Torture has never been a predilection of mine. Inflicting pain for enjoyment is distasteful. And as a means of extracting information, sometimes the threat of pain is enough.
I love when characters are actually who they say they are. I fear most of the time, authors describe their characters in certain ways but never actually write the characters to be that way. We’re given background information on the character to believe their history and possibly believe they are who they are, but as we’re in the present times, the entire background fades away, as if it was just a description for the character and now an important characteristic. Most of the time, authors just describe their characters as killers, ruthless, intelligent, uncaring, etc., but once we’re in, we’re questioning where these characteristics actually come from and when they’re going to do something. Samantha Downing doesn’t do this.
To enjoy this, you must maintain a certain degree of disbelief, as with most thrillers. There are very small things I noticed that can break the story for anyone who takes the story seriously, which is not something I do when reading this genre. However, I can admit that there will always be small things that make me question the reality of the world, which, again, not the best idea, I know, but not something I can fully avoid. For instance, Lottie's ability to use a fictitious name and not show identification, as well as her ability to pretend to be someone else without having her identity questioned. Also, no one at the police station or department conducted a thorough search for Kelsie, a police officer; Tula basically gave up on the case and hardly acted as a detective; no other police officers or detectives showed up; Lottie's fingerprints. While I understand this isn’t a crime thriller and shouldn’t be taken as one, during my reading journey, I kept laughing at how unrealistic this could really be in the real world. But yes, this isn’t the real world, it’s a totally made up one, and in order for one to enjoy the bizarreness of it, we need to not worry so much about realistic scenarios and points and worry more about how the main character will make her decisions.
With that being said, said issues aren’t so big that they ruined a big part of the story for me. Lottie is an easy-to-root-for character. The concept of this featuring a retired serial killer who was probably not as retired as she thought she was fascinated me from the first moment I heard about it. After seeing many mutuals reading and enjoying this, I had a feeling I would love Lottie. And I was right.
After changing her name and moving out to raise her son away from her past, she spends her time at home or at her church during bingo nights with her friends. Her plans are altered by an unexpected visitor, and it might have been for the best. Lottie never tries to be someone she isn't. She is aware of her past and does not entirely conceal it. Told in first person narration, we are deep into Lottie’s thoughts all the time, allowing us to feel and know everything about her that is necessary. The fact that she has a history of being a serial killer isn't just for show; it actually matters to the story. Lottie may be 75 years old and doesn’t have the same body she did years ago when she made her first kill, but it doesn’t stop her from stopping anyone still digging into her past. And let me just say, it was a damn fun one.
I put down my knife and hold the cane with both hands, flattening myself against the wall outside the study. And I smile.
Norma has reminded me how much fun this used to be.
The writing of Downing is straightforward and uncomplicated. Some may find it repetitive, but I didn't find it to be a problem for me. Because the chapters are short and fairly quick, it is simple to continue reading in a flurry and follow along. Although the story's tone can be repetitive in some places, I found it to be applicable to Lottie once more. Her dark sense of humor adds to her character, changing the tone a bit for serious situations. There’s never really a time when Lottie isn’t thinking about murder, which goes to show how serious Lottie really is.
Lottie is not like any other character I’ve read about. She is neither too mysterious nor too complicated, nor does she attempt to be. She has a lovely dark sense of humor and doesn’t care so much about people’s opinions on her. She’s unreliable, telling side characters one thing and then another, playing with their truths and emotions. As a character, she is easy to root for. Despite thinking she had been retired and this was not something that would follow her around again, her past was never really gone, just a bit invisible to some. However, Downing shows her readers that Lottie is a killer rather than simply stating this to them. We not only learn about the murder of Lottie back then, but we also witness it. In addition, the author does not simply disregard the fact that Lottie is 75 years old and no longer has the body she had in her 40s. We learn about these differences and we see Lottie go through different forms of pain because of this, showcasing a more realistic scene. Regardless, it’s easy to root for Lottie, despite her moral ambiguity. Her methods of reasoning and survival instincts remain significant aspects of her. She is not inexperienced or naive, and she does not make it simple to be defeated. Because of all of this, her character is more interesting because she isn’t just an old woman who is stuck and won't do anything when her life is turned upside down. Lottie is insane despite her age. The author shows her ambitions and morals questionable, which makes for fascinating reading since as readers, we know what she is doing is wrong, but at the same time, we can understand where she is coming from. I loved how Lottie was a character who knew what she was doing was wrong but didn’t stop early on. She kept going until the end.
Some may find issue in how little we see of the side characters, but I didn’t mind this, as the story is about Lottie and her fixing her life again. The story is more fun and captivating than anything else, as we go on and follow Lottie ruthlessly killing and saving herself. I could have appreciated a bit more development on characters like Morgan and Stephanie, but I didn’t pay them much attention as the sole focus of Lottie was enough for me. Other readers may have trouble with this and find them to be underdeveloped, but if you’re like me and mostly just care about the main character, it won’t be an issue.
Reading these types of stories always makes me wonder what the author’s search histories are, since they gotta add in everything about getting rid of bodies and evidence. It’s really interesting how much we can actually learn from these sometimes. I may not have been a fan of My Lovely Wife as much as I wanted, but this was a delightful and really fun read. Not to mention the fact that it broke my one and two star read curse, as I was having nothing but dull reads before this. If you go into this one, as with most thrillers, don’t expect the most realistic of details, but go into it for a 75-year-old grandma who will do anything she needs to to continue having her peace.