By comedian/podcaster Michael Rainey: This book details how I overcame addiction to alcohol, cocaine, and prescription painkillers. It’s a funny, heartful look at addiction and all the work I put into destroying these seemingly insurmountable chemical beasts.
The book is a funny, enjoyable read and my hope is that it can also serve as a guideline and example for those currently struggling with addiction. If you are one of those people, I love you and I promise you that you can turn your life around.
Drugs in a room. Motel binge opening, hiding from the wife’s calls. Didn’t know he was working on a Comedy Central pilot àt the time for a Delco wigger sitcom (really tying all the books together). Was supposed to be pizza partying with his kids (Epstein era makes that sound worse) to celebrate but he’d been dabbling with coke 20 yrs until this addiction. While writing this retrospective, he’s 8 yrs clean.
Much more serious than his other books. Didn’t know the jonesing was so bad he wasn’t paying rent or utilities while a father. Just assumed it was longer ago. À cop actually gets him in rehab instead of locking him up. County paying 17 days is a blessing even if à weird amount. Áll while his wife gives birth again to à baby with a cleft lip. She gets surgery and he gets clean, but drinks. That of course reopens the floodgates.
Moving in with his in-laws, scoring àt gay bars, throwing parties that end bloody, drunk driving, spontaneously ditching the kids unsupervised for Atlantic City, crack deals, pawning à new iPod for $20, being offered heroin. Insight into an inciting incident that made him wanna fill the void: a pervert aunt.
Memorable lines: “We hung out at the gay piss palace,” “à steady stream of ‘No’s filled my phone,” pinching the coke bag in his pocket to relieve anxiety, “nobody should have to fly with a sweaty moaning man” after he reherniated his back trying to shit on opiates. “I was a freak off a leash,” “phase one of her bitch plan.” Korn posters hiding dry wall punches. Him being a “schlong barber” in the ER, doing “pube fades.” As teens, he and his friends dressed up the fam dog in a mom’s cop uniform—gun included.
The only thing is I wish we heard what crack felt like. Calling percs à melty blanket sounded right. Lots of this book is how you can interpret the 12 steps. Cameos w/ comedian Tim Butterly. Really cool the audiobook has an hour long interview with his wife about her POV during the worst times.