A young nurse fleeing a toxic past reads a 19th-century journal to a dying John Doe, only to realize the immortal, suffocating romance in its pages isn't just history—it’s a trap, and she is holding the final piece.“Being good at a thing has nothing to do with it. Being able to live with a thing is everything.”
1839. Morgana de la Motte has been bored by every man who has ever tried to own her. When she joins her obsessive father and a young first mate on a secretive expedition deep into the Yucatán, she finds a secret whispered in dead languages. It will bind her to her lover for two hundred years. It will give them the time to live a hundred lives.
It will cost them their autonomy, and their souls.
2053. Olivia knows how to spot a trap—she’s just run from one. Taking refuge in her work as a nurse, she sits at the bedside of a dying man with no name, no family, and no memory. His only possession is a battered 19th-century memoir. He asks her to read it to him.
She does.
But as the journal tracks a braided path across a century of American history—from Savannah shipyards to Manhattan ballrooms to Yellowstone before the tourists—Olivia realizes she is not just reading a history of a suffocating romance. The line between the 19th century and her hospital room is blurring, and the longer she reads, the less certain she becomes about who is lying in the bed in front of her.
And who is about to walk through the door.
A masterful blend of historical mystery and creeping psychological dread, Insensible Loss is for readers who loved the braided, dark unraveling of The Thirteenth Tale, The Invisible Life of Addie LaRue, and the claustrophobic trap of Mexican Gothic.
It is a book about the cost of getting what you want. About the difference between staying and being trapped.
About what we forgive in the people we love, and what we should never have forgiven at all.
Paul Michael Peters is a storyteller with an original voice who thrives at the edge of the human condition, blending humor and darkness with keen insight. His tales navigate the intricate dance between the mundane and the profound, capturing the ephemeral moments that define our lives with passion. His work invites readers into a world where the ordinary becomes extraordinary, exploring life's shadowy corners with narratives that resonate with authenticity and imaginative daring.
Dive into the work of Paul Michael Peters and discover stories that echo the complexities of life: Right Hand of the Resistance, Mist and Moonbeams: Stories from the Great Lakes Edge, Broken Objects, Combustible Punch, The Symmetry of Snowflakes, Insensible Loss, and several beloved short stories like Mr. Memory and Other Stories of Wonder.
Insensible Loss by Paul Michael Peters explores greed, jealousy, and control within the idea of immortality. Viktor Erikson and Morgana de la Motte have found the source of immortality in 1839, and they have lived on and on until the present day of the book, 2053. Now Viktor is dying in hospital, and he asks volunteer Olivia to read from the book he has with him which details his life.
Negative thoughts:
-I always hate the whole “wow, we just met days ago but I’m so into you” especially for a seventeen year old in the nineteenth century. If she got pregnant, she’d be in trouble. DOUBLY so when she explicitly and repeatedly voices in the story how she does not like or want babies.
-Morgana is a monster, so almost from the jump I’m ready for her to just GO or die. Who on Earth sees a dolphin for the first time and wants to eat it or wonders if she’ll have a chance to kill and if she’ll be good at it? It also kind of sucks that she is fervent in pushing for women’s rights, seeking equality for women and finding a better footing in society, and yet she is just a terrible person hurting wantonly just for a bit of pleasure. Like almost cartoonishly evil: she’s enraged at Viktor for funding a hospital and trusts to help people.
-Also Morgana wanted the water to make her immortal because in her current time she needed to be escorted around and was never left alone? What made her think fifty, a hundred years in the future would be different? Stretching back hundreds of years, women have had few rights and progress is slow. What if her rights degraded with time rather than progressed?
-The book could do with more descriptions to break up the dialogue because there are half pages or more where it’s just back and forth dialogue without even a tag. And it’s sometimes stilted: “I will ravish your body until we are both exhausted, and I will find slumber.” Or “What is your trouble?” Olivia’s ex-partner is called “her former”.
-The sex in the book was revolting. Kissing a 16 month old romantically? And the part where there is sex with a child is really fucking gross, man. It’s just gross. And describing them as ideally matched, “the endurance and strength of a young man” he is THIRTEEN and she is FORTY-ONE. “She knew his penetration was the only thing in the world that could make her feel whole.” HE IS THIRTEEN!! Then the description of taking her virginity also made my skin crawl as well as a brief aside of her being ten and with a 39 year old man.
Positive thought:
+The end with Olivia listening to Morgana was SO tense and very well-done. Just the right amount of breathlessness in the scene to be thoroughly engrossing.
+The premise itself was intriguing, and the story kept me hooked to the end. I wish there had been more involvement with the different times they lived through, but their interactions with one another, tied together and mistrustful of each other, worked well.
Recommended for: people who like to read stories with awful protagonists as well as anyone who enjoys reflection on the possibility of immortality. I’d do 2.5 stars.
I received an advance review copy for free from BookSirens, and I am leaving this review voluntarily.
