"Next Thursday, wear a skirt, Harriet. Nothing under it. I want to save us the time."Harriet Larson is 22 years old, and her body does not work. Not for boyfriends. Not for tampons. Not for the kind of ordinary life every other girl her age seems to have figured out. When her best friend gives her the name of a quiet specialist who takes the difficult cases, Harriet expects a cold table and a clipboard and a referral. She does not expect Dr. Cox. She does not expect the dim private office, the warm leather chair, the soft amber lamp, the hand that settles on the inside of her thigh on the very first visit and does not move when her pulse climbs.
He starts with one finger. Then a smooth wooden tool with her initials carved into the base. Then a small gold mark painted low on her belly with a fine brush and warm oil, a mark he tells her not to wash off. Every Thursday at four she climbs into his chair. Every Thursday he opens her a little wider, marks her a little deeper, says good girl in the same low voice until the words wear grooves into her skin. She tells herself it is treatment. She tells herself the marks will fade. She tells herself she could stop any week she wanted to. She is wrong about all three. By the time she understands what he is really doing to her, she is already counting the days between Thursdays, already wearing her hair up to show the mark behind her ear, already asking him, in a voice she does not recognize, for the last thing he has not yet given her.