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366 pages, Kindle Edition
First published October 28, 2025
“Their greed slips down their chins like saliva, and their eyes are black pools of lustful want”
“Long may you rot.”Evander does not know much about this world - only that he is sick, weak, and has been confined to his room for most of his life.
It's a lonely existence, further compounded by a distant adoptive grandfather, his disinterested butler, and the only friend Evander had in the world...had also tried to kill him once upon a time.
"Words have always sat like dead moths and dried flowers in his mouth, unheard because no one is ever interested in what he has to say."
AARRRGGG!!!
"He wishes his brain moved in one direction, not a dozen all at the same time, and that he didn’t pull apart in a panic if even one thing goes wrong."





laurie clambers through, everything about him rabid and lean and hungry as he looks at evander. only evander. "hi, rapunzel." this is breathless, his eyes the bright, crystallized blue of the entire summer sky. "they're going to kill me for this."
"i'm not leaving hazelthorn because i'm not leaving you."
"if i help you to the bathroom, i'd need to touch you. is that okay?" the fact that he asks brings such brilliant and violent relief that evander can't hold back the choked sob.
"this is not," he mutters, "what i wanted to be doing with your mouth."
"you should've called for me. if you put my name in your mouth, i will always listen."
"there is nothing else to me but the hollow spaces i've carved out for you. i knew i'd cut myself to pieces on you if we ever had the chance to touch, but i wanted to." his voice unravels, massacred on yearning. "let me ruin myself on you."
all he says, his voice soft and reverent and broken all the way through, is, "god was stronger than me when he made adam and didn't fall in love with him."