I think this book really illustrates how fucked up women can be toward one another, especially when jealousy, resentment, insecurity, and secrets become involved. For me, Camille is at the root of a lot of the issues, but I also feel like she needs to get off her high horse and take accountability for her own actions. If I had a roommate like that, I honestly would want to kick her out too. At the same time, I think the entire trio was built on secrets, lies, and manipulation. Victoria may have hidden things from Reese because she genuinely believed she was protecting her, but I also think there was a part of Victoria that secretly wanted to sabotage Reese. The fact that she knowingly kept the truth about Camille sleeping with Reese’s fiancé from her is especially telling. Even if Victoria convinced herself that she was protecting Reese from being hurt, withholding that information ultimately took away Reese’s ability to make her own decisions.
I also think Victoria almost thrived on seeing Reese as this harmless, innocent butterfly—someone she believed could do no wrong. She almost romanticized Reese’s innocence and put her on this pedestal where Reese was the good, sweet, naive one who needed to be protected. But the second Victoria realizes that Reese has a darker side and is capable of making questionable decisions of her own, her entire perception of her changes. I found that really interesting because it made me question whether Victoria actually loved Reese for who she was or whether she loved the idea of being Reese’s savior. Victoria seemed to have this huge savior complex. She needed to feel like Reese needed her, and once she realized that Reese wasn't as helpless as she had imagined, she started withdrawing. By the end of the book, she practically stops talking to her altogether. To me, that says a lot. It almost feels like Victoria’s role in the friendship depended on Reese being someone she could rescue, guide, or protect. Once Reese showed that she could survive without her, Victoria no longer knew where she fit into the relationship.
And then there’s Camille, who honestly is the type of person I would not want to be around in real life. She was such a joy-sucker to me. Everything became about the hand she was dealt and how unfair life had been to her. And yes, I can understand that she went through things at a young age that shaped her, but at some point you have to take accountability for the person you become. Trauma can explain someone's behavior, but it doesn't excuse everything they do. Camille constantly gave me this “woe is me” energy, and it felt like she used her past almost as a shield from accountability. Instead of dealing with her pain, she seemed to project it onto the people around her.
She also gave me major **Rubí** vibes from the Mexican telenovela. She reminded me of Rubí because of that jealousy toward her best friend and the obsession with proving that she could take what her friend had. Camille envied Reese, and instead of confronting that insecurity, she acted on it by sleeping with Reese’s fiancé. And what makes it worse is that it didn't even feel like it was purely about attraction. It felt like she wanted to prove a point to herself and to Reese that she could have what Reese had. That is what made her actions feel so calculated and cruel to me. She wasn't just betraying her friend; she was trying to knock Reese off the pedestal she had placed her on in her own mind.
And honestly, the whole situation with the baby made me feel like Camille had completely lost touch with reality. Her thinking that she could just keep the baby despite everything that had happened felt incredibly delusional to me. It was like she kept creating this fantasy where she could somehow control the outcome and make everything work in her favor, even when the circumstances were obviously disastrous. She seemed so desperate to hold onto something that would validate her choices that she couldn't see how much damage had already been done.
But I also don't think Reese is completely innocent either. That's what I appreciated about the book. Victoria sees Reese as this innocent butterfly who can do no wrong, but eventually we see that Reese has her own darkness too. She's not simply the helpless victim that everyone assumes she is. Once that side of Reese comes out, the entire dynamic between the three women starts changing. It's almost as if the friendship was built around everyone playing a specific role: Victoria was the savior, Reese was the innocent butterfly, and Camille was the wounded outsider. Once those roles started falling apart, so did the friendship itself.
I think I actually relate to Reese a lot, especially when it comes to being someone who is too nice and naturally wants to see the good in everyone. Sometimes when you're constantly trying to understand why someone behaves the way they do, you start suppressing your own negative feelings toward that person because you feel bad for them. You make excuses for them, you empathize with their circumstances, and eventually you start minimizing the way they hurt you. Reese does this in a lot of ways throughout the book, and I found myself recognizing that tendency in myself.