Mr. Peters the author of "Invisible Loss" wanted to examine several human dynamics. The author attempted to deconstruct the myth of the Fountain of Youth and the joys of remaining young. His deconstruction was to debunk the myth of Eternal Youth i.e Dorian Grey. This myth would become a prison and forever trapped as a dark exhausting trap. According to the author, the Fountain of Youth became a prison because being immortal destroyed a cycle of life which destroyed a person's personal freedom. The concept of the Fountain of Youth stripped away one's humanity by creating an illusiothat by cheating death solved the human condition of death. In truth, it traded natural limits of one's humaness for artificial traps.
The author believed true freedom required growth, change, and and ending. He contended by preventing a person to experience these steps one lost the ability to evolve as a person therefore robbing an individual of one's humanity. Now, one lives in a state of repetive existence. Life became meaningless because of the repetition. Ultimately, time lost all value because time had become endless and all urgency one experiences throughout your life was lost. All relationships were erased because all the people you grew up with and knew were dead. One then lived in endless grief which led to isolation.
Mr. Peters chose to employ a braided genre defying gothic narrative. A braided narrative was also known as a multi-strand method of story telling. This meant it was a technique in which multiple distinct story lines were weaved together throughout the book. Furthermore, the story lines merged into a single cohesive ending. The writer utilized this style of writing to increase the crescendo of suspense. The intention of this style was to end each chapter with a cliffhanger in a past time line. The story occurred in two different time periods. This forced the reader to wait through a past time line to discover in the present the answer to the past. Mr. Peters seemed to desire to have the reader to act as a puzzle solver to eventually complete the puzzle. This was a very interactive approach to writing.
The plot of this story followeda circular game of survival and control. The was played out for over more than two centuries. The story unfolded beginning in 1838 and ending 2053. Over the next 200 years, there was an endless loop which eroded the humanity of Morganna de la Motte and Victor Erickson. What began as an alliance between them turned into a toxic poison embittering their lives. Their love for each other turned sour and became a game of leverage, manipulation,and total surveillance.
If it is your desire to read a dark, psychological thriller which exposed the fantasy of eternal youth, you need to read this book. Mr. Peters reveals to his readers how the fountain of youth is not the ultimate but a gothic nightmare. The author has broken down a familar folklore and shows the terrifying consequences of desiring immortality. The book is will satisfy your need to be challenged in solving the puzzle with the pieces given to you by the author.
Thank you so much to BookSirens and the author for the advanced reader copy in exchange for my honest review.
Summary
When nurse Olivia agrees to read a worn nineteenth century journal to a dying John Doe, she expects to offer comfort during his final days. Instead, she becomes immersed in a haunting story that stretches across centuries, revealing an immortal love, dangerous obsession, and a mystery that slowly begins to blur the line between the past and her own reality.
My Review
This was such a unique story, and I honestly have not read anything quite like it before. The way the past and present were woven together kept me curious, and I wanted to see how everything would eventually connect. While I will admit the pacing was very slow for my taste, there was always enough mystery to keep me turning the pages. The atmosphere had a quiet sense of dread that slowly built over time, and I appreciated how the story focused more on psychological tension than constant action.
I also struggled with quite a few of the characters at first. They were difficult to connect with, and there were moments when I found myself frustrated by them. As the story unfolded, though, I started to understand why they were written that way, and one character in particular really grew on me by the end. The emotional themes of love, obsession, and the price people are willing to pay for it were thoughtfully explored and gave the story a lot of depth. While this wasn't a fast paced read, I appreciated how different it felt from anything else I've picked up recently, and I think readers who enjoy slow burning historical mysteries with psychological horror will find a lot to enjoy here.
Would I Recommend?
Yes. If you enjoy slow burn historical fiction blended with psychological horror, mystery, and character driven storytelling, this is worth checking out. Just be prepared for a story that takes its time getting where it's going.
I'm a bit mixed on this one - the story was fast paced, gripping, and kept on moving without much fluff. Peters writes well and it's easy to understand, which as a very busy person, I very much appreciate being able to jump right in and pick up where I left off. Where the mixing was, was that I didn't find myself reaching for this book as much as I would have liked. I think it's just not what I typically read so it was both discovering a new genre and also just a busy time in life that this story didn't seem to call to me as much as I would have liked.
Morgana was a deeply flawed character (on purpose) and I grew from admiring her in the beginning to slowly but surely despising her towards the end, and even more so with the last few pages. Viktor on the other hand, started off incredibly noble and you grew to love him throughout the story and just feeling so bad for him as Morgana kept on doing what she was doing - and the extra twists at the end hurt my heart for him (and others impacted by Morgana's twisty choice).
Overall, I'd recommend this to readers looking for a break in the everyday historical thriller/speculative fiction and who wanted to get under the hood of two very flawed people and go on this journey with them.
I received an advance review copy for free, and I am leaving this review voluntarily.
The strongest thing about this story is the plot twists that come after a rather slow start.
The story seeks to shed light on something fantastic, immortality and the imagined challenges of such an achievement. Other themes highlighted include the place of women in society over the years and how some things have changed while others have remained constant. There is also an element of greed and the dark side of human nature that is destructive.
