerf writes of her grief and desperation with such psychological precision that I found myself feeling for her even when I was horrified by her choices.
The multiple perspectives make the novel even more compelling, constantly shifting your sympathies and forcing you to reconsider what you thought you understood. Beneath the increasingly unsettling story is also a fascinating exploration of surrogacy, privilege, motherhood, money and the power imbalance created when something so intimate becomes transactional.
Dark, unsettling, intelligent and beautifully written. I started the book thinking the premise was completely unbelievable and finished it convinced by every terrible, grotesque turn. That takes extraordinary skill. I am very eager to read whatever Augustine Cerf writes next.
Thank you to Netgalley and Zando Publishing for the advanced e-copy. I really liked this book, and it ended up being a very fast read for me. The pacing was quick and kept the story moving without feeling rushed, and that made it easy to stay invested the whole way through. The characters really stayed with me, especially because the book gave them enough depth to make their choices and reactions feel meaningful. I also found myself anxious for the main characters right up until the very end, which made the whole reading experience even more gripping. At first, I wasn’t completely sure how I felt about the ending. It felt a little unexpected, and I needed some time to sit with it before deciding whether it worked for me. The more I thought about it, though, the more it made sense for the situation and for the story being told. In the end, I’m glad it finished the way it did, because it felt honest rather than easy. I definitely think all the characters got what they deserved in the end, which made the conclusion feel especially satisfying.
Thank you to NetGalley and the publisher for this ARC.
I love love love the way Augustine writes. It’s like poetry; vivid in imagery, capturing emotion in fits and bursts and random analogies. It is sometimes slow to read, choppy as you meander through the character’s thoughts, but there are points where I thought “this feeling / thing has never been better described”. I love it. It’s great. It’s even better that this is her debut novel.
The characters in this are all horrible, but somehow also shamefully familiar, like the worst parts of yourself characterised. They are what you could become if you didn’t catch or control yourself: narcissistic, selfish, obsessive, over-indulgent, manipulative, cruel, jealous. I might not harvest my dead son for his sperm but the sentiments across Charlotte, Erik and Lena are still possible to empathise with, somehow, unbelievably.
This is a book on the ethics and power dynamics of surrogacy, at its core, but it also covers strong themes of grief, adultery, blackmail and legal identity.
Compensation, the debut novel from Augustine Cerf, is a blisteringly modern tale, full of characters that you can both love and loathe in equal measure - so entirely human on the page - whose actions are revealed through short, sharp chapters that give the emotional arguments at the heart of Compensation the rush of a thriller. I ploughed through this in one sitting, not sure where it was going to end up but thoroughly engrossed in the telling.
Suffering the loss of their adult son, George, his parents Charlotte and Erik deal with their grief in their own self-destructive ways. But there is a new path about to open up to them, which might help them heal in new, different ways. Enter a doctor with news that their dead son's sperm is in storage, if they can just find a surrogate. To say more of where Compensation goes from here would be to spoil its delights; this is a cracker of a debut.
Thank you to the publisher and Netgalley for the ARC.
What a shocking, unique read. We follow the POVs of three characters, alternating between Charlotte, her husband Erik, and their maid, Lena. When Charlotte and Erik’s 34-year-old son Georges unexpectedly dies, we bear witness to an unraveling unparalleled to typical portrayals of mourning. Their reactions to the grief and rage they experience are unfathomable; the chosen language coupled with the direct POVs yields believable characters despite this absurdity in their behavior. Lena’s entwinement in this family begins as standard employment that pivots in a way that forces her to confront her priorities as an undocumented immigrant. A demonstration of how grief devours and blinds, “Compensation” will stun readers until the conclusion’s unforeseen twist.
Hands down one of the most uniquely absurd books I’ve ever read in my life. The premise is nothing that I’ve ever seen and the characters are all positively insane and unapologetic for their offensive and destructive nature and tendencies never having any kind of consequence or confrontation for the wrongs they all do. They totally gave me anxiety lol the whole way through There were some areas like the beginning and a few more portions throughout that were super slow and I felt like I was slogging through it to get to or back to the good parts. Overall this was a brilliant and extraordinarily unique unexpected experience with some genuinely exceptional characters and complexities that were truly creative and WILDLY interesting. Thank you to #Netgalley for this ARC and to #Zando as well as #AugustineZerf and #Compensation for this genuis of a book! Highly recommend.
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While I am extremely grateful for the opportunity to read this book, I ended up DNF-ing it at about 10%. It wasn't because it was poorly written—it just didn't capture my interest enough to keep reading. I originally requested this book because I thought it would be similar to "The Diary of an Oxygen Thief," and it was similar in a way but just not quite. The concept was interesting, but I found myself getting repeatedly confused. Also, I just wasn't connecting with the story or characters the way I'd hoped I would. Since I didn't finish, I won't comment on the overall plot or ending, but I think this could still be a great read for someone who likes books with a lot of rambling or the "what the f*** is going on??" that this book gives.
This is a well-written novel with great character development and beautiful, precise prose. I did get excited by the premise, having read the summary, and I got a little antsy when halfway through the novel there was still no pregnancy. However, I was enjoying the writing and felt connected to the characters so much that I had to keep reading to see what happens. I really enjoyed this one. I am only a little bummed that this is a debut novelist because I finished this book and wanted to immediately read more from the author. I will have to be patient. In the meantime, I think this novel would lend itself to a great reread.
Thanks to NetGalley and the publisher for the ARC!
thank you netgalley for the arc! 😸 man this was a ride... i loved every second lmao i only gave it a half star off bc the pacing lagged a little in some areas but it took OFF around the 50% mark!
such a unique premise for a book and not to mention the cool cover lmao. ive never read a book w this plot before. every single character except imogene stressed me out. erik is probably one of the worst men ive read he is just SO STUPID
i thoroughly enjoyed this! i love a book with a weird plot. explaining this to my husband was hilarious
Thank you to the publishers/NetGalley for this ARC. Unfortunately, I didn’t finish this book. I found this book to be, for lack of a better word, insufferable. I have never read a book structured so oddly. That in itself wasn't an issue- oddities are always a friend to me! But no quotation marks for those speaking was wild to me. It kind of came off like the author was in a state of mania. The same information kept being repeated, and after getting 22% through, I was so bored I couldn't continue.
This was a really interesting read and take on privilege, grief, and the lies we all tell ourselves. It's funny and weird, in a good way. When Charlotte and Erik's son passes away, Charlotte convinces Erik to help preserve his sperm and Lena, their cleaner, agrees to carry to the baby. At its core it's a story about power dynamics and we see this through every relationship in the story.
In a combination of bleak prospects, a deeply splintered marriage and a dead son, hope springs eternal in the insemination of the cleaning lady with the dead son's seed. In a collision of privilege and poverty, one small life could change everything.
This is one of the funniest stories about pregnancy that I've ever read.
I would first like to say this is not a genre I normally read, but after reading the description I couldn't help but request this book. Slightly predictable, but still wildly enjoyable.
Funny with heart, and tightly plotted. Cerf takes the premise and the characters seriously and gives them so much depth. I love how the different chapters are from different character’s perspectives. I loved it!
Thanks to NetGalley and the publisher for the ARC.
this was a good read, but i feel like it took too long to get to the meat of the plot. charlotte was so well-written — i really loved to hate this deluded, narcissistic WASP and her equally clueless, philandering hubby. thank you to netgalley and the publisher for the ARC.