'I Am Yours' begins with Amara, debating with herself over the wisdom of inviting an old lover into her life to help her with a work-related project. But as she reminisces, it's clear that Noah isn't just some ex-boyfriend, he is The One. The one who made Amara feel far more than she ever felt before; the one who makes her want to ... run. And run she did. The end of their affair wasn't so much of an end as it was an abrupt and prolonged interruption, because as soon as Amara and Noah reconnect, the result is explosive; and based on their past, it's completely predictable.
But Amara pretends not to have predicted it. She has a buffer, she believes--her 'almost-fiancée' Keith, who is so safe, he doesn't inspire much of anything in Amara other than mild contentment at best, and boredom at worst. Keith is the antidote to her feelings for Noah, and even though she is drawn to Noah with everything in her, Amara holds onto Keith like a lifeline. At first.
There is something about this author's voice that I liked very much. Though she wrote in the first person, which is generally not my preference, in this case, it worked for me. Amara's voice was observant, funny and at times self-delusional. She said things she didn't believe, but wanted to believe and the result was that while you may disapprove of some of her choices, you sympathized with her for making them. And Noah's voice was, by contrast, that of someone who knows precisely what he wants, and that getting it will not be easy. While Amara was determined to lie to herself, he was unflinchingly honest with himself about his feelings for Amara, and about the very real risk to his own heart if he continued to pursue her.
Throughout, the book there were moments of stellar, vivid writing that set it apart from the average, like this when Amara recalls lovemaking with Noah the weekend before their last split:
Then his palm brushed against my hip before he slid in behind me, sealing our skin together. The spoon. The spoon was one of God's greatest gifts for couples in my honest opinion. It spoke of a comfortable intimacy. And when a man nestled his big body behind yours, the hairs on his strong thighs tickling yours, his erection pressed against your bottom, his chest moving in sync with your breathing, there was almost nothing more special than that.
And this when Amara is with Keith in body, but her mind is elsewhere:
While his heavy grunts rang in my ear and his warm breath pelted the side of my face, I imagined a different lover's hands on me, a different lover's length inside me, different lips attached to mine. I rode the waves of Keith's climax, not mine, thinking of Noah.
I think Aja is definitely a writer to watch, and I look forward to reading more of her work as she rolls it out. She knows how to paint pictures with her words, and it doesn't read as overwrought, or trying-too-hard. Easy reading is sometimes hard writing, and reading this book was very easy.
I had only a couple minor challenges: the reason Amara runs from Noah made sense to me, as did her ambivalence about resuming their relationship. But what made a little less sense was what felt like her mother's abrupt about-face on the question of Keith vs. Noah. Likewise, I was a little taken aback by Amara's reaction to Keith's initial show of jealousy. That felt a little like an overreaction, which I wasn't sure was just another moment of Amara lying to herself and feigning outrage to force a rift with Keith, or the author forcing a rift to move the plot forward. In fact, the Keith-related plot twists were the only things that didn't seem as authentic to me as the rest of the book. I didn't need any of that, and found it a little distracting from what was an otherwise very enjoyable experience getting to know Noah and Amara, and to understand their complexities.
Bu other positive for me was that given the relative shortness of the novel, I still managed to get to know and care about the secondary characters, particularly, Amara's and Noah's families. Amara's best friend Cami in particular is ripe for a book of her own. But until that book happens (as I have no doubt it will) I highly recommend this one.