I've done this before where someone has genuinely wronged me, but instead of allowing myself to simply be angry or acknowledge that what they did was wrong, I start thinking, *What could I have done differently? Could I have prevented this? Maybe if I had said this instead of that, or acted differently, things wouldn't have happened this way.* Somehow, I end up carrying the burden of someone else's actions as if they were my responsibility. And I think that's one of the most emotionally exhausting things about being someone who constantly wants to see the good in people. You can become so focused on understanding someone else's pain that you completely forget that **your own pain deserves to be understood too.**
That's what I connected with in Reese. Being empathetic doesn't mean you have to take responsibility for someone else's choices. Being a good person doesn't mean you have to keep giving people the benefit of the doubt when they're actively hurting you. And sometimes, trying so hard to understand *why* someone hurt you can prevent you from simply acknowledging that they **did** hurt you.
I think that's why Reese's emotional decline throughout the book hit me. She carries so much internally because she's constantly trying to process everyone else's behavior while simultaneously questioning her own. And eventually, that takes an emotional toll. I know what it's like to replay situations in your head and wonder what you could have done differently, even when logically you know another person's actions weren't your fault. You start carrying guilt that doesn't belong to you.
In a weird way, I think that's what made Reese's character more complicated for me. I don't see her as completely innocent, but I understand why she became the way she did. Sometimes when you're constantly swallowing your anger, disappointment, and resentment because you're trying to be understanding, those feelings don't just disappear. They build up. And eventually, that “harmless butterfly” Victoria saw in Reese starts to reveal a darker side not necessarily because Reese was secretly a terrible person, but because there was only so much she could suppress before everything started coming to the surface.
And that's what I think makes all three women so interesting. None of them are completely innocent, but none of them are simply evil either. They are all carrying their own insecurities, wounds, resentments, and distorted perceptions of one another. The problem is that instead of confronting those things honestly, they project them onto each other. Victoria needs to be needed. Camille needs to feel like she hasn't been dealt the worst hand in life. Reese wants to believe there is good in everyone, even when doing so comes at the expense of herself.
I think that's ultimately what happened with all three of them. They had built this friendship around a facade, and eventually the cracks became impossible to ignore. All three women had serious issues that they were either unwilling or unable to confront. Victoria had her savior complex, Camille had her resentment, jealousy, and victim mentality, and Reese had a darker side that she had managed to keep hidden for much of the story. They were all projecting their own ideas onto one another instead of actually seeing each other for who they were.
That's why I think the book does such a good job showing how women can hurt each other in ways that aren't always obvious. Sometimes it isn't outright hatred. It's jealousy, competition, resentment, secrecy, manipulation, and convincing yourself that you're doing something “for her” when you're actually making choices that benefit you too. They thought they were friends, but so much of their relationship was based on assumptions about who the other person was supposed to be.
And I think that's the saddest part. Victoria didn't really see Reese; she saw the innocent butterfly she wanted Reese to be. Camille didn't really see Reese as her friend; she saw someone who had everything she felt she deserved. And Reese, in her attempt to see the best in everyone, sometimes failed to see the reality of the people around her. They were all looking at each other through their own insecurities instead of actually seeing one another.
Every single one of these women had moments where they could have simply been honest, communicated, or taken accountability, but instead they chose secrecy and manipulation. And by the end, the facade was completely gone. The cracks in their friendship were finally exposed, and honestly, I think all three of them were responsible for those cracks in different ways.
My biggest takeaway from the book is that **you can have empathy for someone's circumstances without excusing how they treat you.** You can understand someone's trauma and still hold them accountable. And most importantly, you can acknowledge that someone hurt you without immediately asking yourself what *you* did to deserve it or what *you* could have done to prevent it. Reese's story reminded me how emotionally exhausting it can be when you're constantly carrying everyone else's feelings while neglecting your own.
In the end, I think this book is really about the danger of putting people on pedestals, whether you're idealizing them, saving them, envying them, or constantly making excuses for them. Eventually, the person you've created in your head doesn't match the real person standing in front of you. And when that illusion finally breaks, you have to decide whether you actually know how to love and accept the person for who they are or whether you only loved the version of them that made you feel comfortable.