My, my - our protagonist here is insufferable. Always seeing symbolism and deeper meaning in everything. Problem is, we're very similar, so...
"My rebellion was a return to the fold: I was rejoining those who cared." (p.13)
"The cool evening air. The brooding night. A glass of whiskey. And music rising, sweet, intoxicating, voluptuous... a kind of sacrament." (p.21)
"There we are: I was too complicated. The idiot mark of a university career... But isn't simplification sometimes impoverishment? How to convey the richness of the message with a poverty of symbols? If we oversimplify the form, don't we kill the content? If we purify it of life's eddies and agitations, doesn't it become a sensational blurb, no longer true because all the human shades and subtleties have been wrung out of it?" (p.27)
"Nothing exists now but my purpose and my pain. But I feel a frightful need of God. Is this all-pervasive absence a sign of love? It cannot be a simple negation; not possibly. Only that void justifies my purpose, my life. I believe. I continue to believe precisely because He is no longer present to me. His absence is yet a presence. His passion. His power to forgive may yet reveal itself." (p.37)
"You need a Virgin for your salvation and a woman for your manhood." (p.59)