The one style that stood out for me was historical allusion that introduces characters in history and fuses them into the story, succeeding in grounding it. The style is successful in making the audience actually consider that such a story might be factual.
The main characters struggle with the ethics of what to do when you have the chance to wipe the slate clean and start over, while retaining the knowledge that you have started over and have lived many lives.
The lure in the book is the prolonged suspense.
I was however puzzled by the choice made by one key character at the end of the story but maybe that was the author's plan all along.
I urge you to read and find out.
I received an advance review copy for free and I am leaving this review voluntarily.
This book completely hooked me from the start. I flew through it. With dual timelines, Mesoamerican history, suspense, mystery, romance, and a satisfying ending, it checked nearly every box for me. Morgana was unlikeable from the very beginning and proved herself to be the story’s true antagonist. Viktor’s inner struggle with the choices he made made him compassionate, genuine, and exactly the kind of character I love to root for. Olivia was the perfect companion and caregiver, bringing warmth and heart to the story. The only thing that kept this from being a five-star read for me was the sexual references and encounters involving the characters once they reached puberty. That aspect didn’t sit well with me and pulled me out of an otherwise excellent story. Overall, this was a captivating adventure with memorable characters and a rewarding conclusion.
Thank you to the author and BookSirens for providing me with an ARC. All thoughts and opinions are my own.
The premise of the book is interesting and kept me engaged through the entire time. It takes place over more than 200 years following the two main characters. I wound up disliking the main female character but it didn't take away from the story. There is a third key character as well who makes an interesting choice at the end which really surprised me.
The theme of the book is immortality and the ethics and challenges that go along with it. I also found interesting how the author wove in women and how they fit into society at different times into the story.
Overall a decent book worth the read, with a bit of suspense, the hook for me was wondering how this story would end given the theme of immortality. The only thing I didn't like about this book was the description of the physical relationship between the 2 at certain points (can't see more without giving away parts of the story).
I received an advance review copy for free, and I am leaving this review voluntarily.
I really enjoyed this book! The dual-timeline narration kept me engaged with the story and allowed the parallels of the modern day and historic events to line up well. I also enjoyed the historic tie-ins and very descriptive setting locations. As someone that can usually guess twists in books, this one had a few that were predictable and several that weren't so I was pleasantly surprised. I feel like the writing style also allowed me to really get lost in the story of this book and kept drawing me back in enough that I finished it in two days! The ending wrapped up a bit quickly and I would've enjoyed a bit more exploration of the ending of the modern timeline. If half stars were allowed this would be a 4.5, and a highly recommend! I received an advance review copy for free, and I am leaving this review voluntarily.
Thank you for the ARC, here is an honest review Personal Rating: 3.25/5
Very intriguing concept, was excited to pick up the book From the beginning, was a very engaging read - and very mystical with an edge of eery
Didn't like the portrayal of the FMC by the end though - felt very black and white Felt like so called clever character was bested very easily, not very consistent in portrayal
I hadn't noted the author name in the beginning, but by the end I was sure it was written by a man (if you know what I mean)
A little fantasy, a little thriller, and a whole lot of questionable choices! Since I never read the original version of this book, I can't say for sure what content was added, but I was pretty satisfied with the ending. Viktor was easily my favorite character from start to finish. Morgana, on the other hand… let's just say she wasn't my favorite, and she definitely went on to prove why.
This is definitely a slow-burn story, but once I hit the last 25%, I absolutely devoured it. I do wish the ending had gone a little differently, but overall, it was a fun and enjoyable read.
I received an advance review copy for free, and I am leaving this review voluntarily.
Thank you to Book Sirens and Paul Michael Peters for allowing me to be an advanced reader for the 10th anniversary release of Insensible Loss. I absolutely loved this book! A nurse in 2053 reads a book from the past to a dying patient and starts to realize this book may be more fact than fiction. It gave me The English Patient vibes, which I loved. This book explores the consequences of getting what you think you want. It was engaging, mysterious, and sometimes a bit uncomfortable. It was beautifully written and I look forward to reading more books by this author.
“Insensible Loss” offers an intriguing twist on the age-old quest for the fountain of youth. Paul Michael Peters explores the promises and unintended consequences of extending life in a way that kept me curious about where the story would go next. I ultimately found it to be an imaginative read that raises interesting questions about aging, identity, and what happens when someone faces the possibility of multiple lifetimes. Thank you to the author for providing an ARC; this honest review is my own.
Insensible Loss was far more of everything than I imagined. I do have to say I loved the reference to the ghost ship Mary Celeste, what a good historical tie in.
I enjoyed the writing style, and it was beautiful done. However, I didn’t love the story line, but it was unique. My biggest challenge was Morgana I was not expecting her later years but looking back it makes sense. There are many spoilers I could talk about but I won’t get into those! It was a rather interesting read.
I received an advance review copy for free, and I am leaving this review voluntarily.
Wow! This was a rollercoaster of emotions, and brutal betrayal. I shall be thinking about this story for a while, I fear. There were quite a few problematic , scenarios, that left me feeling icky. The storyline was very intriguing, and kept me turning the page.